Name: Merchant Life by VOXTHAERA
Duration: 3 min 13 s
Description: The first of a multi-volume story, VOXPENDIUM: Worlds Unseen is a collection of works similar to my favourite video game and film sound design.

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I ain't whole, but I'm holding it together
Better than yesterday
Beat drops, soft laugh
Call that progress

Used to sleep with my fists clenched
Woke up like I fought myself
Uh, therapist said
That's progress

Didn't feel like help
I water my plants now
I answer some text
I forget slow

But I forget less
I'm not a phoenix
But I rose weird anyway
Ash is still in my hair

But I showed up today
I'm healing
Not cute, but it's mine
Messy little miracle on borrowed time

Stitches show, but I still shine
Don't need to be perfect to claim what's mine
I'm healing
And it ain't always clean

It's dancing with ghosts
In washed out jeans
I laugh more now, like really laugh
From the belly, not the mask

Still freeze up in grocery lines
But I shake it off
Baby steps count when you've crawled that far
No epiphany, no lightning crack

Just one quiet morning
Where I didn't look back
No spotlight, just soft light
Peace don't scream, it whispers right

I'm healing
Still tender, still wild
Still got questions, but I wear that smile
Blood and soil, roots in the grind

I'm not whole, but I'm finally mine
I'm healing
I'm healing
I'm here

I'm still here


Everything I Didn’t Say is a dark pop and emotional pop album exploring the silent struggles we carry beneath the surface. Across 10 deeply personal tracks, it captures the journey through overstimulation, trauma, healing, and acceptance. Blending haunting piano melodies, cinematic synths, minimalist beats, and vulnerable lyricism, this record creates an intimate, raw space for reflection. From the chaotic anxiety of Overstimulated to the soft resilience of Soft Armor and the aching closure of Splinters in Winter, each song reflects a step in the healing process — imperfect, beautiful, and painfully real. Perfect for late-night drives, introspective moments, and anyone piecing themselves back together. If you've ever struggled to say what hurt you most, this album was made for you. Stream, comment your favorite lyric, and share it with someone who needs it. #darkpop #altpop #emotionalpop #traumarecovery #healingmusic #newmusic2025 #voxthaera #independent #artist

Healing

out on Spotify (and everywhere else) 09/05/25
https://open.spotify.com/artist/73TPeF8na0n2sWtAW50nLW

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moment

Midnight Whispers is my third installation in the continuity from the albums  "Everything I Didn't Say" and "Velvet Switchblade". A further introspective into what made us even tick in the first place.

Split-Level Heaven

Fractures

This collection stitches together fragments of a sonic diary: glitch-laced IDM, ambient tape-hiss reveries, and lo-fi instrumental sketches, all pulsing with the quiet ache of existing between analog warmth and digital decay.

This isn’t just music... It’s a mythology of the mundane. Created for fans of late night coding sessions, vaporwave nostalgia, and existential playlists, Hand Eye Mythos is a map of the liminal spaces we inhabit: where wires fray, buffers load, and humanity flickers in the gaps.

Only Miss You

💙 To the Men Who Hide It Well (Mens Mental Health Month)
This song is for you.
For the men who keep smiling when they’re breaking.
For the ones who’ve been told to “man up,” “stay strong,” and “deal with it.”

You don’t have to carry it alone.
You don’t have to stay silent.
You are allowed to feel, to ask for help, to let it show, and still be every bit as strong. 💪🧠

💬 “You weren’t meant to hold the world alone.”
Let this song say what you’ve been holding in.

If this resonates, you may also want to hear “I’m Not OK”, a song written for those who can’t find the words:
🎧 https://soundcloud.com/krazy-krissie/im-not-ok-ritchie-j-patterson

You are not alone.
Not now. Not ever. 💛
#MensMentalHealth #ToTheMenWhoHideItWell #ImNotOK #ItsOkayToNotBeOkay #MentalHealthAwareness #MusicForHealing

****Lyrics****

They said don’t cry, just carry on
Don’t fall apart, be tough, be strong
You learned to smile through broken days
And silence everything you’d say

But pain that’s hidden still weighs down
And no one sees it when you drown

You weren’t meant to hold the world alone
You don’t have to turn to stone
Even warriors break inside
You’re allowed to speak, you’re allowed to cry
I see the weight you never show
And I just want you to know
You're not alone

Forget what’s expected, or what you’ve been told
You don’t have to carry it, heavy and bold
You’re allowed to break, you’re allowed to fall
You’re allowed to need someone, need anyone at all

And needing help is not the same
As giving up or feeling shame

You weren’t meant to hold the world alone
You don’t have to turn to stone
Even warriors break inside
You’re allowed to speak, you’re allowed to cry
I see the weight you never show
And I just want you to know
You're not alone

It’s not weakness to reach, it’s not failure to say
I can’t do this on my own today
Let the silence end, let the mask fall down
There’s strength in asking to be found

You weren’t meant to hold the world alone
You don’t have to turn to stone
Even warriors break inside
You’re allowed to speak, you’re allowed to cry
I see the weight you never show
And I just want you to know
You're not alone

If you're hurting, please speak
You're allowed to need help
You're allowed to ask for it

I’m always ready to listen, to help, but there’s nothing special about me
I’m not the only one who would reach out a hand to someone struggling, man or woman

Because pain doesn’t care what gender you are
And neither does kindness

And if you’re not OK... that’s OK
You will be 💛

💙 To the Men Who Hide It Well "Mens Mental Health Month"

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The first of a multi-volume story, VOXPENDIUM: Worlds Unseen is a collection of works similar to my favourite video game and film sound design. 

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