Co-founder at TransFrequency Recordings I'm a liberated trans woman into drum n bass. 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(karma will find you and eat you) my heroes are Oscar Wilde, Valerie Solanas, Paul Verlaine, Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath, James Baldwin, Michael Dillon and many many more. Imagine what these people went through because they didn't fit into the heteronormative world we're living in. People who tell you that heterosexuality is the normality need to understand that this is not true. Humans are way more complicated than this. Although the world is changing, it it not changing fast enough and humans are centuries behind when it comes to this. you can't stop what's meant to be. why would you want to stop it if it's meant to be. lol there is that thing out there called magic and it's a very very very powerful force and if you truly knew what magic is, you would never ever think of going around trying to hurt anyone. You'd better buckle up mate because you're about to go on a ride. You won't forget that ride. Fool! babe please, stay away from my boyfriends. I'm asking you politely one time. I'm gonna ask you politely three times, in case you didnt hear me properly the first time around. Please, stay away from my boyfriends. All of them. Thank you very much. I'm asking you very politely and quietly. Ok? making fun of other people is the sign of the weak and the unhappy. Be happy! the greatest thing about drum n bass is that we are all friends! We all support each other and we all want everybody to succeed, that's what makes the difference. You're welcome! extremely cheesy, cringey, corny, pathetic and embarrassingly awkward French trans woman into all things romantic but also very proud of being able to feel things, some are dead inside but i'm not, my body is alive and full of ecstasy. I believe in true eternal love and although I was born in the wrong era obviously, it doesn't mean that I will never find this love. It's easy to laugh at me and to take advantage of me but I will never stop dreaming because life is a tragedy so better be funny. life tells funny stories so having a good sense of humour helps a lot. I can only imagine what it would be like kissing you and although our lips will never ever meet I want you to know that I dream of you today I fell in love! I fell in love with the sun peeking through the trees and the cooling feeling of a breeze I fell in love with the softness of my new pillow and the distant sound of the radio I fell in love with the smell of rippling seawater and the taste of freshly made batter i fell in love with the busy streets of the old city and the gusty wind warbling its melody i fell in love with a movie that made me feel less alone like the voice of a friend on the phone I fell in love with a poem that had your name in it and the silly muzak playing in the lift I fell in love with the idea of surrendering to my tears and overcoming all my fears. I fell in love with the joy of caring for something as the moonlight softly fell on my skin. Today I fell in love with all these things but I didn't fall in love with you and that's a sin. Freedom of speech includes the right to express our views aloud through different ways such as public protest and demonstrations, published articles, books and leaflets, television and radio broadcasting, works of art including nudity, the internet and social media, wearing an armband to protest a war, the use of certain offensive words or phrases to convey a political message, the right to engage in symbolic speech and action such as burning a flag and also the right NOT to speak... These are democratic rights and freedoms and therefore can not be condemned no matter how much you disagree with it. Good luck with that! they lurk in the shadows watching your every move they wait for that moment when they can make their move with social media they assassinate you their inbox infested with mean spirited words but when they see you on the streets they smile at you and ask you how are you this is the modern world and if you are not careful the mob will come at you like ugly dogs with fangs of hate ready to tear your soul apart no more words, i know them all, but this goodbye I've never known Life is so ironic, being a trans woman in this world requires me to have a massive pair of balls, now that's hilarious. Luckily I'm very strong within myself and I can take one hell of a beating and even come back for more. That's how I was brought up. I was nobody's little princess, let me tell you that, I had to build myself up out of nothing but one thing I always do is acting in all fairness and I would never ever dream of hurting anyone's feelings and for this reason alone, I always know when it's time to walk away, walking away with my fairness. You're the most beautiful thing I have seen in years, even in decades. Of course it's unfair who needs to hear this? Noone, absolutely noone and that's fair enough this is the wake up phase, the realisation, the awareness, the understanding. It's a painful time, like a child realising that father christmas does not exist. It's a world of illusions that is falling apart with this overwhelming sense of betrayal. people are not your friends and the older you get, the less they are your friends. stop giving them ammunition. they are having a field day! stop mixing with them, stop sharing your feelings and your ideas with them. they are not like you, they do not like you. they pretend so they can get to you! they do not like you! wake up!!!! some people are so so talented and yet they are so lost in their own bullshits, it breaks my heart. What a waste! It's infuriating especially when you know that we only have one life and time flies, it flies like i've never seen it fly before. What a waste, so much beauty wasted. Urgh! you will never hear from me again it was nice while it lasted. good luck with your piss take i doubt it will take you anywhere they dont do piss take degrees at uni last time i checked. mate, how deluded can you be? when are you gonna wake up? when are you gonna understand? people who don't support you aren't your supporters! friends who don't befriend you aren't your friends! drivers who don't drive aren't drivers even if they own a car! men who identify as women are neither men or women! football games that don't take place on a football pitch aren't games! when are you gonna understand that they are taking the piss! you can't be that stupid! they are taking the piss, they always have and always will. they are taking the piss! and so we're through i've seen the true you a bond once shared and promises made now just a tender ember as they cry and suffer foolish to trust your hurtful lust pain and sorrow for a lonely tomorrow your circle gets smaller when you betray a lover you're running out of options you wont be forever young today i lost a friend our laughters will never blend some may comprehend to me it means the end to some, loss means nothing but to me it's everything and too painful a sting as my grieving begins how can something so sweet be so aching? how can a light so bright turn into night so fast? silence is a science it tells you everything you need to hear no answer is an answer denial's twin sister like an english summer waiting for the sun that remains a stranger forever chocolate vanilla red velvet too fairy lights all delights I crave them too but laughter is employed and the rain pours down like a cascade of shame that gets on my nerves it's a joke on a plate taste of bitter fate and things left unsaid but i can still hear them oh sweet fork forsaken heaven no safe haven to stay this storm wont pass and the river will rise and the wind will howl like