This is the first album of a new project I've started called insomniac. Enjoy <3

insomniac - collection i (anhedonia)

Great Big Nothing

Blood Flow

Fly Me to the Moon

lyrics-
compose your thoughts
feel the breath of life in your chest
everything some day falls apart
everything must rest

i don’t like sleeping without you
i close my eyes but feel the fear in my chest
i don’t like sleeping without you
 blankets aren’t warm enough 
i’m losing sleep i’m giving up

slip

clean up the docs
put on your socks and your shoes
i hate you and how you always have nothing to lose

true blooded freedom
something i can’t taste
as long as you’re still aliveey
as long as i’m awake

i look in the mirror
and i see your face
it’s one i’m the same as mine
we have the same shit in our veins
that venom that venom 
it’s one of a kind

let me be something 
let me be something
just anything but you

please let me be something
just anything but you but you
anything more than the nothing i see in you

Venom

when’s the last time you’ve seen a silver dollar
when’s the last time you’ve listened to a voice mail on your phone
when’s the last time you’ve eaten a meal with someone else
or have you always preferred to be alone
 
(chorus)
pinched nerve in my hand
it’s a pain i can barely stand
red white and blue 
ive really missed you 
it’s been while since i’ve been on solid ground 
sorry i’ve been unable to be found

zippered lipped 
i see the young girls on the strip 
it feels dirty to watch but also pretty glamorous 
i can’t help but think about where i fit in
Can I stay right here or do I have to join them

(chorus)
pinched nerve in my hand
it’s a pain i can barely stand
red white and blue 
ive really missed you 
it’s been while since i’ve been on solid ground 
sorry i’ve been unable to be found

Pinched Nerve

Everyone is a Light

RolyPoly

Lingr

I want it to fall down my face
And lie at my feet
I want it to feel finished
I want it to be complete
Wax figurines x2

(chorus)
And i don’t care
I’ll stay awake
And do nothing but stare
At the blood on my shirt
From the knife in my side
You left there x3

Wax figurines
Melt in the heat
I can stand still
Until you touch me x2
Then i’ll start to sink

(chorus)
And i don’t care
I’ll stay awake
And do nothing but stare
At the blood on my shirt
From the knife in my side
You left there x3

Wax figurines
Melt in the heat
I can stand still
Until you touch me x3

Wax 2

the world is a million dollars 
i’ll have my cake and eat it too

i’ll save a piece 
chew it up
regurgitate it back for you

champagne,
tickles up my back
sung by the choir 
etched in my arm

(chorus)
Mama , (mama)
Didn’t feed me no good
Chips from the casino mixed with hickory wood
grew up sideways and that made me strong
even in the shade i learned how to find the sun

(Used to feel so tough
But it got easier once I was old enough x2)

cough syrup form
deep red in the corner
stretches up a hand
grabs my sinkin' head 

Steady my 
throbbing heart 
it's sick twistin' 
in my chest

(chorus)
Mama , (mama)
Didn’t feed me no good
Chips from the casino mixed with hickory wood
grew up sideways and that made me strong
even in the shade i learned how to find the sun

(Used to feel so tough
But it got easier once I was old enough x2)

dawn still comes wearing it’s ragged cloak
and night follows in its navy overcoat

death approaches as a cross-legged billy goat
To put u in the dirt
Square eyed soul sucker x8

Hickory

threw up my breakfast
bread mixed with bile
feel a pulling in my stomach
every time you come to mind

pinching at my skin
feeling translucent and thin
less color in my face each day
no sleep is eating me away

(chorus)
up in the air i fall
to the ground
my body hits the cold cement 
it never makes a sound

scratch to the bone
an itch deep inside
it can’t be satisfied 

im here tomorrow
And  i’m here today
But if i wasn’t it’d still be the same

(chorus)
up in the air i fall
to the ground
my body hits the cold cement
 it never makes a sound

go to sleep 
amidst a dreamless night
toss and turn till the sky transforms with light

up in the air

In the Air

it’s easy like a baby crawlin
it’s easy like talkin to my mother
it’s easy openin ur eyes
unlockin the door
and going outside

it’s easy feeding the birds
it’s easier not saying a word
it’s easy puttin ur head down, 
turning ur back, 
keepin ur frown .

