with @counterxo and @clay0127 prod @yashio20k @hartfxlt

lyrics:

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

(clay)

i feel the rain, withered, wear me down
wash away and drain me out
only ever holding on
youll never find me standing proud
shoulders slumping over
like a boulders covering me now
im searching for closure
in an open casket
bury me now
dont come no closer
its only pain when i come around
post trauma hasnt left
now im alone and staring up at the clouds
i hope youre watching me
cause im still hearing every sound
and i still see you in my room
searching for solid ground

(counter)

It feels so different
I’ve been so distant
You hear what I say but will you actually listen?
We can’t be afraid to make the harder decisions
What we thought was fate gets in the way of our vision
See your ghost in my room
Your eyes in the stars, they light up with moon 
I try to get out, but my past just consumes my head
I need you here instead

(xternalz)

its not the same now
cause im lying face down
i just miss the way that we used to be
i cant face it
oh i cant take it

and if i could close the distance now
i would see you in my room
or see you on the couch
i'd do all i could
i'd do all i could

distance

distance w/ clay & counter (hartfxlt + yashio)

prod @decago + @1rokit

i miss making music
thanks @fabs4k for finding the cover art

lyrics:

you know i cant lie
this past is haunting all my life
twist your knife into my side
cause i dont care ill be alright

its all done for you
one more second and ill lose
why cant you just say the truth?
im tired of doing this for you
for you

say what you want, i wont give you it back now
the letter in my house now
you wanted me to change how i felt
i wont do this with you
its all no use
we're crashing our heads against the wall again and again
im seeing the end
no place for us would prevent this from happening
im falling down
girl, i cant think
face to the ground
lost everything i had to begin with
when i think i just want to end this
end this all

when i saw
what you said
it took a second for me to even address
every flaw
in duress
you pointed out and left us in this mess

you pointed out and left us in this mess
yeah you left us in this mess

you know i cant lie
this past is haunting all my life
twist your knife into my side
cause i dont care ill be alright

its all done for you
one more second and ill lose
why cant you just say the truth?
im tired of doing this for you
for you

twist your knife into my side

twist your knife into my side (decago + 1rokit)

@1akura @yuikase
https://open.spotify.com/track/1YEPlMIIDeyhBDkOpyyKBa?si=a602d569728d4184

you know it hurts me
to see u cry
you know it hurts me
so wipe ur eyes
baby believe me
i wouldn't lie
baby im falling
into ur eyes
so baby this time ill do better for the both of us
this time i wont pull away when it gets hard to love
i wanna learn from you
i hope you love me too

maybe ur just way to perfect for mee
im sorry that im not the person u want me to be
i just want u to see
that ur all that i needed
baby believe it
so baby believe it
im falling to pieces
remember the day u said there'd be no more secrets
it keeps me awake
i find myself sleepless
dont throw this away
cus baby i need this

you know it hurts me
to see u cry
you know it hurts me
so wipe ur eyes
baby believe me
i wouldn't lie
baby im falling
into ur eyes
so baby this time ill do better for the both of us
this time i wont pull away when it gets hard to love
i wanna learn from you
i hope you love me too

akura - learn (asagao)

spotify link : https://open.spotify.com/album/0EjzzcuqjSHT3x4AZqPYG8?trackId=3zWeXirZCerIUfHjJ1cE3K
@decago @afterstoryx @remedysnuts
final push ep out next ❤️❤️❤️

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its a message from me
and i send it to you
im sick of playing pretend 
when i know all you do

it all happened so soon
swear my body cant move
i know u want the whole truth 
girl these words for you

im at the same spot girl
but these feelings so new
i have the same scars girl
i cut them in for you

let my body break apart
i been here from the start
i could be ur one servant 
and bend to who you are

let my story fall out
what remains will be a scar
i rip my throat to call out

let my corpse rot out
tell me do you care now
when im on my back
tell me do you look down

let my body feel out
tell me if you feel now
(we can only look down)

to you (decago)

