ETERNAL

Do you ever feel like you're struggling?
Do you ever feel like there's nothing left?
Like there's nothing left
Nothing to gain or get
Like there's nothing here

Do you feel you're struggling?
As you're walking through a crowd you feel a loneliness?
Can you feel how I feel, groups of heartless
Like a darkness, 
shadowing over till it's consumsed us
Cause I feel like I'm struggling

Toxic traits are following
Gain my happiness from others now
Feel it fade, and slip away
As soon as I'm all by myself

Do you think of suicide?
Cause It's been here a while
Scared to hurt around you
Not scared to hurt yourself..
Swear I'm not alone now
So why does it feel this way

Why does it feel this way?
Lost in this world, blank space
Holding on, I'm holding on
I hope you're holding with me too


Do you ever feel like you're struggling?
Do you ever feel like there's nothing left?
Like theres nothing left
Nothing to gain or get
Like there's nothing here

Do you feel you're struggling?
As you're walking through a crowd you feel a loneliness?
Can you feel how I feel, groups of heartless
Like a darkness, 
shadowing over till it's consumsed us
Cause I feel like I'm struggling
(struggling, struggling, struggling, Cause I feel like I'm struggling)
(struggling, struggling, struggling, Cause I feel like I'm struggling)

i hope you're okay, when you are by yourself [prod. sketchmyname]

Maybe Tomorrow - Numb (feat. Caspr)

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Can't stop failing
So fucked, waiting
For my dreams to come true
For the noose to cut loose
Can't I think

I can make it?
Exposed, im naked
You all know about me,
But I dont know about you
I guess thats my fate.

I'm emjaay, im 22
I've been living my life with you
You know more secrets than I do
Cause I've been writing for you.

Whats my sound now? Grown
Slowly getting outta lows
Knockin four crows 
Off the shoulders, left a note
It aint wrong
Falling up, never listen, never not told
I come off cold, I come off low
And its all in my head
But I still struggle to get out of bed
Find peace in silence, I'd rather be dead
Please piece it together, inside my head

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

cannot sleep, im staying up [prod. HXRXKILLER]

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
I know it's only my fault
and I hate it

I'm lost in the music over bullshit
I can't stop from my two cents on a movement
and I know I'm too quick so there's typos
and I scream maybe too loud with my eyes closed

I'm to blame if every word I wrote was lame
projects that I can't escape
my name can't carry all the weight
all the way

I'm wide awake just trying to be creative
in pain, 'cause I can't sleep

I can't stop what I'm doin'
in a bad spot
I promised I'd write some good shit
since my last drop
I play hard and I fight hard
I'm a lost cause
prove it, or I lose it and it's my fault

been through too many phases
now that shit don't phase me
I'm lost and I'm ill and I'm faded
pent up lookin' all angry

'cause I'm to blame if every word I wrote was lame
projects that I can't escape
my name can't carry all the weight
all the way

I'm wide awake just trying to be creative
in pain, 'cause I can't sleep

I'm getting sloppy
shake it off me
(I can't change)
I'm ready, sorry, really sorry
(I can't change)
I'm steady marching in the party
(I can't change)
I'm steady climbing, I feel it starting

and I can't change
I know it's solely my fault
and I hate it
it's not okay
and I won't play
I think of crashing my car
when interstate
and I hate it

and I can't change
I know it's solely my fault
and I hate it
it's not okay
and I won't play
I think of crashing my car
when interstate
and I hate it

my fault (prod. Drunk Girl)

prod. ocin
guitars: 5head

Run, I gotta run 
(x3) 

I’ve been caught up in my own fantasy 
Full of make-believe 
Did I make you scream girl? 
I’m so sorry I will give you the world 
You can count on me 
I will make you feel free 

I think I saw your eyes in the sun 
In the sun, in the sun, in the sun 
Give me some time, I will be where you are 
Gotta run, gotta run, gotta run 

