i need sum help (VIDEO IN DESC)

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(chorus 2x)
mama said be honest boy and tell em how you feel 
i fucking lost my best friend and my house thats how i feel 
i feel like the main character and this shit isnt real
feels like im in a movie and im glitching on the reel 
(verse)
i been sailing for a minute boy they better listen up 
ill take my life in a instant just to see my boys go up 
feels like my mind is imprisoned and these bars are welded shut
im the outcome of some tough love no excuse i toughened up
i think my father hates my guts and my mother still on drugs
she fucking left me and my sister for her new man who's a thug 
promised god i wont give up feels like im the chosen one 
promised god i wont give up feels like im the chosen one

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main character (dercept) (all platforms) (music video out now)

Lyrics: 

[Intro]
Ohh
Ever since you left me, my brain has been against me
Wish I could erase all of the memories
If I left the world tonight, would you even miss me?
I'ma turn up missin'

[Verse 1]
I'ma go M.I.A, I'ma turn up missin'
Disappear from everything, now I'm really distant
Born into this system, my brain is like a prison
Wish I could escape it, the darkness in my vision
The demons in my orbit; they take all my light source
Nothing left to fight for, I cry until my eyes sore
Smoke until I'm so high, don't feel like a life form
Egodeath the 3rd time, died again, I'm reborn
They tell me "be happy, just be glad it happened"
But my brain is fuckin' crackin' from chemical reactions
I know that I'm fucked up, the chemicals imbalanced
Probably from the acid, I feel like I'm Alice

[Chorus]
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
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[Interlude]
Ohh
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
It feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me I'ma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

[Verse 2]
I feel like I'm useless more than fucking ever
Ask me when I'm happy, probably fucking never
I don't wanna feel the pain but I'm stuck in memories
Remember all the awful things you would fucking say to me?
Damaged me emotionally, and socially, and physically
Left me all alone to rot in my own misery
Now I'm just a husk of who I once was
Laying on my bed, I know I'm not enough
Drown in my tears and I drown in the smoke
My life is a nightmare, I hope I overdose
I love to get numb, I can't fucking help it
Mama, I'm sorry, I know that I'm selfish
Selfish— Mama, I'm sorry, I know that I'm selfish
Also I'm useless and helpless, my dreams are all fading
I'm living my life like a death wish

Hammy - Stuck In Memories

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yuh yuh
its all comical
like when the cameras rolling go start the carnival
swim w piranhas bro dodging every obstacle
tho i been feeling lonely its not impossible
she told me keep flowing
i might swell keep going
long as i got motion
long as i get notion
trust me i been focused
whip this shit its potent, potent

fuck that other shit im goin in, goin in.

𝓽𝓮𝓮𝓷𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓭𝓻𝓪𝓶𝓪 𝓬𝓵𝓾𝓫 🦈

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know its sad when you look back
and you still got twelve on your ass
everything you did wrong flash back
teal tight jeans w a cool snap back
things id do w my one day if i went back to 2012
prolly link up w the bros and try and smoke a hunnit L's
miss when, music was sad and it all had a story now
they all just wilding posting up on they story
yuh
well i guess that im just a hypocrite
and when you die they gon fuck you bitch
RIP LIL PEEP thats my shit
turn me up bae thats my shit
you know how im rocking bitch
i don't plan on stopping what he started i got mileage
i see hunnits piling
all you need is common sense
10/10 you counterfeit
don't bother me you bothering
i feel dumb acknowledging
blow dope smoke fuck oxygen
im tryna top what my father did
im tryna put a pent house on my wrist
im tryna bnb link w yo bitch, yuh
maybe even yo sista
two glocks twin sistas
get knots and then some
all night we been up i just put two pills in my system
we out on a mission don't mistake my ways for real loveeeeeeeeeeeeee

fm ! - 2012 ## RIP ABBA

I've been up for way too long
While i smoke that shit till i'm fuckin numb
I got way too much that i'm runnin from
I just wanna give up think i've had enough

Wish my brain could heal
But i'm too damn ill
Fuckin wit new drugs
Tryna feel fulfilled
Only want my bitch signed name in my will
So she'll be fine when i end up killed
It feels like
That i'll never ever feel right
Why's it gotta be a hard night
Every single night
Got emotions acting like landmines
It'd be better if i was flatlined
Got so much shame for my past life
And i don't know why i'm even tryna stay alive

I've been up for way too long
While i smoke that shit till i'm fuckin numb
I got way too much that i'm runnin from
I just wanna give up think i've had enough
I've had enough
I've been up for way too long
While i smoke that shit till i'm fuckin numb
I got way too much that i'm runnin from
I just wanna give up think i've had enough

Got so much i gotta prove
And i know you don't approve
I've got nothing left to lose
Can you stop this heart abuse
Girl i'd go so far for you
Cut up both my arms for you
Dont think i can pay my dues
Can we call that shit a truce
Guess my heart still the same
As it was that day
When i was 15 slowly rotting away
So much misery know u see it on my face
Know u see it in my eyes
That i'm not okay

