Clean Sheets, dirty walls

Without drugs I'd be dead

Hide Behind My Disguise

march 2023

ALL I DID

If I Die

On your nineteenth birthday I gave you flowers
you hung them up to dry and told me-
You'd save every bouquet that I gave
until the day you'd marry me
Sneaking into bathrooms at after-parties,
hold me tight in motel sheets
Didn't think the last time that you'd feel in love
was at a bar in downtown Calgary
Spent last night freaking out;
I flew a thousand miles, and
Didn't think that last flight was my last time on that plane
Oh, I miss those red-eye flights
Hate these types of sleepless nights
I feel something slip away every time that I hear your name

I'll waste no time and wish you goodbye
I wish you no tears, and wish you more life
I miss you so dearly-
Miss myself, I am not the same man who walked in your life...
Guess it's my northern state of mind!

Thought that I found love, 
but your heart always felt so far away
And I saw the ways that you were changing...
Why'd you do me wrong?
Hey, even if the stars aligned
and I found some way to forget the things you did...
You're already in his arms instead

I'll waste no time and wish you goodbye
I wish you no tears and wish you more life
I miss you so dearly
Miss myself, I am not the same man who walked in your life
And I swear these walls have been talking too much
They scream out loud and they tell me "move on"
I'm raising hell trying to forget about us
I'm still afraid I'd do whatever you want...
Guess it's my northern state of mind!
Guess it's my northern state of mind!
I'll waste no time and wish you goodbye
I wish you no tears and wish you more life
I miss you so dearly
Miss myself, I am not the same man who walked in your life
I'll waste no time and wish you goodbye
I wish you no tears and wish you more life
I miss you so dearly
Miss myself, I am not the same man who walked in your life

downtown calgary

stream everywhere

DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR

So damn tired

Skippy-"Suicide Letter part.6"

Sometimes I wish I could wake up & not enter the void

Void feat JonesJrr

J's Depression

Lost

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J's Depression

Cleffy