@xam @prsonprson

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ziotsoQJ9Sc1hnBodbesL?si=d731d90e037d49d7
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/is-there-anyone/1614267269?i=1614267270
YouTube: https://youtu.be/nUXYJ86kbGo

[Verse 1]
Lately I’ve been hating everything that I’ve been making
I’ve lost the motivation for the dreams that I’ve been chasing
I know this ain’t a race, no, but all I’ve done is racing
I’m noticing how everything I’ve built is slowly fading

I’m dedicating all my time to overthinking,
Drinking & the heavy medications I’ve been taking
I’m slowing down and breaking
I’m tripping out like I’m on a vacation

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

[Verse 2]
All I want is for someone to understand who I am
Someone to sit there in the silence by my side and hold my hand
But all I have is me, myself and I and my imaginary friends
And a broken hourglass that’s running out of sand

Life is tricky, time is ticking, life’s a ticking time bomb
I’m dying slowly like the battery on my phone
I’m alone, I don’t like to be lonely
But I’m pushing away everyone that say that they love me

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

IS THERE ANYONE? (feat. PERSONPERSON)

Midnight Hustle

Raw Dance n Robots

@xam

[Verse 1]
You are like a drug to me I can't stay away
Got no money left on me but I have so much to say
It's 4 maybe 5 am I can't stop thinking about you
& when you hear this song just know that
This song is about you

It's been really hard to be away from you
But I'm glad you're out there waiting for me
Lonely nights I think about you, yes I do
& when you hear this song just know that
This song is about you

[Chorus]
This song is about you x11

[Verse 2]
I don't know where to go
Cos I'm just sitting here
Waiting for you lonely nights
Yeah, I think about you every morning
When I wake up from my dreams
I wanna wake up next to you
What's a king without his queen

I got a king size bed
But I sleep alone
I don't wanna sleep alone
I wanna sleep with you, baby
I wrote this song about you, baby

I don't know where to go
Cos I'm just sitting here
Waiting for you lonely nights
think about you, think about you, yeah
Every morning
When I wake up from my dreams
I think about you
I wrote this song about you

[Chorus]
This song is about you x11

THIS SONG IS ABOUT YOU

@xam_real @sabinanova

[Chorus]
Go on the floor
We'll go slow & high tempo
Let's take it slow
Close ur eyes, enjoy the show
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
What's up, what's up? what you wanna do?
When I'm chilling in bed with you
Touch your body & you make a sound
Everytime that I come around
Yeah I do wanna do you right now
Make love with you girl slow & loud
Baby do you like it do you want some more
Spread your legs

[Chorus]
Go on the floor
We'll go slow & high tempo
Let's take it slow
Close ur eyes, enjoy the show
Yeah, yeah

[verse 2]
Oh & I don't know where to go
Cos I'm sitting here waiting for you yeah
Lonely nights I don't know where to go
Cos I'm just thinking about, thinking about you
I need some more time with you
I could go all nigh with you
Let's get wasted together
Netflix & chill, yeah
Stay up all night, all night
Have sex & conversations forever
Cos I'm just thinking about, thinking about you
Thinking of what we could be
Thinking of what we should be, should be
Come fuck with me, fuck with me
Baby please

[Chorus]
Go on the floor
We'll go slow & high tempo
Let's take it slow
Close ur eyes, enjoy the show
Yeah, yeah

NETFLIX & CHILL

LOST & ALONE (feat. Sabina Nova)

@xam @lil_peep

written by @lil_peep
produced by kryptik
lyrics: https://genius.com/Lil-peep-star-shopping-lyrics

LIL PEEP - STAR SHOPPING (Cover)

@xam @jahseh-onfroy

written by @jahseh-onfroy (xxxtentacion)
beat: i dont wanna do this anymore

dead inside, spend a lot of time stuck in this head of mine
under the assumption love is dead, alright
just let me be here
where was i, when he was feeling on you with his hands, at night
seen the vivid pictures in my head, at night
it left me in tears
i’ve been up a very long time, wonder why they hate on me
i don’t wanna love myself, i’m praying that they all love me
cause you don’t wanna x8
i should’ve let you know, that you’re my only one
i know you’re feeling numb, i’ll fuck you 'til you cum
said, “i don’t understand, how you don’t got a man"
you want me in your bed, cause i’ve been in your head
no, no, no x8
dead inside, spend a lot of time stuck in this head of mine
under the assumption love is dead, alright
just let me be here
where was i, when he was feeling on you with his hands, at night
seen the vivid pictures in my head, at night
it left me in tears

