(update: after a long and hard decision, i have decided that it is not christmas)

THE CHRISTMAS SONG OF THE SUMMER

santa clause got me chrome hearts

lyrics;

(endie)
watching the rain turn to snow as the weather gets cold
know i look better than u when im wearing my coat
and anxiety attacks like its 2007 sitting on santas lap
and i know it wont get better than this so
honey just blow me a kiss <3

it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

sleigh bells inducing my trauma
last time i heard them i fell down the stairs
know i wont help with ur problems
cause i have some of my own 
they cant help but stare

(bixby)
watch how the snow falls
isnt it wonderful
santa clause got me chrome hearts
so sit back get comfortable
now i cant see the lights
and im tired of fights
take me back give me all of my time
cause its not christmas 
its not christmas

(endie)
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

tell me u hate me then tell me u love me
but the next day ur gonna switch
all i know
how i know
how i know 

(endie & bixby)
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
isnt it wonderful santa clause got me chrome hearts
it hasn't felt like christmas in a minute
isnt it wonderful
why doesn't it feel like christmas at all

mmmmm
mmmmmmm
mmmmmm
mmmm
mmmmmmm
mmmmmmmm
mmmmmmmmm
mmmmmmmmmmmm
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

spotify

why doesn't it feel like christmas w/ bixby

We're back to basics
Just like the beginning and I hate it
Got me working for your love, like it's a grave shift
And when your text vibrates my phone I get elated
We're back to basics

I gotta pay the repercussions this is all my fault
Baby I'm the one who made this shit so difficult
I gotta pick up all the pieces, baby as they fall
Oh no, I went and messed it all up
Again

I know what I did, (ugh)
Don't need to sugarcoat it, girl I'm selfish, (yeah)
I can't seem to shake all of my habits, (nah)
I wish I could go back to how it was, I messed it up
I know it matters to ya, (uh huh)
Cause what I did was tragic to ya (and now)

I gotta pay the repercussions this is all my fault
Baby I'm the one who made this shit so difficult
I gotta pick up all the pieces, baby as they fall
Oh no, I went and messed it all up
Again

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Mixed and Produced by: @johnkwondll

this the type of shit that’ll make a nigga go crazy
pull up to the party and i know she gon embrace me
and we singing like oouu uh yeah uh
i’m moving too fast, i think this cup got me lazy
we dont gotta dance, we can two-step baby
like one two, one two
(ryen what the fuck are you doing with my best friend? you fucking bitch.) 
(wtf)

too gone, cant think straight
bitch i was ten years old when i made my first mixtape
tell that bitch “try again”
she said she was the best thing for me, lie again
girl i had enough
i aint throwing no shade
keep lying to yourself and i’ll be okay
just dont talk shit cuz i can get my old flame
no new friends, no new friends no no new

back and forth
why you keep on hating on me?
girl i thought i was the past tense
yeah you fucked my life up
so ima go for your friend
if you dont like it, that’s tough
never really gave a fuck-
about you
and it took me some time-
to face that truth
so if it was up to me, i’d never see you again
mmh but you know that-
that’s not gon happen
i bet on myself
i’ve been working on mental health 
and im okay
yeah im sorry it didnt work out the way you wanted

stream everywhere

no new friends (p. typhoon)

“rest” is a single revolved around kuriosity and a new girl (shocker) and revolves around kuriosity’s dread and confusion within this friendship. feeling as if he can’t run and has no where to go due to his extreme affection kuriosity again follows route and hurts himself in the process. a prelude to the “aphrodite” series on “kuri” 

(drmabeats + johnny friend)

u make me wonder, where’d the time go?
bed-ridden eyes glued on my iphone i-
feel like im walking on a tight rope 
no text no calls so vile
i cant go to bed
“hush”
with you in my head
god i need some rest
god i need your hand.

and imma fuck up
running on no love 
ur so stuck up
im too deep and i cant run
yea i feel like u know what i want
(and she wont text me back so im lighting a blunt)

ik sorry friends ive been working on myself 
ive been fighting my purpose 
ive been focused on my health 
and i hope you’re all fine i hope you’re doing well
there’s only one on my mind but would she even help? 

u make me wonder, where’d the time go?
bed-ridden eyes glued on my iphone i-
feel like im walking on a tight rope 
no text no calls so vile
i cant go to bed
“hush”
with you in my head
god i need some rest
god i need your hand.

im going nowhere, and they all know
this shits unfair, ive got a lot to show 
how could i make a impact if ive got no home
(and how the fuck could i proceed if ive got no road)

fuck friends fuck her, bitch im on my own
guess ill just be another junkie laying on the road
and i can see it in your eyes that you u hate my soul
and i can see it in their eyes that they want me below

(fuck friends fuck her bitch im on my own
guess ill just be another junkie laying on the road
and i can see it in your eyes that you u hate my soul
and i can see it in their eyes that they- hush

the pretty ass hook repeats again i love it so much (:

rest

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lyrics:
I don’t know how I can keep a straight face
Don’t hold onto things I’d always say that we’d do
I’m getting tired of you 
But not the way that you move 
I guess I’m trying to prove it 