the sound of laughters it will get on my nerves sponge, frosting, everything in between it was a lover's dream and it was only a dream but every slice comes with a price coins, pennies, chattering teeth, leaves and debris now the sky weeps and the rain pours down in sheets but there, look, another bag of treats your ugly hands grasping my mind twisting my thoughts and emotions blind building a prison of fear and doubt where my hopes and light slowly die. in your shadows unseen and unknown lurks the force of your crippling attack i can feel its desperate weight as I gather what's left to protect I send back your darkness with resolve with my inner strength i evolve i fight for my light so i'm free from the evil that comes at me stay away from those who reproduce, reproduce, reproduce... reproduce the same mistake over and over and over again, stay away from this hour bittersweet and incomplete, away from the path I once knew, faded, lost and untrue, away from the lies and the countless times when it felt so blue, when grace was telling me what I had to do with kindness and care. uncharted and unknown like a new skin all my own, a story begins to unveil, with the wonders of a brand new day because I will never reproduce, reproduce, reproduce... reproduce the same mistake over and over and over again. i gave you my light i opened my heart your shadows followed close behind your actions unsaid moments of joy fled each mistake a scar as we grew apart the roads not taken the chances we missed like heavy burdens that cant be dismissed your ghostly presence a bitter essence sorrows and lessons learned tears and wisdom earned there lies your last chance remember our last dance You should have listened those who choose to play see fury on full display with front row tickets on time for sweet regrets the storm begins to reign wind and thunder on a chain the once clear sky now a foreboding cry unleashing its brutal rain that no man can retain tossing trees like mere sticks as chaos quickly picks a fierce intensity tearing their world to bits a rage in its untamed path the heart of its wrath washes away their sins swaying wildly in the wind swallows all their might and last ever fight. damn. where is that playlist gone? I know they come and go but it always breaks my heart when they disappear. A woman's strength is harder than rock. Childish men learn this the hard way. True beauty is the courage to act. your tiny tiny tiny conspiracy only confirms what a tiny tiny human being you are. I feel so sorry for you and the people around you. don't worry, life will take care of you, it always does. Trust me, I've seen it before. my heart is a flower, delicate and fragile, you must handle it carefully, you can't bruise it, it won't take it. some people are funny, they ignore you, they pretend they don't give a damn about you, about what you do but secretly they're watching your every move and then one day you say something or you do something and then they pick that very specific thing to try defining you with it, holding it against you, they come at you with knives and attack you out of the blue. Oh, sorry babe, how come you care about me suddenly? Who you fooling now, you or me? You make me sick. You will never define me. You can't define me, no one can and no one ever will. Get that right. Rant over their story belongs to another time, another place but for now, they are happy to be there their light intangible transcends the physical a peaceful amity of mutual understanding pure and divine at last two stars aligned infinite connection through tribulations these lights burning bright side by side as they belong in beauty found a cosmic curse in the universe destined to be in sweet harmony that sticky pearl the miserable wait and this cruel need that devours the flesh. Eiffel for you i'll show u minimal up there with the fairies is an understatement if some of u can be dj's then i definitely have a chance too. i must be doing the right thing, I can tell from my surroundings im putting somethin together, it's gonna sound very funny, oh la la, qui moi? Remember, E is for Egypt, J is for... A is for... N is for... Love has its secrets, the long awaited hour and its silent pain. don't worry drum n bass. mummy will be back really soon <3 <3 when i first saw you perfect, unaware story told anew torments swept away silent and graceful you stood there alone like an ageless moon casting a soft glow your playful gold hair beckoning heavens dancing in the air words never spoken the calm in your voice offering your name A song to rejoice to my ears aflame Flesh has no purpose, when reason vanishes, my body turns into a lie, an act of betrayal. There is enough music in my heart, yet I always want more, a cry in the forest of my mind, empty like a dusty mirror. I fool myself. Shame is no injury. The glint in a bird's eye celebrates the mystery of trees, I feel their unity. I'm not looking for an answer, I stand by the window of discomfort, lingering in the shadows of my self doubts, dreaming of a man I would fall in love with if... but everybody's got a price, for nothing or for pride, my body isn't ready for this. Beyond perception, beneath my eyelids, sorrow returns to corrupt the dragons of any sensual enjoyment I could predict. All my words have been uttered, I have nothing more to say. A burning sensation under my skin, feeling deprived of attention, unseen by the eyes of men, gone are the longings, the excitement and the laughters. I collect the memories of this infernal loneliness like prophetic tokens. Suffering is easy, the heart can never be pushed aside but this will pass, from solid to liquid to nothing, devouring what was whole once, a portion of a dream in the burning intensity of my being Some of us have thorns in the soul. this rampant positive toxicity is getting on my tits one more week at uni then I'll be free, i feel like ive been chewed and chewed and i'm about to get spat out like a gum that lost its flavour, uni has changed me so much, forever. i can't believe it's been 3 years already. I can't believe I went right to the end of it, no dropping out, I can't believe I've transitioned thru it. what a journey, what a story, what a mind trip. im gonna hav the summer to myself. I might just sign on and enjoy myself to the fullest.. keep spreading love even if you get told off for it don't you stop spreading it you beautiful, loving soul I was thinking I should organise a catwalk for my feelings of frustration. One after the other, they could walk along the long narrow stage and show off the latest outfits and accessories I have designed just for them! Haute couture has always been a dream of mine so Paris, Milan, London, get ready! Miss Jean is coming for you and she's pretty moody! Bloody défilé de mode! God I miss Egypt. All these memories All that beauty Cry me a river Bigger than the Nile books don't get old we get old books don't change we change it's good to read them again affections always diverge why so uptight? some truths are self-evident. poetry is a gift a gift to the worthy Time to relax: Leave me alone, Let me be alone with my thoughts, Leave me alone, let me be, Leave me alone, let me breathe, I don't care about you, Your words mean nothing You try to provoke me, Spewing your venom, floozy this is just target practice, understanding of the structure of villanelle poems (complex, specific, 5 tercets, 1 quatrain ABA ABA ABA ABA ABA ABAA. 1st and 3 rd line must recur) In the stillness of the night I find (1) (R) Guiding me through this mysterious space A comforting veil to calm my troubled mind (R) I lose myself in thoughts of a different kind (2) As the stars above me quietly trace A comforting veil to calm my troubled mind (R) I welcome the darkness that is intertwined (3) With the depts of my soul, a sacred place In the stillness of the night I find (R) ...................................................................... (4) ...................................................................... A comforting veil to calm my troubled mind (R) ....................................................................... (4T) ........................................................................ In the stillness of the night I find (R) A comforting veil to calm my troubled mind (R) this is just target practice, understanding of the structure of sestina poems (six stanzas of six lines, no rhyme then 3 lines envoi) 1- abcdef 2- faebdc 3- cfdabe 4- ecbfad 5- deacfb 6- bdfeca I long for the day when this nightmare will end, When the sun will rise, banishing darkness, And I'll be free from this suffocating pain, No longer haunted by the shadows that creep, Through the corners of my fragile heart, Leaving behind a trail of despair that never lifts (Bloody French poets, they're all gay!!!) :) :) :) this is just target practice, understanding of the structure of limerick poems (5 lines with rhyming AABBA 8, 8, 5, 5, 8 syllables pattern. The first two lines rhyme with the fifth line, third and fourth rhyme together, anapaestic dominant) Tomorrow, what will be our fate? (8) Will we thrive or disintegrate? (8) Progress so advanced, (5) The world so entranced, (5) Let us hope for a better state. (8) this is just target practice, understanding of the structure of Haiku poems (3 lines only, 17 phonetic units in a 5, 7, 5 pattern with a cutting word and a seasonal reference) Inside a dream world (5) Visions of reality (7) Drift away like clouds (5) White petals dancing (5) Fragrant whispers fill the air (7) Flowers bloom in spring (5) Whirling in the breeze (5) Shining like the morning light (7) Stealing every heart (5) Green eyes shimmer bright (5) Reflections of the forest (7) Wisdom and beauty (5) remember the last time you saw me it was the last time you ever saw me i'm just a silent memory in the grand scheme of things i'm not running away anymore. Yay! All my life Ive been running away from myself and my problems but the last couple of years I've been through situations I would have usually been running away from but I didn't, I stood up and took it like a true woman! Oh yeah like a true woman, I stood up for myself and I faced it! I said no, this time I'm not running away. This time I'm gonna show you what I'm made of! I'm not a coward anymore like I was as a man. Oh no, I'm a beautiful woman who stands up for herself and everything she believes in! No more running away! Let's see where that gets me. what is it with men? what is it about them? the way they lead me astray playing their lil game questioning myself again telling me I misbehave hot blood through my veins making me lose my way what is it with men? what is it about them? should i deal with them playing hard to get i'm waiting in vain for that special day my love getaway spent so much time alone i aint fit for your idea of a relationship i stink of fading memories like an old box of jewellery so dont come here to confuse me ive swallowed more lies that you could ever think i prefer silence over the circus of your mouth my shadows have eaten all the light my butterflies are glued to the night sky they eat your brain with bread and wine behave like strangers, betray like strangers spilling drinks before last order an envy that keeps wetting your skirt so we can weep together and weep together and weep together one thing i like to do is figuring out what is it with you. All about that Wingz album! 2024 sorted! Oh, I know it's that time again A sweet aroma that gently awakes In the kitchen, flour dusts the air As she prepares to bake with care Eggs crack and butter melts A simple chemistry that never fails Hardworking hands and skin blush Whisking, blending with a gentle touch The mix thickens ready to be spread A timeless love shared beyond compare The oven hums, the end is near The house filled with a scent so dear And at last a true joy she finds Holding her creation so divine Each bite a piece of her heart The delicious taste of her culinary art show me your handwriting for there is nothing else you can show me show me your handwriting for there is nothing else you can show me show me your handwriting for there is nothing else you can show me Admiration is one thing but it doesn't mean anything. Let's not get carried away here. Appreciating someone's talent or someone's inner beauty does not validate a need for escalating. Oh no. There is no need to be rude there. You could simply be a source of inspiration, and that comes with a certain level of intensity but what you sweetly decree is only half of the story and I have control over my feelings, you will see. Time steals everything so tread carefully because when the well runs dry, it will ask for your tears. Admiration is nothing but a daydream. Souls may fly, diamonds may shine It's called freedom of expression This effing bee is winding me up I swear! All about that honey baby. Come and get me "Men's weaknesses are women's strength." (Voltaire) 2 more weeks and I'll be free from uni, at last. It was the best 3 years of my life. every trans woman has a tale, a tale about a loving straight male. Yes you heard it, some straight men don't mind a side game but that's a secret. Boooo what if you're just a stupid dream! But why why why do you feel so real. I can't be that foolish! Not at my age, I'm ashamed. oh darling, i'm gonna miss you. I can't remember the last time I've witnessed so much beauty in one place. It's beyond bad timing, it's beyond understanding but know that each moment spent in your company gave me a renewed appetite for life. An appetite that grieving almost took away from me. Now I know that this journey is not over yet and that I should make the best of what I've got left even if I lost so much along the way. So so much. There is hope, always, even in the darkest hours of our life. Well done Sephia for reaching the 1000 followers milestone. Amazing! Long overdue and well deserved. All of it. I was there from the beginning and I saw you growing and growing and I'm so happy for you. What a beautiful miracle. As label partners, our relation is so unique and authentic, you've always stood by me and I will always stand by you through the storms and the quiet days like partners in all things but never possessing, never controlling and always believing (even when I turn into a crazy bitch) so sail away my friend, go and explore the world, go on your musical adventures until the moon falls, until the night calls and come back to see me to tell me how your life has been coz for you I'll be waiting like the world's proudest mummy. <3 <3 <3 imagination thieves, inspire. oh my poison, you're so dull, im beautiful, a scarf around the neck, your familiar face, clouds of lust, lack of trust, still you persist, i resist, evil thoughts, chewing hope, pull the rope look at you feeble nature, falling in and out of love, you words taste like mud, that odd thing, this shameful feeling, discard the weird and betray the heart with self induced misery, pathetic. really Does the truth exist? Good question. Please debate. Think in terms of unveiling, by conformity to the real and with the quality of being certified by observation or by experimentation. Apply this to situations in life and see where it leaves you. What's true? And more importantly, who is true? Eroded by the struggles of her life, she fades away in silence. God I can write. In English as well, not even my first language. What does it say? I need to do something with writing but how? How am I gonna do this? A novel? Some