XXXTENTACION - I DON'T WANNA DO THIS ANYMORE / DEAD INSIDE (Cover)

@xam 

Spotify; https://open.spotify.com/track/1mBGDo1ySBM13UHC28j1GD
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/i-love-you-single/1464226968
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JV0iH0Z3x3k

[Verse 1]
I’m gonna (gonna) love you all I can, girl yeah
I’m gonna show you I'm your man
I wanna (wanna) be with you till the end of time, girl
Will you be mine? will you be mine
I’m gonna (gonna) stay with you forever
We are (we are) meant to be together
Together, forever and ever

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t wanna spend the night alone at home, no
I’m on my own and I’m calling pick up your phone
I’m calling (calling) you 6 times in a row
Heart beats - slow mo, no show - friendzone
I don’t know, wtf is going on now
What the fuck is going on now?
I just wanna hold you in my arms all night
Miss you - wanna kiss you goodnight

[Chorus]
Cos i love you
Cos i love you

[Verse 2]
I’m gonna stay with you forever
And ever we are meant to be together
Forever & ever
We are meant to be forever
It’s been a while since we last talked, yeah
It’s been a while since we last hugged
It’s been a while since we last touched
It’s been a while since we last f**ked, baby

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t wanna spend the night alone at home, no
I’m on my own and I’m calling pick up your phone
I’m calling (calling) you 6 times in a row
Heart beats - slow mo, no show - friendzone
I don’t know, wtf is going on now
What the fuck is going on now?
I just wanna hold you in my arms all night
Miss you - wanna kiss you goodnight

[Chorus]
Cos i love you
Cos i love you

I LOVE YOU

@xam @hermitthesad

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lKo9QZMj5I

[Verse]
You make me feel feelings I never knew I could feel
Real feelings for someone this is new to me
I dont know what to do without you in my life
Can’t get you out of my head
You’re on my mind all the time

Wish you were here, wish you were mine, yeah
I would bring you flowers to the bed every night, yeah
We could lay in the bed all day
Watching movies on the days
When the rain is pouring down, yeah

[Chorus]
I wanna grow old with you, yeah, yeah
I wanna live in a big house
With many kids running around
The yard outside
There’s green grass and a blue sky
Birds are singing and sun the shines
You and I looking eye to eye
Planting two lips on two lips
You’re looking so fine, yeah
We could be like Kim and Kanye

KIM & KANYE [Prod. Hermit]

@xam @1056boys

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5wJts3eNTG9efsAGzkZWHo
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/ive-been-feeling-lonely-lately-single/1464242181
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tx3mZn-IbII

[Chorus] x2
I’ve been feeling
Lonely lately
I’m hearing voices
In my head I’m in pain

[Verse]
I’ve been trading my own life away for fame
I have spoken with the devil and he said
To me that I’m insane
I just wanna make it so bad
I just wanna make it for my fam
I used to be the quiet kid in my class
I used to lie and say that I’m fine
Everytime that i was asked
How I’m doing, how I’m doing

[Pre-Chorus]
And they thought they knew me
But they didn't know me
Nobody knew me, or knew how I felt
I know that I’ve made some mistakes in my past
And I hope that the last one I made was the last one

[Chorus] x2
I’ve been feeling
Lonely lately
I’m hearing voices
In my head I’m in pain

I'VE BEEN FEELING LONELY LATELY [Prod. Ten50]

@xam @neverday

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7jM0rGnx1GHCtJeNPSm9o2
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/whyd-you-lie-to-me-single/1464210385
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljqioGttqfE

[Verse]
Locked inside at home all alone on my own
Sitting in my empty room writing songs on my phone
It’s the only way that I know how to deal with this pain
That I feel deep inside me hard to breath I can’t sleep

I can’t believe what I saw time and time again
You told me you’re my friend but you lied to me
I can’t believe what I saw time and time again
You told me you’re my friend but you lied to me

[Chorus] x6
Why’d you lie to me?
Why’d you lie to me?
We were bestfriends
Now you’re dead to me

WHY'D YOU LIE TO ME [Prod. NEVERDAY]

