my friends are the best

Øctober 12th 2Ø23

✨MyDyingFantasy✨

bloody hands, and a tear drop
just a man, stolen life, stuck in vietnam
no sunrise, empty skies
dead friends, pretend like were the good guys
once again, i feel my heart stop
just a man, but for you ill make myself god
no sunrise, empty skies
wedding plans, dead groom and a corpse bride

swim along, dont get stuck in the loops
what the fuck you gonna do kid?
who are you? 
i never knew, just keep your cool
smoke a few, pray for new ways of view
face removed, pain excused
its all so draining too.
and they keep on blaming you

i wanna kill myself again
i wanna feel numb , getting lost in the binge
Im trying to hold on to a crumbling edge
i live for the fall like a leaf when its dead

vietnam (prod. yunny goldz)

Instagram
@ColeMxne

Lyrics:
Feel the tears falling down
Got the leaves falling out
Got me down 
are you ever gonna come back around
In my dreams 
in the clouds
In my house
I can see your face everywhere 
baby it’s just weighing me down
In the streets 
In the club thats enough
I dont wanna think about it
unless I got stuff in my cup
Just let me know its real
I got a thousand other problems yeah you know this spiel
Baby girl whats the deal
I dont much time til im out of here yeah
I never can tell whats real
I get one sign there and another here
Girl you know how I feel
Wont explain it once more without a seal

Clouds (Prod. TyDavid)

lyrics - 

yes men on the west end shawty 
your friends never listen shawty 
say im wrong when u sing that song again

ghost sin but their destined shawty
reaper with a weapon shawty
we rest with the restless where u wanna
with marijuana
dont want another
ill hold u closer 
till day is over
back in october 
i swear i know her
a supernova that hit ya soul yuh

try not to fear 
right here
noo
just try cool off
stop trippin just cool off

paris - never sure (prod. nekogod)

Eighth song on the album
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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: lil XipZ
Mixed by: lil XipZ
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[chorus]
we'll be in the benz truck bumpin lil peep
she a sad girl but she still lovely
god i fucking love it when she fucking on me
n when i go ghost she'll be here waiting

she said that she'll never let me go n that was a promise
i told her u can get my love but im not an option
put me before everyone, cuz im always above them
cuz when i blow up then we can forget them

[verse 1]
we can leave them in the past now
cuz when i was nothing i was the background 

they dont care until youre up now
and by then i wont give a fuck no

i be making plays like a coach like its nothing
she said that im super bad, bitch i aint no mclovin
she said she wanna fuck i said lets have some fun then
she said im like no other, cuz i been above them

she see i been making money, n its kinda crazy
multiple bitches on my line all just trynna date me
used to have a foreign bitch but now she kinda hate me
got a roster full of women n they all trynna be my lady

[chorus]
we'll be in the benz truck bumpin lil peep
she a sad girl but she still lovely
god i fucking love it when she fucking on me
n when i go ghost she'll be here waiting

she said that she'll never let me go n that was a promise
i told her u can get my love but im not an option
put me before everyone, cuz im always above them
cuz when i blow up then we can forget them

Lovely

beat prod by: king theta
written and performed by: popularreject
lyrics:

I hate
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup 
Goodmorning Pennsylvania 

If you like sunshine 
Then don’t go outside 
Cuz it’s still rainin 
It’s rainin 
That ain’t changin 

New day I won’t wake up
Different color makeup 
You say we should breakup 
I’m sick of the fake love
I been takin fake drugs 
You tell me to wake up

I hate 
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup
Goodmorning Pennsylvania 
…

I hate 
The way I stuff 
I’m too far gone and I need to change but
Good morning Pennsylvania 

On the ledge in my head dont tempt me 
All alone there ain’t no one with me 
I’m the villain of this story 
But I’ll be Superman to this city 

I hate 
When I wake up 
The tear stained pillows from her makeup 
Goodmorning Pennsylvania

Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa
Nananaa 
Nananaa 
Nananananaa

Goodmorning Pennsylvania (prod. king theta)

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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: wisssery
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Intro]
and Pennsylvanias pretty, i think youre prettier
and all those orange sunsets yeah, cant compare to your eyes

[Chorus]
Pennsylvanias pretty but girl your prettier
all those orange sunsets arent better than your eyes
girl i love the fall cuz it reminds me of you
reminds me of the way i fell for you just like the leaves

