lyrics:

I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues
When I take you and your brother in the back pew
Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick
Tradition’s ligature marks always yellow through


I lied when I said I didn’t want you
In no time, you’ll forget the way we were supposed to be
Asking what I’m on this time, holding on to you like I do
Like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to

Two drowning coals won’t ever light
But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night


If I want you like I said I’d never do
I would hold my breath and sit down next to you
Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you
And right now I need you
I don’t know what happened
I don’t know what happened
I was young and sweet
And then something happened
Something overwhelming
Something everlasting

Time drags on
I hate him for the time he’s gone
I’ve been here for weeks, I’ve been here for years
I’ve been here too long
I forgot what stop means
Either I drink it or the boat sinks
It’s easy for him to get out of me
What I’ve been praying will get out of me

Will I always be crying during sex with you
All my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you
Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep In my eyes like I’m a river worth wading
And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love

[Outro]
And I could love you if I tried
And I’m trying
I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying

crying during sex - ethel cain

Lyrics 🏋️

What if i were to waste you
And hold on and grip to
The way that I don’t move 
And wait 

What a waste you let your youth 
Sit and waste around the room 
What’s the waste you just can’t lose
It’s you 

The snow is falling hard 
I hear it coming down 
Little screams of confidence 
Silence out their mouths
The snow is falling hard 
I know I’m going down 
Begging you to take a stand 
Silence out your mouth

Wait and waste 
Time and space 
There’s a Choice so safe 
Stuck to, stay away
Wait and waste 
Time and space 
Til you lose your place    
Til your Bones decay 

What’s the way I can to
Stare up at the moon
While conscious of it too
The weight 

I know Im falling out 
I hear it coming down 
Little thoughts of moving on 
My heart begins to pound
The snow is falling hard 
I know I’m going down 
Buried under the sound 
Of silence out your mouth

Wait and waste 
Time and space 
There’s a Choice so safe 
Stuck to, stay away
Wait and waste 
Time and space 
Til you lose your place 
Til your Bones decay

weight (demo)

lists (demo)

Pity is the drug I didn’t know I was on 
slipped into every bite 
Behind every thought 
I look into headlights for way too long 
Looking for a break 
Fight against the call 
I left myself empty for way too long 
The weeds set in 
Between every stone  

Bloody trees 
Sunken sky 
Its all I see when I look outside 

And the guilt of my presence lays 
thick and thin, I think 
I need to disappear 
I wane and wait
Stay staying here

In wanting all the weakness who do I become
Will you feel bad for me 
If I cry in every song 

Part of me is
Stuck in time
You're all I see when I close my eyes 

And the guilt of my presence lays 
thick and thin, I think 
i need to disappear 
I wane and wait
Stay staying here

I say I'm fine and I am
Until the conversation ends

pity (demo)

Callous (demo)

I know people who would drink with me 
But my heart isn’t in it, the trick of the party 
I walk around listen to the blaze 
through the window red light hits my face
Drones of laughter make me long for days
Where I matter more than the easy way

The easy way

The pressure piles on
To every moment  
My head out of the sun
Roof I’m crying again
Saving all my words
Warning for pot holes 
Coming up on our road 
Can’t just let them go past
(Im stuck in the past)

All that effort, clinging to your legs 
Didn’t matter turned into what I hate
There was no fire didn’t go up in flames
Extinction burst followed by nothing 
 
Fade to gray

The pressure piles on
To every moment  
My head out of the sun
Roof I’m crying again
Just saving my words
Warning for pot holes 
Coming up on our road 
Can’t just let them go past
(Im stuck in the past)

Stuck in the past (demo)

shrug (the original title for janie) was originally going to be from willoughby's perspective as well. dust bowl was going to transition directly into it. i wound up reworking it a bit to be about janie.

lyrics:

graduate
turn the paper
find it blank
fuckin’ figures
hide my face
i’ll escape her
not by name
just by nature
i still shake
emphatic anger
easy to hate
easy to blame
it’s not looking good
but did it ever
low stakes
no faith
but i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait
i will wait


shrug (janie demo)

phoebe bridgers - coming down

Boston based singer songwriter 

Would love to get my songs produced and released in some form <3 (so if you like and produce pls message me)

lists (demo)

wilf