@xam @lilhappylilsad @pastnight

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5F0CjNQii37YUkykNiElVl
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/less-than-three-feat-lil-happy-lil-sad-single/1464242497
YouTube: https://youtu.be/Ul6ZhefinsE

[Verse 1: XAM]
I really thought that I found what they call real love
I really thought that you were the chosen one for me
But I was wrong and now you are gone
So many girls on my mind, but I dont see you anymore

I’m going crazy, I can’t take this no more
I’ve been feeling so low for so long
Ever since you walked out the front door
I’ve been sleeping solo on the cold floor

I can’t sleep when I’m alone
I can’t breath when you are gone
You’re on my mind everytime that I’m on my own
Wish you were here right now but you are gone

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

[Verse 2: Lil Happy Lil Sad]
I always thought you were the one
I can’t believe I’m nothing to you
Bless my body with your hands
It was a world that I was new to

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

I wish you needed me
But now you’re leaving me
I need to smoke some weed
I need promethazine

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

LESS THAN THREE (feat. Lil Happy Lil Sad) [Prod. pastnight]

@xam @neverday

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5WyIoydz9NrUXB6KL84cPX
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/i-dont-wanna-die-single/1464241604
YouTube: https://youtu.be/U5BXVUAkSPs

[Verse]
I find it funny how the fake friends shows up when it’s too late, yeah
The damage has been done it will never be the same again, yeah
You had your chance when I came to you in the first place
Asking you for help but you had nothing good to say to me

Rainy days are my favourite days
Cos they remind me of the tears dripping down my face
If you really care about me and you really want me in your life
Let me know if you’ll be there when I’m calling you at night

Don’t cry yourself dry
When I’m gone you’ll be fine
Without me in your life
Everything will be alright

Not even gonna lie
Not even gonna try
But I think that it’s time
To get something of my mind right now

[Chorus] x2
I dont wanna die but when I do I wanna fly 
Up to the sky so high I’m never coming back down
I just wanna drown in my feelings but I have none
I am sick and tired of this fucking shit I am done

I DON'T WANNA DIE [Prod. NEVERDAY]

@xam @neverday

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6qrcnWwMQIky4H3ysslFvd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/no-motion-in-my-emotions-single/1464239296
YouTube: https://youtu.be/oEJKXvkvNAg

[Chorus] x2
Everything’s in slow motion
No motion in my emotions
It feels like I’m drowing in the ocean
No motion in my emotions

[Verse]
I’m laying in my bed
In my bedroom playing dead now, yeah
Staring at the ceiling
And I’m dreaming about bleeding out

Feelings bleeding out of my brain
Everyday just feels the same
Mama raised a soldier
But I think that I might lose this game

I’m just wasting my time
Waiting for my time to run out 
It has been a while since the last time
I really felt alive

I’m feeling dead inside and
It is dark and cold outside
I don’t even know why I am
Trying to survive

[Pre-Chorus]
Leave me alone
I need some space
Been in a chase
I’ve lost the race
It is too late
I’ve given up
Look at my face
I’m a fucking disgrace

[Chorus] x2
Everything’s in slow motion
No motion in my emotions
It feels like I’m drowing in the ocean
No motion in my emotions

NO MOTION IN MY EMOTIONS [Prod. NEVERDAY]

@xam @user-666479851

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2BK0rp3LUDNbW78jZ6tGew
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/everybody-dies-in-the-end-single/1464246960
YouTube: https://youtu.be/wYhca3rc3Tg

Everybody dies in the end
 It doesen’t matter if your cool
 Cos we’ll all end up
 In the same place anyways

Any day we’ll be gone
 Be no more & we’ll be done
 We’ll be down 6 feet and
 Be forgotten underground

Everybody dies in the end
 It doesen’t matter if your cool
 Cos we’ll all end up
 In the same place anyways

Any day we’ll be gone
 Be no more & we’ll be done
 We’ll be down 6 feet and
 Be forgotten underground

EVERYBODY DIES IN THE END [Prod. Uzi]

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

@xam @logancannon

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7EwAjJyCQIsAE4W1CgJVLX
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/sad-boy-feat-logan-cannon-single/1464244326
YouTube: https://youtu.be/bQfS7r13wkY

[Verse 1: XAM]
They told me to be happy when It’s raining
I wish my life was picture perfect like a painting
But here I am writing songs from my basement
I broke my soul when I fell down from heaven

Hit the earth face first on the pavement
Been working / waiting for my first payment 
Have you ever fallen down like this?
To the ground like this?
Felt down like this before?

