Hyper Chronicles 13

Jajj

Prod. By Evan Jolley +

guitar by: ryini beats

dedicated to everyone i love ❤️

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keep to myself

keep to myself w/ evan  jolley +delcada prod evan jolley

All these drugs help the pain
But it comes back worse
Leave right now
Or Imma leave you hurt
I can't rest till I'm food for the worms
We all die one day
I'm just waiting my turn

Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
When you break my trust
Tore it right in half
I don't even know what's real
When you always tell me
This and that
Smile to my face
And go behind my back
You never really cared
But now I know that
I gotta cut you out
It's really for the best
Can you hold still
It'll only take a sec

Feel like this every night
Frozen cold dead inside
Blowing smoke getting high
Like the stars in the sky
I wanted love not a fight
You cut me deep like a knife
Made me hate my own life
You drive me crazy no lie

You drive me crazy no lie
I've been losing my mind
It's getting harder to find
Any peace
I've been falling into pieces
Out of place
Yeah i'm always fucking anxious

Lines on lines
Until my nose bleeds
Staying up till the suns out
I don't sleep
Undercover on my fucking
Jeans and my sleeves
I can't be your lover
Everyone I love leaves

Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
When you break my trust
Tore it right in half
I don't even know what's real
When you always tell me
This and that
Smile to my face
And go behind my back
You never really cared
But now I know that
I gotta cut you out
It's really for the best
Can you hold still
It'll only take a sec
(Only take a sec)

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this & that (prod. lil biscuit)

Yeah, yeah
I got a feeling inside
And it's eating me alive
Poppin' up in my brain
Every single night
I wonder if you think of me
Like I think of you
I wonder all the time
Cause you leave me so confused
Walking with my head down
And my eyes low
I've been feeling empty
My heart is hollow
The world is ice cold
And that's why I'm all alone
Smoking on a spliff
Dropping pills in styrofoam

Okay, let's go!
Got vertigo the rooms spinning
Can't say I love you
Cause I don't love living
I'm running racks up
I ain't got a limit
Cause when you run it up
They all act different
That's the reason that I'm distant
You broke my trust, can't fix it
You tell me stories
They don't make sense
You say you're sorry
You don't mean shit

I got a feeling inside
And it's eating me alive
Poppin' up in my brain
Every single night
I wonder if you think of me
Like I think of you
I wonder all the time
Cause you leave me so confused
Walking with my head down
And my eyes low
I've been feeling empty
My heart is hollow
The world is ice cold
And that's why I'm all alone
Smoking on a spliff
Dropping pills in styrofoam

everysinglenight (prod. tonycomputerlove)

prod @evanjolley
ft @ultravialit

4 yrs im giving myself 4 years
I'll get my life together or i will rest in peace
it's kinda comforting to know that the end is near
why can't i just leave this world without hurting my family

i don't wanna hurt u but this is hurting me
writing songs about same thing is not helping me
i have no goal or motivation im just existing
i feel so miniscule just forget about me

i always bring myself down
there's no one to lift me up

can't someone just stick around
everybody leaves that's just life

ik u don't believe me but im trying to keep my head above the surface
it's hard to breath and my lungs are filling not with water but with poison
im trying not to hate myself so much and accept me for who i am
but im a person that i hate and it's ok to feel this way


ultravialit:

about 4 years
giving myself about 4 years
living in doubt for years
put my hand to the flame ouch shed tears
i need to work out a routine, gotta keep moving
gotta get out of here
gotta be ready for the storm before the clouds appear

anxiety im not going quietly
there's an infection a disease that grows inside of me
i need a doctor i need a surgeon cut this out of me
right now I'll bleed but when this heals i hope that you can count on me

i always bring myself down
bring myself down when nobody is around
i always bring myself down
so in 4 years time i hope i get to climb out

yuh
putting off all of my problems
i dont know how i can solve them
instead all i do is just stall them
yuh
and maybe this really is my fault
wish you'd forgive me dont know why im living
ill find out as soon as the sky falls

4yrs w/ ultravialit 「evan jolley」

I don't need your love
If it's toxic
I don't need my heart
You can have it
You can have it all
Just take it
Take it to the grave
Don't trade it
You can have it all
I don't need it back
I would bleed for you
Yeah I want it bad
Hope you know it's true
Hope you notice that
This the way that i feel
No it's not an act

Yeah it's not a lie
Every time we lock eyes
I feel alive
I was watching stars die
By your side
Swear you got me tongue tied
You don't even try
You don't even try
You don't even try
I don't gotta lie
Looking in your eyes
Like stars in the night
I can help you heal
All scars that you hide
Can you be my light
When it's dark outside
Will you be my guide
Cause I'm lost
Without you
Everything so fake
So brand new
I don't really know where to go
It feels like nowhere's my home

I don't need your love
If it's toxic
I don't need my heart
You can have it
You can have it all
Just take it
Take it to the grave
Don't trade it
You can have it all
I don't need it back
I would bleed for you
Yeah I want it bad
Hope you know it's true
Hope you notice that
This the way that i feel
No it's not an act

to the grave! (prod. jolst + sor)

I can feel heart beating
Out of my chest 
Why you gotta talk down 
Under your breath
Riding with the top down 
Got 'em upset 
Yeah you know I'm up now 
Fuck a up next 
Yeah you know I'm up now 
I don’t need rest 
Fuck sleep 
I’ve been running up a check 
Fuck dreams 
I’ve been living real life 
Can’t stop me I’m running red lights 

Can’t stop me 
Can’t hold me back
Don’t say you love me 
If you don’t mean that 
Cause nowadays I can tell what's real 
I wont hide the way I feel about you 
You’ve been living in my head rent free 
Dancing round my mind all week 
In my dreams and in my sleep 

