HOW I NOT SEE THIS? THIS SO HARD 😭🔥

ripped inside yeah
i know that you hurtin
they dont need to know this
they dont even notice
tear me apart and
rip into pieces
it dont even matter
cause i dont even feel shit
i dont even shit
no way to fix it
gave you whatchu want
but you still treat me like shit
these feelings inside yeah
don't know how to contain them
the pain it resides yeah
dont know if i will make it
with you on my mind yeah
dont wanna walk away yet
my anxiety climbs as im
wrapped inside my blanket 
im on go
heart on froze
i dont know
what you want me for
and every night 
i spend think about you
every night i 
spend crying inside my room
and i dont want to think about it too much
i just know that ill never be enough
and i feel so left out
cause i am a let down
and i feel out of place
but its like that every day
think that im goin be okay
wish that it was all okay
think ill pour another drink
wish that it was all a dream

tear me apart (mxsui) [ALL PLATS LINK IN BIO]

Faker (tenoji)

.....🏁
Produced by: @prodsoulsss & @beatsbykrave
cover by me & @forgive

i cant let u go, i just needed time
time to do what i do, caught up in this life
i jus cant let go, whether thats right
i will never know, nah nah, will i ever know, idk
woah
i got sleight of hand, when i count them rubber bands
get out my way, its too much money to make
& the ETH goin up, yea the bitcoin loading in
get it how u get it, in this life of sin

@peplep they looking for my racks, told em check high
i be in the c-c-club yea in Shanghai, hopped out of the SUV
i got drugs, i got money, i got guns on me
u should be forgetting all u see
u dont know nothing.. and if u do ur dead
what did pep do this time, gimme money yea twitch prime
u wont get no feature for free, u gotta spend a dime
n i can steal ur girl any time, yea she gon hit my line

IDK w/ peplep (prod Souls1 x Krave)

wish we never met w/ carna007 (recyclebin)

@sanriorose @winter @tosleep

https://www.instagram.com/b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5b5/

#bliSs
life is cold
n its all the same i know
how we flyin thru that zone
but i still jus feel so slow
i dont know
kno i lost u wit my soul
u broke me when i was whole
u could say it took a toll
ya its true

wana kno how we got this fly
locked to u like zip ties
everytime we link eyes
im so geeked cant even think straight
we all had them sad days
knock it off like ash trays

im like what r we doing tonight
all good kno its a sad life
im all goood im livin right ya
never wana fight ya
kno its my last night ya
watchin from the sky ya
now u kno how i feel ya
its all good we press one button
kno we peel off
no i never felt nothing
break the seal off
never seen all
but we made it realll
just one phone call
and u kno i feel all

#dolly
now u kno how i feel
i used to b right here
i dont even like u ya
im still getting high still
i dont even mind it
i used to b liked i guess
i still havent blocked her yet
i deserve an oscar ya
drugs like a doctor
treat me like im awkward
she think im a monster ya
i think that im awesome ya
ofc she think im awful ya
Best Friends give em what they want
why u think im strong
obvious im not ya

spotify

all the same +dolly (winter+nemui)

boystars ✰ juGGLyfe Worldwide 🌎 @peplep
(prod by @sunrisess & @monaco16)
cover by me

ima keep it real, i cant give a f*ck
she cant figure out, how i got my luck
im w jugglyfe, we gone run it up, x2
u aint w the g*ng, u cant be w us
ima let it out, she wana be around
when i speak the truth, she act like its pro found
she dnt wana hear me, she wana hear it count
hit that boy offline, he cant get online
he askin me why, i jus say goodbye
im on xbox live, like im back in 05
he cant get my life, even if he tried
i was born w this boy, get back
ima live my life, I cant get it back
we got too much, we gone run it up, x2
we got too much, we gone run it up

[@peplep]
jugglyfer n boystar, swerve it like a gokart
im off a addy n sum other shit so far
10 pounds in the back seat, back seat of the taxi
yea u know my money long, hit him like a
hash straight from moracco. no tobacco
big bands cus im back home
was up in stockholm w my bro, yea u know
run through dough, i just spend it as i go

2 Much w/ peplep ✰ (sunrisess & monaco16)

donor w/ wells, blxty, kuru, dolly, mental (emorave)

@1wasterr @litothedon

cus i never meant to go there
u can say it all i don't care
i know for a fact it won't work
100s stacking got the paper X2

i get the paper ur ass gotta work for it
back in 2021 i was euphoric @euphoriaclub
i just gotta give my all gotta work for it
i know for a fact it won't work, i gotta throw it

ima kick my feet back on the east side
i just don't know how to feel right
late night rides with you they just feel right

@psych
do u wana go there do u really wana go there 

s e x on ur chest baby needy
i missed all my rest can u tell me if ur needing
if our love was bleeding would u wana stay
bby im so sorry i couldnt bring u flowers on ur day

if ur crying would u show it dont be so shy
bby im just trying to get with u tounge tied
bottles on my desk they start to stack
if u leave now promise that ull come back

i never meant to go there w/ psych (wasterr x lito)

@pearlblade @x_fujioka

it my birthday! <333 23! now im ballin.. haha, i tweeted that already XD. luv u all!!!!!

mv: https://youtu.be/sFvzmAAyB-o


lyrics: 

i, i guess u didn't kno me well
and that's fine 
I thought u understood how I felt 
but who's blind ?
js do whts easier 4 u 
and if Im selfish, whts the truth?
cause you forgot the things I'd do
and that's fine xp

i tried, sorry how could I think I locked u out 
my promise knows no ending 
ur still safe inside this house <3  
take the truth here, die here, sat on the fence and it fell down 
whts the point in trying when u won't hear me out :( 

i, i guess u didn't kno me well
and that's fine 
I thought u understood how I felt 
but who's blind ?
js do whts easier 4 u 
and if Im selfish, whts the truth?
cause you forgot the things I'd do
and that's fine
×2 

that's fine (pearlblade)

I made the instrumental of this song back in Febuary of 2022, and the original plan was to release it as part of a 3 part ep on halloween. Obviously that did not end up happening, so I decided to just finish it up and drop it as a single on my birthday. I am still planning on creating an ep eventually, but I think I will be going in a bit of a different direction with it. 

cover art by @lostteeth on ig

bandcamp

NEBULA

@sanriorose
@kggn
prod
@1girlpills
@kuraiiii
Art
@tochiko0214 (twit)

dolly + kuru - im finally up tbh (kurai & girlpills)

@1syntheticdrugsclub
@yureiclub
Beats: https://www.youtube.com/c/Waystalker/videos
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@gore-trance

Faker (tenoji)

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