life imitates life

death by love

Embodiment Of My Depression

MYSTERY

Twilight

Duvet

If u walked in my skin
Youll Feel the jail
embed, it feels
Like Eternal ache
Stuff me in
Its beautiful 
Let Me out
just like he did
 
the doll i thought i lost
i left it at the dance
when we drove we crashed
it flew right out my hands
us two we act as one
i wish we never did
its all his fucking fault
he thought that i was him

Carnage Bargain

Heather Doubtfire

Distressor

Leave

recorded in jr's garage
produced by jakob danger

guitar/vox: jr polanco
bass: gavin alvarado
drums: dax corcoran

Playground

Modern Baseball -  Re - Do (Love Session)

walked into a mirror now im slipping on banana peels
everything is eye food i guess im gonna die soon
smoking by the ounce i wont be alive by june
ill be on the other side of a driveby soon
i hate my family and i know that they hate me too
im a winner in reality im just a loser too

blazing it to sleep

Hopeless Romantic

Ramen Waitress

july - sorry guys i did it again

Missed Connections

Indirect Kiss

In 1995, New Jersey punk band Gimp released an album called Smiles for Macavity. These are slightly edited and enhanced versions.

Magnolium

Mrs. Butterworth's Indestructible Bomb Shelter

This dimly lit confinement that I call my own apartment has sucked me in a web of self pity and decay
I seem to find myself just lying awake in bed until 2 PM on Saturdays just wasting myself away


I'll never leave

Tell me that I'm different. I know it doesn't make a difference that my differences differ, it's all the same anyways
cause I try (yeah I try) and I'll try ( yeah sure,"try") but in the end I'm still alone and just totally lame
At least I tell myself that anyways

I'm hard on myself and I can't seem to stray from the idea that I'm worthless and have nothing else to give
I haven't slept a wink in what feels like days but I know I've only been awake since noon today
And it's 4 PM

God damn it

Tell me that I'm different. I know it doesn't make a difference that my differences differ, it's all the same anyways
cause I try ’yeah I try’ and I'll try ( yeah sure, "try") but in the end I'm still alone and just totally lame



Since you left I haven't felt the same. The reason that I live, 3000 miles away
It's just hard to sit around all day and not be reminded of all the things you'd say
To make me laugh, to make my fears go away
A condition that's position eats me everyday
I just wish there could be another way for you to come home, back to me, back to the old days

These days that I just lay awake have taught me what you really mean
I should be more dependent but I find it hard to determine if it's even worth living my own days


Words That Rhyme With Different, Etc.

Whirr & Nothing

Ease

I Miss You

Flyleaf

I'm So Sick

Holy Ghost

Just Another Face

Introduction To Mayhem

Loose (Album Version)

cover pic taken by Indy De Los Santos(@indy.dls on ig)

lyrics:
i know 
you don't 
ever 
think about me 
i know 
your so 
better off with he

i wish 
you were
 right here
right here by my side 
 i'm up 
at night 
with these
dumb thoughts in 
my mind
 

i’m a
pushover
 i don’t have a-
ny real friends 
every
one hates me 
i want it 
all 
to
 end

i don’t know what to do
i’m always thinking of you
it’s your fault you’re in my head 
it’s your fault you’re in my head


but i know 
you hate
 me 
and that’s
 okay
I’m lost
 and i can’t
 get out
of my own head

Playground

willowake