@decago
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i swear i do it all for us
& theres no inbetweens
its only me and u
and thats all i can see

i only want ur love
thats all ill ever need
i swear i do it to myself
and these people inbetween

i swear i do it all for us
i do it till i bleed
im hooked up on ur touch
ur the only drug i need

you have the key into my soul
im begging to be freed
you have the view into my heart
baby can you hear me scream

because its you and me against the world we in
and when its over know i got us till the end
my body churning you could turn me to a shred
just let me sink unto the bottom

no we cant go back to the way things were
baby turn my page baby read my hurt
imma hold ur hand while we walk this earth
can you trust in me can you trust my worth

its a long long time
its a long long road
when you hear my voice know u made it home
when you see my face hope it gives you hope

imma do my best for you

cuz i do it allllll for loooove and alllll for us
cuz i do it allllll for loooove and alllll for us
cuz i do it allllll for loooove and alllll for us
cuz i do it allllll for loooove and alllll for us



for us (decago)

everytime u cross my mind 
I get that dumb lump in my throat 
so I close my eyes pretend ur by my side 
as if nothings changed at all, changed at all 
u moved on, dont care its done, its done 
thought I learned but im dumb, so dumb :( 
id do it again just to feel what its like to love, what its like to love 

from strangers to lovers to strangers again
no I couldnt hate her she let me in 
hope u see this song and u listen 
where did it all go wrong, whats different? 
fall asleep at day break 
dream all day, then at night im awake 
u “fall for me” but still push me away 
I shouldve never expect you to stay 

stayyyy, stayyy (i shouldve never, no no no)  

everytime u cross my mind 
I get that dumb lump in my throat 
so I close my eyes pretend ur by my side 
as if nothings changed at all, changed at all 
u moved on, dont care its done, its done 
thought I learned but im dumb, so dumb :( 
id do it again just to feel what its like to love, what its like to love

as if nothings changed at all (rewind + hartfxlt)

@1akura @kyoakyo
<3

lyrics:

i saw your face there
in a place it didnt belong
have you seen what you've done?
is this all enough?

dont you care about yourself?
you know you're tearing up your health
all for the attention?
oh, whats your intention now?

i dont got anything to lose now
left that in the past with you
got no more chance to tear me down
i dont care how much you're breaking down

think it through
you can't touch my heart
i left it hidden in the dark
you know its over for you
its over for you

feeling is over
i know ur so hurt
but i wont get closer
no, i wont get closer

so tell me one thing
cant you tell ur running from what you owe to yourself
you never wanted help
you never wanted help

i saw your face there
in a place it didnt belong
have you seen what you've done?
is this all enough?

dont you care about yourself?
you know you're tearing up your health
all for the attention?
oh, whats your intention now?

i dont got anything to lose now
left that in the past with you
got no more chance to tear me down
i dont care how much you're breaking down

think it through
you can't touch my heart
i left it hidden in the dark
you know its over for you
its over for you

over

over (akura + kyoa)

@1akura @rewind214
and all these pictures tell some stories
im always in my head dont know why i worry
maybe its for the best that we both dont know
empty promises gives scars, wont show

when i cant hold back i let all tears out
alone, i cant be without u here now
no communication its unclear how
u hate me so much its all that i hear now

back then we used to be so happy
and now u dont wanna be around me
its sad to see how much has changed now
its sad to see u far away now
its all too late now
i drove u away
and now im falling straight down
i wish i could say that im sorry
ur love is departing
ur leaving me lonely
pls dont forget me

and all these pictures tell some stories
im always in my head dont know why i worry
maybe its for the best that we both dont know
empty promises gives scars, wont show

when i cant hold back i let all tears out
alone, i cant be without u here now
no communication its unclear how
u hate me so much its all that i hear now

akura - all that i hear now (rewind)

ty for the loops!
@ecromusic
@fungeey

prod & voc me

do it- i could fall in love

seen it- see right thru ur heart
knew it- how could i move on 
you were always who you were
n i wont ever be enough

enough- ur heart- ur an angel
light the dark for me
cos no-one else would give it up for me
its all my bad
couldnt thank you enough for everything
rest your head on me again

again x4

see right thru your heart (me, fungeey, ecro)

BEEN TRYN

Bluesky Trax

Be Gratefu

Be Grateful (Prod. VDS)

@staywithmenow (prod)
@xternalz2 (archive/throwaways)
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