throwaway for “depart for the stars”




and isn’t it bad 
when all of the lights go off in your head 
now i cannot see
in front of me 
and isn’t it sad 
that at 25 you’re stuck in your bed
why arent u out with your all friends?

so what do you want?
you smoke in your room, time to grow up
i promise this is not enough 
to feel alright,
you gotta get up,
say hi to your mum
i promise this is not enough  

i have waited here my dear
for what feels like months
and if you need me in right here 
i’ll hold your hair while you throw up
we had said some hurtful things
you tend to do when you’re drunk 
she spills blood on her wedding ring 
now she can do what she wants 

and isn’t it bad 
when all of the lights start to turn red
we live to cry, we live to beg
and isn’t it sad
that for your whole life
you only do spend 
30% out of your head 

so what do you want? 
you want all the money? you want all the buzz?
these lovely things will turn to dust
and i don’t mind 
but you gotta get up, say hi to your mom
cus happiness is not enough

i literally just said i agree with you

ceres

lil bit of a harder one, hope u enjoy :)

prod: softscars
mastered: tnvr

LYRICS: 

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

Don’t hear you calling out to me
Don’t hear your voice, don’t hear you scream
What’s the point in anything?
What’s the point in anything?
I don’t see the point of talking to you right now
I don’t see a point of even hearing you out
You could make a change but we ain’t on the same page
You could change your face but baby, I don’t care what you say
Can’t stop this game
Can’t end my rage
Can’t break these chains
Can’t shake the shame
You could pull me apart and pick at my brain
Just to find out that we are all insane

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

we are all insane

prod. heyzbee & onidtnom

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest 

honestly, i’m struggling, but i don’t think that’s fair to say 
god i feel so selfish every time i write and the say way 
i’ve been feeling recently, i don’t wanna stay the same
this a cry for help but no one cares, i do this day by day
are you listening to me, every word can you repeat?
god it feels like you’re a liar when you say you’re caring please
it’s all upsetting to me, everything you say is cheap 
you just wanna make me feel better but that’s not what i need 

AVXiD:
i been getting worse
everyday i turn
bb can we take it back a little
back to what we were
let my body purge 
let my systems burn
enter in my heart and sew it up cuz it had start to hurt

split my brain into pieces
u know that i need 
im sick of being
who im not 
somehow seeing
somehow breathing
barely bleeding
let it rot

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down (feat. AVXiD)

iris reimagined (heylog) [p.fantom]

watch it all (prod. wraithontheporch)

Hook:
I got 12 ounces poured up in my sippy cup 
Drunk as fuck and I’m about to fuck the city up 
Fill me up another one could never be enough 
Take that nicotine to my face gimme another puff 
x2

Verse:
I got pain in my heart I got frozen limbs 
I ashamed I’m apart of all poison shit 
Drank too much again and it’s a fuckin Wednesday 
It’s no one’s but mine and I been dealing w these headaches 

I try to think but all I think about is nicotine 
It’s killing me so slowly but steadily 
But I don’t wanna give it up even though I know I should 
No I don’t think I ever could I don’t think I ever would

Hook:
I got 12 ounces poured up in my sippy cup 
Drunk as fuck and I’m about to fuck the city up 
Fill me up another one could never be enough 
Take that nicotine to my face gimme another puff 
x2

Verse:
If I’m bringing a child into this crazy world
I wish they would understand that I was never perfect 
I’m really hoping that I’m gonna be enough for her 
Cause she is gonna be my world even on my worst days 

The days where I walk into a gas station 
And I see a flare and think about that past fragrance 
Peach mango floating to the sky 
Can’t I believe it made it by I got these tears up in my eyes 

Hook:
I got 12 ounces poured up in my sippy cup 
Drunk as fuck and I’m about to fuck the city up 
Fill me up another one could never be enough 
Take that nicotine to my face gimme another puff 
x2

Sippy Cup (prod. 03reiko)

rotted the root {demo} (prod. old book)

produced by scrot!

Lyrics:

you're confusing my brain
you switch up on me but i taught you everything
oh no you lied to me
so i'm gonna watch you bleed
i'll watch you fall to your knees
as you continue begging me please
but i'll sit here with a grin on my face
cuz i like watching dead bodies decay
oh you're so dead to me
why you shaking i can see you're afraid
bloody bones break down on the pavement floor
fuck you i'm walking out the god damn door
you wanna fuck with me
now my eyes are seeing red
i'll watch you fall to your knees
as you continue begging me please
but i'll sit here with a grin on my face
cuz i like watching dead bodies decay
oh you're so dead to me
why you shaking i can see you're afraid

decay (prod. scrot!)

Party girls

Lyrics :

Is this it ? My apocalypse 
How can I take another hit ? 
So very far I’m losing grip 
It feels like this might be it 

But I’ve come so far I admit 
I really don’t want to quit 
After all the stupid shit 
I hope that I can just stay fit 

With my mind and with my wits 
It’s a little to early for me to split 
Still in my head I’m deep in it 
Constant thoughts constant conflict 
With my mind and with my wits 
It’s a little to early for me to split 
Still in my head I’m deep in it 
Constant thoughts constant conflict

Conflict (prod. marla’s dream)

BCP x AL
soundcloud emo rapper
i wish it was 2017
DM for features

watch it all (prod. wraithontheporch)

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