[Verse]
im gonna give you what you really deserve
atleast ill try to bc your unlike any other
i wanna take you out under the stars
we can lay together on the hood of my car

[Chorus]
Pennsylvanias pretty but girl your prettier
all those orange sunsets arent better than your eyes
girl i love the fall cuz it reminds me of you
reminds me of the way i fell for you just like the leaves

i-
i love you

Pennsylvania isnt as pretty as u [Prod. Wisssery]

s/o my brother https://soundcloud.com/breckenford

lyrics

i never been smart
dont worry bout me bae u got a good heart
i kno i will love u till my times gone
n no we dont got time to think about the time lost

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

im seeing violence when i close my eyelids
n we may struggle towards the end but death is silent
n she love asking why im drinking like a pirate
but when its all broken down
its just a science

(ford)
give me guidence
everyday im breaking down in the quiet
will it ever go away im steady crying
when u lie u overtaking got me dying
so indecisive
said im priceless then u say im violent
girl im trying
i dont gotta hide it
perfect timing
still wont stop the whining
so im reliant on the pain thru all the shining
but it make sense
all the times u broke me down n made me reset
made me realize all the cries were never silent
everything u ever said was only pretend
for no reason
i did my best to make sure u knew that i felt
every feeling in the world when i fell down
ill move away
go to town
find a new crowd
youd see what love was all about if u stick around
i know the truth now
it was over from the start
u a rebound
u could never reach my heart
such a let down
why is life so gd hard is this even allowed
is this even allowed

buckle up ur my overdrive
i feel myself spiral to a downward dive
n if u leave me in the end i can say that i tried
ill take the long way home
got shit to think ab
i had to teach myself to "not fall when u looking down"
spent a long time looking for myself
something different that i found
n i dont like it

death is silent w/ brecken (jacob vallen)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
feat. casperrr & shizukesa.
art. my friends cat LOL

lyrics:

(please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound, of my voice calling out, so that i can be found)

and i can feel my heart sink in the rain now
so cold thinkin that i might breakdown
feelin lost, feelin lonley, and nobody’s around
and in this storm the waters rising and i think i might drown
please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found

please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found
but no matter how many times i might scream
it doesn’t mean ur any closer to finding me
so now ur looking for a ghost
just give up you’ll never be close

(please just tell me now, u r looking for a ghost)

(caspy)

nana~
can you help me now
pick me up from the ground
i hate loving in doubt
cuz that's when shit goes south

used to look for some1 like u
now i don't have a clue 
of what the fuck i should
to try and forget u

(shizu)

thoughts fadin like the blood on my palm
she saying shit the same well bitch im already gone
guess all the friends change
cuz they dk what im on
suicidal lil prick im jus a dick of a cunt
just a pussy n**** i quit talkin
steady smoking until hittin coughin
ion need help 2 know im the problem
bullet to the dome woulda solved em
only fuck around inside of FL but by next album im offing me
and honestly, been so sick of the calling me
like fuck out of my head

my heart sinks in the rain w/ casperrr & shizukesa. (secre swallowtail x hey rick)

Main Artist: xipz
Featured Artist: Durahan
Produced by: xipz
Mixed by: xipz x Durahan
Mastered by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Intro: xipz]
we dont gotta talk, i just wanna be right next to you, next to you
i dont wanna talk girl, im already fallin in love with u, in love with you

[Chorus: xipz]
we dont gotta talk baby, i just wanna be right next to you, next to you
i dont wanna talk girl, im already fallin in love with u, in love with you

[Verse 1: xipz]
if i trip then let me fall
i wont waste your time girl
if you miss me then just call
ill be over in 5 girl

youre everything i want
i just need your company
i love it when you fuck on me
got me buzzin when on top of me

[Bridge: Durahan]
i wanna be right next to you
i wanna be right next to you
i wanna be right next to you
i wanna be right next to you

[Chorus: xipz]
we dont gotta talk baby, i just wanna be right next to you, next to you
i dont wanna talk girl, im already fallin in love with u, in love with you

[Verse 2: Durahan]
i don’t wanna text u 
i wanna be right next to u
next to u
she love to play games with me 
because she know just how i feel
just how i feel 
i wanna be right next to u
i wanna be right next to u
i wanna be right next to u