poems? A journal? A series of letters to lovers, friends and foes? How? How? How? One thing is sure, this will be my last ever struggle. Like a love letter to life as we say goodbye to each other. Thank you for the good times, ironically. Nothing like a bit of Stoicism to overcome life's daily shit show. Acceptance, mindfulness, discipline, indifference to external events, ignoring the ignorants... Oh, don't you feel my resilience? You sucker! I'm dating this young man from Afghanistan. He has the most beautiful eyes. Deep, intense dark brown eyes infused with the essence of his past experiences. Language is a huge barrier, he can hardly speak English but it doesn't matter when we lie in silence next to each other. Those eyes make me melt and his arms make me feel safe. To those who feel completely disassociated from the world, please understand that the disease isn't coming from inside you, the real disease is the world itself with its idea of a dream life and being happy. You know these people who practice fake happiness, that's called positive toxicity, and it's currently taking place on social media and generally everywhere you look. They're the crazy ones. Do not buy into this. That's why you feel sick but there is nothing wrong with you. This world will keep telling you that there is something wrong with you, that you are the problem because you don't want to play that game, that you have to take pills, that you must undergo treatments and therapies... when really it's the world you live in that is the disease. You must keep on fighting. You must free yourself from the positive toxicity. How to protect your energy: 1- Imagine yourself in a bubble of protective light 2- Cut your energetic ties with anyone who drains your energy 3- Practice grounding and centering at the end of the day 4- Get a good night's sleep to allow your brain to rest and reset. 5- Cast a circle to protect your spell and rituals spies spying with no eyes. lol dreams and billet-doux mailed into space like the final edit of a little fugue that whispers your magical name... People need to stop taking things personally, especially on social media. What you read on social media has nothing, absolutely nothing to do with you so please put your air of self-importance away in a cupboard and lock the door with a key. Thanks. No one is that important and everyone is replaceable in no time. Believe me, I've seen it so so many times. The ego is your worst enemy, it will fool you over and over and you will keep falling for it til you get it right. You have a lifetime to get it right so dont waste anymore time and stop thinking that the world evolves around you please you lil prince or lil princess, whatever they used to call you back in the day. Fuckin grow up I started running again. That's the biggest surprise of the year so far. Before covid, I used to run a lot, I used to run from Bristol to Bath in 2 hours. I even managed to run the Bristol half marathon once. That was official. 3 months ago I started running again. I run religiously once every two days between 30 to 60 minutes and days I'm not running I go for a 90 minute walk. That's discipline. What I'm saying is I've got a hold on myself again and when I'm performing at my best I get to a level of fitness that is similar to military personnel fitness with a military mindset. I turn into a tank, a unit, a French weapon: selfless, target focused, sharp and silent like a shadow in the night, assault style. Integrity, determination and courage drive me. Speed, strength and agility become second nature and ultimately, missions get accomplished. No emotion, no regret, no doubt. It's just a job. One of my dreams in life is to run a marathon. I thought about it many many times. I'm miles away from this but if I keep going, if I keep building up that stamina again, in a couple of years I can enter a marathon. 26 miles 385 yd of pure misery where each passing second reminds you that our biggest conquests in life start with that very first step. Come and cheer me up! "Surreptitiously", now that's a word, for its meaning and for the way it sounds. Once you've been an alcoholic, you will always be an alcoholic, even if you never ever drink again for the rest of your life, you're still an alcoholic because what you really do is ABSTAINING, that's what you do every single day, you abstain from alcohol but you know pretty well that one drink, one single drink (or a double if you prefer) will take you back there. That's all it takes so keep abstaining, please. You've got this, I've got this, we've got this. PS: waking up on a Sunday morning without a distinctly excruciating hangover is one of the best feeling in the world. Freedom feels like this The Bell Jar novel is such a heartbreaking story, I can't remember the last time I felt so moved by a book, it really hit home as I know that many many of us can identify with Esther's struggle. For those of us who live under the bell jar, the world is indeed a bad dream but we can survive, we can overcome the darkness. RIP Sylvia Plath. You were a gorgeous woman, far too young to go, far too young... Some people will try to belittle you, they will say to you that no one gives a fuck about what you say or what you think, that you're just waffling on, that what you feel means shit, that your feelings dont matter at all and that your feelings dont deserve to be validated. It's common practice, those who want to silence you are pure evil, you must speak up! If it matters to you then it matters, end of. Even if you cant prove what bothers you, even if you can't put a name on it or if it doesnt manifest itself physically or materialistically, it doesn't mean it's not happening. If that's the way you feel then that's the way you feel and that's valid. Liberation all the way! Of course, there is no other way but, and there is a but: liberation doesn't mean running away from your responsibilities, mate. I'm all for freedom of choice. You're free to choose what you want but you're not free from the consequences of your choices. Consequences, action, reaction. Responsibilities come with a price. brains and spine in one place, must be a dying breed but of course I digress TransFrequency: we're doing things differently here, and that requires a willingness to embrace the unexpected! Real growth and innovation come from pushing past boundaries and trying new things! That we do! Thinking outside the box comes with its fair share of setbacks, challenges and redefined strategies but we can use these as an opportunity to learn, grow and reevaluate what we do. Doing things differently means following our own intuition without worrying about other people's opinions and expectations. This can be difficult in a world that values familiarity, sameness and conformity but it is only by staying true to ourselves and our own unique vision that we can truly make a difference. Yes we can. funny the things we fancy ourselves as... we can be anything. awww that's so sweet. I found this mother figure and oh boy, the world is a better place, it's a universal thing, it goes beyond everything, it's a soothing feeling. I'm safe. It's ok to ask for help, support or advice, I never knew that. It's ok to have a safe space where you can be yourself and express yourself, even if it comes out awkward, this is a non judgemental safe space. I never knew that. The world is a better place why do u come here? dont tell me. ask yourself. One day I'm gonna write a book about drum n bass, I'm gonna write a book about all of you, all the people I've met, those who gave me love and those who gave me regret so you'd better behave! Oh don't worry, I won't mention your real name but you will definitely recognise yourself. Have you ever