Sadboy Bangers

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hopeless lotus inspirations

My Fault </3 [prod. nick mira]

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

outta luv ft. rené [Prod. Xtravulous]

prod/guitar @antongxldn

Lyrics:
baby don’t forget bout me
never should have let you leave
last night...
last night...
you're my candy extra sweet
I won’t let you rot my teeth 
not mine...
not mine...
 
she said I’m tired of you and all this fake love
I only see you when you're fucked up
I’m tired of you and all this fake love 
i, i, i, i
 
call my phone I let it ring 
whatever happened to you and me, 
just i...
just i...
why you’d have to plant that seed
catch me hanging by a tree
goodbye...
goodbye...
 
it don’t matter, it don’t matter no
it don’t matter, it don’t matter no
it don’t matter, it don’t matter no
 
 
she said I’m tired of you and all this fake love
I only see you when you're fucked up
I’m tired of you and all this fake love 
i, i, i, i
 
baby don’t forget bout me
never should have let you leave
last night...
last night...
you're my candy extra sweet
I won’t let you rot my teeth 
not mine...
not mine...
 
she said I’m tired of you and all this fake love
I only see you when you're fucked up
I’m tired of you and all this fake love 
i, i, i, i
I’m tired of you and all this fake love
I only see you when you're fucked up
I’m tired of you and all this fake love 
i, i, i, i

Narcissistic Drama Queen

lyrics
———————
yea i know that this wont last
lay me on my deathbed i feel like that
yea i feel that
& i try but i cant go back
say it’s all in my head
but i feel so bad 
yea i feel so bad(x2)

i’m trying my best but
i feel like my times up
it’s always the right time
when i say the wrong stuff

how can you tell me ur okay with this
i, feel so empty like my soul got split
bottle what i feel, i’m so tired of it
getting high, jus tryin not to feel like shit (x2)

this won't last [prod. metlast]

its a dream

lyrics:

you’re just on my phone
tryna make some plays 
i never could’ve known 
that you’re what kept me sane 
i been smoking on my own 
living for the day 
but i’m feeling so alone 
u riding on my wave 
baby u my sommer ray 
she be goin out
i’ll roll another blunt 
i’m just sitting here at my house 
with my mouth shut 
maybe we’ll adjust 
baby u a must 
i’m so fucking tired 
gotta sleep 
but my minds up 

maybe it’s a dream 
cuz i can’t see 
maybe it’s a dream 
cuz im lying in your sheets 
maybe just a dream 
cuz we can’t be 
everything just seems 
like it’s falling onto me

u know i keep my circle low 
its been giving me anxiety 
got ounces for the low 
i smoke that shit in its entirety 
i’m falling fucking hard 
really hoping that she’ll see me 
cuz this is all i know 
in the smoke u look so dreamy 
were just in the back bitches breaking neck 
wait i need a breather for a sec 
cuz baby all i want is you 
and the things that you can do 
i’m just tryna pipe baby
i don’t wanna think it through 

falling for your brown hair baby 
and your brown eyes 
hurting when you’re not there 
even though you’re not mine 
you’re just on my phone
but i’m thinking back to that time 
sorry i don’t know 
yuh

maybe it’s a dream 
cuz i can’t see 
maybe it’s a dream 
cuz im lying in your sheets 
maybe just a dream 
cuz we can’t be 
everything just seems 
like it’s falling onto me

spotify

maybe its a dream

in ur arms (ft. noah2000) (prod. dead spyro)

lyrics:

nothing is staying the same
why do i feel this way
i just wanna say what i think
but ur gonna think im insane 
u know ive been smoking a lot
u know im in love with the change
u dont ever leave from my mind
under a spell like a mage

girl u keep me in a lock box
always make the time stop
wish u needed me but u dont
cuz ur hearts locked
i guess that im good on my own
cuz baby u dont hit my phone 
but u know ur keeping me up at night
need u in my bed and ill be alright

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

and the moonlight seeping in my bedroom 
wont let me forget u
tell me is the nighttime getting to ur head too
i just need a minute cuz i dont wanna regret u

and ur only in my head but i miss u
baby i just wish u 
knew what i was feeling so i dont have to admit to
being scared of finding someone this soon

fill my lungs makin sure i feel alright
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
chasin bands cuz i know im livin right
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might
come around u know u can spend the night
want ur love since i saw u in the starlight
takin drugs makin sure i feel alright 
im still waiting for u cuz i know that u might

starlight

w/ @lilskeleskrrt

[wstdyth]:
i dont know u
not the way that i used to 
magic in my blood
eyes open with the new moon
spring is bringing something
i can feel it in my chest
i can never fall asleep
cuz im haunted by your breath

and i cant do this anymore
and im sorry baby but im worn
losing so much fucking sleep
im medicated every night
my thoughts are killing me

i just need time
off psilocybe
i might just cry
i might just die
i just need time
i just need time
baby i thought you were mine
but i was wrong the whole time

i just need time
off psilocybe
i might just cry
i might just die
i just need time
i just need time
baby i thought you were mine
but i was wrong the whole time

[lil skele]:
I just need time 
but like 
seeing your eyes makes me feel like I’m dying 
past the horizon 
when I’m with you yea I feel like I’m flying

baby I thought u were mine 
I’m sorry but I need some time 
you were the one so divine 
i have to let go I’m sorry I tried

