the only normal people are the ones who you really haven't got to know yet.

I am Nothing

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GSM Phase 2+ (𝘏𝘪𝘨𝘩 𝘚𝘱𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘊𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘪𝘵 𝘚𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘋𝘢𝘵𝘢)

“you fuckers give me claustrophobia!”

this is one of my favorite songs i’ve ever made!!! i love how this came out, honestly. it’s about being afraid of others getting too close, and living with that fear every day. it’s deeply personal, but i really hope someone can find comfort in this song in a way? idk i like it tho and it was definitely therapeutic to make.

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claustrophobia.

“fall in love with me, i know it’s hard, I know it’s hard.
fall in love with me, i know that it will never be.”

this song is about never finding love, and feeling that you’ll die alone because of your own hang ups. i hope you like this one, it’s deeply personal (all of these are honestly). 

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veil.

Here’s a sad little song about being alone and afraid to show myself to people, and honestly not just being afraid but also just not knowing how. i sing abstract lyrics that don’t really make sense, but i still think it sounds really good, even if it’s not perfect. i hope someone enjoys this little tune.

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the whites of her eyes.

“look into the sky with your bloodshot eyes.
don’t know where to find them when they’re in disguise.
look into the stars, where i’d go so far
if i didn’t fucking have fucking bloodshot eyes.”

this song was something i experimented on a LOT, and honestly i think it came out okay. i really hope it embodies that eerie feel i tried to create, and i do think it does to an extent at least. i hope anyone who reads this will enjoy the song :)

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bloodshot.

this is the result of me experimenting with a lot of different harmonies. as for the title of this one, i called it “nyctophilia” as that is the word for a preference of darkness, or a comfort in it. i feel that i am always most comfortable at night, since it is quiet, peaceful, and the most restful part of my day. i can unwind, and i don’t need to deal with the stresses of the everyday world. so, this term resonates with me greatly. anyway, I hope you guys like this little song :’)

much love,

specterose ~~

nyctophilia

this song is so peaceful for me :’) i thought of the line “when the rain subsides” as a line that resembles thinking of when life will get better, and when you’ll stop feeling like you’re waiting to feel joy again after not feeling it for a long time. “rain” in this context is the feeling of depression…

anyway, i hope you guys like this little tune :) i know that i am proud of it!

when the rain subsides

LIFE FLOWER

Music video by Vampire Exec out now

https://youtu.be/D4nM2DLKkeM?feature=shared

Move Like Water

​heart attack

gargoyle demo

Unreleased remix by unknown DJ during PAIN RAVE
1/150 (for the love of god send me the rest)
@1800_PAIN

1800PAINSECK - BASECK [REMIX]

I used to blame God

alt ver. to avoid copyright
remind me to private tracks instead of deleting them

სამოთხის ლაბირინთში꧂ (feat. vai5000)

P/H/Y/S/A remix of Martin Solveig's "+1" 
Original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uRi_xo92VE

plu5 0n3

messy songs manufactured with love ~ ✨<3

i have more content on my yt channel as well for anyone interested :’)

i appreciate everyone who supports me ^_^ I just love making music ~

nyctophilia

specterose ~

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