I’ve been caught up in my own fantasy 
Full of make-believe 
Did I make you scream girl? 
I’m so sorry I will give you the world 
You can count on me 
I will make you feel free 

You know me baby I could never live in a perfect life 
With their perfect lies 
You know me I keep going until you got your perfect life 
What’s the worst way to fall?

ily! 💘 stream on spotify below 
prod. boyfifty

lyrics
she showin love and saying im a rockstar
im pourin up, she ask where the rocks are
we sippin mud, sippin on that wockhardt
i fell in love, she tell me ill go far
who do you?
who do you?
belong to
who do you?
who do you?
belong to

fitting in, never seemed the vibe
that money made em switch and hate im recognised
i aint talking much im trying sever ties
tryna wake up in that foreign with pirelli tires, girl and
each time you just eat my
will to soar so
with each high, lay beneath skies
that are falling in view
calling to you
diamonds in my ears and I got stars in the roof
but still im crawling to you
too real too real say this shit aint real now
im high goodbye i dont wanna feel now
move on, im gone, baby you can heal now
i just wanna float away and pop another pill

she showin love and saying im a rockstar
im pourin up, she ask where the rocks are
we sippin mud, sippin on that wockhardt
i fell in love, she tell me ill go far
who do you?
who do you?
belong to
who do you?
who do you?
belong to

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rockstar

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
i guess that’s karma
she always gotta test new waters
like i won't defend my honor
i know i would raise a daughter right
all the time i wasted on you
conversations, start to argue
times have changed and now who are you?
'cause i don't know

hate me for the things you love
to break me down and rise above
i'm all for change
but what’s enough?
you're shapeshifting my cookie cut
i made you laugh
i made you scream
we had it momentarily
but you shit the bed
and now i see
right through to your true colors
while...

"toxic masculinity"
is what you try to label me
but you don't know what you want
so you’re all on your own
when chivalry’s not dead
and all your "femininity"
makes you think that you’re a queen
you want to slay every night
but you’ll wither in time
with that kind of mindset

but i'm solid
now that you’re not in my wallet
i dedicate time to my callin' while
i fill these in chips in my armor
i promise that i won't wait on you
conversations, start to argue
times have changed and now are you?
'cause i don't know

hate me for the things you love
to break me down and rise above
i'm all for change
but what’s enough?
you're shapeshifting my cookie cut
i made you laugh
i made you scream
we had it momentarily
but you shit the bed
and now i see
right through to your true colors
while...

"toxic masculinity"
is what you try to label me
but you don't know what you want
so you’re all on your own
when chivalry’s not dead
and all your "femininity"
makes you think that you’re a queen
you want to slay every night
but you’ll wither in time
with that kind of mindset

friend or faux

Toxic Masculinity (prod. ZBeatz)

DL

https://www.linktr.ee/chrisrain

Prod. May
Mix & Master: Ben Schlaf

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WAKE UP

All I Know

featuring @tommyice

hook x2
don't say you're leaving
when problems are heaping
and im on my own
all on my own, yeah, yeah
all on my own

verse one
tell me where you wanna go
i could take you there tomorrow
only thing i wanna know now
is baby would you leave if it slows down
she be texting in the night-time
night cries when i miss you
why am I, still blind to my issues
limelight, too bright to admit to
hindsight, girl id rewind to be with you
they say things that ive done and they aint wrong
they're long gone but im up and ridin on
its my fault it turned to a nightmare
but in spite of it all, doing fine here

hook x2
don't say you're leaving
when problems are heaving
and im on my own
all on my own, yeah, yeah
all on my own

tommy ice verse two
im just on my own lately, girl girl
im just on my own lately
come back to my arms
cause you better not play my head
i was sleep,yeah  but thats what i need
its time to believe, someone who aint never leavin
someone who stay by my side when i feel like i wanna die
and someone who fuck with me now and someone who dont ever lie
uh how come you aint cry to me bitch
i would never trust no, nobody
trust no thotty
i'm a top g i just copped a new rari

