This is a song about having to put on your "big boy pants", or, in other words, becoming an adult. It's just a "metaphor". It's some of that sweet disco with a beat switch at around 1:54.

Big Boy Pants

This is a song about what underlies the life you present to the world. Is the character you play while at school, work or in public the same one when no one is around? To find out who you really are, you must let go of what other people tell you you are and find out for yourself. Then you can come back into society after having successfully integrated your shadow self. 

Whatever that means. Thanks for listening!

After Five

im gonna hunger

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LYRICS: 

I can’t count,
Not the amount,
But,
Every time I let myself down,

Just a number in the crowd,
Another day I haven’t found,
Time is money,
Imma need discount,

We have the way out,
Don’t make a sound,
Bring it back,
We’ll tell you what it’s all about, just,

Take us to your leader,
We’d love to meet her,
—————————————

We follow,
We’re watchin,
This,
Is what you wanted,

And you finally,
Got it,
Happiness,
You bought it

But the zeros,
Won’t solve them,
Problems,
What do we know?

And you tell us,
To stop it,
But this,
Is what you wanted,
—————————————

Tell us what you’re hiding,
Be honest,
We promise,
To keep it in the silence,
Alone with,
The gossip,

Now that you’ve decided,
Take this Blue Pill,
And you will,

Take us to your leader,
We’d love to meet her,
—————————————

We follow,
We’re watchin,
This,
Is what you wanted,

And you finally,
Got it,
Happiness,
You bought it

But the zeros,
Won’t solve them,
Problems,
What do we know?

And you tell us,
To stop it,
But this,
Is what you wanted,
—————————————

It’s not too late to change,
drink the kool-aid my friend,
Tell me, who are these men,
Don’t ask, don’t do it again,

It’s not too late to change,
Drink the kool-aid my friend,
We all go through it the same,
If you don’t like it pretend,

We gave you what you wanted,
Now please do us a solid,
No we don’t want your money,
Please don’t change the subject,

You already should have done it,
Last chance, or 

We’ll go to your leader,
And we’ll defeat her,
—————————————

We follow,
We’re watchin,
This,
Is what you wanted,

And you finally,
Got it,
Happiness,
You bought it

But the zeros,
Won’t solve them,
Problems,
What do we know?

And you tell us,
To stop it,
But this,
Is what you wanted.
—————————————

this is what you wanted

existential angst, fears of climate change and capitalist alienation all wrapped up in a pop song. skip to around 0:50 if you don't like buildup; skip to around 2:40 if you want to hear some french. enjoy! 

LYRICS:

I’m my worst enemy
And I’m losing time faster than my memory
Drown my pain in all the accessories

And it’s always the same
Everybody’s to blame
But where’s the change

Honestly
I know what I need
But all these shiny things
Leave me so
Incomplete

Rising seas
And the falling leaves
Don’t really give a dam about
The way I feel

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break, don’t wanna break
Down
Guess you don’t want me
My glasses getting soggy
I’m just standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break, don’t wanna break
Down
Guess you don’t want me
My glasses getting soggy
I’m just standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

En avant vers le néant
On fonce
Ensemble avec l’océan
On monte

You can’t relate
No you can’t relate
If all you ever think is what
The Television claims

Praying to the screen
That you never put away
Never question the authority
Just sitting in your place

I used to do
What was safe
But that was stupid
Might as well break

With convention
And did I mention
From this dimension
I will escape

Apparently the earth is flat
How ‘bout that
Excuse me while I get
My tin-foil hat

Don’t tell it to the Feds
Or I won’t come back
Keeping gobbling the meds
No I won’t come back

The world is burning
That’s concerning
But We’re too worried
‘Bout our earnings

The world’s on fire
But I’m too tired
Wake me up
When I’m retired

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break don’t wanna break
Down
Say you don’t want me
My face is getting soggy
I’m standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break don’t wanna break
Down
Guess you don’t want me
My glasses getting foggy
I’m standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

En avant vers le néant
On fonce
Ensemble avec l’océan
On monte

Moi je sais pas
Moi je sais pas
Ce qu’on va faire 
On se dit qu’on flotte
Car on sera dans la mer

Moi je sais pas
Moi je sais pas
Ce qu’on va faire
On a mis nos bottes
Pour marcher à l’envers