Next To You (w/ Durahan)

siren w/ dylan lotus

shoutout to @kennyorlando for helping me finish this <3


[safeatlast:]
so cold
waiting for sum1 to hold
me as i try to get warm
get me away from the snow
at least thats how i used to feel

take me back to winters in toronto
take me back to drowning every minute in the bottle
take me to when i could be proud of myself oh
take me back to feeling sumthin other than the sorrow

AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

[Kenny Orlando:]
i wish it was easier than following my heart
cause its given me nothing but nightmares and problems
one minute im drowning 
the next second im all in
im sinking 
im falling 
right down to
the bottom
take me back to the time 
where we were doing fine 
both of us 
where the love was 
can you take me back to the city
where everything felt so pretty 
AND I HATE THAT EVERYTHING’S BROKEN
WISH I COULD TAKE BACK 
AND MAKE IT ALL PERFECT 
THE DAYS PASS
ITS KILLING ME 
FILLING ME 
WITH THIS COLD AND DARK HOLLOWNESS

[safeatlast:]
AND I MIGHT FALL APART BENEATH THE TREES
THAT OVERLOOK THE SPOT WE USED TO MEET
I PROMISE THAT UR EVERYTHING I NEED
SHOULDA NEVER WORE MY HEART UPON MY SLEEVE

fall apart

fall apart w/ Kenny Orlando (king theta)

this feel like breaking your heart over someone that don't give a fuck how you feel
this feel like making some money and spending it on your family off the rip
this feel like gettin' too drunk 
and fuckin' everything up again
this feel like carin' for someone that couldn't give you any care 

i feel like someone that don't really know who they are but they know enough to keep it real 
this feel like takin' two shots of whiskey at 2pm just so you can numb how you feel
i done prayed for this a little bit nah a whole lot
jesus is my man
i give a fuck how you feel
i give a fuck how you

this feel like breaking your heart over someone that don't give a fuck how you feel
this feel like makin' some money and spendin' it on your family off the rip
this feel like gettin' too drunk 
and then i'm gonn' fuck all this shit up again
this feel like carin' for someone that couldn't give you any care 

i can't feel pain for nobody ah ah 
my emotions worth some money or somethin' 
i made a song about long distance relationships 
and i made 2,000 bucks the fuck are you on

this feel like breakin' your heart
over someone who don't care how you feel
this feel like a modern war 
this feel like a modern war 
this feel like you don't make sense
but you pretend to yeah 
this feel like i should bring acoustic guitar back
and country back boy yeah

this feel like breakin' your heart over someone that don't give a fuck how you feel
this feel like makin' some money and spendin' it on your family off the rip 
this feel like gettin' too drunk
and i been fuckin' this shit up again
it feel like carin' for someone that don't give you any care

this feels like...

Featuring @seejayxo + @gramofsnowwhite

LYRICS:

[chorus: seejayxo]
she's cold like October
I feel like I know her
but she barely knows me
im losing her slowly

[verse 1: gram]

[verse 1 extended: seejayxo]
we still getting high for the same reasons
now you been in my life for a couple seasons
I been tryna make a change while im still breathing
like the leaves in the fall you just stay leaving
is it me or is it drugs? which one do you love
lied to my face fuck it I dont give a fuck
dont wanna try now, you just wanna hide now

[chorus: seejayxo]

[verse 2: gram]

[chorus: seejayxo + gram]

OCTOBER (PROD. IN BLOOM)

go to hell, that's what she said 
but the devils here 
right in my bed
she right next to me
giving neck to me 
I know you love me now, i'm sorry if 
I doubted you 
but we all got things to work on
just give me time to work on
everything (everything)

I wrote your name in my book a thousand times 
come and look
that's why you love me
I wrote your name a thousand times 
in the sky,
I wonder why
why you love me
why do you love me?

idesirethethingsthatwilldestroymeintheend(prod. greythecloud)

Lyrics

I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
You say you wanna die but no one knows you like i know you and i love you too
Wont you be mine
Im getting faded with my friends and im gon be home soon
You take a while to call me your friends say im boring
My phone on DND what you know bout that?
She only fuckin with me she just down for the racks 
These bitches on my phone to only hit from the back
My lifes going to shit ive been through hell and back
Theyre nothing like you were so baby give me a chance 
Theyre nothing like you were so baby give me a chance