I've been up for way too long
While i smoke that shit till i'm fuckin numb
I got way too much that i'm runnin from
I just wanna give up think i've had enough
Ive been up for way too long
While i smoke that shyi till i'm fuckin numb
I got way too much that i'm runnin from
I just wanna give up think i've had enough

ive had enough (prod. sorrow bringer)

sparks

i am releasing this a day after valentines for a reason. in all previous years i have spent valentines with or wanting another. this year is different, i only want myself. this song is a poem to my inner child, one that did not grow up at the pace of his peers, one that did not grow up easily. one that grew up broken and flawed, confused and scared and falling short of many goals. that kid needs love fr, so thats what this song is. thank you <3
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lyrics

just hold on a lil bit longer
trust me u dont want her
u have a higher purpose then that hoe without a father
i know that u feel worthless see urself as a monster
we dont have to be a burden
but its time for working harder
you know that we deserve it to regain our honor
i know how much ur hurtingn u could call urself a martyr
and ur not a bad person when ur mind start to wander
but ur more than a mistake and ur more than just a monster

i dont really know what made us hate ourself
always felt so out of place since before i was 12
felt like such a disgrace didnt let it go to waste
put that pain towards a cause now its easy to create
because all i really want for us to learn from our mistakes
because someday ill be the boss and we'll deal with all the snakes
all this pain that we've wrought every night that we've fought
this is what we had to go through to get the life that we want 

just hold on a lil bit longer
trust me u dont want her
u have a higher purpose then that hoe without a father
i know that u feel worthless see urself as a monster
we dont have to be a burden
but its time for working harder
you know that we deserve it to regain our honor
i know how much ur hurtingn u could call urself a martyr
and ur not a bad person when ur mind start to wander
but ur more than a mistake and ur more than just a bother

monster (prod. sorrow bringer)

i know its messed up
but i still want ur love
coz i was never enough
had to fake who i was 
have to hide my face
gotta change my name
think i lost myself in these stupid games
now im trapped in hell overwhelmed with pain
coz of enemies that i helped make
if u wanna know how to feel okay
i suggest u go so far away
coz ill make u drown
in the depths of pain
you wont hear a sound
with no escape
should i stick around
should i pass away
fly above the clouds
to outerspace
i come crashing down
to the ground
i shouldve known couldnt figure this out
i shouldve known couldnt figure this out
i shouldve known couldnt figure this out
i know its messed up
but i still want ur love
coz i was never enough
had to fake who i was 
have to hide my face
gotta change my name
think i lost myself in these stupid games
now im trapped in hell overwhelmed with pain
coz of enemies that i helped make
have to hide my face
gotta change my name
think i lost myself in these stupid games
now im trapped in hell overwhelmed with pain
coz of enemies that i helped make

enemies (prod. Alexander Bierk)

prod. @spacedtime

stuck in my room 
just waiting on you
we had good plans
but they all fell through
anxiety inside
I don't know what do
tears in my eyes 
get a call from you

I'll decline it
pain in my chest 
but I'm trying not to mind it
I get hopeless feelings 
ain't no way to fight it 
battles in my brain 
that's why I'm staying quiet

sorry I know I'm hard to reach
I just can't wait till I'm underneath
I'll rest in peace 
my eternal sleep 
all these songs in my head 
and my heart's the beat
so basically this music's me
at the end of the day 
it's all I need
I'm still searching though 
feel so incomplete 
cause of the hole 
she left 
from the knife in me 

at night
I see the reaper follow me 
I got so much weight up on top of me
wanna let it slip 
just lose my grip 
and say fuck it all
I'm over this 

all these fake people 
steady ruin shit 
they'll take what's yours
and try to run with it 
but if you take mine 
you ain't running bitch 
you gonna go insane 
before you manage it
try to figure me out 
you can't handle it 

I take two pills 
now they dissolving quick
Imma damaged kid 
yeah this how I live 
girl I gave you all
that I had to give
but you looked at me 
like I wasn't shit 
and I can't forget
no I can't forget

I'm over it
so over it 
 
stuck in my room 
just waiting on you
we had good plans
but they all fell through
anxiety inside
I don't know what do
tears in my eyes 
get a call from you

I'll decline it
pain in my chest 
but I'm trying not to mind it
I get hopeless feelings 
ain't no way to fight it 
battles in my brain 
that's why I'm staying quiet

that's why I'm staying distant
I keep my distance
I don't belong here 
I feel so different 
it's a sickness
I can't fix it
prayed it would change
but it isn't 

mental prison
it's like I'm locked in
all the memories of us
I wish I lost them 
burn them in a fire 
and just toss them
I'll feel better laying in a coffin

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stuck (prod. spacedtime)

ghostboy out the suburbs and into the gutter
i make music to kill urself too

ive had enough (prod. sorrow bringer)

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