it’s easy given up 
it’s easier lookin away
it’s easier to sugar coat it
it’s easier just to stay

it’s easy like a baby crawlin 
it’s easy feelin forgotten
it’s as easy as openin ur eyes
unlockin the door
and steppin outside

it's easy

Hurt Me.

lyrics- break me off
break me me up
don’t throw me around
i’m tired enough 

i’m over it 
the way it works
protect myself
but it still hurts

(chorus)
rejection , rejection
feel it burnin under my skin

 infection , infection 
 got a sickness that i can’t fix

you look at me and you can see it 
look at me and you can feel it
but i still don’t know what it is

you look at me and you can see it 
look at me, you can feel it
but i still don’t know what it is

(verse 2)
find friends
in strangers eyes

i say i’m sorry
i don’t know why 

take the train 
don’t know where 
cause it’s better 
than lyin there

(chorus)
rejection , rejection
feel it burnin under my skin

 infection , infection 
 got a sickness that i can’t fix

you look at me and you can see it 
look at me, you can feel it
but i still don’t know what it is

you look at me and you can see it 
look at me and you can feel it
but i still don’t know what it is

ooh, oooh

(post)
rejection, rejection...
rejection, rejection...

you look at me and you can see it 
look at me and you can feel it
but i still don’t know what it is

Rejection

don’t touch me now
don’t touch me now
i’d rather rot

don’t
touch me now
i’d rather rot

(Pre)
And i’ve got someone hiding in my closet
i found the stash in the box set 
on your desk 
on your desk

(chorus)
and i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
than let you touch me now 

and i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
than let you touch me now

(verse 2)
Don’t touch me now
Don’t touch me now
If you think forgot

Don’t 
Touch me now
I don’t forget

(Pre)
And i’ve got someone hiding in my closet
i found the stash in the box set 
on your desk 
on your desk

(Chorus)
i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
than let you touch me than let you touch me now
i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
than let you touch me than let you touch me now

and i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
and i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
and i’d rather roll over into a hole in the ground
than let you touch me than let you touch me now

Hole

One Hit Wonder

The Silence in New York is Deafening

You Can't Find Me There Now

What I Heard When my Head Hit the Ground

a smile with broken teeth

schizoid

Humanity Survives

Anhedonia

underneath it all (feat. sipper)

the mask falls off 
and i love you
pull my hair up 
ears poke through

bit your lip
and blood flowed down
messy on ,
your frightened mouth

it mirrored the 
tears on your cheeks
i gripped your hand
cuz you felt weak

i saw you slip
and that’s what it did it
that’s what did it

i saw what you really were 
and i liked it
and i liked it 

i love you when you don’t like 
what you have to say,
when your hands shake,
when your hands shake

we take deep breaths together 
we count the seconds
i hope for me you'll be just as forgiving

i love you when you don’t like 
what you have to say
when your hands shake

we take deep breaths together 
and count the seconds
i hope for me you'll be just as forgiving

That's What Did It

Don't Make Me Cry (feat. sweet93)

the first EP from Olivia O. and Sean Henry's band child star

shhh

Big/Red/Stain

ADORE

CITY SONG

stupid

this is low quality as heCK . idk why but it is so here you go.

Fly Me To The Moon

hello, i re-recorded this song so it would be louder , but iwas super sick at the time and was on like 4 different medications? anyway, i still think it sounds better though.

hello i wrote n recorded this in like 30 min a few nights ago i hope u enjoy. sorry my voice sounds like SHITe ive been pretty sick but i wanted to put something on my soundcloud. sorry for all the noises my microphone worked too hard when i recorded this

4 am Insecurities (crash test) - demo

ive been counting sheep
trying to fall asleep
without you by my side

no matter how hard i try
i always seem to lie awake 
feeling nothing..
wasting my time

you say you love me
but you don’t know who i used to be
and i feel like you should know
 
i’m starting to feel tired all the time
how do i escape my mind

 i feel my bones compress 
i’m ready to let go
of this weight in my chest
i’m tired of being a mess 
i’m not i’m not 
i just a little off track
i’m paranoid
im a hypochondriac

doing my best to avoid my feelings 
seeing eyes watch me in the ceiling 
and i know it’s not what it seems
but i still feel lonely in my dreams

