A song I wrote for my wife.
Josh Alvarez on drums

Rubies

Song about losing faith.

Lyrics:
Gallagher no Galligan 
Gilligan different vowel bitch
It doesn't sound empowering
Fuck you I'll disembowel you
Hollow you out and chow on you
Sauerkraut is your marrow
I'll crack and slurp out that calcium
Like how ya'll livin without it 

Formula for a cannibal
Cannot even be captured,
Canned up he's never captive but
Captivated's his middle name
Playing a game ain't his forte
Aiming his fuckin anger at God 
He's yelling at mangers
Danger it's his business 
So stay out it while he's in it
he's in and out of phases of
Praying up at the layers 
Of outer space hope they take in
What say he
 Faith is seemingly fading 
Patience is paper thin from waiting on prayers
Sick and fuckin tired of wasting his time,
Ain't no way he'll take it if this is all that his fate is
 
I wish that I could say I had someone to stand by me
But after time and again i fall when I try to lean
I know I've got some ink that suggests I'm a devotee
A stark reminder of the time before with mind naive 

I try to pray 'cause I don't hate him i just don't believe 
The way i used to that don't mean i can't stand sight of He
For every face you meet that graces you with selfless deed 
A hundred snakes disguised as saints do lie in wait for thee

I used to pray so hard to get through everything
Always talking to the ceiling thinking It would hit me back
It was only ever me, that was always there for me
So get the fuck away I'd rather burn
I never really thought i could do it alone
But I was, wish I wasn't just talkin to noone
If I'm wrong, then I'd love it but I've made up my mind
That I'm right, it's unfortunate but life is too short
I never really needed you I thought I did (thought I did)
Further than I've ever been from problemless  (problemless)
But God it's good to not obey 
I'm not unworthy anymore
I'd rather be a sinner than a Sunday saint-
With the church sticker on the glass, and a magnum on the hip
A cross around the neck, and a MAGA on the hat bitch


Sunday Saints

A song about wandering through life.
Josh Alvarez on drums
(lyrics)
I'll roam, till my legs go bad
I know, this storm ain't gon' let
Up no, i won't break no sweat
Just go, i'm gonna make this trek

I roam the forest
I don't know where my home is
My soul pleads for just
A little more than this road gives

I'll roam, till my legs go bad
I know, this storm ain't gon' let
Up no, i won't break no sweat
Just go, i'm gonna make this trek
I'll roam, till my legs go bad
I know, this storm ain't gon' let
Up no, i won't break no sweat
Just go, i'm gonna make this trek

My bones seek solace
From the cold of the forest
A fork has opened
In the road before me

I'll roam, till my legs go bad
I know, this storm ain't gon' let
Up no, i won't break no sweat
Just go, i'm gonna make this trek
I'll roam, till my legs go bad
I know, this storm ain't gon' let
Up no, i won't break no sweat
Just go, i'm gonna make this trek

The trees i scratched to find my way back have all faded
The creek I passed and drank from has evaporated
I think I passed that rock before i may be mistaken
I don't know where I am but I know where I've been i'm gonna make it

The Forest (Demo)

Lyrics:
One foot two we march along to
The beat of someone else's drum what else can we do

Always got something to prove
We work to please we turn the cheek expect nothing

It's not hard to see why we end up dead
One bad day when you're close to the edge
Rub some dirt in it and you'll be fine
Bottle up, and toss it out

(x2)
I'm beggin on my knees
Got my fingers intertwined 
I'm prayin for relief 
For a little piece of mind
They push me to the edge
Couple miles past wit's end
Like an old doormat
Footprints tattooed on my chest

One by one
We fall to our knees
So wipe the dirt from off your feet the mat is me

We strain beneath
the weight of the world
We try to grin and bear it as it tears us apart

Then he walked up to the ledge
He stepped right up to his final stead
He thought back to all the things they said
He said fuck it and he leapt

(x3)
I'm beggin on my knees
Got my fingers intertwined 
I'm prayin for relief 
For a little piece of mind
They push me to the edge
Couple miles past wit's end
Like an old doormat
Footprints tattooed on my chest

