Agape

If They Only Knew

If They Only Knew is a monologue about the battles we face within ourselves. The song aims to remind us that on the surface we show an image of ourselves to the world that does not reflect our true feelings and our purpose. 

Looking in the mirror, we see only a fraction of who we are but if we were able to see beyond the exterior, we find the beauty of our spirit. We are each made of hope and in when facing struggles we often lose sight of who we are. Lost in pain, grief and suffering but what we choose to project outwards towards the world is only skin deep and beneath it lies power, courage and determination. 

  If They Only Knew marries poignantly with our own shared experiences as a band. We face our own struggles with health and It became abundantly clear that we could only see a fraction of the turmoil, a snapshot of the real struggles beyond the cracked exterior.

If They Only Knew

All That Glitters Is Not Gold

All That Glitters Is Not Gold is a song that tries to speak of the wonders and horrors that take place upon our planet. The song was intended as a reminder that if you scratch the surface, everything is not always as it seems. Pull back the veil and peer behind the curtain and you will find the true beauty of humanity. The kindness of human connection, the power of love and the joy of shared experiences.

Living in a world where we face the painful juxtaposition of wealth and poverty in every walk of life, it reminds us - All that we touch does not bring hope, all that we speak does not bring wisdom and All That Glitters Is Not Gold.

This song illuminates the obvious narrative of disparity between us but it invites you to look deeper for the greatness in human kind.

All That Glitters Is Not Gold

The song conveys the profound emotions of loss, hopelessness, and personal surrender in the context of self-abandonment. It’s an inner scream designed to reach others when we feel invisible to a world that never stops spinning for anyone’s pain to be seen, to be shared. It’s the resilience of being, of believing in another morning shine. It’s the reminiscence of traditional Japanese songs of longing, “哀傷歌 (aishōka)”, defined by mourning, contemplation, and faith in better tomorrows. 

Foreseen as a story within a story, Kimiyo bloomed into a multi-layered entity, the album is inspired by the testimonies of the people Foster met in Japan back in 2010. Kimiyo’s main narrative focuses on the journey of a young person who wrote to Foster years after their encounter to share pieces of her journey about how she found a new sense of self after thinking of taking her life upon becoming unwillingly pregnant, but unable to fathom the idea of ending her life or her pregnancy, she became hateful towards the burgeoning existence slowly taking over her body, but found a fulfilling form of hope for her present and future self emerging from feeling the baby starting to move inside of her body.

She then envisioned a life of her own, a purpose she had never imagined being able to find anywhere – especially not within herself – but lost the child following a miscarriage, leaving her empty again, but somehow transformed. She had learned that happiness is a measure of the heart and soul, accepting that purpose is something that grows from within, but, as Foster exposed it, while the tree might too often hide the beautiful density of a forest, there are lights that are simply way too bright to be hidden.

Alex Henry Foster's new project Voyage à la Mer is an artistic multidisciplinary endeavor based on the asymmetry of human emotions. While the project refers to the title of a self-searching poetry and meditative notebook he started writing during a trip to Japan back in 2010, it also symbolizes the fundamental connection that individuals and communities nurture with water, the beginning of time, ritualistic pilgrimages, redemptive processions, purification, the incarnation related to the flow of life, birth and death, the passage to afterlife, transition, and rebirth.

Foster underwent a life-altering cardiac surgery. He spent months recovering, unable to talk, and unsure he would have the ability to sing in the future. Foster writes: “I was in no other position than to either feel sorry for myself or have a prolonged look with myself to figure out who I was beyond the distressing sensation of losing my identity. The introspective clarity brought me right back to Japan, in what had been for me a transformative experience almost 15 years ago, highlighted by the long-forgotten fragments of film, photographs, and people's testimonies I had the privilege of witnessing.” Slowly starting to regain energy, Foster contacted his friend and longtime creative accomplice Ben Lemelin to assist him in writing and creating. With Foster still regaining his voice, the duo invited fellow artist Momoka to be the voice of the first incarnation of the project, titled Kimiyo.

Alex Henry Foster has crafted four different creative entities; the albums Kimiyo and A Measure of Space and Sounds, the film Voyage à la Mer, and the in-public conversations & live musical improvisation affair Of Flashes and Other Currents, all due to be released over the span of 2024.

Nocturnal Candescence

“I Was Not Magnificent" is a song that was born from one of the most challenging and intimate moments in our journey as a band, and it carries with it a deep, personal resonance for all of us. It’s a track that speaks directly to the healing power of music, especially when facing life's most difficult battles. At its heart, the song is about the realisation that music holds a strength far beyond our own—it can heal, uplift, and provide a sense of purpose when everything else feels uncertain.

The song features words spoken by our bass player, Ben Walsh, whose experience with Chronic Kidney Disease has been a defining part of both his life and this album. Diagnosed in 2021, Ben began undergoing dialysis three times a week to keep his body functioning. It’s a gruelling and often exhausting process—physically, emotionally, and mentally. There have been countless moments when Ben, in the midst of his treatments, has turned to music for solace and strength. Music became a lifeline during those times when it felt like his body was betraying him. 

In "I Was Not Magnificent,” we reflect on how music was something larger than ourselves—a force that could provide healing when everything else seemed beyond control. We speak of the moments when music offered us a kind of strength we couldn’t find within ourselves, when it reminded us that there was something bigger than our own pain. The words in the track are raw and reflective, a quiet acknowledgment of how, in the face of illness or struggle, music has a power that transcends the physical. It’s a reminder that, even in our darkest hours, we are connected to something much greater than our individual struggles.

The title, "I Was Not Magnificent," speaks to the vulnerability and humility that come with illness and struggle. Through music, we found a sense of peace, a sense of something beautiful and healing that helped us navigate the hardest moments. The song is not just about music’s power, but about the realisation that sometimes, when we feel the weakest, we can find the most strength through the things that move us.

"I Was Not Magnificent” is a tribute to the power of music to heal, to bring clarity in times of confusion, and to remind us of our own strength when we need it most. It’s a song about vulnerability and strength, about learning to let go of our own limitations and trusting in something bigger to carry us through.

I Was Not Magnificent

Twilight

"Even if I die... I'll make sure to bring you together with me to the pits of hell... father!"

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Final Showdown of a Fallen Family

Sapatha

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If Anything Happens To The Cat - Jessamine

6 - Discobox (Uj Pa Gaz Remix)

L.O.E’s music tries to capture and reflect triumph, victory, heroism, anguish and struggle throughout society. Not as a political stand, but to hold a mirror up to humanity. Weaving speech and video in to live performance to create a cinematic experience of popular culture and a reflection of our times.

If They Only Knew

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