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Lyrics
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It's the infection of all you love
Don't let it take you down or else you're giving up
Just feel the tension like it's in your lungs
And let the oxygen be gone again as the water rises up

And I thought maybe I could be better again
Tearing me down while I'm losing my friend
I'm hitting you up while you left me on read
But I don't need your help when I'm dead in the end
Maybe I could be better again
Smoking too much while I'm losing my head
You're kicking me down while I'm still on the fence
Indecision incisions to this very breath

Counting the seconds at night
If I survive, I'd be the greatest alive
Taking my chances like dice
If I don't roll sixes I won't have my chances to try
Screaming confessions of fright
I'm scared of the future why won't you just give me a sign
How can I tell if she lies?
I couldn't lose her but all I'm getting is snake eyes

I fall apart in the moment
I feel the rift and it's growing
Creating the waves
But I don't know where they're flowing
Rocking the boat and I'm hoping
That I don't sink in the ocean
Shout I'm okay
While in the middle of choking

And I brought it all on myself
I'm telling you I don't need help
And why are you listening
I'm the one withering living a shell
What left do I have to tell
I'm acting vampiric
While writing out lyrics
I ain't seen the sun in a week
While you ask if I'm well

And I'm trapped between my head and DMs
Like D&D it's all just pretend
And sure I can swim
But I've just been thrown in in the deep end
I'm not last to feel this feeling again
But all I see is see my own end
I'm not one to live
But I just keep, keep on dreaming

Maybe I could be better again
Tearing me down while I'm losing my friend
I'm hitting you up while you left me on read
But I don't need your help when I'm dead in the end
Maybe I could be better again
Smoking too much while I'm losing my head
You're kicking me down while I'm still on the fence
Indecision incisions to this very breath

Counting the seconds at night
If I survive, I'd be the greatest alive
Taking my chances like dice
If I don't roll sixes I won't have my chances to try
Screaming confessions of fright
I'm scared of the future why won't you just give me a sign
How can I tell if she lies?
I couldn't lose her but all I'm getting is snake eyes

Snake Eyes

Snake Eyes [Prod. Collins]

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
______________________
teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

Spotify <3

benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

thanks to @deadfishpoland for have saved this Tuesday's song

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you'on really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

[verse(deadfish)]
I don't need you
you never said back anything like "love u"
stop hitting up my phone, nothing's there to stop u
from fucking killing me

When you have said that we are fine
we were looking at the stars
when you've walked past me that first time
I thought that u could shine
and show me where's the light
in my dark and shady life
man that was a mistake
to keep believing that all was fine
keep on trying
now I'm crying

[hook]
I don't need you
you just want to fool me
Don't come back to me
If you don't really want me
I don't feel you
I don't love you anymore
All my feelings now are gone
Stop fuck hitting up my phone girl
x2

i don't need you ft. deadfish [prod. myhzy]

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/gothurted

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/metlast

Lyrics:
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead

I can't count on you
But you can count on me
You know that I'll be here for you
Whenever u need
Break my heart again
Not even the first time
Smoke to heal my pain
Shawty want to face time
You don't want me to leave
But then you disappear
I'm just trying to live
Even without you

I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead

gothurted - ahead

im dead tonight

•𝖗𝖚𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖒 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖘𝖜𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖌𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖒𝖎𝖘𝖘•

[LYRICS]
I don't want to be like this
living in my head like it hurts oh shit
running from the reaper hope his swing gone miss
don't fear the ghost like he don't exist okay
I don't want to be like that
I could never really go back go back
I don't want to hurt your back
carrying my thoughts on your shoulders
gone break you fast 

don't say it 
I know it
old thoughts
controlling
moods swings
keep flowing
bipolar
I'm ghosting

I set fire
to my head
I'm tired
of memories
of liars
and
cold nights
desires
a friendship
didn't have shit
I'm crazy
it's okay
that's 2 sides
of my 1 brain
got 404
to my domain

I don't want to be like this
living in my head like it hurts oh shit
running from the reaper hope his swing gone miss
don't fear the ghost like he don't exist okay
I don't want to be like that
I could never really go back go back
I don't want to hurt your back
carrying my thoughts on your shoulders
gone break you fast 

don't say it 
I know it
old thoughts
controlling
moods swings
keep flowing
bipolar
I'm ghosting

Running From The Reaper [Prod by. metlast]

[+] i just wanna die slow.. see me from the blunt glow
* featuring @nicoteenninyo * prod by @metlast *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/gxxBsbHSbkU

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
see me from the blunt glow
with my blinds closed
burning up the sky oh oh ya

[hook: nicoteen ninyo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

[verse: seejayxo]
try and get me now ya
fucked up off the sound oh
i smoke like a pound ya
so high off the ground oh
you cannot touch me you basic
i roll a blunt then i face it
wonder why they always hatin
i know you know i'ma make it
so just face it,
i won't say shit, i hold back,
i don't know why i'm sad, shit
i forgot my past 
ion think i'm that bad
i want a big truck and a benz
get fucked up wit my friends
out in LA til i'm dead, LA til i'm dead

[hook: nicoteen ninyo + seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, fuck up out my life hoe)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(write my death note, i just want a slit throat)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, see me from the blunt glow)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(with my blinds closed, burning up the sky oh)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

die slow

+ visuals

die slow (feat. nicoteen ninyo) *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC*

ty @alainite for the featuring <3 

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

[verse: alainite]
Yeah every time I do I cry
'Cause I’ve been staying up so late at night and I’m just burning
'Cause I can’t find another way to kill the pain
And I’ve been crawling down this lonely road yeah I been wasted
Just tryna find a place where I can hide my pain

'Cause you’re everything I want and more, oh
Yeah you got me so bored of everybody else I'm sure, oh
That you got me ignored like everybody else I’m sure

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

STREAM

Faking a Smile ft. Alainite [prod. yunny goldz]

[Prod. HXRXKILLER] @hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
I thought she was the one back then
Now i watch everything we said fall
I wish i was everything you wanted
I wish that i could do it all

I dont know who i am at all
Im not special
my backs against the wall
I Cant let go
Cannot feel my heart in this vessel
Spirits tear apart my mental

Ive been feelin numb everyday for like a year straight 
I just want some pain so i can feel before i fade away
Smoke my life away, i dont care imma find my blade
I been getting paid for every drop of blood out of my veins
X2

Out my veins
Cant u say
Anything
Anything
I cant feel
Anything anything

I know its so hard sometimes
I understand what its like
To not know whats really real 
To not know how i should feel

Ive been feelin numb everyday for like a year straight 
I just want some pain so i can feel before i fade away
Smoke my life away, i dont care imma find my blade
I been getting paid for every drop of blood out of my veins
X2

I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING

Music video link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=18cjnRsgHvA

NEVER (ft. Yates XV & Killsadist) [prod. Malloy x Yeezo] *music video in description*

She's My Medicine.
@Blique83

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