prod me

[lyrics]

I'll seek you out and tear you down
I never wanted nothing else I
I tried to control it
but I let it control me
I saw it all in your eyes
all you in your eyes
all in your eyes no
all in your eyes

waiting, waiting, waiting for you
changing slowly I know you might go
I won't hide anymore
I lost the feeling now I'm feeling lost
who do you trust now
why do I feel like I'm the one at fault
don't get involved now, don't get involved

control

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prod. vivienne

its complicated
so close that i could taste it
i cant be contradicting myself
at a time so desperate
i said, "i feel like im losing"
but it was more a suggestion
you can leave me alone
but just dont leave me with questions

you cornered me
in my own head
i still couldnt rattle
the snakes from my bed
no i doubt that you could understand
even if we were in the same position

(a liar, a fraud, a liar, a fraud)
a liar, a fraud
im everything he's not
"he's getting everything he wants
and its not coming at a cost"
except it is
there's one thing
he knows he don't deserve
'cause he's wasting away
while she's dressed up so perfect
i know, i know, i know, i know, i know, i know, oh i

dont tell me you get it now
cause
there aint no going back
i cant strain it over
i might js have a heart attack
im so done blowing smoke
cause i cant face the truth
and at the end of it all
i just will never love you

(i just will never love you, i just can never love you, i just cant ever love you, i just cant ever love-)

you can hate me
and blame me
just say its all my fault
it wouldve come to this end anyway
no you dont gotta talk
i know im abusive
its putrid
i do it all too well
im in love with being sick
because i cannot love myself, no

no i cannot love myself
spending hours in my room
my eyes are bleeding from this hell
im a liar and fraud
im not the man you claim i am
i dont know, im too distraught
can you not see me where i stand?
im not begging you for mercy
im just begging you to look
can you not see what you have done?
do you not see all that you've took?
i am holding out my hands
they are calloused, soaked in wounds
how can i carry this weight, when i cannot carry you?

its too late for me to change a thing
i spent years locked down
i wasted away my teens
cause im getting older
each nights getting colder
feel the frost reaching down
it'll all be right over
soon
and im scared
i hate to be here
i dont wanna go
bury me in the snow
its a bird eye's view
not the best, it'll do
from the tip of gravestone
ill still call out to you
and the bells are ringing
my backs against the ceiling
ill still call out to you
like i know you always wanted me to

like i know you always wanted me to
like i know you always wanted me to
hold still, its a bird's eye view
hold still, its a bird's eye view

bird's eye view

produced by nvrmindreid
everything else by me
love ya

lyrics:

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

i place my cards down face up
scour my room for a quick buck
spend all that dollars that i had
on something that gon make me feel sum
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do something
say you're bothered by the past
so won't you go ahead and do some-
i wrap my arms round my waist
how many days will it take
i look at you in the face
and tell a lie what a waste
i feel the weight of my body
i'm too ashamed to look up
exhale the smoke in my lungs
and forget where i came from

have you took a look at the news baby
you're even prettier now baby
spinning in my head all around baby
and i can't seem to get you out baby

i've barely broke in my boots
the ones i got when you were aloof
have you took a look at the news?
i've hardly kept it together
hide both my arms in my sweater
i told my brothers i wan do something new
but i just end up doing shit like before
i broke my hands off just to build a new roof
and for a moment i thought i saw shore

breaking in

prod me
[lyrics]

Ill dive in
When i see you walking towards me
When i see you walking towards
Me
I saw the worst
It made me bitter
It made me bitter
Yeah

It's been so long
Since I've seen you
Since i’ve seen you
Our time is elapsing
So fast
I'm trying to hold back
I’m losing its all bad
There’s so much and I

Ill dive in
When i see you walking towards me
When i see you walking towards
Me
I saw the worst
It made me bitter
It made me bitter
Yeah

Mercy

bitter

Entry five: regrets

ill pay whoever drops a bass cover of this first :)

lyrics:
so u could get around 
but it’s been going south 
and i know a better way 
said u got a drought 
so i led u to the well 
and u doubted it to my face 

and i couldn’t tell u what i’m thinking 
there’s to many answers wrong 
i’m not finna lie, u know i been drinking 
the sun aint gna make me stop 

and she’s too nice to me 
you’re getting on my good half 
i can’t stand the way i feel so good around you

but it’s said and done
u went in a hole now 
so what’s the point in crawling out of it 
it’s getting easier and easier to live
but still it persists 
so what do u miss 
it’s only a kiss 
but u just wanna quit before u know what it is 
falling in the abyss
crawling back in the pit
i’m hoping u stick around 
i hope u listen to this

