Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

Chalked up driveway
It feels like an ocean
Caught me looking sideways
Provoking emotion
Ask what's the commotion
I’m stuck in place
Don't know where I'm going
You say it’s all for my sake
So I still stay here frozen
While this gap keeps on growing

This feeling I’m loving must fall
The holes and blood on the wall
Reminding why we once fell out of love
I’m tired of reads and blocked calls
Reminding me of all my flaws
Try to tell me again what to think of

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

charmer

p. Alaska Sargent, Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perspectives / @azaleabettigole), Aero Pathrose (a.pathrose / @apathrose)
gtr. Julian Schessel (@dwarfwave and @smollbi)
pno. Tristan Valenti (monikrr / @monikrr)
drm. Alaska Sargent, Azalea Bettigole (Shifting Perpsectives / @azaleabettigole)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Alaska-sargent-au-contraire-lyrics

AU CONTRAIRE

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

*on a good day.

written, produced, mixed & mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

am i late
to catch the high tide
i'm afraid that i just missed it
the sea's so inclined to seize peace of mind for the day
it's a crying shame you've never been
yeah, i'm okay
still had a full course on my plate
action was needed
i'll stare at the clock
while my mind keeps a log of the day
and dreams a place i've never lived

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
anymore

well give me a break !
it's not the first mistake i've made with you
i'll gesture towards the trauma
but don't expect me to write my stories of you
what can i say ?
it's far from the first time i've "berated you"
when you stirred up the drama
the sorry you sent
to my messages
it never came through

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault

you're sending messages across the room
i'm sending messages across the sea
i swear its nothing in particular
but the atlantic's just too large for me
i'm sending letters off to someone new
you're leaving messages to get to me
don't think it's anything specifically
but the pacific's far too wide for me

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
i took the train of my hypotheses
thought maybe you won't bother me
you did, i wasn't scared to tell you off
you took a hike to get alone with me
now you'll never get along with me
and i don't give a shit that it's my fault
anymore

anymore

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piano performed by me
art by me

ib: @cutspace

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somewhere sacred

angel eyes (somber ballad)

always feel like i'm late to everything

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+Selfish+

thought i'd be fine by the next day
so what changed in me? (i'll never know!)
"guess you'll find out" they said
well i failed and i won't now

and you should ask your friends
how they feel about this
'cause you just can't tell
even if you wanted to

and it hurts to see
i washed offshore
i don't feel it anymore
and i've fallen a thousand floors

'cause it burns to be
a shapeless soul
can't touch it anymore
can't see it anymore, oh
(i wanna see you find out )

i think i figured me out, now
i don't give a damn and run away
and when it gets too tough (for me!)
i crawl back to safety

and it hurts to see
i washed offshore
i don't feel it anymore
and i've fallen a thousand floors

'cause it burns to be
a shapeless soul
can't touch it anymore
can't see it anymore, oh
(i wanna see you find out)

i wanna see you try
i wanna see you find out
i wanna see you try
i wanna see you find out
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Selfish

del mar county fair 2008 (lillybug cover)

today was a rainy overcast day
the one time the sun came out and shined right in my face was while i was writing this song

i take it as a sign that you all are still here

Year of the ghost

voxkai

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