Prod. YCK

Don’t make claims when you can’t back up 
What you say made a curse give em all bad luck
Treat em poorly like a troglodyte
They wanna make shit up but don’t wanna fight

I’m a figure of controversy 
Know I do not have what you calling mercy 
Self destructive these tendencies
I could give a fuck about enemies

Exchanging rates and ain’t feigning sadness
I look for cash and deflate the mattress
They stay so phony I’m a copy magnet 
I file the papers and take the patent

You pussy talking my soul be rotten
They dig up dirt and they be marauding
Plotting often black mask I’m rocking  
I expect demise I need an empty coffin

Pretending oh it’s too easy
You’ll be so upset when you see me
Bygone there’s no discussion
Bought these for our consumption 

I see quirky motherfuckers lining right up and go down the street
You think so trendy imma break you bitch it’s best you should retreat
Starve myself I’m skin and bone like I say fuck an appetite
Dissatisfied I get no recognition hate to advertise

When bitches be spitting so ignorant maybe I’ll end it all 
think I’ll consider it
Take a barbiturate got no equivalent aiming and threaten
I sent I delivered it

All of you rapping improperly
Get the fuck off of my property
Never on top of me
I can’t relate to a fraud
Or better yet god I’m rugged and flawed 

Pretending oh it’s too easy
You’ll be so upset when you see me
Bygone there’s no discussion
Bought these for our consumption

Easy to Pretend

Prod. Arvid @funeralmoney

Fractured pieces emotions obtrusive
And did you hear those two are now exclusive
Could have foreseen it I don’t believe it
Wanted to spite me then you succeeded
I hope that you’re safe at home
Cause you couldn’t bear to be alone

Beauty is an animal
Like why you being irrational
How are you this insecure
When you’re so casually allure

We’ve both got our issues trusting
I don’t like what you’re becoming
I’m too young and you’re naive
Well the old you’s gone so I think I’ll grieve

Yeah I wanna die but I’ll stay for you
You don’t gotta try anything you do
Just goes exactly how you want
And you could have anybody that you want

If you think you’re better you know where I’ll be
I don’t wanna see you for another week
We’re not friends just enemies
And even still you’re dead to me

Fractured pieces emotions obtrusive
And did you hear those two are now exclusive
Could have foreseen it I don’t believe it
Wanted to spite me then you succeeded
I hope that you’re safe at home
Cause you couldn’t bear to be alone

Treat me self medicate
This toast I will dedicate
To all of those who loved and lost
Who played their cards but paid the cost

Comfort in leading on
No such thing agreed upon
To you and both your sunken eyes
Take off pretend you’re blind

Fractured pieces emotions obtrusive
And did you hear those two are now exclusive
Could have foreseen it I don’t believe it
Wanted to spite me then you succeeded
I hope that you’re safe at home
Cause you couldn’t bear to be alone

Fractured Pieces

Prod. YCK

Oh how the tables come to turn dear
You sought to get away but you find it’s worse here
My insides turning my body’s shaking
I thought you’d be the one but I must be mistaken

Oh how your fears become the truth dear
You tried to hide away but it’s finding you here
Your voice is trailing your plot is failing
I thought you’d be my anchor but this ship is sailing

I’m not an angel let’s not sugar coat it
And I know you ain’t one to trust don’t question my motives
But it’s so hard to love you when the love’s nonexistent
You’re right in front of me but I can’t help feeling distant

Why’d you have to entice me
Your lies all serve to remind me
That what we had before is nothing but a souvenir so
What we had in store it don’t apply to you and me no

Oh how the tables come to turn dear
You sought to get away but you find it’s worse here
My insides turning my body’s shaking
I thought you’d be the one but I must be mistaken

Oh how your fears become the truth dear
You tried to hide away but it’s finding you here
Your voice is trailing your plot is failing
I thought you’d be my anchor but this ship is sailing

Cherry red lipstick you ruined these bed sheets
A match made in hell but I know that she gets me
I’m on a bender I’m a nervous breakdown
And I can’t remember all the pills I take now

Oh how the tables come to turn dear
You sought to get away but you find it’s worse here
My insides turning my body’s shaking
I thought you’d be the one but I must be mistaken

Oh how your fears become the truth dear
You tried to hide away but it’s finding you here
Your voice is trailing your plot is failing
I thought you’d be my anchor but this ship is sailing

So Far in Front of Me

Prod. YCK

Predisposition addiction is still familial
Embedded into my blood till the day that I die but still you’ll 
Be running from any question regarding the incoherence 
I’m hardly scratching the surface you’re growing up with no parents
Tell me what it’s like and what it’s like being you
Cause I’m not fond of being me and what do I even do
I start my day and write a poem and record over noise 
I think my sadness is a gimmick an audience can enjoy
I could be a showman in reciting my verses 
I’m not the one you’ve met before because there’s multiple versions
A combination of a psyche and things that I wouldn’t say 
I remember laying down and hoped my lungs would inflate  
How did I survive almost wishing I hadn’t
I had a doctor working round the clock to try to combat it
The only thing is when I left the world is now overrun
The storm is brewing up on top a hill that we’ll overcome