Doormat

Song about old friends. 
Lyrics:
You see my friends used to be my everything
Now they’re nothin to me
Because I’m nothin to them
And I’m so sick and tired of all their shit
And I’ll probably never talk to a couple again
Even after every thing we’ve been through
Not a call or a text always left me on read
Well i guess the silence then it must be for the best
It was all just a phase, there was nothing to gain

I can’t lie a few days can’t go by without thinkin of times we created inside of my brain
So why for the sake of a high did you take all the paths that you've taken aside from the way
You lied and you flaked on the day my son came tell me why did you change? Because i stayed the same
Do you hate me? You irate or crazy now i feel insane. Tell me why did you change? Why did you 
Change?
Tell me why did you change
Because I stayed the same
Tell me why did you change change

Never had a fight or a reason to sever the ties
So why’d you go out and change your whole life
You had a lot of friends that wished you the best
Guess you didn’t feel the same cuz you got up and left
How the fuck i make amends when you’re gone without a trace
Why is it you think i can wash away your face
Was it all just a phase
Was is all just a game to you
Are you entertained
For you this song was made

I can’t lie a few days can’t go by without thinkin of times we created inside of my brain
So why for the sake of a high did you take all the paths that you've taken aside from the way
You lied and you flaked on the day my son came tell me why did you change? Because i stayed the same
Do you hate me? You irate or crazy now i feel insane. Tell me why did you change? Why did you
Change?
Tell me why did you change
Because I stayed the same
Tell me why did you change change

Now nothing remains
I guess I should’ve gave up a long time ago like everybody else
I thought we were cool i guess that i was wrong
Now I’m nothin to you and you’re nothin to me


Without A Trace

Some things get bad before they get better

Lyrics:
Every time i grab your hand it feels a little bigger
Daily i see new things you do and i see you make new friends
I see you growing
Changing in ways i could not foresee
so soon you make me so proud

You son you bring tears of joy to me when you you display your strength
Near blind your right eye, you turn the other cheek and make the best
You can’t hardly see i know it could never stop you
You’re fearless you’re brave and you’re strong

This is the life that i didn’t really dream but here i am
Everything around me i could never ever give up
I’m not sure what i did to earn this but I’ll keep it going strong
This is our life so far

Back before life consisted of anything important and
Love was an abstract we couldn't even really comprehend
You sat in front with your back to me in our English class
While i sat and messed with your hair

I called you peasant you laugh and say that I'm a weirdo
We saw one another sitting in the hall outside the classroom
Years passed I saw you we stayed awake until the moon went down
Kissed till the sun came back
(Will you be mine?)

A few months go by and your test read two lines
Psyched but we’re frightened we’ll try our best to do this right
OBGYN, excitement and hype we were
19 with child in love
(We can do this)

How bitter the Irony, it was Mother's Day,
and it was the day you found out you weren't gonna be one yet.
The nurse checked the heartbeat, but there was no sound. She looked at us with tears in her eyes and said "this is the part of my job I really don't like"
I guess it just wasn’t our time yet


Now she says she never wanted kids and she’ll be alright 
I see her eyes though they haven’t dried up in a while
Time and again just one line till you gasp and
You walk in the room with a smile
(You're pregnant?)

Every time i grab your hand it feels a little bigger
Daily i see new things you do and i see you make new friends
I see you growing
Changing in ways i could not foresee
so soon you make me so proud

And you son you bring tears of joy to me when you display your strength
Near blind your right eye, you turn the other cheek and make the best
You can’t hardly see I know it could never stop you
You’re fearless you’re brave and you’re strong

This is the life that i didn’t really dream but here i am
Everything around me i could never ever give up
I’m not sure what i did to earn this but I’ll keep it going strong
This is our life so far 


Our Life So Far

Don't be too hard on yourself.

Lyrics:
I just wanna blend in with the crowd find a little common ground but then I gotta go and open my big mouth 

I can turn a grin into a frown, I just need to look around at my vicinity at everyone that's better than me

Comparison is nothing but a thief, it's the undisputed king, of bringing you down to your knees

But what the hell's a king without a crown, don't you let it break you down, you are more than all your doubt 

Here we go again
I feel low again
In over my head
I can't hold this in

Match is burnin skin
Water's reached the rim
Ice is wearin thin
Hangin by a thread

Here we go again
I feel low again
In over my head
I can't hold this in

Match is burnin skin
Water's reached the rim
Ice is wearin thin
Hangin by a thread

I just wanna blend in with the crowd find a little common ground but then I gotta go and open my big mouth 

I can turn a grin into a frown, I just need to look around at my vicinity at everyone that's better than me

Comparison is nothing but a thief, it's the undisputed king, of bringing you down to your knees

But what the hell's a king without a crown, don't you let it break you down, you are more than all your doubt

Skeptic

There's too much senseless violence.

