@lil4c

solitude, i got used to it
its nothing new to me 
im stuck in this place on my own 

i wonder if i did something wrong 
that lead me here, im clueless
cuz i dont think i deserve it

2x
tell me how does it feel 
to be truly happy
im asking cuz i dont know how 
to save myself

i had a dream 
i was with you 
you held me close 
like lovers do 

i had a dream 
i was with you 
and we were watching the stars 
til i fell asleep in your arms

to feel your touch, i miss it so
it never stops, im all alone 

i know its bad for me, i do it anyway
it helps to ease the pain just for another day

save myself「lilac」

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by keyblayde808 and remghost
recorded @ goblin haven 3/2/22
art by bedhead

ALL PLATFORMS

a nest in my room (+ keyblayde808 x remghost)

prod mix cover by me
chops at 0:57 mixed by @heyyitsbenji

thanks to fijimar scoob and hxpeless for helping w the mix 

see u soon :)

blood

ily <3
prod rubbish + djseizure

lyrics
perc
i pray to luna hoping that she saves
i crash my mercedes
everyone i kno they fuckin h8 me
no1 wanna d8 me
oh stop 
i wont fall in love
i dont rly give a fuck
i dont give a fuck bout these bitches
so ima count it up

wake up n my pockets they used to b hurt
now i got these shooters an they on alert
2048 and say im done
ima show up l8 cuz im feelin numb

wells
u dont ever text me back
what we had was never meant
tryna mend the hurt but u wont even tell me what i did
let me go let me forget
need my memory erased
idk y we were friends
ur spewing venom in my face

perc
and ur so dramatastic
i wont tell nobody bout it
if u wanna tell me all ur secrets
i wont talk about it
we can rave in my bedroom
i jus want some time w u
wake up its a dream 
swear to god i wanna die w u<3

wells
and im still so fucking hurt
now i got chemical burns
and its only gettin worse
im bleeding cold blood on my shirt
ur a fucking piece of shit
i wont forget what u did
if i cant ever move past
i might jus orbwalk off a bridge

teleport to reach
angel wings into the sea
ill go make a better me
i got my faith ill take a leap
and shift to different lands
i wont ever be ur man
raining iron over cities
that i level with my cold bare hands

perc
i pray to luna hoping that she save me 
this time im gon switch it up
found out that that bitch was crazy
dont b talkin bout no love
"prada on my feet i run the runway the right way"
synthetic on my team they got my back
so u know im nvr aloneee
she got percy playin off her phoneeeee (hi!!)
and her boyfriend dont like me she keep it on the lowwww (sry ^-^)
smoking exotic that shit b smellin like colonge
and its time for me 2 go
so i gotta keep it low

in the shadows i b walkin
cybercity got no option
double zero got no login
i b hiding from the goblins

my life aint got no meanin!
stay up l8 i stay up fiendin!
tell myself that i dont need it!
baby i wish i was sleepin! uh

i wish i was sleepin uhhhh
and b stuck forever dreamin
synthetic life b full of pleasures
synthetic life that shits forever

ty ty ty ty ty ur the best i hope u enjoyed!

luna

luna +blackwinterwells [rubbish]

i think u already won
i think im getting too numb
i think its been like 2 months
when i see problems i run

digging myself deeper and deeper
i cant get out i need her
finders keepers
trade my own life to keep you

i want it all so imma gonna give it all
do u remember do you recall
im not enough and i know im not
im off a pill and im nodding off

way too hard to be me
i think ur life is a different degree
im high im geeked
im awake i keep grinding my teeth

too much pressure
i should have made it a long time ago
used to be my treasure 
i lost the map i dont even know

u can ignore me im very used to it
know that i love you ur abusing it
im above you fuck im not new to it
leave me alone you are my curse
its not unknown

digging myself deeper and deeper
i cant get out i need her
finders keepers
trade my own life to keep you

i want it all so imma gonna give it all
do u remember do you recall
im not enough and i know im not
im off a pill and im nodding off

way too hard to be me
i think ur life is a different degree
im high im geeked
im awake i keep grinding my teeth

finders keepers (silver x methboiswag)

RIPTIDE 

wake up in the PMs, drink a redbull then i get goin 
i gotta get this money, get a big bag
big luggage, still towing 
gotta give myself to the riptide, only way to keep flowing 
im kinda shy, but i keep pulling eyes walking round in rick owens 
i couldn't tell u why 
i'm blowing thru the weeks, im wasting thru the nights 
at least my fit is nice 
right now i'm not tryna talk, but let's see when we get high 
i thought it'd never get this far but it's perfect 
there's something beautiful in pain, make it art, make it worth it 
she said i don't know who u are, it's not working 
just let me kiss u one last time as i fall, cue the curtain 
just let me miss u one last time, now i'm balling, im surfing 
gotta go out on my own, find the truth, find my purpose 
in my heart i'm always home, but it's chrome so i'm ruthless 
smoke a whole blunt to the dome, my eye bags look like bruise 
lightning on my jeans, bitch i feel like thor 
get the bag like it's mjölnir
got that takahashi sweater on me so i'm warm 
but i'm still feeling so weird 
it's that's up n down 
it's that beauty beast with no crowns 
i'm just tired, no goodyear 
i'm like forgiato rims, spinning round and round 
bape belt, bape kicks 
up a tree, im boutta face it 
bound my demons, im still fiending 
black sheep, im always outside 
i find the wolf inside 
molt away my hide 
designer shades, u can't see my tears, can't see my eyes 
i'm making plays, wishing u could see me, ur still blind

15 Riptide

KARATE KID 

he tuned my guitar, tuned my synthesizers
who's the writer 
jump in the fire 
i'm ripping that digi spliff at 2am 
double damage, both my bars are enchanted 
kicking shit, karate kid can't vibe like this 
i feel myself start to fade, blow a goodnight kiss 
smoking on the gateway, walking thru this bitch 
we're not on the same page, u don't seem that lit 
hopping out the escalade with the windows tint 
go to sleep the next day, sunrays in the mist 
found the path i had to get there faster 
it's so fleeting, forgot it right after 
i'm fly as fuck, why u snaking, im a raptor 
rabbits foot on me, so i let the cash churn 
i don't think she listens to my music 
that's ok cuz that's not why i do it 
rolling up that something let's get to it 
i've never felt real life quite this lucid 
keep on writing pages to the hymnal 
give into the rhythm of my rituals 
everything's a mirror if u look close 
i've been spending new money on old clothes
the only way to fly is if u let go 
build it from the bottom like some legos 
light up in the fog i got a red nose 
roaches at my feet im on my tip toes

8 Karate Kid

INTERTWINED

Iron lungs and an iron will, i can face it
on the road, collecting my bills, going apeshit
wake up and i slay shit
know im in a matrix
that dont really change shit
i still gotta make it
i used to be naked
ate the fruit, now i see
dropping blues on my jeans
intertwined, you and me
like the moon and the sea
sippin wine, smoking weed
the bapes are white, im so clean
the sands of time swallow me
final frontier in my dreams

9 Intertwined

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