@youngburial
I can feel my heart 
Beating out of my chest 
Stuck on train tracks 
Waiting on the end 
You’re a diva 
No we aren’t friends 
You’re a schemer 
You just fake flex 
Got a feeling up in my shit 
No i can’t trust someone off rip
I pretend that i can see through 
You’re a bother 
You just won’t move

I can feel heart beating
Out of my chest 
Why you gotta talk down 
Under your breath
Riding with the top down 
Got 'em upset 
Yeah you know I'm up now 
Fuck a up next 
Yeah you know I'm up now 
I don’t need rest 
Fuck sleep 
I’ve been running up a check 
Fuck dreams 
I’ve been living real life 
Can’t stop me I’m running red lights

under your breath ft. fats'e (prod. frevel + nihil + octodog)

Singles

xoxoswitch - mdma + luvdigi (evan jolley)

xoxoswitch - more pain (evan jolley)

uh huh  
im gone
i passed out
blacked out

wanna break out, leave me alone
first time
full dose

uh huh
im god
i cant stay long
i forgot

take another, it dont last long
please stop
im lost

uh huh
drippin blood
thats enough
on the run

cut urself
go on walks
gotta help
we can talk

never leave the block
always bad luck
i got bad blood
i cant choose love

i dont love shit
dont wanna be this
i cant focus
opiate fix

im so broken
i cant be fixed
treat me like shit
unsafe what i mix

different color pills
who cares what i feel
i dont wanna live
who cares if im real

chasing prod. jolst & cutspace

arrival
all these pills got me suicidal
i dont want one i want like five tho
she want me, she is not my type tho

smoke different drugs we not like you
keep it peaceful, dont want to fight you
i do what i want, what i like to
i dont want one so imma buy two

i just lay in bed cuz i dont want go
i dont wanna talk to you i dont check my phone
move the bar by myself so its low
i cant write shit if im not alone

i just buy shit i dont even know
i just take this cuz i gotta cope
molly got the wall changing colors on its own
ketamine crystals fuckin up my nose

here we are again
i cant walk again
i cant sleep even
i dont want nofriends
she just gimme head
sin bound im not blessed
i cannot confess
lay my head to rest
its just for the best

dont what to do i feel so awful
i want opiates i want a problem
ruin my life i want to fall in
u cant do shit, you cant stop it

i once had a soul but i lost it
if i dont know you imma block it
never leave my room cuz im boxed in
do drugs all day, break a promise

foilsmoke prod. jolst & taylor morgan

i got eyestrain
smoking propane
fucked up my brain
come to my place

do it my way
dont know what day
i just cant stay

by the way
im not okay
can u go away
wanna go away

wanna throw away
i miss snow days
i miss old days
i dont know my name

gas what i smoke yuh
last place, switch the controller
when im sober dont know her
i know we can make it gon go up

afterparty, i aint gon show up
coming up, molly, im gon throw up
push and pull i cant make my mind up
sit in bed imma waste my time up

i think imma die soon
opiates fuck with  my vitals
stay awake breathe this shit vital
dont know what i need imma spiral

oh my fucking godddd i miss you
always fall im always   injured
oh my fucking godddd im with you
favorite person thats an issue

favorite person til i hate you
hate the person that i made you
hate myself so i keep blades too
hate the room that i feel chained to

stay with me and im gon change you
i cant bare to even face you
it dont matter im gon chase you
this is always what it comes to
instant love but with the fake you

propane prod. jolst & taylor morgan

ur infectious
accela its hangin on my necklace
only thing i know is codependence
ask questions im always gon deflect it
been there before so i respect it
redose i gotta get my next hit
i think bout past n not the present
one of these days im gonna end it

life is so precious  
so i always get fucked up and waste it
all this fuckin shit i gotta live with
only feel okay in new places

on the waitlist
im so faded
everfresh, i jus fuckin laced it
i just lit foil and chased it

i wanna give up
i just wanna fall asleep 
i dont wanna wake up
wanna fuck my life up

i decided
i just my made my mind up
ill buy it
i know i fucked up

accela prod. jolst & taylor morgan

i feel so bad
watch it fly past
wanna go back
i jus wan cash
no chill, im spazzed
i done made racks
always place last
chew, it hit fast

nod im passed out
i dont cash out
i been blacked out
wanna crash out
im jus not allowed
she gon find out
we gon fall out
to high cant count
im gon pass out

ketamine, i cant see
u cant lie on team

u jus fuckin bite the lure
mindlessly, i keep blades on me
she fly to me

i dont care bout you, just text to me
im too high cant read

imma pharmacy
theres no price to me
copiers they all nice to me

want life for free
die with me
no privacy

hiding but
they findin me
no price, delete

talk to me
what do you need
im yours to keep

promise me
watch me bleed
keep god with me

thought i could control myself but i was wrong
thought i could just help myself but i was wrong
all for nothing i want something help me god
right before i die is where i wanna be

biting pills prod. jolst & homesick

me n u <3 (prod. evan jolley)

I'm broken without a purpose
shits beautiful but its not working
stay inside so I close tha curtain
i’m broken without a purpose
I'm broken without a purpose
shits beautiful but its not working
stay inside so I close tha curtain
i’m broken without a purpose

if only it was easy 
my throat wouldn't be closing

I'm broken without a purpose
shits beautiful but its not working
stay inside so I close tha curtain
i’m broken without a purpose 
I'm broken without a purpose
shits beautiful but its not working
stay inside so I close tha curtain
i’m broken without a purpose

if only it was easy 
my throat wouldn't be closing
if only it was easy 
my throat wouldn't be closing

if only.. [evan jolley]

willow
she/her

cry_mobb: https://soundcloud.com/user-799150706

if only.. [evan jolley]

willow.x