Why are you complaining you should be more grateful
Hurting this badly you find yourself unable
It’s going right but I’m oh so torn
And this endless affliction’s been there since I was born

Suicidal wishing on the rise red eyes
From the weed they bought and roll with a sense death pries
In abundance the demand has been shrunken dried and diminished
But the archivists are convinced they aren’t near to being finished
After deducing I turn to stone like Medusa
When catching glances and staring into the basin and root of
Where my abjection has settled detecting I like a challenge
I’ve got a method to fix it but that’s not part of my palate
Faltering and halting aspirations we had
But the world ain’t owe me nothing so I guess I’ll be glad 
In the lowest of grading accumulating like dregs
It doesn’t mean a thing when they don’t even try and they beg
Stains from the smoke adhering to the dashboard 
On a trip heading south and I don’t need a passport
Ain’t a two-way stop there’s no return address
Boutta have a good rest in this dirt mattress 

Why are you complaining you should be more grateful
Hurting this badly you find yourself unable
It’s going right but I’m oh so torn
And this endless affliction’s been there since I was born

Where do you go
When you’re this low
How do you hide
From all these lies

Endless Affliction

Prod. YCK

With every drink downed there’s my life that I shorten 
Inflamed insides acting I can afford it
I’ll get a transplant then I’ll be good as new
But it would never be the future that I’ll be looking to
Bad routines ain’t claiming I’m clean
They don’t know ways out they will serve the machine
Won’t prepare today maybe put the belt aside
Save it for a rainy day guess I’m waiting there inside
Taking diuretics I bet it’s a death sentence 
Stepping out without a mask occupying the medics 
I couldn’t fathom a life without my addiction
And we could never get right still creating this friction
Opposites attract ain’t that feeling a fact
To tell the truth I just wanted someone to distract
Me from driving off in a reckless attempt 
To see what’s on the other side when you get to the end 

I’m in a prison I’m tied down and captive
My head’s hiding elsewhere easily distracted
I can’t let go of what I’m beholden 
I won’t give in no I won’t be folding

Voice in my head tormenting then a taunt
Try to ask what’s the reason but await in no response
My irrational pleasures I find enjoyment in blow
I took a good look around waking up in the snow
It’s no to money the leeching the people who feed
They want a cut out my pocket from the way that I lead
You wanna be me till the moment we meet
You see the things I worry bout then you don’t see the need
Wallow in hate and my misanthropy
I wonder when I’m gonna start living happily
They tell me hold out lights at the end of the tunnel 
I’m going 90 miles an hour I’m about to unbuckle
And off the side of the road deteriorate in a field 
Yeah we could feel the impact of the fence and the wheels
No alcohol in my body I did it with full intent 
The smell of burning gasoline that I’ve grown to resent

I’m in a prison I’m tied down and captive
My head’s hiding elsewhere easily distracted
I can’t let go of what I’m beholden 
I won’t give in no I won’t be folding

Captivity

temporary

temporary (prod. drma x mcx)

ON ALL PLATFORMS

LYRICS:
you were right here, now you're gone 
da da da
now you're gone
This might be the last time that you ever hear a song I wrote
Fucked up in my head I know
Fucked up in my head I know
This might be the last time that you ever hear a song I wrote
Fucked up in my head I know
Fucked up in my head I-

You were right here
Now you're gone
I don't like this baby I'm numb
What do I get, for my love?
A fuckin death date swallow my tongue 
You were right here, now you're gone
I don't like this baby I'm numb
What do I get, for my love?
Another death date swallow your tongue 

I don't need another noose around my neck
But what you do to me is worse than what I'd get
If I decide to fuck around and end it all
Cause I don't think you ever cared for me at all
You don't need another noose around your neck
But what you do to me is worse than what you'd get
If I decide to fuck around and end it all
Cause I don't think you ever cared for me at all

I was right here, now I'm gone
Fuck I look like holding my tongue
What do you get for your love?
I don't like this baby I'm done
You were right here, now you're gone
I don't like this baby I'm numb
What do I get, for my love?
A fuckin death date swallow my tongue
(da daa da, daa daa daaa daa da) x2

death date

death date (prod. love matt & chris marek)

Tsunami J. & GIA - Vibrant (Prod. unknwnshi & nightrdd)

Prod. @vasporo

Gazing at the moonlight 
I could take a few nights
All alone to figure out
What I’m gonna do right
I’m dead and broken
It’s something you can’t fix
I’ll roll with the ocean
An emptier canvas

Times I wanna let go
Every minute spent so
Hard to overcome it all 
Drown it out with benzos

There’s a lot I said though
Every chance I get no
Way to say my sorries cause
I already spent those 

