w/ @v4nity

@anti-light
all i ever wanted was to feel your light shine
all i ever wanted was to see you in a smile
lonely as i live, i see freedom in your heart
i know it’s all your lies, your heart is cold as ice
there’s never guilt in your tears, nah nah
almost seem too broken to even cry
now i’ve seen your deceiver-eyes (the worst kind)
why can’t i see you when you’re still right here by my side?

@v4nity
ah, i just wanted you to be alright
but i know that there’s just nothin i can do
i look at you and girl you’re lookin so divine
but i been running outta time
so i need your help
i don’t want you to go
and i just want you know
that i’ve been lookin for you
and i keep searching for you
i just want you to know
that you’ve got something special
but i’ve been lookin for you 
i’ve been searching for you
girl you know that i’ve been on my own too long
and i’ve been lookin for someone like you
and i know you hear me calling
screaming how i want you
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
but i hope that you miss me still
and i hate that you feel like that
i don’t know if you can tell
how i been doin
and i hope that you want me still
and i hope that you need me still
because i’ve been on my own for too long

@anti-light
all i ever wanted was to feel your light shine
all i ever wanted was to see you in a smile
lonely as i live i see freedom in your heart
i know it’s all your lies your heart is cold as ice
there’s never guilt in your tears nah nah
almost seem too broken to even cry
now i’ve seen your deceiver-eyes (the worst kind)
why can’t i see you when you’re still right here by my side?

Spotify

Divine w/ v4nity (prod. me)

w/ @glitter_throat
prod: @prodmelik

@anti-light
this passing of time
i’m missing months in my diary
this passion aligns
with your indifference entirely
i keep coming back to your comfort
chains ‘round my heart
you’re the cracks in my walls
think i’m a breaking a promise again
don’t gaslight me i’m not your toy (ah)
wrapped around your finger (ah)
i’m torn inside my mind is light no more (ah)
cut deep my sight lost to your thorn (ah)

@glitter_throat
bloody hands, bloody legs, bloody heart
feel the pressure of a valve
that’s about to give out
i’m dying, pulling out thorns
i’m trying
(it’s never enough)
even on the floor, bleeding
but i always suck it up, i can’t get enough
i’m a victim to myself, i just play it out
if i’m dead and gone
do my wounds play a song?
so you know you were wrong?
even when i’m dead, i’m playing along

@anti-light
this passing of time
i’m missing months in my diary
this passion aligns
with your indifference entirely
i keep coming back to your comfort
chains ‘round my heart
you’re the cracks in my walls
think i’m a breaking a promise again
don’t gaslight me i’m not your toy (ah)
wrapped around your finger (ah)
i’m torn inside my mind is light no more (ah)
cut deep my sight lost to your thorn (ah)

Thorn w/ glitterthroat (melik)

yourfault (lil biscuit)

https://open.spotify.com/track/2omDqZiWiMFRdP0DKLxhY6?si=fe8095140d844e35

ib: @lumminaa

@remiliaxd :

oh what a sight
i don't think i want to fly, no
and i don't really want to die there
keep this world to myself
'cause i can hide there
but i don't really wanna die

i reside in this wasteland
dying but i'm awake, and
smile but i fake it
i don't want to take this
i know the way, and
escape from all of the pain
but i can't fall asleep
my anxiety has been changing me

ohhh
and how could i sleep here
i'm alone, i'm on my own, i really need you now
oh, but you hurt me, i guess we're through
no, i'm not you

i need someone to rest with
you wouldn't get it, no
and you didn't care, i know you won't
the words were stuck in my throat
i loved you but you don't
love yourself but i won't
i have to hide away again

