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prod. @harvest  w/ @killedmyself

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Turning In My Sheets ( Prod. Harvest w/ killedmyself )

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new songs weekly from now on :)

rotting self consciously (prod. caspr)

<3
Been away from my "working station" for a while, wasnt gonna release this but it feels like ive been inactive for a long time. love you guys.
Heres the lyrics;
[Verse1]
Dont wanna get lost tonight
cuz baby youre my valentine
ima put the fire out
a thousand degrees when your skin touches mine

 [Break]
I cross my fingers, want you to stay
as always i dont really know what to say.
You're sitting right next to me, 
two cans filled with ice
Blank words mean nothing compared to your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
And we talk about memories
How we used to live on the streets
climbing rooftops, always a treat
I knew the reason why my heart could beat
You were my drug, my nicotine
these memories flash by like a movie scene
I can't escape the past

[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

[Verse 2]
Ive got a tendency to lose my shit when im stressed out
Ill go with honesty and tell you how i feel, right,

[Break 2]
Brush it off its a new day
There wasnt anything I could say
You didnt have to act like that
Never wanted to get back
Dont get the idea that i will ever understand
Bottom line is that im far ahead



[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

2xU - for the last couple of days

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

Last Night Was A Blur (Prod. By yng abrey)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LmOas5SMreM

@blacklunged

fuck im sick of all this life shit
couple memories in the bags
bitch im wasted
faded off these drugs that i once did 
i cant even function
livin without loves fuckin pointless

fuck i feel so empty 
can you feel my pain?
can you fill the void just for one night?
the line im walking on's tight
wrap it round my neck
let it subside
painting pictures in my notebook
im broken hearted

why cant i just say shit
less i grab the paper?
i cant even save her
name in my contacts
digits in my phone, i dont want that

sitting all alone in my room, try to forget
push it all away as i lay back
got a blunt, i light that
bitches wanna fuck, i dont need that
hit my line im too depressed to write back
god, give me all my light back

i cannot remember the last time i felt emotions
all i knows my brains in constant motion
staring into space, tryna focus
dont even know who wrote this
(i dont even know myself)

Follow me <3

never knew (prod. blacklunged)

counting on you

Prod. Brady Amour
Art. Brady Amour

vocal mix @forestafire

comment if you want the lyrics
Dm/ for beats, features , art

Thankful for any support you guys give

So Called Friends (prod. Brady Amour)

@jvbeats666

in my dreams i just stand there shaking

think im better off never waking again

toxic [prod. jay vee]

everything about this place seems shallow now

Thanks to Tristen Whitehead (@chamberaudio) for co-writing and producing the instrumental with me .

artwork by @evanxflow

@yungscuffonline - Hold on for Long

Lil Lotus- Nothing Left (feat. Scum) (prod. 5head)

Camp Rock

New stuff soon…Bits And Pieces out now :)

never knew (prod. blacklunged)

yesterday

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