I Guess I'm A Beat Head 🤷🏽‍♂️

新しい日の誕生
1000 Vinyl Available:
https://dreamcatalogue.bandcamp.com/album/--18

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It's Happening

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/album/0Ku2JIGUMA3i4tImTMkngp?si=ve2ROX5JSmy29YM_sVMb9Q

APPLE MUSIC:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/desire/1477370982?uo=4&app=music

FREE DOWNLOAD:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1UOW_ZRWCIc4fMtVRhK00ZxrCK9vDqJrZ?usp=drive_link

BOOKLET:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/qh27xr1idjo45bs/DESIRE%20Booklet.pdf?dl=0

LINER NOTES + LETTER:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wl5VqbNEWCGjuNocDZmEQ7fxdrEa4RkH/view?usp=sharing

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About
DESIRE is the second album in my DEVOTION trilogy. I've been working on it for close to 3 years now and it has gone through so many revisions in that time. If you had read my other letters, I trashed the concept I had for this album in 2017 and released half of it in the form of LNR_[02]. It didn't live up to my expectations at the time. I've always struggled with self-acceptance and confidence issues and it was at an all time low for me at that point. This album has been weighing on my shoulders for all of those 2 1/2 years. It hung over me like a dark cloud because every time I thought about it or spoke about it, I treated it like it was the one that was going to blow me up. "This time for sure.." "It'll definitely get me there.." All toxic thoughts. Thoughts I couldn't even view as toxic because I had lost myself in my work and expectations. So the album is a story of self-hate and of self-growth. A reflection of self-doubt and dealing with all of the negative emotions that have come with the disappointment I have been feeling for the past two years. A battle against the feeling of always coming up short and an introspective study on my obsession with a past I can't change and the fear of a future I don't know.

The album reflects on the nature of desire and the Zen Buddhist principle of how attachment is the root of all suffering, especially when it comes to personal goals and past relationships. It deals with sexual desire, career desire, materialistic desire, emotional desire, and a wide range of other desires. I use my music to confront my own selfish desires and the dichotomy it carries in everyday life. I also investigate the theme of desire in the context of my own religious faith, not only of Zen, but confronting and challenging Christian themes and ideas which are woven throughout the record. The struggle with my own dichotomy of striving to be humble, yet wanting to be best/the center of attention (when it comes to my music). Striving to be non-materialistic, yet wanting to buy nearly every VST and synthesizer I come across or wanting to buy Balenciaga or CDG clothing. Striving to be saintly yet embody all of the seven sins as I am so jealous, proud, lustful, etc. towards so many things. Alan Watts said that Christianity has made guilt a virtue, and whatever your thoughts of Alan Watts (i.e. entertainer vs philosopher) I think it's an interesting point. The guilt I feel for wanting all of these things when I was raised Christian extends itself into so many other aspects of my life. Aspects that I can't speak about at the moment out of respect for personal and familial relationships.  But I guess all of this is just the nature of being human.

[..] Full letter in the link above^^

SPOTIFY

AFTERLIFE

SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/album/0Ku2JIGUMA3i4tImTMkngp?si=ve2ROX5JSmy29YM_sVMb9Q

APPLE MUSIC:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/desire/1477370982?uo=4&app=music

FREE DOWNLOAD:
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1UOW_ZRWCIc4fMtVRhK00ZxrCK9vDqJrZ?usp=drive_link

BOOKLET:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1B_9nTqMegQJlxeIVEk0XuhTig8KNEq5S/view?usp=sharing

LINER NOTES + LETTER:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wl5VqbNEWCGjuNocDZmEQ7fxdrEa4RkH/view?usp=sharing

Join the subreddit:
https://reddit.com/r/prodbykillerbee

Instagram:
https://instagram.com/prodbykillerbee

About
DESIRE is the second album in my DEVOTION trilogy. I've been working on it for close to 3 years now and it has gone through so many revisions in that time. If you had read my other letters, I trashed the concept I had for this album in 2017 and released half of it in the form of LNR_[02]. It didn't live up to my expectations at the time. I've always struggled with self-acceptance and confidence issues and it was at an all time low for me at that point. This album has been weighing on my shoulders for all of those 2 1/2 years. It hung over me like a dark cloud because every time I thought about it or spoke about it, I treated it like it was the one that was going to blow me up. "This time for sure.." "It'll definitely get me there.." All toxic thoughts. Thoughts I couldn't even view as toxic because I had lost myself in my work and expectations. So the album is a story of self-hate and of self-growth. A reflection of self-doubt and dealing with all of the negative emotions that have come with the disappointment I have been feeling for the past two years. A battle against the feeling of always coming up short and an introspective study on my obsession with a past I can't change and the fear of a future I don't know.

The album reflects on the nature of desire and the Zen Buddhist principle of how attachment is the root of all suffering, especially when it comes to personal goals and past relationships. It deals with sexual desire, career desire, materialistic desire, emotional desire, and a wide range of other desires. I use my music to confront my own selfish desires and the dichotomy it carries in everyday life. I also investigate the theme of desire in the context of my own religious faith, not only of Zen, but confronting and challenging Christian themes and ideas which are woven throughout the record. The struggle with my own dichotomy of striving to be humble, yet wanting to be best/the center of attention (when it comes to my music). Striving to be non-materialistic, yet wanting to buy nearly every VST and synthesizer I come across or wanting to buy Balenciaga or CDG clothing. Striving to be saintly yet embody all of the seven sins as I am so jealous, proud, lustful, etc. towards so many things. Alan Watts said that Christianity has made guilt a virtue, and whatever your thoughts of Alan Watts (i.e. entertainer vs philosopher) I think it's an interesting point. The guilt I feel for wanting all of these things when I was raised Christian extends itself into so many other aspects of my life. Aspects that I can't speak about at the moment out of respect for personal and familial relationships.  But I guess all of this is just the nature of being human.

[..] Full letter in the link above^^

DISTURBIA

https://yancyancyancy.bandcamp.com/track/playing-games

playin games

gahtdamn.gahtdamn, 
this groooooove nice


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SUMMER WALKER - CPR (BZAR REMIX)

reflections

Brandy - Almost Doesn't Count (See Dee Remix)

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Pink Side (Bonus Track)

anything honestly

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