AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

i should've stayed

Inside My Head by Electric Rebel
Release dates: Soundcloud Exclusive 8 July 2025 / Apple & Spotify: 25 July 2025

Written & Produced by Alan Cross
All Rights Reserved
Neurohaven©2025

Inside My Head

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Heaven's Empty and No One's Home were originally a single song, but now they're two songs. How neat.

This one also uses some samples from Picture of Hell, worked well.

No One's Home

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

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Can't escape this digital hell
Something's broken, can't you tell?

I can't help but fall away
Heart pounds harder in the heat of shame
Need to save my soul, break these chains
Find me crawling through the decay

I need you father, need to believe
Too long lost in doubt and deceit
Just a man breaking down, won't retreat
But you won't win, I keep breathing

The algorithm bleeds
When real souls break free
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You took my mind, my time, my soul
Left me with an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Taking control, taking control

Empty promises on glowing screens
Fed me poison through machines
Chasing ghosts and losing sleep
Trading souls for dopamine

Addiction burns like acid rain
Digital chains around my brain
Breaking through the static noise
Learning to trust my voice

The devil can weep
When redemption runs deep
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You stole my peace, you stole my soul
Left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Breaking the mold, breaking the mold

I'll walk to nowhere, breathe real air
Better than your digital snare
Sorry world, I ain't buying
What you're selling while I'm dying

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, you've lost this race
(You've lost this race!)
You had my mind, my time, my soul
But left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
(Rising up!)
Taking control, taking control
(Watch me unfold!)

Find me where the silence calls
I rise from digital decay
This is resurrection day
Resurrection day




Resurrection Day

The hardest, rawest track on the album. Riff-heavy, aggressive, and defiant. A warning: your grip is your downfall.

The Cost of Control

“ALIVE Again” is a high-energy, emotionally charged track that blends electronic pop and dance music with uplifting vocals and dynamic production. The song opens with an atmospheric intro that quickly builds into a pulsing rhythm, setting an anthemic tone. A driving beat and layered synths create a sense of urgency and momentum, while the lyrics center around themes of rebirth, resilience, and rediscovery of self.

The vocalist delivers a passionate performance, with a tone that shifts from introspective to empowered as the song progresses. The chorus is a standout, with a soaring melody that feels both liberating and cathartic—like breaking through emotional barriers to reclaim vitality.

Musically, the track leans on rich textures, tight percussive elements, and a powerful drop that makes it club- and festival-ready. Its emotional intensity and celebratory vibe make it ideal for moments of personal victory or reawakening.

ALIVE Again

The Joy That’s Mine

Anarchy

Hell’s Angels

The core message of "Nature's Delight" is an embrace of change as an intrinsic and transformative force of life. The song reframes loss, endings, and challenges as natural parts of a cycle that fosters growth, renewal, and resilience. It conveys that what may appear as destruction or loss is merely a shift— a seed for new beginnings, akin to nature’s constant evolution. The lyrics encourage letting go of resistance to change, viewing it instead as a vital process that reshapes and strengthens the spirit. The rap verses emphasize thriving amidst transformation, using scars and setbacks as opportunities to redefine oneself. The bridge and outro underscore the cyclical, interconnected nature of existence, where nothing is truly lost, only transformed. Ultimately, the song inspires listeners to accept change as a powerful, life-affirming force, urging them to flow with it rather than fight it, finding strength and hope in the natural rhythm of life’s constant renewal.

Nature’s Delight

So, in the process of trying to homogenize all our songs for our debut album, Fragmentation, we may have made the mistake of fixing a few songs that weren't broken. A huge one was The Tinman. While the album version blended well with the feel of the album, it honestly just never hit home as hard as the original version did. So after some fan feedback, we're releasing the original version. Enjoy!

The TInman (Original)

Winnipeg composer, retired from the farm, still chasing meaning in melody. My work lives where TV cues meet YouTube soundscapes, with a few albums in between. Built in Mixcraft Pro, fuelled by late-night coffee, stubborn curiosity, and a Stoic’s sense of timing. Also writing on politics, history, and philosophy, because sound isn’t my only instrument.

The Joy That’s Mine

Wayne Mathison

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