been told that you must share your toys? I think you have! I think we all have at some point in our life so why are you being so precious about it like we're gonna steal it off you? You can't be that mean! Everybody knows it's YOUR toy, no one is gonna steal it off you so stop acting like it! Insecurity makes us ugly (I've got my insecurities too) and I know you're better than that. I know you're learning but understand that some people would never ever think of hurting someone else's feelings so chill the fuck out all of you and believe in yourself, believe in this love because it's all yours to love. Etre la coqueluche de.... (the first time i ever saw you) In a world consumed by judgement and hate, There stands a silhouette so brave and great. A beacon of light for those afraid to be true, A trailblazer for others to follow through. This icon of truth I know far and wide with strength and beauty that should never hide. Embracing this light that's shinning so bright, Showing the world it's our duty to fight. Standing tall and proud and looking dear, Against the world and against fear. Never feeling lost in the night and never lonely, For my gay icon is here and I'm breaking free, A legacy, a new path for you and me, A testament to love in all its forms, infinite. Tis a fine feeling, a presence so captivating calming the storm within me, i marvel at the beauty of this soothing melody, in awe of this dream that shines so brightly, an ancient warmth to my day as my worries fade away. humble admirer of this true wonder, a mystery unsolved, an ocean of secrets bold, a story untold. A world anew for all to see, so gentle and free. Tis a fine feeling. when you have a dream, when you have a specific goal or a project on the go or something you wanna achieve, there is only two kinds of people in this world: the ones who are gonna help you achieve your dreams (about 1%) and those who aren't (99%). That's simple mathematics. The subtraction of that latter figure is absolutely necessary if you wanna succeed. You must focus on that 1% coz that's what really matters. And I'm not even talking about the ones who are gonna try to stop you. They dont even come into the equation, mofos go to hell for eternity like 3.1415926535... and so on. I'm no fool. Just because Im not saying anything about it doesn't mean i don't know about it. Like a good student, first you observe then you take notes, that's how you build an argument, you do a lot of research, you weight the pros and the cons but you don't judge, you observe and you take notes and then, when you are sure about it, when you have all the information you need, you make that lethal move. Now look at the fool. I wish people would get a reward every time they break a toxic cycle. Toxicity can be very hard to identify, especially when one is in the thick of it or doesn't know any better. If one is born in a family with a toxic system, it can take years to overcome this. Some people are extremely talented at pulling strings and creating all sorts of emotional manipulation, it's an art in itself, a nasty and rotten piece of art but art nonetheless. After escaping the toxicity comes the road to recovery and this takes years sometimes, the reason why is because the experience of trauma refrains us from feeling safe again, even long after the experience has gone, one never feels truly safe again, that's long term damage because trusting people again becomes almost impossible for fear of reliving the same trauma over and over. So yes, thank you. "When you dont allow people to walk over you anymore, the narrative will change. You'll become the villain in their story because you won't be giving them what they have had no problem taking from you. But at least in your story, you'll be free." (Kayil York) Is it plausible that people who are not free dont like people who are free? I've given up drinking, I've changed my diet, I've lost weight, I may even be looking cute and sexy before the summer, well, that is if you can call it a summer. 'French trans woman in a bikini wreaks havoc on the beach' lol That's a great headline. Divorce rate on the rise Bro, she's using you. When are you gonna wake up you silly English flannel All my life, I have suffered from this horrible disease called low self-esteem: lack of self-confidence, lack of self-belief, lack of self-respect and lack of self-worth. It took me years to figure out the origin of this problem. My life was hell. However, since I transitioned, I found my worth as a human being. Realising what I'm worth has completely transformed my life. There are so many situations I would never fall into ever again like I used to in the past, there are so many people who will never be given the opportunity to walk all over me or abuse me ever again. Granted, most of it was my fault because I was allowing these things to happen in the first place because I didn't know any better but now I know better and some of you know that I know better and that's why you have completely disappeared out of my life. As long as I was blind you were having fun but trust me, we'll see who has the last laugh. We'll see. drum n bass is so lucky to have me as a beautiful, intelligent and culturally refined trans woman. I mean I could have gone for house music or even heavy metal but no it was drum n bass who chose me. inner child, motherless child, fatherless child, come summer, no bother, it's ok, im here for you now, mumma gonna take care of you the best she can. No more weeping for love and warmth, I will provide! So be it, with hopeful belief and a bond that even time cant break, a fragile heart fuelled by the love that holds me so close to you This had to stop, the situation had become unbearable, it's just impossible, not even plausible. Hello, beautiful silence, there I find you. eyes that tell the story of eternity. Please DO NOT call me dude. I cant stand this word. I'm not a dude, I'm a lady with attitude and it takes a man to change that attitude. "Elements of the sun, elements of the day, come this way, powers of night and day, I summon thee, I call upon thee, to protect me, SO SHALL IT BE." Penniless lil French boy with big dreams moving to a foreign country only to find bigger dreams. A beautiful story of metamorphosis, authenticity and self discovery. carefully studying my flower's needs, special care, precious and rare. beauty that never fades good boy. mumma is proud of u It will happen eventually imagine all these lil drum n bass labels merging into one big label. That concentration of creative power in one place, neat, tidy and organised. 