You Said

One Word Left

Where the fuck were you when I broke?
When I begged the sky and choked?
My friends? All gone.
My prayers? All wrong.
My soul?
A tomb dressed up in skin.

I screamed in silence 
You blinked and turned.
I bled in daylight 
You laughed and burned.

My name?
Just ash caught in a storm.
My heart?
Roadkill for the gods you swore were warm.

EXISTENCE IS A LIE, A JOKE, A SCAR!
I’M DROWNING IN A GRAVE, NEVER MADE IT FAR!
TRUST IS A ROPE, WRAPPED TIGHT ’ROUND MY THROAT!
I’D BURN THIS WORLD JUST TO WATCH IT CHOKE!
JUST SO STUPID BULLSHIT, LIFE'S A JOKE!

I gave you all.
You gave me rot.
My family prayed 
But God forgot.

The Devil whispers in lullabies,
And I hum along like it’s all alright.
You said “Stay strong.”
But where were you
When I carved my hate into every wound?

My mirror shows a traitor’s grin 
My own reflection turned me in.

I don’t want to breathe.
I don’t want to be.
I don’t want to feel this corpse in me.

Light is poison.
Love is cruel.
Hope is a loaded fucking tool.

FUCK YOU — for telling me it gets better!
FUCK YOU — for leaving me with letters!
FUCK YOU — GOD, for making me dirt!
AND FUCK ME — FOR BELIEVING IT HURT!

EXISTENCE IS A WOUND THAT NEVER HEALS!
A MASK I WEAR WHILE TIME CONSUMES WHAT’S REAL!
I AM THE FIRE, I AM THE END!
I AM WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU BREAK… AND NEVER MEND.

There is no redemption.
Just silence…
And me.

Existence

Winnipeg composer, retired from the farm, still chasing meaning in melody. My work lives where TV cues meet YouTube soundscapes, with a few albums in between. Built in Mixcraft Pro, fuelled by late-night coffee, stubborn curiosity, and a Stoic’s sense of timing. Also writing on politics, history, and philosophy, because sound isn’t my only instrument.

One Word Left

Wayne Mathison

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