take care of urself 8/30/2021
Cigarettes 
Then pain meds
When i was bored

after all the love
i gave
That you chose to ignore

you made me hate this town
even when 
youre not around

I cant take it

trust me ive tried
therapy a hundred times 

And i hate it

And ive stopped 
Telling lies
But i still wanna die

So bad

And you can hurt me 
You can cut me
Over something probably dumb

Nothing compares to the 
pain i caused myself
When i was young 
And you know that

You know thatt

when i was young

im tired and i hate this song - cyberbully mom club
8-20-17

everything hurts more without you here. (wulvzy on ig)

hiding the scars you left me. (wulvzy on ig)

9-30-17.
if you love someone, please dont let them go.

letting go of what we were.

10-5-17 all the things i never said.
inspired by laptopfuneral

i dont know how else to say these things.

1-10-18. 
Doing all the things I used to do with people by teen suicide.
I hope wherever you are you found your peace.

teen suicide

2-1-18
goodbye piano .-.
(if i cleaned everything by teen suicide *touched up*)

i need you to let me go.

3-16-18
things tend to hurt, all the time.

i was never meant to be.

5-11-18
i cant seem to escape my thoughts.
the closing lines are a cover of young lean.

i relapsed again, it happens all the time.

8-19-18
this is home by cavetown, please check out his version

this is home

i wrote this without physically writing it, just started recording and just went with what was on my mind.
doing better than usual, but everything external seems to be falling apart. once again, this is an original, so please be respectful and credit.

10-6-18 2:27 am

im tired, i hate myself.

10-16-18
Original: she knows my soundcloud lol
Stuck in my head 
Ur so fucking stuck in my head
Wasted so much time on u
I wish we never met
Both my wrists are red
You wish i was dead
Filled with regret
It's all in my head

I wish that i 
didnt exist
Asking why 
Do i feel like this

Blowin smoke 
I start to choke
On everything
You did to me
I wish we hadn’t spoke
Smoked a blunt
Not coming down
Too much shit
On my mind right now

I wish that i 
did not exist
Asking why 
Do i feel like this

I hope you hate this
Just dont text me with
Passive aggression
Cause i'm through with it
I genuinely wish
You will get hit
By a bigass truck 
Like that mean girls bitch

keep me out of your thoughts.

cover to worldstar money by joji
10-23-18
i have bronchitis lol.
lw soundcloud face reveal im 17 :(

worldstar money

11-10-18
rid me of all my sins and i will continue to regret every day i continue to live.

i watched weeks pour out of my skin

12-1-18
everything is going to hell by teen suicide

everything is going to hell

12-6-18
cover to beabadoobee - coffee
surround yourself with those who care.

coffee

2-15-19
produced by Juzi, insanely talented, go follow him :) link below
https://soundcloud.com/iamjuzi/get-to-bussin-ft-yrnvar-prod-juzi
ukulele by me/written by me 
hope y'all enjoy

bury me in the snow (prod. Juzi)

3-3-19
Im so week and
Im waiting for the weekend
So i can get fucked up 
Do some other drug 
To forget about you 
Forget about the truth
And All the things we’d do
And All the things we’d do
Its late and
We’re dancing with satan
Looking for reasons
For why we always lose
And why we never tell the truth
Especially you
Im so weak and
Im waiting for the weekend
So i can get wasted
Hook up in the basement
Find a replacement
For you
Ive been thinking
Does she do this shit too
Im so weak and
Im waiting for the weekend
So i can feel you
But only when i sleep
Where everything is true
Where i can have you

all the things we'd do

i relapsed 4-7-19
no matter what you believe in, or who u are, i hope ur doing ok. 
head up, always.
matthews sc: https://soundcloud.com/user-837822460

lyrics:
if god watches over well
why do angels kill themselves
i know im in fucking hell
i know i am in hell

if heaven does exist
why do children slit their wrists
i won’t take ur bullshit
someone help these fucking kids

hang in there. ft mthw.b

5-21-19
a relapse of emotion
i've been breaking down with constant anxiety attacks the past week, and only make stuff when im feeling low. so heres this
i hope u feel something
-hayden

i hope u understand

6-11-19 (produced by juzi)
link: https://soundcloud.com/iamjuzi
you've already forgotten:
Not much right
I been getting high
Drowning out my thoughts
Just to get by
Wish you were here
Music to my ears
But you’ll about forget me 
In less than a year

Stuck in my head
Ur so fuckin stuck in my head
Wasted so much time on u I wish we never met
Pills and potions
Fucking up emotions
If I called you
Would I just get the old shit

Ups and downs
Nothing matters now 
Head in clouds
But my heart is in the ground
I was still lonely 
When you were around
And when I cried out
you wouldn’t hear a sound

you'll forget me ft. juzi

inconsequential, im letting go tonight.

8-23-19
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont care
i dont carei dont care

tear me apart, ill be gone

doing all the things i used to do with people, cover 2

a one take
i've been wanting to make this song for a while, but have been putting it off because i know ill never be fully satisfied with single a take of it.
hope u all enjoy this, summer is coming so i'll be posting a lot more :)
lyrics:
We never sleep
We never fight 
And I can’t see 
Why
I still
Lay alone in bed at night
Stuck in my dread my light is dead
There’s nothing left
For me here
Hold me close hold me tight
Promise you’ll stay another night
Hold my hand 
We’ll stay inside and dance
To 80’s shit that no one cares about

And i dont know if this is love
But i’d never put anyne above
You

I can’t sleep when i’m not 
In your bed
And i can’t sleep when your
In my head
When i’m with you i feel alright
When i’m with you i swear im fine
I adore u
I adore u
You never let me down
You never let me frown
I no longer care how this ends
I will forever be your frind

i adore u (demo)

8/9/2020
i haven't felt like this is months.

im tired of not being enough
to feel the feeling of self love
i found love last year
taught me to swallow my tears
and that i still hate myself
and i think you're starting to find out 

and my sheets are getting redder
and i don't care if i get better
i don't want to be remembered

i've been holding shit in
god im getting bad again
all the scars on my skin
all the pointless arguments
god i never fucking win
tell me, is love really worth it?

god im getting bad again
right now i cant feel my skin
cigarettes and cough medicine

cigarettes and cough medicine

10/8/2020: i'm ok rn, healthy love


And i
Wish i
Could fall in love

But my head
Is filled 
With drugs

And i cant
Tell
What i want more

And i 
Wish i
Could fall in love

But my heart 
Is filled 
With bugs

And i cant 
Tell
What hurts more

And you lied 
Last 
December

Told me that
This could be
Forever

But i cant
Wait
For the end

And i wish
You would
Write me letters

Cause your so
Bad 
At talking to me
Personally
And i wish
You were soft
As feathers

But your thorns
Are 
Poking me

Im bleeding

And i
Wish you 
Were there more

But we both
Know
That not happening

last december

film editor, i make music as an emotional outlet/therapy, luv u all

wulvz

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