Now I’m sleeping on the cold floor alone
Spending every second writing songs on my phone
About feelings that I used to know
Feelings that I used to love
Feelings that are…

Gone
They’re gone
Long gone
Yeah

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m just a sad boy
With a sad voice
Singing sad songs
With a sad flow

[Verse 2: Logan Cannon]
Man the worlds so cold no emotions
Everyday same shit the 9-5 commotion
There’s an ocean, It’s always open
So I’m diving deep in this life I keep on hoping

That me and Max yeah we make it out
That me and Max hear them screaming loud
These lyrics that we’ve written down
There’s a vision in my brain and It’s spilling out

Nobody’s gonna spill my blood today cos
The sun’s shining and I’m smiling
I’m saying fuck a 9-5, man
Saying fuck a 9-5, man

Touched down in dam
And you know I’m getting high, man
For my brothers I’m gonna ride, man
For my brothers I’d die, man
I’d die, man

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m just a sad boy
With a sad voice
Singing sad songs
With a sad flow

SAD BOY (feat. Logan Cannon)

@xam @lil_yung_pharaoh @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ug4VQPXCGxNfqMIxwh2xd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/bad-thoughts-feat-lil-yung-pharaoh-single/1464634124
YouTube: https://youtu.be/qjjQ49p3xmY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t  know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

[Verse 2: Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

BAD THOUGHTS (feat. Lil Yung Pharaoh) [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@xam @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2KQIV0bUZ3xGzIlQ0nO1cx
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/secrets-single/1464218058
YouTube: https://youtu.be/rd00nXZewjM

[Chorus]
If you’re hearing this it means
I’ve had enough and I’ve let go
If you’re reading this it means
I’ve given up and I’ve moved on

I’m just a guy and I speak less
I’m not shy I am speechless
I’m tired and I’m depressed
I’m tired of these secrets

[Verse]
That I’m keeping deep inside of me
I tried to deal with this pain that I feel
I feel myself slowly fading from reality
When you find me can you promise me
That you’ll let me be?

You would think that I am fine
When I wake up with a smile
On my face the smile is fake
The smile is there to hide behind

Still alive but I’m in pain
My blood is running through my veins
There’s a storm inside my brain
Time to put this to an end

[Bridge]
So… One cut… Two cuts… Three cuts… Four…
My blood just started dripping to the bathroom floor…

[Chorus]
If you’re hearing this it means
I’ve had enough and I’ve let go
If you’re reading this it means
I’ve given up and I’ve moved on

I’m just a guy and I speak less
I’m not shy I am speechless
I’m tired and I’m depressed
I’m tired of these secrets

SECRETS [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@xam @twotwntytwo (co-prod. @cxldblxxd)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5DkQTuiUh8lkvhiSJtCWer
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/defeated-feat-two-22-single/1464238173
YouTube: https://youtu.be/XcnevBhTbec

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I got too much on my mind
But not enough time
My head’s in overdrive
Tears falling from my eyes

I don’t wanna cry
I just wanna die
Defeated by the feeling
Of my demons eating me alive

[Verse: Two:22]
Too much on my mind
Not enough time
Tangled in the webs
Past is creeping from behind

Makes me wanna die
But yet I still try
I hope we will survive
Even in the darkest night

I got too much on my mind
And not enough time
Tangled in the webs
Past is creeping from behind

It makes me wanna die
But yet I still try
I hope we will survive
Even in the darkest night

[Chorus : XAM] x2
I got too much on my mind
But not enough time
My head’s in overdrive
Tears falling from my eyes

I don’t wanna cry
I just wanna die
Defeated by the feeling
Of my demons eating me alive

[Bridge]
I got too much on my mind
But now enough time

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I got too much on my mind
But not enough time
My head’s in overdrive
Tears falling from my eyes

I don’t wanna cry
I just wanna die
Defeated by the feeling
Of my demons eating me alive

DEFEATED (feat. Two:22)

@xam @cxldblxxd @universalchill

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2PLzLFiUqSFtRbhlOeXE5a?si=0iw1MAW_Ru6JZOzz1uPO8g
Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/fi/album/sleepwalking-feat-love-max/1409003690?i=1409003866&app=music
YouTube: https://youtu.be/hfoiCJ1Dkxo

