been a while but i finally got some new music 

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now im on a flight from boston
bad lil bitch make me move with caution
overthinking got me nauseous
expensive shit all on my garments though
expensive shit all on my garments,
my body wrapped around in diamonds
like this shit a fucking harness, im the hardest
fuck charting im a niche artist
i been staying true to myself regardless
of all these fucking comments
i been living in my head
this shit gone drive me crazy
but im living the life i wanted
feel like i made it

i been throwing fits, no tantrums
bad things she do on camera
now she gone play all innocent
she a freaky lil hoe from atlanta
fell in love with the lights and the glamour
cant believe i seen my life change
she said im acting different
i live my life my own way
now i got designer clothes,
designer hoes,
whatever you name it
been tryna find my flow
and build me a team that gone help me make it
fake bitches tryna rock with the clique im with
cause they fell in love with my fragrance
im stressed,
constant headaches throwing up all on the pavement

@aftrrs
i know im a mess
problems that i thought put to rest
drama, never really asked for the context
thought i really could give my best
effort
didnt really know whats better for me
throw it all away, its whatever to me
numb my pain, whatever will take me (away)
dont save me
i dont wanna talk, dont care if u hate me
give me an answer, not just 'maybe'
where my mind goes, there is no safety
no no way
didnt think you'd treat me that way
who wouldve thought oh all these thoughts im going insane
i wish my heart would just fade

stream everywhere!

garments w/ aftrr (joeboi + typhoon)

pda (kirian , okari)

feat. @reefuh
prod caleblodish babyprod starboy
 
streaming: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xel61/x--os-feat-reefuh

SPOTIFY

x & o's w/ reef

self prod

i missed your call i know i'm sorry i was up late
i know your friends they let you down i know that's frustrating
feel like i'm trapped inside my mind and i'm stuck waiting
all my friends they took they separate paths and now i'm on my own
where were you my love my second half you left and broke my bones
spent my savings on the drugs and now im left out in the cold
i can't find meaning in this body think im better as a ghost

i'm mistaken
i've been waiting
you hurt me and now i'm jaded
complicated
i'm frustrated
i went ghost and now im faded
i know you can't ignore it bothered by my troubled past
you built this bridge to cross it well i built this bridge to last
apparitions in the night my memories stay in a flash
i'm a lost lonely spirit would be better if i passed

all my friends they took they separate paths and now i'm on my own
where were you my love my second half you left and broke my bones
spent my savings on the drugs and now im left out in the cold
i can't find meaning in this body think im better as a ghost

ghost

she jus wanna fuck she told me "highkey"
she like "how u dress so nice? my ex man only wore nike"
"and i love how u treat me right, my ex man was always fighting"
she wanna shoot a movie w me ima have to turn 2 spike lee
push2start the whip, we jus left w no keys
smokin cookie baby smokin cookie og
told me "when i get 2 high i start 2 get anxiety"
told her i dont think shes bought 2 have that problem by me

money come n go, bitches come n go 2
if u go where money go then the money come 2
and if i go where yo bitch go then she gonna cum 2

offa upper n a downer like i'm in a theme park
white hoe on my line said she miss when i make her scream aw
i walk in the party n the party love me aw
6 shots down i cant evn fuckin see ya

high outta my body i put smoke up in the air
got these hoes all on my body but she do not seem 2 care
when i hit it from the back she want me pull back on her hair
issa rich mf zone u cannot be here
on the move, in the sky, it's like every other month
i'm in high demand around the country, they love me a bunch
smokin ice cream cake witta thottie she from russia
and when i see cake i cant help it ima buss it

she jus wanna fuck she told me "highkey"
she like "how u dress so nice? my ex man only wore nike"
"and i love how u treat me right, my ex man was always fighting"
she wanna shoot a movie w me ima have to turn 2 spike lee
push2start the whip, we jus left w no keys
smokin cookie baby smokin cookie og
told me "when i get 2 high i start 2 get anxiety"
told her i dont think shes bought 2 have that problem by me

come n go (prod. shvde)

how tf i bother you? you watchin
i aint doin shit 2 u, i'm in the stu, i'm locked in
said she want me sober, really hate it when i'm nauseous
but when i try being sober my head turn into a moshpit
i can't live inside my head no more
i said i can't live inside my head no more
i don't if i'm alive or if i'm dead no more
i don't if i'm alive or if i'm dead no more