[wstdyth]:
i cant sleep cuz u dont know
how u make me feel
just tell me this is real
i just want this to be real

i just need time
off psilocybe
i might just cry
i might just die
i just need time
i just need time
baby i thought you were mine
but i was wrong the whole time

i just need time
off psilocybe
i might just cry
i might just die
i just need time
i just need time
baby i thought you were mine
but i was wrong the whole time

i just need time w/ skele

prod wastedyouth

lyrics:

i got a show
got some doobies
she pull up cuz she a groupie
i been faded
watch me do me
i been trippin on the goomies

fuck with me but u a goofy
yeah im medicated cuz im moody
i been fuckin with this new me
so why u actin like u knew me

rollin dope in the moonlight
yeah im comin up
wanna do it right
got a green laser when i set sights
never switch up cuz we air tight

and im in the mountains without u
baby i dont wanna doubt u
imma hit u back
ill be out soon
yeah im makin pacts on the bloodmoon

keep me sane
she keep me sane and im in love with that
she be goin round my brain and i just want her bad
she my main im out this way and i be smokin pack
im in love with that
im in love with that

shes comin over and i feel like i dont know me
yeah i dont know me
i been so lonely
getting high and im fallin so slowly
i need u to hold me
i been so lonely

show u everything i mean
ill show u what i mean
baby if u stay with me
u got me bagging please
i been smokin with my team
ill make u be my queen
now that we're both 17
its harder than it seems

rollin dope in the moonlight
yeah im comin up
wanna do it right
got a green laser when i set sights
never switch up cuz we air tight

and im in the mountains without u
baby i dont wanna doubt u
imma hit u back
ill be out soon
yeah im makin pacts on the bloodmoon

show u everything i mean
ill show u what i mean
baby if u stay with me
u got me bagging please
i been smokin with my team
ill make u be my queen
now that we're both 17
its harder than it seems

spotify 💕

bloodmoon

@ianndior - pouring (prod. @mjnichols_)

Northwest fuck up think I just ran out of love
I don’t really feel it when she tells me that I’m not enough
Weekends freaken love me with no meaning
I think that you hide it when you start to get a feeling

Fuck me up because I love the feel
Open up and throw away the seal
Touch of love but we know it’s not real
Throw it all up when I realize she deals
Only in the moment yeah I know you told me
Been a couple years and I still feel lonely

Northwest fuck up think I just ran out of love
I don’t really feel it when she tells me that I’m not enough
Weekends freaken love me with no meaning
I think that you had it when you start to get a feeling

Baby just take it off you know you so appealing
I can’t help but show it when my backs up to the ceiling
Now it’s different miss I just wanna go back
Not with it finished but I really always known that
Now it’s different miss I just wanna go back 
Not with it finished but I really always known that
Lately I’ve been feeling fucking seasick
I’m not even floating think I ended up in pieces
think I ended up in pieces
think I ended up in pieces
think I ended up in pieces
I'm not even floating think I ended up in pieces
I'm not even floating think I ended up in pieces

I’m not even floating think I ended up in pieces 
And every single time I tell myself I don’t need this
I’m not even floating think I ended up in pieces 
And every single time I tell myself I don’t need this
I don't need this no

Northwest fuck up think I just ran out of love
I don’t really feel it when she tells me that I’m not enough
Weekends freaken love me with no meaning
I think that you hit it when you start to get a feeling 
Northwest fuck up think I just ran out of love
I don’t really feel it when she tells me that I’m not enough
Weekends freaken love me with no meaning
I think that you hit it when you start to get a feeling 
Northwest fuck up think I just ran out of love
I don’t really feel it when she tells me that I’m not enough
Weekends freaken love me with no meaning
I think that you hit it when you start to get a feeling 
I think that you hit it when you start to get a feeling
I think that you hit it when you start to get a feeling

Spotify

No Meaning (prod. splashgvng)

theres nothing for me here anymore

MUSIC VIDEO
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-dtqU97i4E

prod @darrenkmusic
swingsets out now

OFFICIAL VIDEO

anymore (prod. lokel)

@seejayxo <3

lyrics:

[wstdyth]
i’m bored of this fucking party 
off-white on me 
shawty looking at my eyes
i’m like a zombie 
i wish we were back inside my room 
i know u want me 
passed out in the back seat 
can u watch me 

hit u on the iphone 10
u watch me blow a band 
baby what u want from me 
just lemme be ur man 
cross faded on a week day 
i know u don’t understand 
posted in japan 
yeah i’m fucking damned 

why am i like that 
i’m losing my mind about this shit 
and i don’t like that 
screaming at my face 
i don’t really wanna fight back 
put me in my place 
but u don’t know about these price tags 
take it to the face 
i forget that shit i’m sidetracked 

send me in to space 
so i’m all alone 
i don’t like to drink 
but i’m sippin on patrón 
what u ask me 
u know i don’t fucking know 
i’m like can u catch me 
i’m just tryna sesh u know

i got spiders on my chest 
and they crawling 
why u wanna see me gone 
watch me falling 
know i gotta move on 
but i’m stalling 
i don’t care when ur calling 

[seejayxo]
shawty she a bad bitch
i dont want no baggage
u know im a savage
i dont wanna have it
i be in the back room
smoking on my gas too
every time u see me
i just wanna ask u 
like
why the fuck u never call my phone now
i been movin on
think im better on my own now
guess we'll have to see
i could never leave
you're my everything
you're my enemy

[wstdyth]
i’m bored of this fucking party 
off-white on me 
she's looking at my eyes
i’m a zombie 

i’m bored of this fucking party 
off-white on me 
shawty looking at my eyes
i’m like a zombie 
i wish we were back inside my room 
i know u want me 
passed out in the back seat 
can u watch me 

hit u on the iphone 10
u watch me blow a band 
baby what u want from me 
just lemme be ur man 
cross faded on a week day 
i know u don’t understand 
posted in japan 
yeah i’m fucking damned

can u watch me [iphone10] w/ seejayxo

wstdyth