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break don’t wanna break
Down
Guess you don’t want me
My glasses getting foggy
I’m just standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

Just walk away walk away
Now
I don’t wanna break, don’t wanna break
Down
Guess you don’t want me
My glasses getting soggy
I’m just standing in the lobby
And dancing with nobody

Moi je sais pas
Moi je sais pas
Ce qu’on va faire
On se dit qu’on flotte
Car on sera dans la mer

Moi je sais pas
Moi je sais pas
Ce qu’on va faire
On a mis nos bottes
Pour marcher dans la m*rde

dancing with nobody (walk away)

this song is a soap opera and is told from the perspective of a woman. based on a true story of someone who someone i know knows (if that makes sense) 

if the intro is too long, skip to around 0:50. Thanks for listening!

LYRICS:

I can’t believe we really met,
When I’m with you I forget,
All those problems in my head,
I’m so happy I’m upset,

‘Cause if I stay with you,
I would throw it all away, 
And even if I do, 
I don’t think I could explain,

You said,
We should run away and just get married,
Today,
But my kids need both parents,
I can’t do it,
All these feelings they are tearing me to,
Ruins,
But for you I’m so foolish,

I only want you,
I don’t wanna choose,
But I gotta family,
Lover, can’t you see,
That we can’t follow through,

I have to refuse,
But it’s killing me too,
Do you see us at the gallery,
And your asking me,
‘Cause I can’t say “I do”

It’s my two year anniversary, 
But you’re still on my mind, 
And though the other one is hurting me, 
But I can’t leave my child, 

And I take blows to my face, 
So he knows I know my place, 
And there’s so much on my plate, 
Since you said on Friday,

In that DM, 
Like “how are you feeling
Let’s meet in the PM, 
And run away this evening,”

But I don’t want you to see me
Me in this state, 
But I know that you need,
Me so I hesitate, 

I only want you,
I don’t wanna choose,
But I gotta family,
Lover, can’t you see,
That we can’t follow through,

I have to refuse,
But it’s killing me too,
Do you see us at the gallery,
And your asking me,
‘Cause I can’t say “I do”

No I can’t run away,
But I don’t wanna stay,
I can’t run away, 
But I don’t wanna stay,

No I can’t run away,
But I don’t wanna stay,
I don’t think I could take,
Not seeing your face

I only want you,
I don’t wanna choose,
But I gotta family,
Lover, can’t you see,
That I can’t follow through,

I have to refuse,
But it’s killing me too,
Do you see us at the gallery,
And your asking me,
Wish I could say “I do”

ishiu (i'm so happy i'm upset)

a song about being lost in life. better to be alone than to be in bad company. hopefully, whoever is reading this can find what they want in life. 

LYRICS:

I don’t wanna feel this way,
Voices in my head keeping me awake,
Man, It’s kinda hard to concentrate,
When my mind’s replaying all of my mistakes,

Now I’m in this crowded place,
Listening to people I can’t tolerate,
Sipping on this drink that my body can’t take,
So I can just forget all of my mistakes,

But I’m already dead inside,
I was terrified,
But tonight, 
I don’t wanna think, 

(Yeah) Looking through her painted eyes,
See her fantasize, 
‘Bout a life, 
If I didn’t exist, 

This is the American dream,
Now I can pay for everything,
But I’ll throw a fit,
And I’ll make a scene,
If I don’t get,
What I need,

And now I’m dead with my friends,
‘Cause we’re out too late,

And I forget, I forget,
How it felt, when they said,
That we’d never break,

Do it again and again,
‘Til I’m dead to my friends,
And there’s no more love,

And I forget, I forget, 
How it felt, when they left,
‘Cause I’ve had too much,

I haven’t felt anything since 2008,
This tie around my neck feeling heavy like a weight,

 throw it all away,
Now I need my space,

I’ll find another way,
I’ll die another day,

Now let’s call the priest,
And Bury me in this supreme,

I don’t wanna feel this way,
Voices in my head keeping me awake,
Man, It’s kinda hard to concentrate,
When my mind’s replaying all of my mistakes,

Now I’m in this crowded place,
Listening to people I can’t tolerate,
Sipping on this drink that my body can’t take,
So I can just forget all of my mistakes,

I’m just calling to say,
I won’t be coming in today,
I couldn’t reach you through the screen,
So I’m pressing delete,