[Verse]
I’m floating in the darkness and I’m choking
Holding on to my dear life and hoping
That nothing turns into something, yeah
Nothing turns into something

My head’s in the clouds but I’m feeling so low
Tick tock, tick tock time is moving so slow
Tryna hold on but I’m losing control
I dont wanna die, I dont wanna grow old

[x2]
This is a dream
This ain’t real
Nothing’s how it feels

Don’t believe
What you see
Nothing’s how it seems

[Pre-Chorus]
On a long lonely road
I’m lost and alone
I’m out of my zone
I don’t know where the go

[Chorus] x4
I’m sleep walking (On a long lonely road)
Sleep walking (I’m lost and alone)
I keep walking (I’m out of my zone)
Keep walking (I don’t know where the go)

Celestial Mixtape

SLEEPWALKING [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@xam @sabinanova

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0QWVNT8xNr4ibDiLeAlsDq
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/1-800-you-matter-feat-sabina-nova-single/1464246742
YouTube: https://youtu.be/bzTFTGL6ESQ

[Intro : Sabina Nova]
It gets so hard yeah I know
I'm here for you just hold on
You’re an addict for the pain
An addict for the unknown
You’re holding on to your past
But this pain ain’t gonna last

[Chorus - Sabina Nova] x2
You should feel the love
You should heal your heart
Cause you live for the better days

You should see the stars
You should reach above
You need to look for better ways

[Love, Max : Verse]
What’s the point of life
If you tryna grab a knife
Every night without a fight
 Don’t give up you’ll see the light
You’re a star, you’re shining bright

Don’t cry
Everything will be alright
Turn that frown on your face
To a beautiful smile

You’re not a waste of space
 Life’s not a waste of time
You will have better days
When you’ll be happy you’re alive
In pradise

So don’t die
Don’t even think about it
You gotta love yourself
You can not live without it

The world is yours
 You’re not alone 
Remember when you’re feeling down
You are always loved

Sometimes you’re feeling worse 
Sometimes you’re feeling better
But the pain that you are feeling
 Deep inside is not forever

[Sabina Nova : Chorus] x2
You should feel the love
You should heal your heart
Cause you live for the better days

You should see the stars
You should reach above
You need to look for better ways

1-800-YOU-MATTER (feat. Sabina Nova)

@xam @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3GFPyhogjxzNMpyTmdDysE
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/fade-away-single/1464611384
YouTube (Music Video): https://youtu.be/eg7luQ1PYhQ

[Verse 1]
I woke up in the morning from the wrong side of bed
And I wish that I had stayed asleep and I wish that I was dead
But I try my best to suffocate the pain that I’m feeling in my chest
I’m depressed and stressed out I need some rest

I don’t wanna be alive right now It’s a waste of time and
I got demons deep inside my mind and I am sick and tired
And I can’t hear my own thoughts
I know that it’s my own fault
Fading away from the family photos
Oh no, I’m a no one

[Chorus]
I just wanna fade away   
I just wanna die today
Erase me from your memories
That way you wont remember me

[Verse 2]
So I hide my pain with a smile
I couldn’t be happy even If I tried
You think that I’m fine, It’s a disguise
Reality is that I’m crying inside
I don’t wanna do this anymore

I’m laying on the bathroom floor
It’s freezing and my back is sore
I’m waiting for the reaper to come
creeping through the bathroom door
I don’t wanna do this anymore
No, I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Chorus] x2
I just wanna fade away   
I just wanna die today
Erase me from your memories
That way you wont remember me

I just wanna fade away   
I just wanna die today
Erase me from your memories
That way you wont remember me

MUSIC VIDEO

FADE AWAY [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@xam @ohsobrkn

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7qQmYVkHSBecrMMOgOaYaP
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/goodbye-feat-ohsobrkn-single/1464245741
YouTube: https://youtu.be/vSZea0KiSJg

[Verse 1: XAM]
I got ripped clothes and a bloody nose
And I’m so close to an overdose
Nobody knows the real me
Cos I’m a ghost and I’m hiding my real feelings
They think they know me but they dont know anything

I’m just a lost cause who got last thoughts, yeah
I’m just the shadow of the person that I once was
And I’ve been letting go of all my memories
Of who I used to be and how I used to feel

