Id Rrather Be Dead Than Talk To U Again

im normal stop calling me those mean words

stop calling me a schizoposter just cuz im way more aware than u
stop saying ima schizophrenic i just know exactly what theyll gna do
theyre always watching me i think u know who im referring to
theyre like the fbi for the antichrist n theyre always wearing white n blue

stop making me feel insane ima normal guy with a normal brain
theyre comin at me with their 5g rays idk why they cause me so much pain
im jst a normal man im a hard working citizen
but when i get on the internet i say some shit that doesnt make sense

well it does to me u guys just need to open up ur eyes
ur not crazy for thinkin theyre watchin u all of the time
theyre always there n if u see them u should run n hide
conspiracy is just a word to make ur thoughts seem like a lie

stop calling me a schizoposter just cuz im way more aware than u
stop saying ima schizophrenic i just know exactly what theyll gna do
theyre always watching me i think u know who im referring to
theyre like the fbi for the antichrist n theyre always wearing white n blue

*alex jones talking about fighting against the evil new world order for our freedom *

instrumental is from watch me bleed by shooter: https://soundcloud.com/negativexp/watch-me-bleed-instrumental?si=42db1388ec94403e9a6f2976ca2eed40&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

conspiracy is just a word to make ur thoughts seem like a lie

I Don’t Wanna Die

there is a hole
inside my soul
i dont mind
whether or not im dead or alive

its not fair its not fair
that you're gone and im here
all alone
im all alone

lifes so tough i cant get off the couch
only time i do is when im still in the house
i am wasting my time
i really fucked up my life

havent felt like this in so long
i cant stand it
whats the problem
oh my god im fucking lost
my life is gone

my life is gone

By myself 
Mountain top
Slide down and lay down at the bottom
Wild flowers pollen in the wind 
Blue sky I think hear the laughter of the children
And then the wind starts gusting x2
I think a storm is coming x2
 There’s fire in prairie x2
God doesn’t treat me fairly x2

Black clouds and thunder claps 
Lightning strikes and rain tapping on the glass 
The glass breaks trees de limbed 
I float up and I’m gone with the wind 
And then I keep on floating x2
I see the world below me x2 
I have just one more question x2
Am I going to heaven? x2

Fire In The Prairie

real rockaholism

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lyrics:

i don’t get outside much
waste away, with my bad luck 
i’m so goddamn needy 
i want someone who needs me

i don’t want your pity
just somebody to like me 
id take just a damn hug
some kind of physical touch 

i don’t get outside much
waste away, because life sucks
i’m so goddamn angry 
need anyone to love me

rotting in my room

its about oyasumi punpun, chill on me

You show me your scars
bled on the backseat of the car
midnight drive committing crimes
both of us know its our time
dont like where u cut urself
only I should see u bleed
your dad hates it when i talk to you
he doesnt know about ur thigh tattoo

stick a needle in my eye
i'll never tire of your cries
you say i'll get cut if i leave
empty words dont mean a thing

hold a knife to my neck
i get cut if i misbehave
when you're gone i'll go right back
to where the cops had a wellness check
small disputes drive me insane
a noose is ready, its all in vain
when i die, im in isolation
flames burn dim compared to my separation

Abuse is a form of love

lyrics:

so i guess.
lot of things has changed
but also fucking nothing
im still the same
and im still learning
try and error
im always fucking failing
but the way i failed in your eyes rly got me thinking
I can't reall change
but i will die trying
suppress all the filth
be a fucking decent human being???
leave it up to me
to fuck it all up
after all it is my life
im sorry i let u down

so heey
im back
same stories different ppl
think by now i should've been wiser
but i caaant
live uppp
to who u wanted me to be
but I'll get back up on my feet
im so sorry

say im a xo willow clone
while u make fucking scenecore
have u ever heard something like this
i think u are full of shit
i have the right tools in my hands
a little bit of talent in my brain
a few things i want to say
ur sound is awful it's all the same

idc about u ppl
sharing ur songs in discord servers
friends jerking off in the comments
stressing over numbers and plays

say what u want about me
too many friends lost i stopped counting
yk I'll always be there if u change ur mind
but i can't see in ur head so for now it's goodbye

im so sorry

please don’t drag it on
why can’t you see my jeans drag
can’t you see my hairs black
you look sad alone
Come be sad with me
sharing razors when we bleed out

you make me feel like nothing
i swear that means something

every time you feel loved 
i will destroy you with my spite 

with your fingerless gloves
baggy jeans 19 enough

Sharing Razors

the day that I turned 17
I knew that my life would keep goin downhill
from now on I just wanna sleep
I wanna slit my wrists and leave this world

but I know it's not that ez
so I'll wait til I turn 18
i'll buy a gun with one bullet
then I'll finally end it
maybe ill end up on tv

I fucked up my entire life
at this point im not gonna try
I wanted something to remain
something to remember me by 
but now I guess im too lazy
I'll just go quietly baby 
my life is miserable as hell
so Ill blow my brains out rn

and now that i'm supposed to be
going into college early
I dont know what I should think
I'm just doing things because people told me

the one thing that I want more than this
is to have a bullet in my head
and people dont want this for me
I wont listen to them when I turn 18

I fucked up my entire life
at this point im not gonna try
I wanted something to remain
something to remember me by 
but now I guess im too lazy
I'll just go quietly baby 
my life is miserable as hell
so Ill blow my brains out rn

People Won't Remember Me

You make me wanna dance when I feel embarrassed
You take me by the hand and then I am careless
I don't know how you do it, but I'm so happy that you do
You make me feel okay when i start to freak out
You know just what to say to get me to calm down
I don't know how you do it, but I'm so happy that you do

'Cause aaa ooo, talking to you, makes my day instantly better
And aaa ooo, talking to you, is like my favorite thing ever

You make me smile even when I am crying
You help me feel alright without even trying
I don't know how you do it, but I'm so happy that you do
You got me thinking maybe I can still make friends
You make me wanna try to be a better person
I don't know how you do it, but I'm so happy that you do

'Cause aaa ooo, talking to you, makes my day instantly better
And aaa ooo, talking to you, is like my favorite thing ever

Id Rrather Be Dead Than Talk To U Again

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