I’m just calling to say, 
That I’ll be a little late, 
Everybody is asleep,
See you this time next week,

I don’t wanna feel this way,
Voices in my head keeping me awake,
Man, It’s kinda hard to concentrate,
When my mind’s replaying all of my mistakes,

Now I’m in this crowded place,
Listening to people I can’t tolerate,
Sipping on this drink that my body can’t take,
So I can just forget all of my mistakes,

And now I’m dead with my friends,
‘Cause we’re out too late,

And I forget, I forget,
How it felt, when they said,
That we’d never break,

Do it again and again,
‘Til I’m dead to my friends,
And there’s no more love,

And I forget, I forget, 
How it felt, when they left,
‘Cause I’ve had too much,

dead inside

this is a song about a fictional cult leader based on the heavens gate cult. i know it sounds weird, but that's art for you. although the cult came to an unfortunate end, the song is upbeat. please don't take this too seriously. otherwise, thanks for listening. peace and love and stay healthy!
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LYRICS:

Have you seen Jerome? 
He was with those people wearing matching clothes,
He was telling me something I shouldn’t know,
But then he, (what?)
Then he had to go, (oh no oh no oh no)

Have you seen Jerome?
All his friends were saying that the end was close,
He and his people they were going home,
So tell me,
Have you seen Jerome?

It’s a set up, 
Don’t let up,
Sleep with a beretta,

Keep your head up,
Young fella,
Yeah, you will develop

Get the message,
You’re special,
Keep that in your mental,

If they get ya, 
They’ll keep you on their level,

What do you mean?
Are they coming for me,
Do they know,
What I dream 
When I sleep?

Is it a conspiracy?
Or just my destiny, 
To fulfill your little,
Prophecy,

Who’s on my team,
And who’s my enemies,

So tell me,

Have you seen Jerome? 
He was with those people wearing matching clothes,
He was telling me something I shouldn’t know,
But then he, (what?)
Then he had to go, (oh no oh no oh no)

Have you seen Jerome?
All his friends were saying that the end was close,
He and his people they were going home,
So tell me,
Have you seen Jerome?

What am I gonna do, gonna do,
Just move your body,
Like Halle-lu, Halle-lu-
Jah, join the party,

Au rendez-vous, rendez-vous, 
Où est-ce que vous êtes allé, 
Au rendez-vous, rendez-vous 
On va en parler,

Mais non on est pas fou, pas du tout, 
On est pas tarés, 
Garde ça entre nous, entre nous,
Si le monde savait,

Il faut que tu lâches tout, tu lâches tout,
Laisse tout aller,
You will find the truth, find the truth,
Ça va pas tarder,

Jerome, Jerome,
Don’t leave me alone,
How do you expect to keep this,
On the low?

Jerome, Jerome,
If you get exposed, 
What am I supposed,
To do?

Don’t be concerned,
I will return,
Your enemies will get,
The things,
They deserve,

Don’t trust what you’ve heard,
Stay true to your word,
And one day you will learn,
To fly with the birds

Have you seen Jerome? 
He was with those people wearing matching clothes,
He was telling me something I shouldn’t know,
But then he, (what?)
Then he had to go, (oh no oh no oh no)

Have you seen Jerome?
All his friends were saying that the end was close,
He and his people they were going home,
So tell me,
Have you seen Jerome?

What am I gonna do, gonna do,
Just move your body,
Like Halle-lu, Halle-lu-
Jah, join the party,

Au rendez-vous, rendez-vous, 
Où est-ce que vous êtes allé, 
Au rendez-vous, rendez-vous 
On va en parler,

Mais non on est pas fou, pas du tout, 
On est pas tarés, 
Garde ça entre nous, entre nous,
Si le monde savait,

Il faut que tu lâches tout, tu lâches tout,
Laisse tout aller,
You will find the truth, find the truth,
Ça va pas tarder,

Have You Seen Jerome?

Damn it's too easy... got me feeling just like Phoebe Cates...

If you don't know (look her up in 'Stranger Things' or 'Fast Times at Ridgemont High'), now you know. 

Thanks for listening

Phoebe Cates

Producer who sings out of necessity; Turns out necessity makes you a decent singer; Swiss, Chinese and American.

Balthasar!

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