Olivia I love you and your beautifully bitter lyrics

lyrics-
compose your thoughts
feel the breath of life in your chest
everything some day falls apart
everything must rest

i don’t like sleeping without you
i close my eyes but feel the fear in my chest
i don’t like sleeping without you
 blankets aren’t warm enough 
i’m losing sleep i’m giving up

slip

dust

slippery slimy 
amphetamine brain
walk back and forth until my ankles are sprained 

buggy eyed frown
sorry i don’t got any money
ask someone on the north side of town

(chorus)
you’re a wishy washy 
timid little shadow at the end of the day
the scum at the bottom of the shower that
remains 
it’s dirty in the city
clean yourself up and look pretty
no one wants a frowning face

forged signature
but the check still cashed in
maybe it works with confidence 
a big smile and clear skin

collect my life insurance
its worth more than i am in the flesh
i’m tired of this shit , it’s always such a mess

 (chorus)
you’re a wishy washy 
timid little shadow at the end of the day
the scum at the bottom of the shower that
remains 
it’s dirty in the city
clean yourself up and look pretty
no one wants a frowning face

no luck

i saw the flowers i gave you
abandoned in the can near your front stoop
guess that was the sign
(chorus)
i should start leaning how to pick my fights
or that it’s better being alone sometimes

you know why 
i moved away
so i don’t have to see your face
every corner , every street
has been walked on by our feet

(chorus)
i should start leaning how to pick my fights
or that it’s better being alone sometimes

i can’t escape the memory
i j feel incomplete 
it’s like you have a part of me
inside you, slowly dying

(chorus)
i should start leaning how to pick my fights
or that it’s better being alone sometimes

Sometimes

Scarred up face 
living in chemical waste
everything always smells like
oily fish on my plate
pores on the skin always stand out at night

look into the mirror for hours
scratch until craters form 
i’m too bored just too bored
for this much time

(Chorus)
bloody mess
Feel like 
i need to go x2
head to toex2
no moss will grow x2
it feels off
It just feels off 


forest fires reach my backyard
fence posts , white ashes
my belongings return to the earth
i wish it  didn’t mean anything. to me
but it does but it does it does

(Chorus)
bloody mess
Feel like 
i need to go x2
head to toex2
no moss will grow x2
it feels off
It just feels off 

how will they know i used to exist
if there’s no trace of what i was
there’s only this

Fence

clean up the docs
put on your socks and your shoes
i hate you and how you always have nothing to lose

true blooded freedom
something i can’t taste
as long as you’re still aliveey
as long as i’m awake

i look in the mirror
and i see your face
it’s one i’m the same as mine
we have the same shit in our veins
that venom that venom 
it’s one of a kind

let me be something 
let me be something
just anything but you

please let me be something
just anything but you but you
anything more than the nothing i see in you

Venom

i hate the taste of alcohol
and how it burns your throat as it slides down
and i hate the taste of your tongue as it’s being shoved into my mouth

i hate everyone around
hit me with weird faces
slitty side eyes
gritting teeth
cornered frowns
dumb little fingers wrapped around a plastic cup
nothing for any of them will ever be enough 

(chorus)
it’s all about distractions
passing interactions
it’s all meaningless
mindless fun
i just want to find someone 
that looks me in the eyes
and tells me things that make me wanna stay
please don’t go away

i hope to take these seeds with me and plant them at my feet
at least something will grow from the ashes of all my defeats
and i don’t even want to try
and im so tired of trying this hard all the timeeee

(chorus)
it’s all about distractions
passing interactions
it’s all meaningless
mindless fun
i just want to find someone 
that looks me in the eyes
and tells me things that make me wanna stay
please don’t go away

Distractions

when’s the last time you’ve seen a silver dollar
when’s the last time you’ve listened to a voice mail on your phone
when’s the last time you’ve eaten a meal with someone else
or have you always preferred to be alone
 
(chorus)
pinched nerve in my hand
it’s a pain i can barely stand
red white and blue 
ive really missed you 
it’s been while since i’ve been on solid ground 
sorry i’ve been unable to be found

zippered lipped 
i see the young girls on the strip 
it feels dirty to watch but also pretty glamorous 
i can’t help but think about where i fit in
Can I stay right here or do I have to join them

(chorus)
pinched nerve in my hand
it’s a pain i can barely stand
red white and blue 
ive really missed you 
it’s been while since i’ve been on solid ground 
sorry i’ve been unable to be found

Pinched Nerve

bright burnt out
fallen star
piece of coal 
 part of something 
catch fire 
burn into nothing 

dark looks
long winded books
i eat alone 
tired of talking to someone else on the phone

this is all just now
and now will be just then
nothing lasts forever
 i forget
that too often

(chorus) 
the bruise on my shin has been here since i was born
i am the roses in my garden
 beautiful but i still come with thorns
i’m a black beetle i’m a bug
i’ve got no shell i’m just a slug
i’ll love you more than you’re most
i’m something you’ll squash if it comes too close

bright burnt out
fallen star
piece of coal 
part of something 
catch fire 
burn into nothing

Most the time I don’t know where I stand
Most the time it feels like im walking on my hands

(chorus) 
the bruise on my shin has been here since i was born
i am the roses in my garden
 beautiful but i still come with thorns
i’m a black beetle i’m a bug
i’ve got no shell i’m just a slug
i’ll love you more than you’re most
i’m something you’ll squash if it comes too close

B Beetle

olivia o.

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