thank you to everyone that had a hand in this and for everyone who has been listening and showing support. I didnt know what to put for the genre since its a bunch of different ones so i chose pop idffk lol.

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself

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i hate myself & i hate that i hate myself [p. back2thapast+sor]

https://soundcloud.com/auburnleavesfall

lyrics:
go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

vain

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auburnleavesfall - vain

what a way to go, you've got a
a way to go still
did you pray for those nights i've spent
thinking way to go still
what you hate the most will be 
the easiest to fall in love with
when your eyes are closed, you pray for 
torture that's not been come up with
came to my place, laid up against me
i give my thanks and you go against me
feel out of place it's like no one gets me
i forgot to stay so no one forgets me
i still see your face in my mind aplenty
even in outer space you couldn't let me go
if you're gonna hate me cause i'm changing
then before i become who i am i just want you to let me know
i let go, i don't know you, 
wanted to before but
i don't want to, no not anymore
never can be sure until you're swimming to the shore
sharks in the water and blood on my shorts
started to get further but they're catching up of course
i don't even bother being careful anymore
all i do is falter and forget to lock the door

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

way2go

s/o @juhiss

yea, ill fuck it up again i got rust in my head
i know i’m not the one but can we play pretend
every time i look at u it’s picture perfect thru my lens
i’m so used to suffering but u can make it end, make it end

omw to new york, blowing red lights
doing 110 speeding past the metlife
i’ve never been too sure that it felt right
until the moment ur eyes met mine

hollowbody bitch, i’m sinking w the ship
i can already tell she’s got death on her lips
a thousand reasons i should leave, i don’t need a list
but it’s fucked up, baby i would die for this

it’s been a long time, i need u all mine
when i’m by ur side everything feels alright
it’s been a long time, i need u all mine
when i’m by ur side everything feels alright

yea, ill fuck it up again i got rust in my head
i know i’m not the one but can we play pretend
every time i look at u it’s picture perfect thru my lens
i’m so used to suffering but u can make it end, make it end

omw to new york, blowing red lights
doing 110 speeding past the metlife
i’ve never been too sure that it felt right
until the moment ur eyes met mine

omw2ny (nothing2do)

lochmoar v1 (nico north) (snippet)

27 bones

ilyl1gh

lyrics:

(ilyl1ght)
(you okay?)
im not sure 

ohh
dreamt of you, though you would stay 
i think of you from miles away 
the thought of you drives me insane 
i know the truth im not to blame 

i hear what you say from behind my back
i cut my existence its just who i am 
cant tell the difference from the blood in my hand 
dont see what im missing, i feel like i am.

(srypedia)

you’re not a person
i see who you are
cut off all emotions and just play guitar
i’m done matching motives
i don’t give a damn
if you think im evil, wretched, satan
i’m always the people pleaser
nothing else
new year i won’t fake emotions
go to hell
don’t care if our morals don’t match up
go cry
you think im insensitive 
i’ll leave, don’t have time

(shine)
i’m not a person, i’m barely a man
look in the mirror, don’t know who i am
if He’s got a way for me, what is the plan?
i don’t understand.
look in your eyes, all i see is patience
figuring myself out, you’re sitting waiting
brain’s kinda fucked but i don’t think im mistaken
my love for you is growing, i don’t see it changing

oh, okay ft. ilyl1ght & srypedia

produced by mitsa.

lyrics :
I am good at nothing
I- I run away
It feels like I'm in pain
I don't deserve a thing

I feel so unaware
Ruin it all don't care
I miss the touch of your hair
Hate when you say it's unfair

I am good at nothing
I- I run away
It feels like I'm in pain
I don't deserve a thing

27 bones

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