5 years, almost 6 in just some months now. I used to think I was going to die young but I didn't. Life has changed so much and my way of thinking, I guess you do grow up past the bad times. experience helps you mature, but not the time. but for a song that has been stuck in my head for all this time since 2018 I think this is the first time that this lyrics makes some sense for my life and I'm happy is finally something positive that I can relate to ❤️

Please release just the best (instrumental) I think it would go hard AF with “My flaws burn through my skin…” -$b, as a remix

Lyrics:

I pull back from a bitch if she gone act like she giving a fuck about me because it'll end badly
Could never get too close when my hopes happy
My actions could go sporadic brake glass and put hole in cabinets
The fuck you look like pitying me
I'm writing songs of how I feel and how you pretend to be
Every friend I ever had fucked me over and yeah I mean every friend you drop a name I'll give you the stats bitch
I find myself in this place common I'm kinda amazed jotting about better days I'm never found to engage with
That's why I'm locked in the basement of my mind it got me caged in and locked for the night
I'm sick of telling people how much they forever meaning to me just to let em lead me on and fuck my head up even more than before
That's why I start to ignore whenever my fucking phone buzzing I just throw it to the floor
It keep ringing

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Fall in love
You gambling with your sanity
My ex was whoring out to friends of me can't compare it
See her family is fucked and they clearly just ain't a fan of me
When parenting just sucks and you can't admit it apparently
Was tryna get my mind off the bitch when it finally ended
Got dmed and started talking to someone who I was friends with
Said I mean the world to her but words do just not connect
When you be ghosting seem like I ain't been meaning much to begin with
So fuck it I'm doing me
And soon it was you and me
I told you how I was feeling you had somebody you been with
Who isn't what I expected regardless of his intentions
It's fucking dumb I accept it
You strung me along and left me with this
False hope
A smaller but strong rope and I broke it
Cutting ties ain't nothing knew just go with the motions
So what the fuck is the point
If everyone I ever loved is faking it then enjoy your life without me

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out
Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Credits:
Prod. by Tennis Player
Co-prod. by Andy Sorenson

fleur

Blood Meridian

prod. by killedmyself

Lyrics:

(Verse)
A harsh winter got me livin life in poverty,
Cuz jobs never pick it up and now the cars empty,
But watch summer come around I hope that all of my problems get solved now it came around and shit is all the same,
My thoughts written could begin to take it all away,
I march deep into the heart of nature callin me,
It's part of me,
And people on this rock we be,
I'm gettin tired of this anxiety thats haunting me

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

(Verse 2)
Some days when I wake up,
I get a sense of bliss that escapes me when the things I run away from reappear,
Which just makes me wanna stay in bed wasting the day,
Its my life homie I could go and waste it away,
I'm afraid to admit that some days I get to thinkin that maybe I wasn't made for this place that I live,
Cuz I can't seem to fit,
And the days seem to end really quick,
I'm fuckin done I can't take this again

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

the way it goes (prod. killedmyself)

prod. @plurbs

Lyrics:

(Chorus)
Said I don't fuck with no bitch,
Ain't got the time for it show love from the distance,
Come from the sticks,
Rolled blunts then I quit,
Now it's fuck everything make songs when I think I can't handle much of this shit,
Write it up for the ones who da struggled to fit in,
Don't be the victim,
You could break free fuck everything they say pains gone in an instant,
Swear that loves been a trip,
Can't trust a motha fucka with your heart they gone rip it,
Stomp on it split it,
Give it right back while you crying just to say they so sorry they did it,
And I don't fuck with this shit,
Maybe I just wasn't made for the world that we live in,
King of the misfits,
Fuck it if you feel this then yal motha fuckas get the struggle I'm living ay

(Verse)
Pissed annoyed,
But nobody really gets the point,
I'm so tired fuckin listen once in your life,
Cut ties fuck a friendship voices gone fight in my mind just to fill the void,
Oh my your lies thinking I can't tell,
To my surprise realizing how much I don't mean a thing,
I won't keep the ring,
And don't speak fuckin leave me be

Everywhere I go I can't seem to get you out my head,
Wishin I could but this time I can't,
Make me think it's better if I end up dead,
Swear that sometimes that this lifes not fair

(Chorus)
Said I don't fuck with no bitch,
Ain't got the time for it show love from the distance,
Come from the sticks,
Rolled blunts then I quit,
Now it's fuck everything make songs when I think I can't handle much of this shit,
Write it up for the ones who da struggled to fit in,
Don't be the victim,
You could break free fuck everything they say pains gone in an instant,
Swear that loves been a trip,
Can't trust a motha fucka with your heart they gone rip it,
Stomp on it split it,
Give it right back while you crying just to say they so sorry they did it,
And I don't fuck with this shit,
Maybe I just wasn't made for the world that we live in,
King of the misfits,
Fuck it if you feel this then yal motha fuckas get the struggle I'm living ay

Everywhere I go I can't seem to get you out my head,
Wishin I could but this time I can't,
Make me think it's better if I end up dead,
Swear that sometimes that this lifes not fair

heart broken (prod. PLURBS)

(Verse)
Outta words to put on paper,
While searchin for inspiration,
But waitings a waste of time so fuck it head back to nature and think,
For a minute and when I'm brainstorming shit then I realize I'm the creator making my own decisions,
Don't needa conform to shit that they feed you it's all the system,
Break free and do anything that you feel is your own purpose,
It's the way it's suppose to be they convince you they hold the key to you being happy inside but you had it the whole time ay,
Fuck opinions of how they tell you to live,
And the glorification taking place of material shit,
You don't gotta be rich to be happy,
Facades appearing as fact,
It's the positivity that beats any external thing that means,
Absolutely nothing,
That is truly something,
That the masses have got backwards and it's sad and true well fuck it,
If you listen to this shit maybe you'll think a little bit,
And today could be the day that you may change the way you live ay,

