lyrics:

that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live forever

i'll kill you again just to live in your head
(and nothing i could say would make it alright)
and hating my guts will just raise your rent
(the guilt keeps me awake 'til sunrise)

that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live forever

i'm so full of myself is what i think
(that you're still hung up on me is presumptuous)
'cause i am embedded in how i think
(when i lost myself over nothing)

that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live forever

it kills me again and again who i am
i thought i was special i'm just a man

how to live forever

im begging please, dont let me go now, oohh (uhh), im screaming out loud for you ooh

cause you've been on my mind baby now, i think im going crazy
and lately
cant turn to you for safety, and you act like you dont even need me around, can you tell me what thats about ?

OH cause baby i cant turn, cause lately, 
you are all i see, even in my dreams oohh

cause you are everything i need, ill make this puny life for you and me, worthy
for even the gods to see

song 25

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didn't feel 100% about this song but felt it was important and still wanted to put it out.

heavily inspired by https://soundcloud.com/saoirsedream/thelich & also all the softer songs on brat by charli xcx

LYRICS
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What can I do about it
I can’t just fall asleep
And it gets to a point around it
The burden they can’t see
Oh me, oh my
I’m doing things I swore I’d never do with fingers crossed
I fade, I’m lost
I’m seeing what the floor can show me when I give my all

Is it worth it for the high
Is control out of my sight
3 shots in and I’m born anew, need more like this that I can do
Is this ruining my life

I’m playing on survival
I’m barely on two feet
At least I’m not suicidal
But is that enough for me
Monotony will kill me
I can’t die before this crazy night
It’s late, they’re right, I’m filthy
I could die from substance and be fine

Is it worth it for the high
Is control out of my sight
3 shots in and I’m born anew, need more like this that I can do
Is this ruining my life

how to live forever

willandra