i know my love is a fist 

eyes open real wide
but not as wide as my arms
i hope u realize 
i wanna miss ur bite mark

and i wish i could hit you
i’m not strong enough for that so i’ll js cry
ball it up in a tissue
bitch i’m going with u
but i need an answer now

when u say it’s not my fault 
it’s too hard to believe it 
i can’t get enough 
i’m an addict for it 
tears me into pieces (i know)
swallowing nails and spitting out screws 
it only entails what i know 
living in hell feeling swell around u
but i been waiting for u, what do i know

she’s so mean to me
she’s getting on my good half 
i can’t stand the way i feel so good around u
and it’s already over 

but it’s said and done
u went in a hole now
so what’s the point in crawling out of it?
it’s getting easier and easier to live
and still it persists 
so what do u miss 
it’s only a kiss 
but u just wanna quit b4 u know what it is
falling in the abyss
crawling back in ur pit
i’m hoping u stick around 
ik my love is a fist

El Fisto

body prod me (2024 demo)

prod me
[lyrics]

and i'm turning into
someone you knew
and i guess if it's meant to be
i'll see you again
i'll be someone else
living someone else's life
cuz it doesn't feel like mine
when you i think about it

when you think about it
when you think about it

ohh
i know i'm running out
and i want answers, 
but i'll run around the question
and did i mention it's too much
i'm getting out of touch
I don't want what you don't want
don't go too far

and i'm turning into
someone you knew
and i guess if it's meant to be
i'll see you again
i'll be someone else
living someone else's life
cuz it doesn't feel like mine
when you i think about it

when you think about it

prod. wyfy

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anytime i say it now
it never really reaches out
ill try my best to say it loud
i just really hope you're proud
anytime i say it now
it never really reaches out
ill try my best to say it loud
i just really hope you're proud

(one, two, three aaaand)

(anytime i say it now)
(it never really reaches out)
(ill try my best to say it loud)
(i just really hope you're proud)
(anytime i say it now)
(it never really reaches out)
(ill try my best to say it loud)
(i just really hope you're proud)

im choking up cause the dust hasn't settled
caught time in a picture
but the frames made from metal
so cold to the touch
and its all taped together
someones not ready to let
go of it yet
(go of it yet)
(go of it yet)

i've been torn and attached
im scared you'll attack
when i open up
its just way too much
i cant put that pressure
on someone who matters
i dont wanna listen like i always do

don't you ever feel the urge?
or the shame?
its buried so far beneath
i can barely make it work
it leaves a pain
shoots out my hand and runs down my cheek
and im trying my best
oh, can't you see?
i'm not asking for much
are you proud of me?

oh are you proud?
oh, oh, are you proud of me?
oh, oh, are you proud of me?
of what i've done?
of what i've tried to build?
i know its not much
but its a start
please don't let me feel
like i aint
worth it at all
i am doing my best
trying to break my fall
im keeping both legs stood on the floor
even when it feels like i cant take it no more

i cant take it no more
take it no more
i cant take it no more

proud

prod quip
guitars by Francesco Gaudio
cover by wsdsgn

w/ great power

(hook)
ion wanna shoot for the stars
id much rather stay right here on earth
baby tryna poke me and prod
ain't a rock or a stone that she'll leave unturned
tryna get my ducks in a row 
arrow nucked in a bow
tryna leave a mark
feelin like im stuck if i stay
so it's up and away
tryna leave this turf  

(verse)
baby you got somewhere to be?
i got something to say but im pleading the fifth
ion rlly fuck with the tree but she finding a way
cuz we bleeding a fifth 
ion rlly know why she stay cuz the ocean
is teaming with plenty of fish
she send me her fit of the day
when she swing by my place 
she up out of that shit 

ain't nobody prod-ing me
no one pulling strings or designing me 
aye
i'll get on top for free
fuck an algo 
ain't no one botting me
aye
this ain't a product 
this is some shit that im tryna be proud of
don't fuck with louis or gucci or prada 
i'm bumping shit in my daily driver 

Verse 2:

Baby could we take it back to where we started 
Ion want you to feel like it's all your fault yeah
You know I'm a back breaker 
Work so hard 
Tunnel vision I keep it pushing to hit my target 

You know I been tryin 
For so long 
So much on my mind
I ain't gonna slow up baby 

You know I been dying 
To show love 
Pushing thru the pains
I been tryna grow up for you


I think I cracked the code
Putting in work 
You would never know 
Keepin it pushing 
Let's set the tone 
Baby you perfect 
From head to toe 
Had to let you know

Breathing in chemicals 
Keeping my shit at 10 and 2 
Don't know where this shits headed to
Can't waste time looking for what's in the sky
That's why i

Noise

Jeremy James Whitaker