And my depression gets stronger the longer I wait, yeah
And the weight on my shoulders is too much to take, yeah 
It’s pushing me down to the ground ’til I break, yeah
The voices takes over controlling my fate    

Feels like I'm dead but I'm breathing
Feels like I'm bleeding out but my heart is still beating
Wide awake so alive but I'm freezing
Winter season got me sick I'm sneezing

Yeah, things change...
I get that nothing stays the same
Even sunny days can turn to
50 shades of grey

Go from hot to cold, from snow to rain
From feeling good to feeling pain
I’ll put a bullet in my brain
Cos when I’m dead I cant complain

[Chorus]
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me

[Verse 2: ohsobrkn]
I'm broken down and I can't breathe
There's no light so pardon me I can't see  
My demons came for a visit now they wont leave
I try to cover up the scars so I wear sleeves

And all I do is sit inside of my basement
Contemplate my death through the problems that I'm faced with
Tryna fight addiction that I made from getting wasted
But the temptation is getting so strong and I can taste it

And sometimes I think about this music and I hate it
All i see it empty talent full of clout and getting famous
I compare myself to artist that I know are overrated
Don't you tell me its alright I'll be fine you can save it

I can't do this anymore, feel my heart becoming sore
Every time I close my eyes I am taken to a morgue
I dont really wanna die but I am rotting to the core
And the world is so cold treat my body like a corpse

Okay you win, I lose so kill me now
Lay me down deep until I'm underground
I just wanna hear silence It's my favortie sound
I can finally see my home theres no need to frown

[Chorus]
So say goodbye
Cos this might be the last time
That you will ever see me
That you will ever hear me

GOODBYE (feat. ohsobrkn)

@xam @prodbylcs

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6vmO9jXHpNUR5hhSTOVZxD
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/home-single/1464243444
YouTube (Music Video): https://youtu.be/1Vpbc79TUfk

HOME LYRICS:
I'm a long way from home
I've been too long on my own
I'm getting tired of being alone
I'm getting tired of feeling alone

I wanna be myself again
I wanna be my best friend
I wanna love myself again
I wanna be my best friend

I'm a long way from home
I've been too long on my own
I'm getting tired of being alone
I'm getting tired of feeling alone

I wanna be myself again
I wanna be my best friend
I wanna love myself again
I wanna be my best friend

HOME [Prod. LCS]

@xam @d1vv @karmarhythm

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5zdzLOREA83tH2ArEtiGJy
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/fighting-feat-d1v-single/1464238010
YouTube: https://youtu.be/BBvx2JlX0PY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I'm getting choked out by a diamond chain choker around my neck
While I'm walking in the rain one step closer to my death
Struggling to stay alive while I'm tryna find
My will to live but the time is running out - like my breath

"Don't go!"
"Don't leave!"
"Stay strong!"
"Believe!"

Those are the words they keep telling me
To keep me here

[Chorus] x2
But I got drugs in my veins
I can't remember my name
And I'm feeling insane
Dreaming of feeling alive once again

Fighting with the monsters hiding under my bed
Fighting on the phone with my imaginary friends
Fighting with the demons i got up in my head
Fighting with the thoughts in my brain

[Verse 2: D1V]
I'm so isolated, I'm stuck
I be with my team we run it up
Everybody think I'm done for
Doing all these drugs, now I'm going to the club

Only got my team left, that's why I got it tatted on me
Think they know my secrets thats why they trynna pull up on me
I don't want a girl cos they leave me in second
Swallow 5 pills or else I be stressing

Take your life for me would you do that
Got a broken heart would you glue that
I don't mind a thing if you leave me
Cos your better off without me

Chase my dreams
You don't really know me and It's better that you don't
When you said I'm wrong I didn't tell you cos I know
Drugs in my veins kill that pain

[Chorus]
But I got drugs in my veins
I can't remember my name
And I'm feeling insane
Dreaming of feeling alive once again

Fighting with the monsters hiding under my bed
Fighting on the phone with my imaginary friends
Fighting with the demons i got up in my head
Fighting with the thoughts in my brain

FIGHTING (feat. d1v) [Prod. XAM & KARMA RHYTHM]

@xam

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/44MTPLOEKZTJ24B1w01o8b
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/the-devil-single/1464214824
YouTube (Music Video): https://youtu.be/jwt948Y8WGk

