slowly

Green face

this is better than nothing
better than something new
but i cant get used to you
not something im used to
i might just blame you
something deceives my view
and i dont want to waste eachothers time
and im not trying to steal the light 
and im not trying to make u mine
i just wanna live my own life
why u coming at me like?
like you wanna fight me for my choices ?
and u act like its not right
and just out of spite you go destroy us
and its better than nothing
better than something new
cuz i cant get close to you
no i cant get close to you
lalalalalalala (i cant get close to you)
lalalalalalala (no i cant get close to you)
lalalalalalala ( i cant get close to you)
lalalalalalala
this is better than nothing
better than something new
but i cant get used to you 


better than something new (tka)

all the things u do to me 
theyre distasteful truthfully
like oh 
whyd u have to go and hurt me
before u go desert me 
didnt think this would last so long girl 
got my hopes up now im praying u gone girl 
felt like the end of my world 
now stop wasting my time girl 
like oh 
before u go desert me 
like why cant we just clear things 
but u just want to leave me 
like why u wanna leave me
[Raynen]
We could die at any moment
I've been sad that's why I'm smoking
Maybe I was never meant to just be chosen
Like can you love me for the person that I am
I've been staying up and talking to you till it's 4 am
But that's just who I am
Someone tryna be your man

Like do you fuck with me or am I just to much?
I can't shake the feeling of just not being enough
Because it's all love
I'm nothing without your touch
Like girl don't talk to me unless you love me back
You can see I'm upset but you don't care that's a fact
You said you love me but do you really mean that?
You're my one and only so please don't stab me in the back
Like listen up, I'm talking to you
I don't give a fuck you're my baby that's true
I've got so much love I'll give it all to you
Like I would give this up I'll do what you want me to

desertme + raynen (xtasane)

no
no me mires con esos ojos
but-but-but thats usually how it goes
no me mires con esos ojos
hate it when u look me in my eyes
i dont understand
why u keep doing me like this
why u look at me like a bitch
hate it when we start up this shit
and i never understood why
why-why-why u gotta do me like this?
got me questioning if im doing all right
and it started when i looked u in ur eyes
now i watch the time pass by
no me-no me hagas esa miradita
sabes que son mi debilidad
no-no creo que lo entiendas
cuando te miro me duele
pero sé que no debería-a-a-a-a-a

and idk what 2 do
why u always look at me like i did something wrong
playin all these games its back-n-forth like we is playin pong
tired of this shit like baby why cant we just move along
and-and-and i hate it when u look at me like that
got-got-got a feelin, yeah u might as well bite back
know-know-know i dont like that
but know youll go right back
know-know-know i dont like that
but know youll go right back


no me mires (kilolit)

x0x0 (@woxied)

Getting up 
Out of bed 
Get all dressed and
Play pretend

Do you know the feelin when
No one seems to like you and 
You just cant get out of bed
Your thoughts stuck inside your head
Playing back on whats been said
Honey please get out of bed

Stand up strong
Stand up tall
Admit you are who you are
Your not what
They say you are
Your the brightest shooting star

Prove them wrong
Prove them all
That your hearts worth fighting for
Dont ignore
What they tore
Pick it up and swim to shore

Getting up 
Out of bed 
Get all dressed and
Play pretend

Do you know the feelin when
No one seems to like you and 
You just cant get out of bed
Your thoughts stuck inside your head
Playing back on whats been said
Honey please get out of bed

23 
Please get out of bed

bedrot

No one will ever find me
8x
Im running from myself
too scared to face it
All of the monsters
Hid in my basement
I cannot face it
So i just erase it
Nothing can hurt me
If it never existed
I love your face and
I love your essence
You are so precious
Are you a saint sent?
Im just a devil
Who use to be up in heaven
But my wings were torn
And i was thrown to the floor
Left to scorn all my pain was ignored
No one will ever find me
No one will ever find me
Find me from where im hiding
I hope that you can find me
Find things in me that are good
Figure out im misunderstood
I just wanna be good
I know that you are good
You make me feel so good
Finally feel understood
By someone who is so good
I wanna treat you so good
Make you forget all the things
That make you think your no good
You make me wanna be
The best person i can be
I hope you can see clearly
How much that you mean to me
You and me at the movies
We got blue and red slooshies

Meaning
“No one will ever find me” (8x)
	•	Feels like both a curse and a wish.
	•	You’re hiding on purpose but also deeply hoping someone comes looking.

