midnight muses

taking the leap of faith despite not knowing what is ahead of you. sometimes you just gotta do it, trust yourself.

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call myself a dreamer
dreaming of a place too far from reach
my feelings in a bottle
afraid to see my world from caving in

so tell me is it worth the pain
should i take a leap of faith

i don't know what's on the outside
but i'm giving in
praying for something
something to change

i've only got this single chance to make things right
don't want to live with more regrets
so i gotta pick myself up and learn
how to fly


i don't wanna live through by the norms and motions
wanna live like i'm alive
so tonight i'll learn 
how to fly

feed into the shadow
wondering how i'd end up here
i'm watching as the clouds pass
and i remember all the things i do

there's something behind that shade of blue
and i've got to find that something true

i don't know what's gonna happen
but i can't help but to
pray for something to change

chorus

this is how it ends
kingdom falls again
gotta move but im trapped in these walls
rotting as i lay on this floor

i love my life
but i know i gotta find
some meaning or else i'll cry
tears that never ever subside

got nothing else to do 
nothing else to say
feel free from all this misery
all this misery eh

find me peace
find me peace
find me

a bipolar representation of my friend who's unsure whether her crush likes her back so she tries to forget about them... kind of?

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i don’t know what I got myself into 
all that glitter isn’t gold or so they say
I still find myself crawling back to you
is there something wrong with me me me

and at night when I’m all alone
i can’t help but stare at my phone
i overthink our messages
just text back I’ll lose my shit

i know that this might feel wrong
cause one sided love is our song
i’ll take a chance anyway

so baby
don’t leave me hanging to this beat
so baby 
don’t leave me hanging x2

i need you out of my life now 
i need you out of my space now
don’t be so kind to me cause I 
can’t seem to get my mind off you 

i don’t know what I got myself into
a rollercoaster ride of emotions
i can’t believe that I’m still into you
this can’t be love right?

and as we talk along city streets
under lamp posts and lights we see
i catch a glimpse of your brown eyes
god damn you make me smile

i don’t want this to be a dream
but I don’t want this friendship to leave 
i'll take the chance anyway

pre chorus

chorus

one sided

nothing matters except her.

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it's another rainy sunday afternoon
and i miss you
yeah i miss you

i've been thinkin what you've been up to
i haven't seen you
can i see you soon

calling on the phone till the late am
looking through our pictures lying in my bed
i love the way the freckles on your cheeks light up when you smile 

we’re almost telepathic with our words
we’re both always late for our dates
but that’s okay

i’m just happy to be with you 
i don’t want this feeling to end
everything that you do with me
it comes together like 
it comes together like
milk & honey 

lately Ive been jealous of the guys around you
what if they get you? 
what if you lose interest in me?

but then you throw a punch onto my chest 
and call me stupid 
then you’d kiss me 

you make silly faces, dance with no fear
and when you’re drunk face flat on your beer
you ask me why i'd ever fall for you

well it’s in all the sparks flying in the air
a kind of magic when you stare
i want to show you what I feel is true 

you’re the sunshine in the day
and you’re the moonlight in the night
you never really leave my side 

in this moment i saw you there
in your little black dress waving in the air
i knew you were the one for me

it's another rainy sunday afternoon
and i miss you
yeah i miss you

milk & honey

this was how i felt about national service in the first few weeks of bmt, no kidding i wrote these lyrics in my phone in camp lmao - i realize now this is super exaggerated and this is definitely not how ns is hahaha!!!

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whisper don't speak
they'll hear your voice
and find you hiding underneath their lies

these wolves bare teeth
and we're their prey
they've got us cornered, circling our graves

just don't show your colors
keep it in
it's your biggest weakness
don't give in

straight up
flesh and bones
it's a funeral
we're waiting till they call us up
one by one
we lose our minds
they've brought us to their hunting ground

sedated in this prison cell
chalking up the walls 
as each day passes by

bring me back to simpler days
when life was easy 
and not this way

now death is pulling at the seams
waiting for me but i won't give in

chorus

is it worth the pain to feel this way

chorus

hunting ground

national service kept us apart for periods of time and i made her feel lonely. 


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tell me where you are
tell me who you're with
it's been so long since i last saw your face

tell me you're in love
tell me you love me
there's something tense in the words you're saying to me

somehow it always ends like this
tears fall again on your beautiful face
i must have done something wrong
all over again 

so baby tell me 
am i making you feel lonely 
so lonely
forgive me im sorry
baby

i'll tell you things you like
i'll give you everything
it don't make sense we were supposed to be

and now i see you face to face
you're my reflection
but it's giving way
another sorry comes to play
all over again

chorus

oooh
im sorry babe
you're feeling so lonely
forgive me im sorry
baby

lonely

sometimes i'll feel really shit about myself. i compare myself to those around me unhealthily and hence led to this song! im still in the process of appreciating me for me but its getting somewhere! :-)

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cigarettes
between my teeth
i bought them for display
but i’m afraid

working out
in my bathroom 
i want to be cool
just like you 

obsessed with how the system works 
Appearance is necessity 
if I can’t be happy with myself
tell me honestly what do I need to change 

who’s that I see (that i see)
staring back at me (back at me)
it’s so hard to breathe (hard to breathe)
i’m not happy being me

i’m so sorry me (sorry me)
why’re you born this way look this way
every time i leave (time i leave)
don a different face and be somebody who I want to be 

masculinity 
buff up my physique 
i need to shred and bulk my way up out of here

a deeper voice
make me an athlete too
maybe I should take some steroids to speed up this thing 

prechorus

chorus
somebody who i want to be

don’t think this way 
i just need to understand 
why it’s okay to feel this way 

i’ll love me for me (me for me)
each and everyday I’m here to stay
though it’s hard to be (hard to be)
content with what you see 

i’ll love me for me (me for ne)
don’t be so cynical i can’t be this superficial
and just before i sleep (fore i sleep)
i’ll realize how grateful i am to be myself

masculinity

welcome to my little life written in song with a hope that you will like it and relate to it no matter the context!
i hope to bring you to a weird magical garage-bandish rollercoaster together with me :-)
(USE EARPIECES CAUSE SOMETIMES THE VOLUME IS CRANKY)

fly

yeoshi