[Verse]
You would never understand the hell I feel inside my head
I hope the violence deep inside me turns to silence when I’m dead
I think I’m gonna go ahead and let my demons out to play
With the dogs in the backyard

They want a piece of my mind but I want peace of mind
But It’s getting way too hard to keep them all outside this mind of mine
Cos I got too much going on inside my mind all the time
I just wanna disappear and leave it all behind

[Chorus]
Yeah, I got the devil on my shoulder
And I'm getting tired I just wish that this was over
Yeah, I don’t wanna grow older
I'm burning from the inside but my body's getting colder

Yeah, I got the devil on my shoulder
And I'm getting tired I just wish that this was over
Yeah, I don’t wanna grow older
I'm burning from the inside but my body's getting colder

THE DEVIL

@xam @itsyungvan (mixed by @sinxi) 

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0HHPCnfZPVawyqBykZmSF8
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/one-more-night-feat-yung-van-single/1466097611
YouTube (Lyric Video): https://youtu.be/8LteOlrKkyM

[Verse 1: XAM]
It’s 4 or maybe 5 a.m.
And I am wide awake once again
I’m laying on the bed sheets and I’m counting dead sheep
But I cannot fall asleep, cos…

I am scared to close my eyes
‘Cos I am scared of what I’ll see
I am scared of having nightmares
‘Cos I am scared of facing my fears

[Chorus]
I wish my life was how it used to be
Just give me one more night without the bad dreams
I wish my life was how it used to be
I just wanna be the old me again…

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
There’s something wrong with me
I can’t catch sleep
Every time I’m close to dreams
I start to fall beneath the scenes
I’m watching angels lose their wings

Worlds collide as sirens sing
Rest is further than it seems
Looking for the castle in the air
Knowing damn well it’ll never be there

I’m stargazing the sky realizing that I
Hold on to all this pain
It resurrects when I hear your name
If only I knew why I’m falling faster than
I could imagine

[Chorus]
I wish my life was how it used to be
Just give me one more night without the bad dreams
I wish my life was how it used to be
I just wanna be the old me again...

ONE MORE NIGHT (feat. Yung Van)

@xam @cameronphilip @sinxi

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0CU7CqA9eeHZP7YV3guRxo
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/questions-feat-cameron-philip/1476593059
YouTube: https://youtu.be/nTgzSqOSf_A

[Verse 1: XAM]
Excuse me teacher I got a couple questions
Tell me why my only decent feature is depression?
Tell me why I'm always aiming for perfection
Teach me everything I need to know to learn my lesson

[Chorus]
Will I float or will I drown?
Is this all a waste of time? How long until i’ll die?
Should I even be alive? What is wrong and what is right?
Should I run or should I fight? Will I make it through the night?

Should I say good morning or goodbye?
Give up or should I try? Laugh or should I cry?
Tell the truth or should I lie? Pretend that I am fine?
Or show you who I really am, show you what I hide inside...

[Verse 2: Cameron Philip]
Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout a lot
I've been thinking 'bout everything, every single lie
Every single heartbreak and every single tear
Every single dumb date, every single fear

Yeah, every single enemy that said I wouldn't make it
Someone tell me how to love ‘cause all I get is hated
Yelling from above, and my life fading
But they never come, and now I'm waiting, waiting, yeah

I got questions, I got visions, where is heaven? Is this living?
Is this everything in life that I could have been?
Is there more? am I blind? am i missing it?
Everybody wanna tell me what I don't know
Everybody wanna be the one to tell me don't go

But you don't know what I'm thinking, I stay up late sleep with no blinking
And you float up while I'm sinking, every thought like poison, I'm drinking
Yeah, but you don't know that I'm different, every time we talk you don't listen
Listen to me now do you miss it, under the moonlight in the beginning
We've been wide awake but still sleeping, time to wake up, live and start dreaming

[Chorus]
Will I float or will I drown?
Is this all a waste of time? How long until i’ll die?
Should I even be alive? What is wrong and what is right?
Should I run or should I fight? Will I make it through the night?

Should I say good morning or goodbye?
Give up or should I try? Laugh or should I cry?
Tell the truth or should I lie? Pretend that I am fine?
Or show you who I really am, show you what I hide inside...