hook x2
don't say you're leaving
when problems are heaving
and im on my own
all on my own, yeah, yeah
all on my own

outro

all on my own ft tommy ice

(prod. gore ocean)

hook
cause I be falling at night
got a demon, i know this
swerving at night, got me high today im floating
tell her ill be fine, just say that i aint coping
tell her i've been trying but lately ive been broken
all on my own, in hell and im just fine
drip in my ride, got me out on ice
tell her ill be fine, just say that i aint coping
tell her i've been trying but lately ive been broken

verse
you a vibe
on my mind, yet again
you were right
told me i should stay away
sever ties
nevermind, me
im just hoping to make it before im lost in the matrix, and yeah I
told em to watch while i get cash
too many nights, no romance
poppin a benzo, blow ash
told me to let go, no chance
posted in the deep
this aint nothing new ive seen it all
tell me why you geekin when each weekend you be on the roll
im trying find my head, and tryna find where i belong
cause lately i been lost, everyday' s dragging on
they told me life gon change girl im praying that they wrong
cause i needa find some pain to put weight in my songs

hook
cause i've been falling at night
got a demon, i know this
swerving at night, got me high today im floating
tell her ill be fine, just say that i aint coping
tell her i've been trying but lately ive been broken
all on my own, in hell and im just fine
the drip in my ride, got me out on ice
tell her ill be fine, just say that i aint coping
tell her i've been trying but lately ive been broken, oh

broken

(prod. loverboy x alsbeatz)

hook
baby what?
how you gon act like im never around?
when i let her down she started to pout oh no
baby what
like how you gon tell em that I wasnt  down?
cause girl when it counted, you know i was out there deep   
just tell why im feeling fine
im alone in my mind haunted on by her lies, girl 
just tell why im feeling fine
im alone in my mind caught up over her lies

verse
tell me what you misheard, misheard
im trawling my mind
i dont know where to hide 
when im flying, falling
and late in the evening  
going all in  , caught in
some ways i aint needing now **
geeks
following me 
they wanna talk when i tell them the money result from a dream
hoping to go on the run with emotion nowhere to be 
girl you were nothing to me
told her you nothing to me

hook
baby what?
how you gon act like im never around?
when i let her down she started to pout oh no
baby what
like how you gon tell em that I wasnt  down?
cause girl when it counted, you know i was out there deep   
just tell why im feeling fine
im alone in my mind haunted on by her lies, girl 
just tell why im feeling fine
im alone in my mind caught up over her lies

baby what!

(prod. autrioly)

HOOK
i needa find where i belong
cause lately im lost and tired of righting wrongs
they're telling me things that at night i hate to know
just to keep me cold,
ive been trying to find some light, i done lost my sight
i could die alone

VERSE
i needa find where i belong,
find where i belong
got a brand new coupe, aint no pursuits
this bih could fly alone
i been tryna find some light i know its time
before i ruin my mind
everybody they know im right, that im lost inside
and been out my mind
i come from that honda and nissan
to now whipping foreigns
but trust me there aint much that's different
showing me love but im dodging and dipping
i told her there aint no specifics
but now she ignore it
then send me a text in the morning
and if it's unread she be calling
i told her dont ring when im out in the foreign
a better me that ive chosen
the set of keys that im holding
wheels are well up in motion
stay with me and we'll coast
lately ive been emotio-
nal, been out of my mind
and all because of these ghosts she
say she severing ties , she say she severing ties

HOOK
i needa find where i belong
cause lately im lost and tired of righting wrongs
they're telling me things that at night i hate to know
just to keep me cold,
ive been trying to find some light, i done lost my sight
i could die alone

belong

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somehow (prod. nomai)

KASPER FELL and SHADEAD First track off our incoming EP together

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Eye to Eye kasper fell  x  shadead  (Prod. WOLFGANG PANDER)

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