2024 will be a very different year The fruit is now spoiled and will also decay the companion. You did well. You didn't care when I needed help. You didn't help when I needed care. This is my chance to change come and steal from me, come and steal my best because my best will never be good enough for your life parody. please just let me be The deep magenta of your lips turning into electricity, academics with love, leading my world, pulling me in, raw power gravity. Surrendering maybe, resisting one more time, before the end of the story The sacred and the unsaid right under your eyes of green seas. Bless the roots of Egypt and each new Spring. Pyramidal lighthouses, pink earth feminine and mathematic masculine. I will return as a third entity. before I can even start worrying about what you think, I have to figure out first if what goes on through your mind can actually be called thinking. two people's loneliness coming together, meeting each other, maybe even knowing each other... already somehow. this unspoken understanding, this shared experiencing, no word needed, no time needed in the here and now, just the two of us whispering in an empty room <3 <3 IM massive shout out to all my friends and my besties out there who are supporting what i'm doing at the moment, means so much to me, i clearly couldn't do it without each and everyone of you. i truly feel part of a family. mummy loves you to the moon and back. Dua been on the psychedelics, nice kaleidoscope effect! u go girl my darling, you are the jewel of the world, there is nothing like you, i promised you i would return. i want to feel your arms around me, these homely arms of yours that welcome me, im coming home mummy, oh Cairo you have no idea how much i cherish you the way you cherish me. i love your tiled pavements, your cast iron lamp posts, your sultry heat and your dazzling streets. a feast to my senses as i belong to your history, you will keep me safe, you will let me be myself, you will make me progress, oh Cairo, im coming to you, im such a mess, i need your comfort and your gentleness, i will arrive vulnerable but after visiting you i will leave feeling invincible. not long now mummy. only a few weeks, i will keep learning from you DJ subway station in Prague fear of creativity is a terrible thing nowadays good soldiers know they're already dead. that's why im still fighting your ideal lover is in the afterlife recently ive come to the realisation that i want a man to marry me, ive never felt this before but the thought of it makes me profoundly excited. i want us to get married and buy a house together, i want a bath for the 2 of us so we can pamper ourselves together at the same time, i want to wait for him when he gets back from work and make love to him as soon as he walks through the door, i want to cook him nice meals, i wanna wear sexy clothes just for him... i dont know how is this gonna happen but it will happen. he's out there, i know he is, he doesnt know im looking for him yet but im gonna grab him when i find him and im gonna tell him: "you'd better put a ring on my finger and marry me coz i want to be your bitch for the rest of my life!" where are you boy? i cant wait to go back to Cairo, it's the most beautiful place in the world to me. the scenery, the heat, the dust, the endless maze of streets, the cheeky begging children that wont leave you alone, the gorgeous Muslim women wearing their sexy hijab, the smell of food, perfumes, traffic, horses and donkeys, the skinny cats and stray dogs, the handsome Egyptian men telling me im gorgeous. Where else would i want to be? As a transwoman I dont go to places where im tolerated, i go to places where im celebrated and Egypt is everything to me... I love you Cairo so u dont wanna help me? ok, that's fine. dont worry i wasnt begging, i was just asking politely. <3 <3 oh great! ive been misbehaving and now im on the naughty step! Thanks! the world definitely is not enough, thank u james. Sorry, i only deal with bad bitches. Are you a bad bitch? Ok, come on then. planes dont fall out the sky no matter the turbulences, the tip of the wings have a resistance span of over fifteen metres wide so if you see the plane flapping its wings up and down really fast, dont worry, it aint gonna break, it's just rolling with the winds the thing i value the most in someone is their integrity and trust me im happy to challenge anyone's integrity anytime. this love will not die, it's only beaten down to a place where it can hide. you wanna hide love? when i was in Cairo, this taxi driver told me that if you drink water from the Nile you will become immortal. I looked at the murky water and i looked at him thinking that if i drink this water bruv, i'm gonna be sick to death by the look of it. I dont want to be immortal bruv, life is too much as it is, who wants to live forever anyway? not me! that would be so boring. immortality is overrated but i guess that's life on earth. do yo have any other planet i can try? they should make pizzas so big so that you could sleep on them, and sleep with your friends as well, of course. Pizza friends if anything ever happens to me, god forbid but im not immortal, i just want everyone to know that my last wish is to die in Cairo. That's the exit for me, im coming home mummy <3 <3 <3 i cant wait to go to Cairo again. Only a matter of weeks now. To me Cairo is the mother of the world. That's why me and her get on so well. I'm her child. Did you know that Cairo means 'victorious' in Arabic? How appropriate for the times I'm living now. I'm coming home mummy <3 <3 <3 the life you're livin now aint real bro, you're just an item on the menu, someone out there is reading that menu i need help NOW! not when i'm gone, that will be too late mate! saying: "oh i should have done something about it..." no no no! HELP! NOW! FFS! :) :) it's tearing me apart! Enchanté! Bitch! the reason i didnt go away this summer is because I had to retake one essay for university. I failed one essay which is ok as I ve been writing shitloads of essays in the last 2 years. One fail wasnt gonna be the end of the world but it nearly was because i needed that essay to pass into 3rd year. Today I got my grade and I'm going back to uni motherfuckers!!! Phew! Fuck me! So yeah, third and last year at university for me with a degree at the end of it! Oh boy! Rack em up, rack em up, rack em up! im gonna put a drum n bass show on together like you wont believe it, i need producers, dancers, artists all over the stage doing their thing together like it never happened before. i want this We are "les petites francaises du drum n bass" and we have a routine mate! Check it out! i wish Impact Music would do a podcast for us, im gonna ask him. thank u so much Gifta. u r one special kitten u r! wat u did there. im still amazed Teej is so fucking cute! we become what we need and i need love dont worry about what's happening to me mate, you should be more concerned with what is not happening with u. thank u funny. a couple of days ago, i was sunbathin in a park just chilling and i could hear teenagers messing around in the park, they were talking about me like: "it's a man! no, it's a woman! no, it's a man...." on and on and on lol it was pretty hilarious actually hearing them assessing the situation. keep guessing i thought but dont forget to respect your sisters coz they're tomorrow's mothers <3 <3 <3 u tried to make me look bad? how did that work for u? im curious. i still hav time for u. im 50 next week, fuck me! lol how did that happen? inside i feel like im 20 still, listening to my Goth music on a Sony Walkman, chewing gum, drinking beers and smoking disgusting cigarettes lol (thanks god i gave up) oh well! it just went. thing is i cant take anymore. i cant be asked anymore with going to work, chasing dollars and all that babylon bullshit. nope, im done. I wanna stay at the office all day long doing video and music and promo editing for the label. i dont care if there is no food on my plate or if i get behind with the rent, i cant be asked anymore. I just want to be creative all day long. fuck you babylon. i might move to the forest my favourite insult this week: "shut up you Victorian repressed fuck!" this week i started a hardcore diet and im already seeing results, i make sure i dont eat more that 1000 calories a day which is about half or a third of the daily recommendation guidelines. a normal day for me with food and booze would easily amount to 4000 calories and over as i can happily drink my daily intake of calories just with booze alone. just reading this as im writing it kinda infuriates me. i went from size 12 to 16 even 18 recently and now my goal is to be a 10. the thing i despise the most about myself is my overindulgence whether it's food, booze or drugs. there is no other word for it: I'm a pig and not a friendly pig on top of that. no wonder im single lol disgusting