(i swear i don't think i'll make it)
(i'm not you, i'm not you no)
(i swear i don't think i'll make it)
(i'm not you, i'm not you no)

ohhh
and how could i sleep here
i'm alone, i'm on my own, i really need you now
oh, but you hurt me, i guess we're through
no, i'm not you

i need someone to rest with
you wouldn't get it, no
and you didn't care, i know you won't
the words were stuck in my throat
i loved you but you don't
love yourself but i won't
i have to hide away again

shelter

@prodkirian @makemeapromise i love this beat so much <3
- this a new era for me I cant wait to show what I got in store :D
// TYSM FOR LISTENING \\

when we talk i just want to leave
what you say I can't believe
and I cant live on like this
its not how all this should be
I'm done now you wont sway me
I'm finished I'm not waiting
all you do is just degrade me
now there's nothing remaining

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

thinking too hard and I might just lose it
feelings so scarred and I cant improve it
I cant put down my guard cause I know you'll abuse it
lost all regard for you, ill lose it

I've been walking so blind
and I don't know why
I cant look in your eyes
and I think we might die
you can cut me in two
now I'm looking see-through
I wish I never knew
what I'd be put through

sitting here I cant no
longer here I don't owe
nothing now let me go
was it worth it now I don't know
too much in my head it'll overflow
you want me dead I already know
can we look ahead it was long ago

it was long ago

if you want to try me you'll see
I guess ill show the real me
Im gonna let it all free
i guess we couldn't agree
ill leave this all behind
i see it chasing after me
i just hope it doesnt find
i hope it doesn't find me

I hope it doesn't find me
I'm so done with all this fighting
ill leave it behind me
I think I'm done trying

i'm done trying

i'm done trying (kirian + surgeon)

tysm for listening :D
@makemeapromise @pw4prez

\\ lyrics //
I just woke up I don’t want to do this not again
I think I’ll choke up don’t know when this will end
Just leave me alone
Cause I know how this ends
I just want to go
I know that you’re not my friend

I don’t like it when you’re near me
You were never kind
This is all getting clear to me
Every time I’m near you make me weary
Yeah you never treated me sincerely

I don’t want to lose myself
My mind is numb and I can’t feel a thing
Don’t ask me to come
You know I’m not dumb
I won’t succumb
I won’t let you see me

I just want to throw it all away
Throw it all away
I won’t fall today
When you look my way
When you look my way

You never look at me kindly
I don’t want to see you beside me
And if you see me don’t mind me
I know that you never really liked me

pls don't come near me

pls don't come near me (surgeon + sochi)

me and my gang up nexx frfr.
@haveonlyonechance
w/ @nvrfallen + @ilyeczotic | @yureiclub
samara:
I'm going crazy with the Brodies 
I don’t wanna talk unless you know me 
You a bitch, you is fake, you a phony
Talking shit about my gang we kick you like a pony 

oh my god, all you is do always talk shit. 
Shut your fucking mouth bitch, why you is so toxic? 
You know I’m all paranoid, please do make me off it
Chilling with the yurei club and you we gonna pop shit 

Why you acting big bold? 
Bullets leave him mental
We is up it’s irrefutable
Please don’t ask it’s indisputable 
She’s an L I don’t want her 
I don’t care where we were 
And if you try to stop us we come back just like it’s rebirth

nvrfallen:
i think u tryna steal my flow
btchs doubt me idk
and ill die where i go
y r u always faking
i've been down bad i hate it
i take a minute to let my problems sink in
lately i feel like i have been forsaken
i wrote this verse to explain
lately my emotions have been of vain
and i like it that way 
whenever i see u i go away

eczotic:
get bands and i cannot stop it
u a op ur tracks keep floppin
yea dont try to talk to me keep walkin
enough talkin leave u in a coffin
bullets we gone hand out
hit him once then he ran out
big knife issa rambo
ima leave u where u stand bro
wit yo btch light a candle
later she gone ride me wit no handles
yuh gimme top ina lambo
yea i keep like two glocks they akimbo

rebirth w/ nvrfallen + eczotic (tenoji!)

prod @shatter3d @jichuuu
+ with @xokragz :D
TYSM FOR LISTENING

lyrics:
(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

(44everlast)
i gave a chance to you now
don't want to talk tryna find a way out
can't you see all the pain you been putting me through
all the promises made that i was never enough

fly away don't want to talk just
go away don't want to try
i fade away
theres something in the air right now
you played with me
now you pray for me