(Chorus)
And you ain't gotta talk,
It's really just a feelin can you feel it,
And if you can you really living the way you want,
But if not then you don't get it cuz you win't listenin that's just how you gonna live and I don't give a fuck,
It's really jsut a feelin can you feel it and if you can you really living the way you want,
But if not then you don't get it cuz you ain't listenin that's just how you gonna live and I don't give a fuck

(Verse 2)
Tired of the hatred thats circulating these places,
Could try and kill em with kindness but I don't think that'll change em,
A waste of my energy,
Space I'ma need plenty,
To meditate not self medicate because it ain't helping,
Just take a walk in the woods whenever my thoughts aren't good,
So I can get into alignment with beauty all of us should,
Let go of drama and bull shit you hold onto for good,
It's a process to right your fucking wrongs but you should

(Bridge)
A buncha,
Lost souls on a,
Dark road tryna figure shit out you know how it all goes we ain't,
Lost hope,
Growin up is hard knowin no one really got your back it's only you so march forward,
A buncha,
Lost souls on a,
Dark road tryna figure shit out you know how it all goes we ain't,
Lost hope,
Growin up is hard knowin no one really gives a fuck about you so just march forward

(Chorus)
And you ain't gotta talk,
It's really just a feelin can you feel it,
And if you can you really living the way you want,
But if not then you don't get it cuz you win't listenin that's just how you gonna live and I don't give a fuck,
It's really jsut a feelin can you feel it and if you can you really living the way you want,
But if not then you don't get it cuz you ain't listenin that's just how you gonna live and I don't give a fuck

a feeling (prod. clipped)

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I have to fucking lie
to keep you in my life
my math is always right
it's worth it every time

Crawling away
everything's backwards I'm falling awake 
nothing feels worthless as calling your name
I'll preach to churches still nothing will change
I'll stay the same
Pick up a rock
throw it as hard as you can at the clock
even if I die our time wouldn't stop 
so lay it all out count how much we still got
can't fucking talk
I'm gonna jump
don't think I'm able to finish this month
tell my mother I love her my brother gave up
that was too much
I'm not strong enough
This is reality I'm fucking scared
my parents lives are a living nightmare
nobody knows what it's like to be there
please don't reach out it induces my fear
all I can do is get comfortable here

I have to fucking lie
to keep you in my life
my math is always right
it's worth it every time

IS EVERYONE CRYING OR AM I JUST CLINICAL

Official Video via Astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLz9WGz78vw

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Guitar: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61Eo4JrytkM

6HOST:

Holding back a frown
can’t look down
cause the room is spinning
shakey till she comes
I’d feel dumb
if you knew I’m missing (I’m not)
mexico again
portland wind
and your stupid grinning 
hope it’s not too late
had to wait
I didn’t have in me (what’s wrong)

This is my attempt 
to amend
my past actions I was
trapped inside my head
seeing red 
feeding gas to fire (fuck off)
haven’t made it out
but I found
solace in denial
you’ll remember this
what we missed
it won’t take a while (come on)

cøzyboy:

I been tryna find peace ever since you left
(insane I’m so gone now)
I been tryna find me ever since you left
(insane I’m so gone now)

I been so alone now
hands all on my throat now
I been off anxiety
fuck at least I know now

Everybody knows now
keep me comatose now
I’m just tryna find
what you find
‘fore you come
back in my life

6HOST:

I don’t wanna change
so I blame
people closest to me
they don’t get the half
that I have 
my part needs improving (i know)
you see clearly now
shaved your brows
started over smoothly
I just built these walls
missed your calls
put my heart in stupid (i choked)

That’s not your black shirt 
it was hers
you’d look better in it
we sat right here too
it was new
nothing ever did it (so close)
maybe it’s my nerves
or a curse
they would never get it
head down to your shoes 
through and through 
you were always different (my own)

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COLLATERAL (ft. cøzybøy) [Video in Description]

Official Music Video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRE4SV2Ozsc&list=PLbtOdwZu0aXCEBDthaY2ffHwwocxbe56V
Prod. Guala

LOST

STREAM

bullet (Prod. Van Beats)

TRACK #1 FROM "THE TWO OF US ARE DYING".

ARTWORK BY KYLE J THOMPSON.

COMPOSED, ARRANGED, WRITTEN, PERFORMED, RECORDED, PRODUCED, ENGINEERED, MIXED, MASTERED & RELEASED BY KILLSTATION.

SARCOMA (PROD. KILLSTATION)

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It's never calm before the storm
it always rains before it pours
you'll see it coming before it hits
I hear the screaming from your lips
it's kind of charming isn't

I'm still on empty with low health
still running from my
he's fallen in the well
help honey I'm in hell
this cage will not suffice
they're coming for my life
it's the perfect time to strike
I've lost my will to fight
I'm missing half the plot
we ignored it or forgot
never got my point across
never found my train of thought
where's the part where I grew up?
made it right and gave a fuck
found the diamond in the rough 
I am blind and losing touch

It's never calm before the storm
it always rains before it pours
you'll see it coming before it hits
I hear the screaming from your lips
it's kind of charming isn't

My image fades to grey
I was forged from dirt and clay
disappearing every day
we all want to go away
they don't want to see you win
want to sink your ship again
you're a lead balloon in wind
Lucy let the demons in

a feeling (prod. clipped)

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