french pig drum n bass is the most versatile, creative and transgressing form of electronic music. the whole spectrum is crazy. all the things you can do with it is beyond imagination, i cant wait to hear what drum n bass will sound like in 50 years time, although i dont think ill be witnessing it i'll be feeling it mofos, for crying out loud! get me off the streets, please! :) :) how much more u think i can take :) :) omg, im feeling a bit overwhelmed with the drum n bass community atm. there is a lot of loving happening right now out there and it feels amazing. omg im feeling very emotional, very much. <3 <3 <3 are passions dangerous? i think they are. they come close to madness i gotta stretch, if i wanna go the distance, i gotta stretch, stretch my body, my mind and my soul, stretching is reaching! from one branch to the next i stretch coz im an ape all these years, ive had this fertile ground hidden inside of me but i couldnt see it things no one told me about getting older: -you will become world weary and that can't be helped, it's a mix of boredom, cynicism and indifference that is difficult to shake off. been here, done that kinda feeling. -People dont care (this has two meanings) - With the right experiences, you will become a very powerful person. - Illusion is strong, humans remain human. - The best youth is the one that is happening right now, not yours or your parents' like "our generation was so good!" no it was not, love! it was not! Today's youth is the best ever, today, tomorrow, forever. -Mornings will get harder and harder. Waking up hurts i need a man to get right behind me, strong hands on my hips, feeling the grip, thrust, thrust, thrust... thrustrated much! lol i kno who i am and what i am i kno wat i want and how i want it i kno how i want to be treated i kno wat i deserve, wont settle for less "Houston, we have a problem!" and a big one at that, this guy i know called me fat yesterday. we were just chatting, casual talk then he said: "since you got that pink scooter, you got fat." hello, hang on, excuse me! what!? did u just call me fat? ive never been called fat in my entire life! wtf? who the fuck are you? oh boy! oh my! oh boy! u want me to ride your sorry ass? I did NOT get fat, i got curvy because ive started drinking alcohol again 2 years ago and im also on a hormone treatment that's wrecking havoc on my body you wombat! oh boy! ok i get it! but boy! oh my! here we go. im gonna do something about this. you better run away boy. im gun get rid of the shitty messy dirty booze, fuckin mess in my body. run run run this past week ive been rinsing Emperor's Ursa. First tune i played this morning after binging all night. mind you i was curious to figure out what Ursa meant. i thought it was a reference to Ursa Major but here is a different take: little she-bear Meaning: little she-bear. Ursa as a girl's name is of Scandinavian and Latin origin, and the meaning of Ursa is "little she-bear". Ursa is a variant of the Latin name Orsa and the Scandinavian and Latin name Ursula. awwww that made my day. cutest thing i read all day. lil she bear >3 great play on words too i aint done with you yet! ill come back at you over and over again, underdog style, im goin the distance, we gun suffer we do aim to entertain :) :) :) qui cherche des crosses trouve des bosses that graphic design software is funny, it keeps asking me if i wanna "add a heading"? Well, since you're asking, of course i wanna add a heading, that's what i live for. nom nom we have reached such a level of comfort in life that we have nothing left to look for so we create our own problems as a form of distraction or stimulation. If there is no more danger, we will end up turning in on ourselves. he doesnt come here often, very occasionally and when he comes it's always unexpectedly and he never stays long. he enters my room looking agitated, hyperactive and stressed out. I can feel his energy flying in every direction and it's very intense. however as we start talking and snuggling i can feel his body relaxing, his voice becomes softer and quieter, his breathing regulates and my room becomes silent again for a moment. i know that in these moments he finds peace, even briefly. in my arms he relaxes, he closes his eyes and he forgets about all the things he's seen and heard, today, yesterday, last week... he pauses for a moment to breathe, to rest and to reset but soon, always too soon, he gets up, dresses up and leaves me. Long after he's gone, my room remembers us together as his scent still floats around in the air, i wonder if he will come back to see me. necessity is definitely the mother of invention or at least intervention (maybe even divine) i never thought in my entire life that i would end up doing graphic design and video editing for the label. granted, these are early days and i have a long way to go but 1) it feels refreshing 2) im really enjoying it 3) this label has made me as i went along with it through the years without even realising that it was helping me to develop new personal skills so thank you label. Now i have Canva for graphic design, Wondershare filmora for video edit and Reason for sound design and with all the knowledge i got from uni about the publishing and printing industry. surely i can do something with that. it's like my spaceship. i will do something with it, i will travel to a new place far far away from here. it kinda occurred to me that our label logo is kinda similar to the one of a big drum n bass label and I'm glad i have noticed it. This was not done maliciously or from a lack of artistic inspiration. quite the contrary. Now that I have noticed this, my next mission is to make a brand new original logo for TransFrequency Recordings. Apologies. Things will get corrected. And tbh it would piss me right off if something like this was happening to me so let's get creative you are free to believe anything you want. absolutely anything you want. so much fun hey? fear and desire for security have taken over our love of freedom damn, i can see and feel the dnb headz havin the best time at let it roll. this year i really miss not being there. it hurts and this horrible weather in the uk doesnt help either. next year for sure. let it roll <3 <3 <3 Please enter your password to download intelligence. the power of observation. i start to notice things when i pay attention. id rather pay attention than pay these stupid bills all the time!!!! you can laugh at me as much as you want. you have all these years ahead of you and it feels wonderful but let's see how you look when you are half a century old after all the horrible shit you went through in life. let's see if you can still smile and laugh and wear beautiful and colourful outfits. i hope you make it through the qualifying stage though coz not everyone makes it all the way there. i really hope we will all laugh together. one day, there will b nothing left to hide, no more lies to tell, no more distortion of the truth to entertain. u will stand naked, defeated, dejected but u will stand free givin heads makes me lose my head how much he hates the things that he wanted to love. automatic winner for show runner. thinking of him when i hug her. we wont make up for lost hours hi, i'm a prostitute hologram from the future. i'm not supposed to be there but someone messed up the calculation and i ended up here. what year is it? is it 3048? some people! i cant believe i used to look up to them, lol. wtf? i must have been at an all time low to feel that way towards them. wat was i thinking? it took me years to rebuild my self-confidence. year after year after year. i'll never forget that pain. id never look up to anyone again. good luck to them they know the pan is hot, yet they