Name: Actually Not Today by XI
Duration: 5 min 42 s
Description: One of 4 slow tracks in upcoming album "One".

Lyrics:

She wakes up late, another night to fight
Eyes glued to her phone, keepin’ out of sight
Mom and Dad gone, they’re always working hard
She’s in the house, but feels like she’s in the yard

She’s got a vibe, but she’s scared to go outside
The streets are full of creeps, it’s hard to hide
Every step’s a risk, every glance a trap
Paranoia creeping, she can’t relax

But they don’t know what it’s like
Feeling like she’s walking on a knife
Too many eyes, too many spies,
She just wanna live her life, live her life

She’s hiding behind closed doors,
Afraid to step, afraid to explore
The world’s too loud, too much to ignore
She’s waiting for something more
But she’s trapped inside her head
Feeling better off in bed
It’s a war in her mind, yeah, she’s misled
Wishing for a way out, but she’s stuck instead

She scrolls through pics, everyone’s so carefree
They’re living like they’re free, but not like me
Told her friends, “Don’t call me, I’m good,”
But they don’t get it, they don’t know what she’s misunderstood

She’s always checking the lock on the door
She can’t tell if it’s safe, it’s never sure
Her heart beats fast, she’s starting to crash
She wants to break free, but it’s all too much to stash

But they don’t know what it’s like
Feeling like she’s walking on a knife
Too many eyes, too many spies
She just wanna live her life, live her life

She’s hiding behind closed doors,
Afraid to step, afraid to explore
The world’s too loud, too much to ignore
She’s waiting for something more
But she’s trapped inside her head
Feeling better off in bed
It’s a war in her mind, yeah, she’s misled
Wishing for a way out, but she’s stuck instead

Her world’s a ghost town, trapped in a screen
Always doubting the people she can’t even see
Got a hundred friends, but not a single one near
She wants to scream, but no one will hear

She’s hiding behind closed doors,
Afraid to step, afraid to explore
The world’s too loud, too much to ignore
She’s waiting for something more
But she’s trapped inside her head
Feeling better off in bed
It’s a war in her mind, yeah, she’s misled
Wishing for a way out, but she’s stuck instead

Behind closed doors, yeah, she’s afraid
Living in shadows, a world she’s made
But one day she’ll break through, she’ll be okay
Until then, she hides, she hides away...

Behind Closed Doors

Lyrics:

Yo, turn the bass up, we're breakin' through the ceiling,
She’s got the moves, got the groove, and she’s feelin'…
Like a meme, gettin' lit on the school rooftop,
She’s got the drip, now the beat don’t stop!

She’s climbin' up, outta class, on a mission,
No cap, no filter, just pure ambition,
Spinnin’ like a Beyblade, watch her whip,
Gamer girl flex, got that pixel grip.

She said, “Don’t be sus, come vibe with me,”
Her squad’s on the roof, gettin’ wild, we’re free.
I’m down to 1v1, but right now I’m distracted,
She’s throwin' it back, yeah, that booty’s impacted!

She’s a legend like KSI,
Got that Ligma swag, we flyin’ high.
No need for a respawn, this moment’s real,
Dancin' on the roof, let’s make a deal…

She’s dancin' on the roof like it’s Fortnite,
Gonna steal the show, bring the heat tonight.
Ain’t no lag, no delay, she’s fast like a cheat code,
Pop a like, hit that vibe, watch her take control.

She’s a meme queen, yeah, she’s got the moves,
Gonna hit that dab, baby, watch her groove.
She’s the boss, no cap, no need for a fight,
On the rooftop, dancin' till the morning light!

She hit the nae-nae, now it’s time for the floss,
Got that "Shrek is Love, Shrek is Life" vibe, no loss.
Sippin' energy drinks, call it a power-up,
She’s the queen of the server, watch her level up!

She’s got the moves like “PewDiePie” memes,
Flickin' her hair like a “This is Fine” meme stream.
Gamer girl, controller in hand, no lag,
She’s breaking through walls, man, we on that swag.

She’s a legend like KSI,
Got that Ligma swag, we flyin’ high.
No need for a respawn, this moment’s real,
Dancin' on the roof, let’s make a deal…

She’s dancin' on the roof like it’s Fortnite,
Gonna steal the show, bring the heat tonight.
Ain’t no lag, no delay, she’s fast like a cheat code,
Pop a like, hit that vibe, watch her take control.

She’s a meme queen, yeah, she’s got the moves,
Gonna hit that dab, baby, watch her groove.
She’s the boss, no cap, no need for a fight,
On the rooftop, dancin' till the morning light!

Whoa, she’s a highscore, we can’t beat her,
Flashing lights, like a strobe, I see her,
She’s got the power-up, keepin' it lit,
She’s the queen of the memes, let’s never quit.

She said, “Catch me on TikTok, catch me on Twitch,”
We laugh, we shout, man, we’re in the glitch.
She’s throwin’ it back, like a Vine we missed,
She’s the “Doge” in my heart, can’t resist!

She’s dancin' on the roof like it’s Fortnite,
Gonna steal the show, bring the heat tonight.
Ain’t no lag, no delay, she’s fast like a cheat code,
Pop a like, hit that vibe, watch her take control.

She’s a meme queen, yeah, she’s got the moves,
Gonna hit that dab, baby, watch her groove.
She’s the boss, no cap, no need for a fight,
On the rooftop, dancin' till the morning light!

She’s up on the roof, it’s a vibe, it’s a blast,
The night’s movin’ fast, like a speedrun, no crash.
Dancin' in the moonlight, we’re never stoppin’…
On the roof, with the memes, we’re just poppin’.

Meme Queen

Lyrics:

I’ve been let down, broken on the floor
Promises fade, and I’m left wanting more
I gave my heart, now it’s turned to stone
In a world of lies, I’m left alone
Every face I see feels like a mask
I tried to trust, but it didn’t last
The weight of the world, too much to bear
Searching for someone who would care

But I’ve been falling, falling, falling
Into a place where no one’s calling
Where trust is gone, and I’m alone
I’m searching for the light I’ve never known
But I realize, it’s always been me
The only one who can set me free
I can trust myself, I can trust myself
I don’t need anyone else, no one else
(Trust yourself, trust yourself)
I don’t need anyone else, no one else

Every word was a lie I believed
But now I see through the webs they weave
I built my walls, but I’ve cracked them down
I found my strength, and I’ll wear the crown

No more shadows, no more doubt
I’ll stand tall, I’ll break out
I’m done waiting for someone to care
I’ve learned the only truth is in the air

But I’ve been falling, falling, falling
Into a place where no one’s calling
Where trust is gone, and I’m alone
I’m searching for the light I’ve never known
But I realize, it’s always been me
The only one who can set me free
I can trust myself, I can trust myself
I don’t need anyone else, no one else

I was blind, but now I see
The strength was always inside of me
No more lies, no more games
I’m breaking free from all their chains

But I’ve been falling, falling, falling
Into a place where no one’s calling
Where trust is gone, and I’m alone
I’m searching for the light I’ve never known
But I realize, it’s always been me
The only one who can set me free
I can trust myself, I can trust myself
I don’t need anyone else, no one else

Trust yourself, trust yourself
I don’t need anyone else, no one else
Trust yourself, trust yourself

Actually Not Today

XI

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