man I've been following your music for some years. thanks to you i was able to fight my depression caused by unhealthy obsessions over people who never even looked at me the same way. Your music helped me realize to put them in the past. thank you

The Track Art... Reminds me of my brother.  NO SHIT... and this is Smooth... it drops somewhere between Peep and Mac(Malcolm)

deserve feat. rachel (prod. thersx)

ride or die (prod. klix)

I close my eyes, then I see your eyes,
I look around, and your not around.
In my mind, I start to realize,

Tell me if you need me,
You know that I need you.
I don't really need you,
I just really want you.
I want you to come through,

Tell me what you wanna do,

Tell me what you wanna be,
Tell me if you want me,
You don't really need me,
I just really want you.

Tell me what you wanna be.

Baby won't you come to me.

MUSIC VIDEO

I Know It's Complicated (Prod. Lunar Vision)

A single off the upcoming EP titled AsWeGrieve
Prod. by @ghostemane
Enjoy.

Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
Highschool in class think of droppin out,
But that be somethin I could never really talk about,
Everybody always said it aint an option how,
I could walk up in the office sign the doc and bounce,
Cuz 9th grade when the drama would rise up out,
The fuckin ground like a zombie I'd walk around,
And people eye me down,
Its like they talk about me without givin a fuck bout what they talk about,

(Chorus)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop,

(Verse 2)
I grew up around an abundance of,
Preppy motha fuckas never been one of em,
So because I wasn't conformin,
Didn't play sports or,
Listen to the stuff they bump,
Or rock the shit they rock,
Or talk the way they talk,
I was an easy target so they always pickin on me,
I had to brush it off like a dusty mop,
I let it slide givin time Ida got fed up,
Cuz I be walkin in the hallway hearin this shit all day,
There's a limit that come with the shit that yall say,
People callin me a faggot for rappin and tellin me to kill myself like it don't even matter,
One day I said fuck it,
Threw a middle finger up,
At one the bullies on the bus when I was walkin way from it,
At first I was pissed that I been learnin to live with these people tellin me that I aint worthy of shit,

(Chorus 2x)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop,

(Verse 3)
Then a year later same deal but I started to smoke,
Chillin with my homies turned into us tryna get stoned,
Fridays were the days we would always wanna buy eights so we get high then buy food to keep us full,
I was smokin for a minute I dont know how often,
But my mom knew I was so it was causin problems,
I would always call her out like no your wrong its not a big fuckin deal I can do what I want,
And I regret that shit,
Soon enough a bad experience put me in depression wishin it would just end,
Used to wonder was it dust but it probably wasn't,
Coulda been that it was strong shit that I couldn't fuck with,
So I quit,
Bout 2 years later started smokin again,
And the same shit happened,
Landed me in therapy the first time around thankfully was already in a better program at the school the people there for me pushed for that,
So I would go to class in the afternoon until Im done and graduate,
All I have to say,
That Ida made it too far just to throw it all away and thats the thing,
Yeah we all feel lost sometimes but Im back up on the path I made,
Don't give a fuck what you have to say,
Makin music and improving on my craft can be challenging,
But Im trying hard thats the key,

(Chorus 2x)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop

HIGHSCHOOL (prod. GHOSTEMANE)

Prod. by @killedmyself

Lyrics:

(Verse)
And if theres a god what would he think about the wrongs Ive done,
And would he question the temptations when I called my plug,
Or when the times got rough,
Why the fuck did I go through all those long nights struggling over one time puffin a blunt,
It fucked me up,
I recollect the pain that seemed to manifest whenever shit would never feel okay but its straight,
You shouldn't worry bout it,
Nobody's worried bout it,
Doctors tryna throw some pill bottles in my cabinet

(Chorus)
It ain't slowin down life can pass you by,
But thinkin of the past as the time passes you ain't gotta cry no more, ay,
No baby you ain't gotta cry no more, ay,
And if I got nobody then I guess that I'll be fine,
But all the fuckin drama that we got past no wonder why the ties all broke, ay,
And they ain't worth your time no more, ay,

(Verse 2)
I have a tendency to ask my friends if they enemies,
Cuz I met alot of people who pretend to be chill with me,
Then eventually depression would have let to them dippin,
But when they see Im comin up they tellin me we should kick it,
I copped a whip its offical,
I drive to dip from the system,
I can't fit in with the people around forget it continue to put my thoughts into verses,
Who woulda thought that the person they hated on for no reasons the one that harnessed a purpose