{bridge}
why am i ..
drifting away

why do i ..
feel like this when i know i shouldn’t
i know i shouldnt 
i know

i feel my bones compress 
i’m ready to let go
of this weight in my chest
i’m tired of being a mess 
i’m not i’m not 
i just a little off track
i’m paranoid
im a hypochondriac

hypochondriac

Im running in circles
Im following my feet
Im running out of time
Im at the end of my line

My hands are turning purple with the cold 
This winters is harsh
But I will find some warmth

(Chorus)
Low to the ground
Trying not to make a sound
I know its not meant to be
wisdom always has a price 
Its never given for free

i feel the way my spine is curving
Its getting out of line
Stop telling me to thinking so much
Its not all going to be fine

Now your hairs falling onto the ground
Your fingers are old and worn out
The smoke in your lungs weighs you down 
Its time to sleep now
This is what you’ve become
Out of breath 
Out of time 
Always there
in your mind
In your mind
In your mind

Im scared for tomorrow
But I am getting taller by the day
Im growing
Im finding my way
Finding way
...
finding my way


Low to the ground
Trying not to make a sound
I know its not meant to be
wisdom always has a price 
It never given for free
For free
For free

Mastered by Grant Lepping

Lowertown- George

This is an alex g cover ;-)
My name is Sandy, I'm fourteen years old
My friends say I'm ugly
But my dad says I'm the prettiest thing
The prettiest thing
The prettiest thing
The prettiest thing
The prettiest thing
My name is Sandy, I'm fourteen years old
And sometimes I hate you
But right now I just wanna go home
Just wanna go home
Just wanna go home
Just wanna go home
Just wanna go home
My name is Sandy, I'm fourteen years old
My brother says he hates me
And Satan is his master
My name is Sandy, I'm fourteen years old
My insides are changing
And right now I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up
I just wanna grow up

Sandy (lowertown)

i know i’m friends with the trees
they peer out my through the windows
silently staring back at me 
i want to root myself deep in the ground
i want my arms grow strong, bear fruit, be home to the bees
let my blood turn to sap and my fingers into leaves

i want to go back
let me return to the ground in the ashes of the earth
my bones are just carbon
or star dust
i can stand my sentient form
let me return to the place where i was born

i can’t see the lines they’re blurred
i say i do my best without my sight
when im hurt the most
spread my ashes when i die
don’t let me be enslaved to this form
particles separate

i want to go back
let me return to the ground in the ashes of the earth
my bones are just carbon
or star dust
i cant stand this  sentient form
let me return to the place i was born

Mantis

down the drain down the drain
let me swallow what i want to say
let me wring my hair out to dry 
let me cut my fingernails
let me put up a fight
(Not gonna give up so easy this time)

(Chorus) 
Wish I could go back to being a kid
Wish I didn’t have to fight every day to live
Have wasted too many thoughts
On giving you seconds shots
When u don't deserve it
I will not give in to you this time
I know what u are now
And I know your kind
And I know u don't deserve it x2

think it makes a difference what u say
you’re smaller than any father of mine
think you can make the past okay
well you can’t 
that chance has already passed you by 

(Part b)
I’ll see you in another life
Maybe it’ll be better a different time
I don't know where I’ll go
But any movement is better than just sitting 
Waiting for the wind to blow me
In some direction

(Chorus) 
Wish I could go back to being a kid
Wish I didn’t have to fight every day to live
Have wasted too many thoughts
On giving you seconds shots
When u dont deserve it
I will not give in to you this time
I know what I am now
And I know your kind
And I know u dont deserve it x2

second shots

cover of soaker by alex g - 
lyrics: All I want to do is get a little bit closer to you
But you, you're like glue
I'm like water and you're like glue
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
All I want to do is get a little bit closer to you
But you, you're like glue
I'm like water and you're like glue
I'm like water and you're like glue
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you
And all I ever do is soak through you

- love u guys!

olivia o.

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