keep touching it, tut tut tut facts matter more than your feelings. once i was a man trapped in a woman's body, it lasted about 9 months then later on in life i realised that i was a woman trapped in a man's body. go figure. i date guys because they treat me right. It's my right to be treated right, get that right, it's clear that some of us are bringing new ideas to the drum n bass table, are these ideas any good? we dont know yet, only time will tell but we are keeping things fresh. drum n bass needs new ideas, new concepts, new adventures. we are all doing our bit to make it better, bigger, louder and we aint done yet. we're blazing a trail and we will take it to the next level. a few girls playing drum n bass. going in, showing skills, slaying, selecting, hand picking, preparing. adjusting. some flowers take years even decades to bloom, and they only bloom once. quite something. i'd be lucky to witness such marvel. Egypt blew my mind, im still lost for words but i will take the time to sit down and write about a few things i have experienced while i was there. Im going back to Cairo in september. im gonna look into things while i'm there like renting a flat or finding some sort of private accommodation. two things are sure: im gonna travel a lot to Egypt in the coming years. Egyptian people love me as a trans woman. They blew my mind, i blew some minds but they blew my mind. magic is so strong there funny how when u start believing in people, they start believing in themselves and then they create amazing things when somethin been in front of u for years but u keep sleeping oh for sure i'm a fool but i will never be your fool when u see us walking hand in hand, look at us, dont ask any question, try to understand. we can be two women or two men or even genderless, does it matter? We're bodies with stars above us and we're going to party, we're going to parties where the light gets dimmer for secrecy or intimacy, for an hour or an eternity. we exist, resist, release, exit why did you choose to lose my support? my support was the only thing i could give you. boy pretends it's not happening i got news for u it's happening TransFrequency Recordings is love and acceptance this sacredness i was given must be looked after, it's a new responsibility. i have to protect it. A sacredness for the worthy, not to be shared with anyone, oh no. A special place for the special one. can i let you in? my Brazilian lovers, they know how to tell a French girl what to do. <3 <3 i hope i return as a lady robot in another life. why did it take me so many years to find myself? system reboot like. all these things ive been thru like riding the wrong software and crashing all the time. lol the things ive put myself thru, the things i've put people thru. why? was it a natural process that would eventually lead me to this endpoint. why? what did it all mean? my trans magic is working wonders. my prayers keep being answered. they're beautiful and they're so good to me "In time" is an average sci fi thriller from 2011 with Justin Timberlake. Avoidable watch for sure but boy, he's so fit! it's no surprise that corporations such as NASA, Google, Facebook, Twitter, Apple, etc. all belong to the Singularity University. you bet transhumanism looks really interesting to them Upgrade is such a sick movie. it's badly executed but the ideas are here which is what i needed now. Perfect timing for my science journalism article on transhumanism. Humanity is clearly reaching the threshold of a new kind of existence. About time! i can be so blunt and sleazy at times. probably a reflection of my lower class upbringing. how long more will i fit into this world? been here for almost half a century. almost time to check out. will i kno love? will i find peace of mind? will i depart this world leaving no mess behind? will i have time to say goodbye to those who meant something to me? to those who helped me when i needed it. i never meant to hurt anyone nature, mind and machine i can still blow your mind, i know how to do that, not just your mind... i said it before and i will say it again, in the future humans wont be living amongst robots or cyborgs, humans will turn into robots, that's inevitable the way the world is going winter got me all wrapped up cheap dream prices goin up while you still transferring ghost dance and bad company too bad im running out of time that life was worth a dime come to the end of my climb one last nursery rhyme im such a drag :) :) i absolutely love being exaggeratedly feminine, wearing make up, cross dressing, being outrageously provocative... you know like French novels and all that. All the fun I have missed all these years! time to make up for it. <3 <3 last night i was watching videos of hoof trimming at 3 am, fascinating craft. them poor baby cows with all sorts of hoof troubles. even cows need a good old manicure <3 <3 if they cant get to you, they will go for the things that matter to you. such a tough game. im only doing my thing a lot of people only see the finished product, they fail to understand and appreciate all the hard work and energy that went into the making 2023 is definitely the year where everything is aligning for perfect harmony. time to unlock that mystery i miss him i miss her triangle lovers perfect together forever me him and her at times the world is horrible and full of hate in the hands of small people with no vision, no hope and no love in their heart. im a beautiful being no matter what they say <3 <3 <3 trans love <3 <3 <3 de l'argent qui est couvert d'or so, u got any chokehold tokens on u? my kind of currency or u dont want me tellin my girlfriends u had me on chokehold last night? lookin back, one thing is sure: the universe didnt give me what i wanted but it gave me what i needed and the older i get the more i think i got the better deal. Renaissance is one of the albums of the decade, no doubt. Beyonce empowering her sisters, bossing it, sending out the positive message out there. Self respect, yeah? That mix of late 90s rnb, Grace Jones funk and modern vibe delivered with today's spiritually and vulnerability backed up with self determination. You go girls just by looking at him, my body gets funny. T <3 <3 <3 as Krust told me once: "become so good at what you do so that they can no longer ignore you." keep looking Booking No. Bristol - Cairo THYQFJ, 48PSSH Order date 15 Apr 2023 Im going to Egypt. About time, me and the pyramids have some talking to do sometimes i feel drum n bass is like a baby crying for its milk bottle in the mid summer heat. dont worry baby. i'm mother everything should be wireless, the whole world should be wireless. the technology is there so why not? going out clubbin, Mantra in da house. im gonna wear faux eye lashes and black nails, grrrrrr. never wore faux eye lashes before, cant wait. sexy time im writing a news article on Nikola Tesla for uni, that's so much fun. that portfolio gun look good for real. im very gentle, passive and submissive, just be good to me <3 <3 producer's tip corner. if u are a producer and u have a tip to share, please do hit my inbox. <3 handle me, master me im a she in the body of a he cant feel guilt or inadequacy im a human with a body dying to be free all these worlds crumbling down for better or for worse it's my worth a lil story about the universe on your lips let me play the flute, this magical flute of yours, eager and hopeful coming to a head, let me blow this trumpet for prosperity or out of curiosity, all the way to your apogee for my only wish is to feel your warmth on my lips and your pulsing heartbeat within me. gain staging and sweet spots. <3 <3 <3 there is somthin abut gain staging <3 <3 <3

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