ive been quiet for so long, longing for someone to take the blame
heartbreaks lookin just the same, when they love to say my name
girly on the bed, girly on my floor, money on my mind
and thats the shi that makes my time, hanging with too many people
faces i dont recongize, faces i cant say are mine, people putting on disguises, like a ball, me and her never danced, never friends
no new friends, isolated from the public, on my own
thats how i stand, giving chances like some answers
but i still have all my questions, where my answers
i meet someone and we talk, yea we call, like whats ur name
whats ur hobby and ur dreams, just so i can twist it out
just so i can use ur secerts, and use them right against u
baby this is not a chat, this is me just listening
thinking where i couldve been, they tell me to chill
kinda hard when its just me, all my thoughts are getting bigger
wheres the nail in my coffin, wheres my coffee in the morning 
i got work, so i got money, i got bills, so i need more
going out with all my peeps, so i need more inside my wallet
and these girls are lining up, need a cut of what i make
need me here and need me there, wtf i need my space
but when im off, just doing me, sometimes i get close inside
and dont know what to do, stressing hard about my life
grandpa died infront of me, he was always working
but providing, thats what makes me wanna grind
have a family, is such a dream, but my options arent the best
i had gave up on a life, but i just want another chance
another chance to see whats great, another chance to risk it all
spin the bottle, of depression, who to blame inside my head
but ik its just me, we make mistakes, lingering over everyone of them
is how i get inside my space, losing all my cells, losing all my brains
need a break from all my pain, but only with this pain
will i see my happiness, will i see my aftermath
will i see my sun again, will it ever shine on me
will i end up,with someone who knows what i want
who knows what i did, to get here in this position to talk
no one baits a eye until you start breaking away
small pit inside of my town, the lowest student who didnt do shi
thats me, no future if i decided to repeat my actions
took a couple of tries, but i manage to figure
that deep down, i suffer inside, because of my quick action
to wanting to settle down with a quick nut bitch
who i didnt see as a two face bitch, hiding her feelings so well
i was trying to decide if my paranoior, is striking again
like my jealosy is showing again, if she sees my insecurties
shell see, its so easy for me to leave you, yea i get attached so simple
but i can pop this off like barbie, switch faces im becoming another one, so many faces and so many mistakes, hard to play match up
even in a room of all my exs, trying to piece togehter the fallin image of me, my mental state going down, i just wanna be home
i just wanna feel like a kid, no not 13 again
just wanna feel like im on top of the world
where problems were fading, just like weed when were smoking
no takes or breaks, the only thing on our mind when were kids
is how i would pass my test,now im focus on other things
that turn my hair into grey, sometimes i just dont feel ok
relationships never last, friendships burn to a crist
and in my last moments, the only thing i can say, was it worth it at all

Another Night(Prod. by MrBeats)

"shoes" off MWAHAHAHA by The Shuriqen x River and MaDmieK 
-something undeniable and equally as infectious 
-A fearless attitude is reflected in the works; each piece possesses raw energy, a visual representation of their overwhelming desire to break free from the norm

#punk #indie #indierock #punkrock
#musheduppunk #mushedup #shuriqen
#alternativerock #psychedelicrock #alternativeindie #grunge #grungemusic #punkpop #rockmusic 

Shoes - The Shuriqen x River x MADmienK.mp3

The pic shows my baby punk guitar. l use it for nearly every track here. It is a 2002 strat, the neck is taken from a supermarket guitar and feels perfect for me, with headstock print: "golden ton". This always brings me to a smile. I really love this guitar. 


kolkhorst 2023

night storm

With this song I tried to capture the spirit of the early 80s when bands like DM released their first records. At that time, three synthesizers and a drum machine were all they had.

The Reborn Spirits

Vuni-IM BACK!

“Young Rock & Standout” Benny The Butcher & Lil Wayne - Big Dog (Freestyle)

BoofBoi- M/L/M (💵+❤️‍🩹+🎵) Prod.Nova Chance

https://www.terriblecalmbeats.com/beat/emastered-jellyin-prog-hd-17391886

Jelly

Rock

Back To My Old Ways (prod. cadence x gosha)

Brand New Day

I am just trying to become a member of the music industry to make an positive impact upon this and/or the next generation. I want people to know they aren't alone.
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