You could only fake empathize 
With my feelings
I don’t wanna be hanging high
From my ceiling

I can’t help when I fantasize 
All those moments
Wishes that I made catalyzed 
When I wrote it

Gazing at the moonlight 
I could take a few nights
All alone to figure out
What I’m gonna do right
I’m dead and broken
It’s something you can’t fix
I’ll roll with the ocean
An emptier canvas

Go with the punches 
Having your fun it’s
No big deal if I
Die in combustion 

Take all the bad names
It’s such a sad day
Till I do depart
I’ll be paving a pathway

Gazing at the moonlight 
I could take a few nights
All alone to figure out
What I’m gonna do right
I’m dead and broken
It’s something you can’t fix
I’ll roll with the ocean
An emptier canvas

College Burnout

Moonlight

Prod. YCK

You’ve been so cruel I’m a bore I’m a pest
Come to find out that you got a permanent guest
Go inside see the mail it’s a change of residence
And I didn’t know that but I think it’s evidence 

A decline state of mind hurt the overall acuity
Of all the things you promised that you claimed to never do to me
This one that you wouldn’t bring up
But I had to take a guess when you two would link up 

You said that you couldn’t stoop down that low
Self respect not a bit but I predicted that though
You’re alone you’re afraid you don’t wanna die soon
I don’t think that you can make it self destruct by June

Take him in he’s a no good bum
Freeloading outta work do a couple more drugs
Maybe you two overdosing make me happy for a minute
I don’t think you really are no I just think you got complicit

Who had come down when the place got robbed and
Who had stood by till you got another job yeah
That was real love that’s a thing you won’t forget
You won’t ever get to feel that same way never again

History will not be kind to you
For me it’s trickery that’s got your neck it’s true
I don’t even recognize her
What’s it now that’s got inside her
Thoughts you had they still recurred
We’re past the point of no return

Once we were close now the farthest that we’ve been
Like a one way mirror look and you will not see in
You’re a piece of the past I knew that we wouldn’t last
We just wanted different things I walk outside it’s overcast

Raindrops to the petals I can see the water shimmer
Warmer weather doesn’t matter round the clock I’m always bitter
People change but they don’t seen it from the source
I’m just glad I never tied the knot and dealt with no divorce

That ring didn’t mean a damn in the end
I can’t get it through my head no I can barely comprehend
Tell me was it even worth it if you blatantly lied
I just wanted you forever inescapably mine

Let me know what’s a real promise still worth
Even now I still resent you everyday I still hurt
You’ll only be gone when you physically die
And when I think about your presence for the very last time

Who had come down when the place got robbed and
Who had stood by till you got another job yeah
That was real love that’s a thing you won’t forget
You won’t ever get to feel that same way never again

History will not be kind to you
For me it’s trickery that’s got your neck it’s true
I don’t even recognize her
What’s it now that’s got inside her
Thoughts you had they still recurred
We’re past the point of no return

Point of No Return

Prod. YCK

Political theater I’m contemplating suicide
Who am I to decide take the cries and numerous times
That I said I’d fucking do it then the ambulance came
They would say that god works in miraculous ways

I reject that theory I don’t want a scripture near me
No that god damn book couldn’t ever make me cheery
Folklore tales how they’re still contemporary
Lacking any facts and logic no that won’t be necessary

Eyes wide open they’re blind myopic
If I’ll stay broken they won’t try stopping
Read the fan mail when it all be pouring in
Did I make the right choice no debate I sorta did

They would not have known if I was on the weathered streets
I imagine every city and the one I’ll never be
I’m ascending to nirvana you can see I’m free
I’ll just keep the music dropping till I D I E

Save it for the rejects
Bring me to the seabeds
To the place I’ll be then
I won’t know whatever she says

Where did you find this unnatural crisis
You claim you’re self righteous but soon to be lifeless
How did I see through when I had no need to
Pernicious things we do now we’ve been so removed

I’m undiagnosed but I’m feeling just as miserable
Relating to somebody when their case is made and clinical
So I make songs let me get my point across 
Might as well address it if I can’t hide or avoid the thoughts

I’m emaciated starving body and brain
Unappreciated anything I did is in vain
Got a message they’ll be counting on the day I blow up
You don’t understand my sanity my living’s so tough

What’s a normal way of saying that you’ve been contrite
We all got a lot of privilege but I think that it’s a right
Let me speak up we’ve done more than we’re assigned
I’ve had enough become more and more aligned

With a polarized view of how the world had oughta run
Exploit any free choice how they got it done
Take the independence now we got a syndrome
Waiting for the bubble’s burst and the way it implodes

Save it for the rejects
Bring me to the seabeds
To the place I’ll be then
I won’t know whatever she says

Where did you find this unnatural crisis
You claim you’re self righteous but soon to be lifeless
How did I see through when I had no need to
Pernicious things we do now we’ve been so removed

To The Seabeds

DESERTBOYS

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So Far in Front of Me

YCK

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