QUESTIONS (feat. Cameron Philip) [Prod. Sinxi]

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4AwJJ0p8QNIDqxxCxFnk3e
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/pretty-face/1504313199
YouTube: https://youtu.be/YfX8cafstK8

[Intro]
I fell in love with the devil in disguise
I didn’t think a pretty face could be so dead inside
I fell for all the lies that she hid behind her smile
Got blinded by the beauty of her beautiful blue eyes

[Verse 1]
We had it all, we had perfect chemistry
I never thought I would see you disappear
I got 20/20 vision but my vision isn’t clear
You’re nothing else to me but a blurry memory

We had everything anyone could ever need
You said you'd die for me but you lied to me
You broke my heart and you took away my sanity
I guess the nightmares that I’ve had were reality

[Chorus]
I fell in love with the devil in disguise
I didn’t think a pretty face could be so dead inside
I fell for all the lies that she hid behind her smile
Got blinded by the beauty of her beautiful blue eyes

[Verse 2]
So innocent, caring and so kind
Like a beautiful butterfly flying through the sky
You were too good to be true for you to ever be mine
I didn’t realize what you really were in time

I never knew how hard it was to lose your best friend
I didn’t see this coming, never thought that this would be end
But maybe one day we’ll meet in hell, no
I’ve been to hell and back twice and I don’t plan to go again

[Chorus]I fell in love with the devil in disguise
I didn’t think a pretty face could be so dead inside
I fell for all the lies that she hid behind her smile
Got blinded by the beauty of her beautiful blue eyes

[Verse 3]
You got me fucked up, yeah fucked in the head
You played with my emotions and fuck with my brain
You got me sufferin’, feeling paranoid and insane
You dragged me to the edge and pushed me down into my grave

You killed what was left of the good in me
You made the old me disappear
I feel like I’m here but I’m nowhere near
I see myself crashing if I don’t switch gears

[Chorus]
I fell in love with the devil in disguise
I didn’t think a pretty face could be so dead inside
I fell for all the lies that she hid behind her smile
Got blinded by the beauty of her beautiful blue eyes

PRETTY FACE

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4zret0QuEoBQHlS7GMjay6
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/xo/1514449656
YouTube: https://youtu.be/Rugr_JmyA9Y

[Verse 1]
I remember our first date like it was yesterday
You and me laid on our bed wide awake
From when the sun set until the sun rose
Just talking ‘bout our feelings, while staring up at space
You opened up, let me in and told me ‘bout your problems
I was listening and promising that one day we would solve ‘em
You taught me how to get back up when I’ve fallen
To the ground like the leaves in autumn

[Chorus]
Xo, oh oh
I need you right now, come home
Xo, oh oh
I’ve been waiting all day by the window
Xo, oh oh
Time is moving so slow its in slow-mo
Xo, oh oh
I feel like I’ve been waiting for you for so long

[Verse 2]
Nobodys perfect, baby we all got issues
But they disappear when I am with you
When I’m feeling sad, you hand me tissues
You’re the best I’ve ever had, yeah, I miss you
You’re like a drug for my mood
I want to overdose on you
Kill me with your love
You make me feel so good

[Chorus]
Xo, oh oh
I need you right now, come home
Xo, oh oh
I’ve been waiting all day by the window
Xo, oh oh
Time is moving so slow its in slow-mo
Xo, oh oh
I feel like I’ve been waiting for you for so long

LOST

Sky (feat. Liz Hill)

929 (feat. PmBata)

@xam

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5saAvS95N56c9cwhvkmKrv?si=moK-kNzWT-GlliDUhZPMCg
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/wake-me-up-single/1551757320
YouTube: https://youtu.be/O3NhMg7B8zw

[Chorus]
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough

[Verse]
I spend a lot of time inside this mind of mine (yeah)
But I don’t even know (no) know the reason why
My world is worse than the world outside (yeah)
I should go outside and smile for a while before I die (yeah)
‘Cos I hate this place, this place is not a place I’d like to be in
If I could wake up I would open up my eyes and leave
It all behind me to be a normal human being

I’m feeling like I’m stuck in a world full of hate
This world is far from a wonderful place ‘cos
Everyday feels the same
I’m feeling like a lone wolf in a Zoo I just want to escape
This cage but I can't ‘cos I’ve lost the keys
And I’m hoping someone hears the screams
That I'm letting out and let's me out of here

[Chorus]
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough
Wake me up, wake me up, please, wake me up, wake me up
‘Cos I’ve had enough, had enough, I’ve had enough, had enough

WAKE ME UP

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM

XAM

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