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Tell me what you feel when you see tears streaming down my face

Damn this shit too real there just ain't nowhere you hide away



I been wondering if they really care bout me at all
 stalking at my house
Man They monitoring my calls
Paranoia fuck me up
I just cant escape it
Paranoia fuck me up
I cannot erase it


Hate to feel
Hate to 
Hate to feel
Like this
I
Hate to feel
Hate to 
Hate to feel 
Like this 
I




I can't stop 
Running in circles

Feel like
Nothing is certain

I'm always
Thinking the worst

Cause when I don't
I get hurt



Paranoia 
Paranoia
Checking my surroundings
Got a feeling that they want it

Paranoia
Paranoia
I can't trust a soul
Even the ones that fucking love me

Paranoia
Paranoia
Fucked up in my home
I hold the shotty by my door man

Paranoia
Paranoia
Paranoia
Paranoia 




I don't think a single motherfucker love me how they say they do

Even in my deepest darkest thoughts I'm bent I'm saving you

Yeah even in my deepest darkest thoughts I'm bent on saving you

Even in my deepest darkest thoughts man


Bed on the floor
And my blood on the syringes 
i done said it all  before
I fed my heart to one these bitches
i been
fed up it's gone
dart my eyes feel somebody's snitchin
i fear
head on to war
i confide i tried to end it


it's crazy how they say shit to your face
Nah they don't mean it
I pray that it's the same thing
I do for you you do for me and
Been through hell 
A couple times
so I can tell by your demeanor
Please don't say things 
You don't mean
I promise that I can get meaner




I know I'm fucking paranoid
I'm just trying to breathe
Everywhere I go they plotting on me
Watching me
If I just slept good one night
Id win the lottery
I done put a good fight up
Now they haunting me

I got paranoia
PTSD
I don't believe 
You my bestie
You gon stab me
If I don't give
You my fet cheese
You gon let me
Fall to my grave 
But that's ok
Maybe then im
Resting


i know it's temporary
but it feels like no way out this bitch

i know i'm temporary 
least that's how you fucking treated me

fly way like a canary
i wish that i could run away from this

my heart been somewhere scary
im worried i can't fix this shit

fly away
dark times are upon you now

i know it ain't everything it seems 
but i ain't fuckin found

a single face
that rly love me how the fuck they say they do

im ripped away
would you cry for me -
 for saving you ?

PARANOIA p. baad beats

I can’t count how many times they done left me out to dry
With the red stoner eyes but ain’t smoked in some time
I was dead on arrival , some folk knew I died
But the same smile sat on they face as when I’m alive

Got a see thru bag , with some bombs and some knives
Cause the way that they lookin’ at me, I must be on fire
I can see through you too ‘cause your baggage is hard to hide
I can see through the pews cause they preaching but always lie

Kings Heart is a Servant Heart, can’t love ‘em and let em Die
But my friend’s say boo , she’s leachin’ , you gotta ride
I cannot play it cool , cause you keep me up all night
Now I’m sittin in a hotel in Fairbanks just doing lines

And im really tryna battle depression but love is fried
I could sing songs happily inside I feel like dying
She said you been 10 people in 10 years I lost my mind
I said I done lost 10 different people that’s why I’m crying

I know I shouldn’t give in to evil, but I get high
And now I’m spending 10 nights in the regal, just wondering why
I think it’s only with the keys to my Beamer, that I confide
When I crash out , right down the highway , 155

Sometimes I spazz out, I cannot even remember why
Just kidding, it’s like all of the memories flood my mind
And your laughing while I’m bloody and battered you watched me die
But I would’ve given everything if it just meant you’d smile

BURN (xo) p. eeryskies (alaska 2024 demo)

I know I said either way I’ma kill it
Shit ain’t been the same since I handled my business

Lost a few fellas didn’t matter, no difference
It all looks the same when you drowning in henny

That’s some the reason I really want riches
I get that out the way so I drown in the hamptons

Either way I’m gonna get thru the ceiling
‘Cause when they heard me they had known I was different



Either way I’m gonna get to they urus
‘Cause when they heard me they gon know how i’m feeling

My heart is hurting and I can’t conceal it
Shit I been through pain you can tell by my spirit

Lost a few fellas and that didn’t matter 
Lost brother and sister and yeah it impact me

They ask me what’s with the way you be acting
Been battered and battered so yeah I’m reacting



Off the Top
I think
Im so close to death

I’m so scared of it

Don’t fall away
Please stay close to me

I ain’t there yet

If I fall away
Would you care yet?

Say it’s all on me
That’s hilarious



Off the Top
I think
Im so close to death

I’m so scared of it

Please don’t go away
I ain’t there yet

I ain’t there yet

Say it’s all on me
That’s hilarious

That’s hilarious


Take it out on me

I could care less

BURN (xo) p. eeryskies (alaska 2024 demo)

XO.JALEN (@xo2mars) APRIL.XOTIK