(me)
I cant pretend that it’s fine
I’ll lose it I cant live my life
It terrifies me feeling confined
I keep fighting cant escape my mind

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

I swear I swear I’m trying
I cant stop what is already dying
Turn me off I’m not surviving
Hear me cough you know I’m not lying

I watch it all turn to dust
All I have is broken trust
None of this is feeling just
I fade away as I am crushed

As I am crushed

i watched it turn to dust

i watched it turn to dust w/ kragz (shatter3d + jichu)

@plasticgirl1
@odel007 + @kojowav

u had to cut me off if i was u, i'd cut me too
i dont do a lot;;im going nowhere least with u >,<
tear my heart apart i gave it to u up in 2
dont try to tear me down cuz i wont let you hurt me tooo 
everyones a fake a 30 in me that i take
dont try to stop me from the problem its a lot to try to change
100 for a beat ,, and thats 450 for a preset
dm me need a regret this 30 make me reset

if i was u id cut me too 
spend way2 much time alone,, crying in my room
everyday is wasted when its not spended w u
i feel like a recluse.. cuz im.. hiding in my room
everyone is so basic
he hurts my feelings and then tries to erase it
now i realize life is easy i embrace it 
ur voice it hurts me my heart so abrasive

dont make me pretend
i live my life looking for reason
tell me its something bout the season
this 40 help me face it
dont make me pretend
i live my life looking for reason
tell me its something bout the season
this 40 help me face it

if i could i would change it all
my soul has been weakened i dont think i could take it all
yea ive lost sm i dont think i could take it all
and ive lost sm i dont think i could think at all
i miss u+hate u at the same time
im losing it all at the same time
i wish i didnt always feel like id die
i miss u sm but its not right

if i were u, i'd cut me too

insta

if i were u, i'd cut me too +rezlaine [odel & kojo]

big cypher with some of my frIends ^_^ (tysm for the support recently)
thank you guys for being apart of this ily <3
@rewind214 @222bino @valberrie @law16lie @29cengi @1kidsora @lifegiverr @lukebike @breakupbreakdown @mis4ortune @sawlvy @ilyexotic @nvrfallen @noahsuri @bloodl3ak @alrunaxo @xternalz @sshiro @user-241106459 @i6neiru @gloomed
mastered by me ofc c;
s/o @gaugemountedthisone for mixing lukes vocals <3
s/o @tzunahmie for helping out aswell <3
s/o @yureiclub + @souls0ciety <3
prod @metisxx + @ton_bo0 <3
timestamps:
0:17 - 0:51 (me)
0:52 - 1:08 (rewind)
1:09 - 1:25 (vin0)
1:26 - 1:43 (valberrie)
1:43 - 2:00 (lawlie)
2:01 - 2:17 (cengi)
2:18 - 2:34 (kid sora)
2:35 - 2:52 (etterna/life)
2:53 - 3:09 (lukebike)
3:10 - 3:26 (breakupbreakdown)
3:26 - 3:43 (mis4ortune)
3:44 - 4:00 (sawlvy)
4:01 - 4:18 (eczotic)
4:19 - 4:35 (nvrfallen)
4:36 - 4:50 (noahsuri)
4:51 - 5:26 (bloodl3ak)
5:26 - 5:43 (alruna)
5:44 - 6:01 (xternalz)
6:01 - 6:18 (shiro)
6:18 - 6:35 (mika)
6:36 - 6:52 (i6neiru)
6:53 - 7:09 (gloomed)
7:10 - 7:44 (me again)
lyrics will be on genius or sum too much text smh

talk about it cypher

talk about it cypher + rewind, vin0, valberrie, lawlie, cengi, kid sora & more (metis x tonari)

another chance (yashio)

new song this friday 
discord: xternalzog
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alt: @staywithmenow <--beats/instrumentals and stuff
@souls0ciety
@seraphimcollective
@kess0kuband

pls don't come near me (surgeon + sochi)

xternalz

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