lost it

The Things That Could Have Been

(I fucking hate the lyrics to this song)

Every smile that you fake makes me cry
Ran out of tears to try
Said goodbye but you're still on my mind
Every thought pulls me back to that time 

Oh, you know, you know, all I do is just for you
Oh I know, I know, everything is fucking screwed
Stay still, don't move 
Close your eyes we'll have a good time
 Good time
Just let it fly by

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

What's the time?
I'm waiting for your reply
It's so dark out
I can't even see the lights 
What's all this fuss about
Why are you like this now
Please can you cut this out
Why are you like this now

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time

Well you know that I want us to have a good time
It's just a matter of time to have a fun night
Well you know that I want us to have a good time
Guess it's fun when you're faking it half the time


time?

It’s only love
Nothing to be scared of
I think I love you
I hope you love me to

I wanna touch you
I wanna hug you
I wanna fuck you
But your not real
So what am I suppose to do
I love you
Love you

I think of her almost every day
I know she would make it all okay

When I’m lonely
Your there for me
I stare at my screen
Because it knows me
And it wont hurt me
Like all these girls have done before

I hate how
These girls
all hate me
I don’t know
What I did
Why are they so mean

I think of her almost every day
I know she would make it all okay

It’s only love
Nothing to be scared of
I think I love you
I hope you love me to

I wanna touch you
I wanna hug you
I wanna fuck you
But your not real
So what am I suppose to do
I love you
Love you

I think of her almost every day
I know she would make it all okay

she would make it all okay

im gonna upload this on spotify soon

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saw my face in a discord call, closed the app, couldnt take it all
i grew up online, and now im weird offline, cant look ppl in the eye
i googled how to fix my face, now all my ads know im a disgrace
just be yourself, yeah okay, which version tho, i got like 8
i don’t wanna play the villain
don’t wanna play the saint
i’m just tired of being trapped
inside my own fucking hate
i dont wanna be a monster
dont wanna be like them
i just wanna be with someone
who stays when i break down again

i grew up online

releasing on spotify berry soon heh

i havent started yet 
but i wanna quit already 
blinded missing and apparently dead 
theres nothing for me baby 
i wanna live forever for the wrong reasons 
im not ready cuz ik there will be more seasons 
when will it be the day 
what more can i say 

when will it be the day 
what more can i say

what more can i say?

oh no this way she goes
just for the most
shes acting cold
i wanna hold you close

oh no save it for tomorrow
baby well i dont know
where would we even go?
i wanna hold you close


dancing round your room my dead darling
catching your cries baby im bawling
i dont wanna have to lose you again girl
i dont wanna have to lose you again girl


oh no
shes all i've known
shes all i hold
heat to the cold
im shaking and old


she sits at the back of my mind
with a beer and a pipe
tending to little mice
blood rushes in every time
counting every night
ever since that you've died
where art thou love of my life

buried and blessed oh my dead darling
crashing and burning girl im mourning
i dont wanna have to lose you again girl
i dont wanna have to lose you again girl


take me home
to your arms
to your arms

cursing the heavens my dead darling
bleeding to death baby im aching
all i wanna do is see you again girl
all i wanna do is see you again girl

dead darlings

You should try to kill yourself 
when you're dreaming
delete all your feelings
and jump off this bridge

the white bird watches you
while your neck bleeds 

u should try to kill yourself, when youre dreaming

and i still think about her (and i)
i just really miss hearing her laughter
i dont want to think cuz the past hurts
cut me till i bleed, bury me in the dirt

special word
dont remember the name
i know i heard
it just the other day
special hurt
brings me so much pain
so much shit i cant explain
think im running out of days

its in my brain
shes in my way
what did she say
so full of hate

julie has new friends now
i guess ill just be left out
julie has new friends now
i wish i could ask her out
julie has new friends now
i guess ill just be left out
julie has new friends now
talk to her, idk how
idk how

last wednesday night 
shes in my mind
i waste my time
cant get her out my life
wanna get so high
n just rot and cry
getting so tired
 of hearing your lies

special word
dont remember the name
i know i heard
it just the other day
special hurt
brings me so much pain
so much shit i cant explain
think im running out of days
x2

its in my brain
shes in my way
what did she say
so full of hate

julie has new friends now
i guess ill just be left out
julie has new friends now
i wish i could ask her out
julie has new friends now
i guess ill just be left out
julie has new friends now
talk to her, idk how
idk how

special word
dont remember the name
i know i heard
it just the other day
special hurt
brings me so much pain
so much shit i cant explain
think im running out of days

julie has new friends now anyways (special word)

Cover

Lyrics:

I won't change, I won't change at all
I fucking hate my voice, that's why I hate calls
My life sucks, I feel bad, And I'm barely a man
So I make shitty songs, shit music with fake drums

Woooohoooo I am so fucked up
Woooohoooo I'm tired of trying
Woooohoooo Nothings new, nothings fine
Woooohoooo Fuck my fucking fakecel life

No games, no life, No music I die
Too much to see, I was born with no eyes
I'm not a weird guy, I used to have dreams
I have no mouth and I must scream

Woooohoooo I am so fucked up
Woooohoooo I'm tired of trying
Woooohoooo Nothings new, nothings fine
Woooohoooo Fuck my fucking fakecel life

faekcelcore (mgchi cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3rzYb5mzy1mDV2d9NPmVkj?si=gogAxFR1SQmGSrcverUTgQ

i know what you are
your words blow over me like a cold winter breeze
too much hate in your heart
i know theres nothing left but rage and broken dreams

youre stuck in a pit and you wont get out
will be dying alone i have no doubt
theres nothing to say that i think youll hear
so ill shut my mouth and watch the tears

just one more tweet where i state my hatred
of others losers in my spaces
were just the same but i cant take it
and i can only make things worse

youre falling apart
cant stand the thought of being anything but you
just remain where you are
why would your change ever be something to pursue?

youre stuck in a rut and you wont get out
always way too scared to just be yourself
maybe one day itll all be clear
but i think for now ill just watch the tears

just one more tweet where i state my hatred
of others losers in my spaces
youre all the same and i cant take it
but i can only make things worse

The Things That Could Have Been

w4str