⸻

“I’m running from myself / Too scared to face it”
	•	Self-avoidance. Trauma. Denial. afraid of what’s inside your own head 

“All of the monsters / Hid in my basement”
	 metaphor. The subconscious (“basement”) holding fears and past pain.

⸻

“I cannot face it / So I just erase it / Nothing can hurt me / If it never existed”
	•	logic of dissociation. numbs their pain or rewrites their own memories to survive.

⸻

“I love your face and / I love your essence / You are so precious / Are you a saint sent?”
	•	Soft transition from self pain to anothers light. Romantic, admiring — reverent.
⸻

“I’m just a devil / Who used to be up in heaven”
	•	metaphor. Self-blame, fall-from-grace theme. like you were once good, pure — but something made you fall.
	•	trauma, depression, being punished for something that was never meant to happen.

“But my wings were torn / And I was thrown to the floor”
	•	betrayal, feeling discarded. The idea of being punished for existing authentically.

“Left to scorn / All my pain was ignored”
	•	rage mixed with grief. Like: “They hated me for hurting, then ignored the pain they caused.”

⸻

“Find me from where I’m hiding / I hope that you can find me”
	•	original chorus — but now like a plea instead of a mantra.
	•	quietly hoping someone sees through the hiding.

⸻

“Find things in me that are good / Figure out I’m misunderstood / I just wanna be good”
	•	inner child lines. tender. Vulnerable. 
“Please see the soft parts inside the armor. Please know I’m trying.”

⸻

“I know that you are good / You make me feel so good / Finally feel understood”
	•	turning point. Finding safety in another, helping you forgive yourself.

⸻

“You and me at the movies / We got blue and red slooshies / Our tongues are purple / And we didn’t even watch the movie”
	— of a pure, simple moment.
	•	this person gives you something soft and human, a sense of bittersweet hope

are you a saint sent from heaven

like wake up
omg i needa break up
im too down bad 
down bad needa face her
gotta do it now 
yeah i cant do it later
talking out my mind
yeah hoping that it phase her
like too much on the tip of my tongue 
and-and u dont want me keep going on
talk-talk-talking all the nonsense 
going through ya ears now
but u dont wanna listen 
what im talking about
yeah i just needa face her
i dont need no favor
rip it up like paper
onna different layer
u know what im sayin
shouldn’t have to explain it
quit all da hating
push her to the pavement 
back it up now back it up-up
mad at me u mad or nah-nah
talking off my ear like blah blah blah-blah
cant get behind it like not at all-all
wake up
omg i needa break up
im too down bad 
down bad needa face her
gotta keep it moving 
so i cant do it later
i dont think she realized 
but she knowin that i played her

needa face her (sl4yyer + universe)

Written, Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by mxrsh
Cover Art by mxrsh
Produced by johnnyfriend

Life of Pleasure (prod. johnnyfriend)

lyrics; 

start with you girl you always tryna talk shit
wanna feel better i bought her some rick
lovin margiela im lovin my huh
lovin margiela im lovin my kicks
that girl expensive want coco like shit
she blowin my phone she be angry as shit
she cussin me out but i love my bitch

in too deep bitch i cant een swim
jus like me swear you jus my twin
big amg not no baby benz
watchin the hate from the carti lens
in too deep bitch i cant een swim
love on her but i hate her friends
just pray to god please forgive my sins
told you im sorry lets just make amends

bae you trippin im one in a million
boolin back with sista i been kickin it with twinnem
choppa got a laser ima hide it in the denim
you the type to follow you be lookin like a minion
i was aimin for a hundred thousand finna reach a million
prayin up to god please dont take me fore im finished
tryna just be better i been fixin up my image
tryna be safe so i lurk with extensions

whole fit foreign cant een pronounce it
wock im pourin move like molasses 
bad lil bitch with the fake ass lashes
ghetto white bitch with a fake ass acent
keep taxin but i love my saks fifth
hit my brudda for a play he'll toss you some the backends
stack bread and he told be keep rappin
big maybach truck finna make it happen

jeans too baggy they keep saggin
no im not her father but she still call me daddy
bitch im white but i know im not trashy
aint no reprocussions cus the blunts make me happy

beat it like procussion ima hit it from the back
homie got concussion pistol slapped him in the head
choppa not een russian it come from pripyat 
boy its an abduction if you drop my brudda set

in too deep but i cant swim bitch
need my drugs my lean, my bills bitch
sleep of drank but i still lean bitch
i dont like ya fashion ima put ya in celine bitch
ho perfect sweet but mean bitch
pink drank like the hair of a scene bitch
think you takin benadryl said you seen shit
cts-v bitch thats a clean whip

swim

adyr**

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