I burn through all my time 
And I can’t take it 
Hurt you but I really wanna break your fall 
Curfews but we always gonna fake it
I just wanna talk to you now 

You and me
Feels like I’ll never let you go 
I don’t understand who i'd be cus 
I’ll be too emotional yeah
Not approachable 

I hope that when we always talk you’ll remember me
I hope I’m staying in your thoughts
Just a memory 
Yeah I care whether or not you a remedy
Honestly I’m never getting caught up
Never gonna talk like we just used to do 
Acting like it’s alright
But I’ve been a fool
Love it when we touching
Always comes in two 
Baby yeah it’s alright here
Yeah it’s all right here yeah
 
Bold assumption
I’ve been tryna fuck with a vision 
Had enough of 
All this stupid shit I’ve been living 
What you do that for 
What you do that for 
Yeah
Out of touch 
But I don’t really mind

All this working got me tied up
Calling me a liar
Maybe there’s just something to prove
Said there’s something we desire
But there’s no providers
What you gonna do about it
When you mood watching 
Been a sucker for you

Don’t lie I been actin the same
Treating me so differently 
Don’t know my own name no more
What a shame i'm sure
Oh you
Oh you

You and me
Feels like I’ll never let you go 
I don’t understand who i'd be cus 
I’ll be too emotional yeah
Not approachable 

I hope that when we always talk you’ll remember me
I hope I’m staying in your thoughts
Just a memory 
Yeah I care whether or not you a remedy
Honestly I’m never getting caught up
Never gonna talk like we just used to do 
Acting like it’s alright
But I’ve been a fool
Love it when we touching
Always comes in two 
Baby yeah it’s alright here
Yeah it’s all right here yeah

remedy (joshwa + will rhead)

Lyrics:
I dream of a life
Where I see things twice
For how they are not
How they seem
I've lost my mind and
I don't know why
I can't think straight
Or believe these little means at a time
I was never one to hide behind
All of the blinking flashing lights
So I wanna know

Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind

As the weather gets colder
It's harder to breathe in the air
Or maybe I haven't tried hard enough
We live like we're older but
Never take risk
That could ruin our life
We're still smarter than them
By a mile
Talk bout' it
For a while
We won't break off
Just take breaks here and there
But I'll wait up for you
Let you catch up and
Hope you still need me
And that you'd never see
I live in fear
I believe you'll let me down
I barely believe in the signs I see
But I wanna know

Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind
Why do you still cross my mind

And it's hard to believe
That you might never see
Where you went wrong
90 miles an hour
I've lost all my power
I sit on the sideline
I finally realized
Cause I think I know

Why you still cross my mind
Why you still cross my mind
Why you still cross my mind
Why you still cross my mind
Why you still cross my mind

all platforms

cross my mind

thanku4everything
fun lil pop song prod @siemspark + @fortuneswan

im thankful for every one of u

lyrics

i wanna be on the dancefloor
and go home with you
already know you're a damn whore
but i'll see it through x2

wait till ur right here by my side
when im with u i feel alive
i cannot stand to see u cry
(cryyyyy)

but you!
been playing with my heart for a minute now
been running it up, i wanna finish now
oh without you im never fking proud

i wanna be on the dancefloor
and go home with you
already know you're a damn whore
but i'll see it through x2

outro singing

slowed n reverb ending

done.
ty4e (soon)

dancefloor (siem spark + fortuneswan)

thx4evrythng

prod @siemspark

i hope youre glad

i hope you're glad (siemspark + heyrick)

prod. sherif xr
backing vocals by babebee, yazida, & riptony

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you wanna cross by my mind...

XR 2023

CIRCUS

lyrics :

okay i tried to fix myself for you
but it's not working out
and everything you said was true
i’m glad you're not around 
to see what i’ve become
sorry i let you down 
and i really don’t know 
how ima make it out
and i could keep on trying all my life
but i just realised
that anything i do won't make it right
fuck i hate my life
god damn it my brain still cannot decide
but i won't deny
that it's so hard for me to say goodbye
hope i can survive

and i'm sorry that i'm so impatient
i'm not trying to keep you waiting
(waiting)
and i don't know why but everybody is telling me i changed
they be acting weird around me like i'm crazy or insane
yea they're trying to bring me down they want to see me suffocate
i don't need anymore trouble in my life so stay away

okay i tried to fix myself for you
but it's not working out
and everything you said was true
i’m glad you're not around 
to see what i’ve become
sorry i let you down 
and i really don’t know 
how ima make it out
and i could keep on trying all my life
but i just realised
that anything i do won't make it right
fuck i hate my life
god damn it my brain still cannot decide
but i won't deny
that it's so hard for me to say goodbye
hope i can survive

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Roan (@whoisroan)

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