(i don't know if i'm alive or i'm dead
but these drugs r rlly fuckin wit my head
no i think these drugs r actually fixing my head)
bitch u knew me once you dk me now
but you hatin like yk me you dk me now
prolly sit alone and think "i hope he lonely now"
bitch i got bitches up on bitches tryna fuck rn

back up on my bs i'm back up on my shit
i wake up i hit a spliff i hit my bitch then hit yo bitch
and my left wrist shinin lookin like a glow stick
n my side bitch said she rlly need sum mo dick

wish i could say more cant get 2 specific
but this hoe from outta state pussy on pacific
hit my phone like everyday she want me 2 swim in it
never had a problem gettin hoes aint no competition ya

how tf i bother you? you watchin
i aint doin shit 2 u, i'm in the stu, i'm locked in
said she want me sober, really hate it when i'm nauseous
but when i try being sober my head turn into a moshpit
i can't live inside my head no more
i said i can't live inside my head no more
i don't if i'm alive or if i'm dead no more
i don't if i'm alive or if i'm dead no more

alive or dead (prod. shvde)

wishes

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHobHG2OXfE
stream: fordis.lnk.to/wishes

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i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left it in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (so long)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

so i act like i ain't numb and im so strong
and am i a waste of time cause you moved on?
closing both my eyes hope i respawn
left me on my own had to sit and write a new song

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (it's not worth it)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left you in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own
—

song credits:
produced by @prodelxnce and @cymricxo
mastered by @1falc

video credits:

directed by me
co-directed: ricardospdp
creative director: nevefilms
cinematographer: thomas hall
gaffer: zak fenning
steadicam operator: corey milo
steadicam assistant: luc vrhovnik
make up: emily rayner-airey
vhs: zakari hosein
drivers: jarek brdak + paul barbra
editor: nevefilms
colourist: anri adler
graphic design: sblngr
studio: visual line ltd
rental: onestopfilms + haze films ltd
process & scan: on8mil
model: amber sharkey

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wishes

𝕿𝖔 𝖒î𝖓 𝖋𝖗ê𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓, [𝕱𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆]

𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍

𝒊'𝒎 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒏.

𝒊 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

𝒊'𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒋𝒂𝒊𝒍

we snuck in the castle
they throwing a party
smell chlorophyll
they're destroying our garden

my soul was on fire
i took off my garments
tracing your body
it tore me apart and

don’t got no say in this matter
i'm talking
touching your skin
our phalanges they locking

both ran away from the kingdom
they stalking
holding me tight through this
village we walking

so damn bashful
i know sometimes i can be an asshole
but i promise i care
when you didn't know
and when you not sure
girl ima hold this shit down
til i'm twenty four

when the roof caved in
couldn't take it all
it’ll pass swear this motherfucker
heavy tho
can't keep putting my trust
in subliminals
i was boutta open my wrist
fucking pitiful

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

they put us on trial
they talking bout burning
girl it's been a while
this wound is concerning

consulting the king
he don’t want us returning
describing our fate
man this shit so disturbing

they off with my head
yea they tried its not working
i came back to life
i belong in the circus

the duke and the duchess
they mad i'm still breathing
love you i hate you
dont know what I'm feeling

so damn mysterious
girl, i know a lot of times i'm not serious
not a goddamn chance i'm oblivious
yea you know me
heart is frozen
but you warm me
baby hold me?
and now i'm so damn cold
what you told me?
bout that damn teddy bear?
told me hold it
when i start to feel scared
started holding
now my blood runneth over
God im hoping

i'm like damn
how bout you try acting like a man
haven’t heard from Thomas since 07
no i can’t
snuffed his lights out man it
hit me like a ram
head to toe in iron
couldn’t spare a single damn

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

fell down the stairs
girl you snuck in the dungeon
cobblestone steps know it's her
you so clumsy

never thought you’d
ever come back
now we hugging
swear i hear that yellow motherfucker
steady coming

ooo
not that candy lady
or that ice man
not that little penguin
he a nice lad

i mean that lemon muhfucka
inna black suit
get behind me
i won't let no one attack you

im a villain
for the way that i've done you
still pretending that you chilling
till it comes true

am i evil?
im thinking lethal?
i know the good from the bad
all these people

think im crazy
or a user
everyday someone new
call me "abuser"

𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙯𝙮?

𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

𝙖𝙢 𝙞 𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙡?

𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

and i YELL
"i really need you here"
wanna take my heart out my chest?
baby yea
bleeding on my desk
so grotesque
is it fair?
one meal
four walls
girl it feel like i'm in jail

23 hours in this room
i'm in jail
23 years bad mood
i'm in jail
i don't got a name imma number
i'm in jail
i can't catch a full night of slumber
i'm in jail

barely taking showers
man it feel like i'm in jail
i don't got no power
warden knocking on my cell
didn't brush my teeth
man i feel like im in hell
nobody like me
man it feel like im in jail

i can hear brutus
man it feel like im in jail
why the fuck i do it
someone get me outta here
low skin fade
steady pulling out my hair
i'm not getting paid
man it feel like im in jail

(girl tell me what it is what it is what it is)

𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐

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