Lyrics:
Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along 

Give it a shot, we don't need to be, hot in the head
Pissed off with all that hate in your heart, give it up, stop actin like a couple of kids
It's pathetic, just brush yourself off and shake hands

Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along

Back it up, do you wanna get shot in the head over somethin that you'll probably forget, in a minute, run it back, work it out like men, do you really wanna end up as another statistic?

Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along

Why's this shit on the news again?
I'm sick of hearing about people losing friends 
A couple brews in and the fuse is lit
Somethin dumb turns into some new shit
A couple more kids just lost their dad
For nothin it was chance that it happened to him
4 missed calls and a couple texts, then a couple knocks, when she goes to check, it's a couple cops and this is what they said
Ma'am sit down your husband is dead
Someone pulled a gun over somethin said 
And the gun went off and through the window
It hit him in the chest, as he sat at a red, he just wrapped up his shift, he was tapping on the dashboard 
Now he's dead and gone it's not fair,
When all is said and done without a care

Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along 

Give it a minute before you open your mouth
Because the first thing in your head it isn't you it's Patricia, take a breath simmer down all this pent up aggression within, this shit ain't worth it you should just breathe again

Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along 

Put yourself in their shoes for a second because you probably know the feeling on the other end, Ain't no question there's a difference between dumb and deliberate just try your best to see it from another perspective 

Can we all just get along
Can we all just get along


ain't worth it (Can we all just get along)

Keep on keeping on
Lyrics:
I got one dollar to my name right now
I spent the last three on a banquet
Got a voicemail box full of agents asking
If I'm ever gonna settle my payment plan (nah)

One dollar to my name
So i tried to make it two with a scratch off game
Now I'm shaking my head with my drink
I could really use another vacation about now

I swear this kind of shit it always happens to me
I crack a stupid joke and end up starting a beef
I cut my finger through a bagel watchin TV
I show off for a friend and end up tearing my knee

I got one dollar to my name right now
I spent the last three on a banquet
Got a voicemail box full of agents asking
If I'm ever gonna settle my payment plan (nah)

One dollar to my name
So i tried to make it two with a scratch off game
Now I'm shaking my head with my drink
I could really use another vacation about now

Why is it so easy to be critical of me
Try to be better but it's harder than it seems
Sigh at the picture on the wall above the sink
Fight my reflection like a cat in disbelief

I pump the brakes and then they lock
I pray for rain until it start
I begged god to win the lotto
Too bad he prefers me poor
Crash my car to smell a rose
I'll beg for change because I'm broke
My engine light is on again
At least I got a fuckin car

I got one dollar to my name right now
I spent the last three on a banquet
Got a voicemail box full of agents asking
If I'm ever gonna settle my payment plan (nah)

One dollar to my name
So i tried to make it two with a scratch off game
Now I'm shaking my head with my drink
I could really use another vacation about now


Banquet

Sore Thumb (demo)

Lyrics:
I
I
I've been stuck in a bend that doesn't end or begin
I've been fuckin clawing the walls of the pit that I'm in

I'm losing hope that I could, ever get the better of this
I tried to pull me up by the straps of my boots but they ripped

I've been feeling low for a little while
I'm trying to breathe slow because I'm sick of crying
Maybe I need dope or a little wine
But then I'd just be low after feeling high

I'll keep it on the low for a little while
I know I'm not alone when I'm feeling like
I'm stuck inside a hole I can't seem to climb
Is there any hope left for me to find

I've been walking on my own
Hood pulled up with the glasses on
Out collecting thoughts of mine
Don't mind me just passing thru

Hands in pockets eyes ahead
Keeping all of my steps in line
Don't need nothing just the wind
Keep to me myself and I

I
I
Seems like I could give my everything over and over again
But it don't make no difference always end up where I began

Sometimes I wonder if somebody's watching as I talk to myself
Well If you are and you couldn't tell man I could use some help


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