(Chorus)
It ain't slowin down life can pass you by,
But thinkin of the past as the time passes you ain't gotta cry no more, ay,
No baby you ain't gotta cry no more, ay,
And if I got nobody then I guess that I'll be fine,
But all the fuckin drama that we got past no wonder why the ties all broke, ay,
And they ain't worth your time no more, ay,

flowers. (prod. killedmyself)

prod. @iamrellim

Lyrics:

(Verse)
I been fed lies so I can sleep at night,
They tell me shits fine we gonna be alright,
While you fantasize about a better life,
Im out here tryin to get it right,
Fuck the conversations I aint tryna pretend I know the meanin of this life once we die in the end,
It seems that everybody blinded by material things,
So take the money and the fame and leave us dying in peace

(Chorus)
You
I never thought about you
Im tryna live it up
You
You got some problems know oh,
You
And I dont give a fuck

(Verse 2)
I been fed lies so I can sleep at night,
They tell me shits fine we gonna be alright,
While you fantasize about a better life,
Im out here tryin to get it right,
Wonder where these songs be spawnin layin in bed,
Its like a pen up in my mental always writing a script,
I got a hunnid million reasons I aint tryin to quit,
But I dont got the time to say em by resightin the list

wasting time (prod. RELLIM)

STREAM/ DOWLOAD: lnk.to/ducksonice

BAMBI:
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@deathofamother

KAMIYADA+
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@masonflynt

Lockdown w/ Kamiyada+ [Prod. @masonflynt]

DAYDREAM FT BRENNAN SAVAGE & KILLSTATION (PROD BY BLVC SVND)

Prod. @killedmyself & @strangerofthepast

Lyrics

Verse 1:
And as we approaching the end of the summer,
I haven't been doing much,
Just writing my friends losing touch,
Whenever we chill,
Ain't a lot just a couple of us,
But it ain't the same as it was like showing up late interrupting class like we care,
All them people ain't fuckin with us but I never changed for no one I followed my dream til it's a reality here,
And I knew that one day it would come and music it gave me the hope I need everyday just to cope anxiety fears,
Everyone that I knew growing up,
It's college or working a bunch,
Society turned them to clones,
And I don't know where I'ma go,
Cuz I know I'm worth so much more,
Than jobs as a clerk at a store,
With bosses who lurk over shoulders,
Why you seem scared to be different from the rest of the crowd,
I told you they never accept me I accepted myself,
And that's the difference when you live for you or somebody else,
Nobody gonna know what's best for you except you for now

Chorus:
And everyday start to feel the same I can't remember bout a time it didn't feel this way,
I swear anxiety feel so strange,
Don't worry bout me just do your thing,
And if you feel alone I can relate I used to think I was the only one but then it changed,
Stay inside today,
It's like I waste my life away

Verse 2:
And when I say fuck this world,
What I mean is just the people cuz they evil but it seem so therapeutic by the trees so I just visit frequently and speak of things I'm thinkin bout,
It's just me the sea a breeze and creatures who all live around,
Was I meant to be alone sometimes it feel so comfortable,
No one to focus one but you,
But other times it's not as cool,
It's nothing new,
The fuck is you doing just up in your room and discussing your mood with nobody you just talking to you,
What I've learned could seem so hard to teach,
To people who was lost as me,
And if you asked about it I don't know where I would start,
You see you weren't meant to follow sheep,
And people they will talk regardless of the shit you do that's why I do the shit I want and keep away from it,
And fuck the hate nothing that they even say should ever changed what you planned inside your brain fuck em,
Don't wanna waste none the time that you got,
It's up to you to pave the way and break up out of the spot you in

Chorus:
And everyday start to feel the same I can't remember bout a time it didn't feel this way,
I swear anxiety feel so strange,
Don't worry bout me just do your thing,
And if you feel alone I can relate I used to think I was the only one but then it changed,
Stay inside today,
It's like I waste my life away

thoughts (prod. killedmyself & stranger)

Thinking Every Night

Joei Razook - Ripping at the Seams

Produced by Internetboy

instruments by Joei Razook

flowers. (prod. killedmyself)

whxami

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