im fucking up the metrics cause I see it's almost over and restart it lol

this song is so fucking amazing, for sure what ill be bumpin everyday in 2023

is this on apple music yet? i stopped using soundcloud but i need this on my playlist

why is the intro creepy, this song played randomly in my liked playlist, it's 3am I'm trying to sleep I literally opened my eyes in goosebumps thought ghost switch my music

💔

it always goes so fast

It hit too fast, no warning, no grace
Your laugh, your breath, just gone, no trace
One dad broke and never got out
The other's still running like pain's a route
They won't speak, they hold it in
And I've been cracking beneath my skin
I talk to you in the dark like you might hear
Soft and slow like you're still near

I wait in the space where your shadow falls
No footsteps, no sound, no calls

I'm not who I was since you left
The light's gone, my chest forgets how to breathe
They see the mess and call it me
Their father, their friend
I'm just this broken man
I don't want them to remember me this way

They say grief fades, just takes time
But pain keeps count, marks every line
You're in the shadows, edges blur
Every breath aches, pretending I endure

I don't want them to remember me this way

They say grief heals, wounds close tight
But pain stays sharp, carves every line
I wait in the silence, still sending my words
No reply, no sign, just the hurt

I'm slipping into someone I don't know
And no one's pulling me back from the edge
I need them to look and then turn away, turn away
Please don't watch, don't see the cracks
Don't hear me drop, I'm already gone
I've been empty for miles
Wearing this body, faking these smiles

I stay in the silence that buried my name
No light, no breath, no flame
If they speak my name, don't let it be now
Not these eyes, not this hollow vow
Leave them nothing, no words to say
Don't let them remember me this way

You won't be alone
I'm on my way

I stay in the silence that buried my name
No light, no breath, no flame
If they speak my name, don't let it be now
Not these eyes, not this hollow vow
Leave them nothing, no words to say
Don't let them remember me this way

You won't be alone
I'm on my way

So fast 
Lyrics: Chris, Emily
Vocals:  Emily, Alex, Cosmo,
Drums: Jeremy
Bass: Isaac
Piano: Chris
Organ: Chris
Harmonica: Chris
Acoustic guitar: Chris
electric guitar: Alex
Production: Chris, Alex

So Fast

u don't know me w/ Lil Peep [prod. paulie]

go follow my boy @caspr !!! 

new songs weekly from now on :)

rotting self consciously (prod. caspr)

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e14tf0Lk6FM

something I made for poetry class.  

[HOOK] X2
In the distance I hear a cry for help 
Can I still go to heaven if I kill myself?
Cause surely nobody wants to go to hell 
But the closer I get the less I hear the yells  

The sweet aroma of death is his favorite smell  
Would it make a difference if I had a soul to sell? 
Too many questions and no time to dwell
Can I still go to heaven if I kill myself? 

God has his headphones too loud   
The life of a dog or an entire crowd 
I was told sinners were not even allowed  
Even allowed  X3 

Is food nothing more than slaughtered cows ?  
Is it still my life if the point is to make another proud? 
Before I make this choice please tell me where art thou 
Tell me where art thou  X3  

[HOOK]


production https://soundcloud.com/karlrolson  

https://twitter.com/originalg6d
http://originalgod.tumblr.com/ 
https://www.instagram.com/originalg6d/

Can I Still Go To Heaven If I Kill Myself? [prod. ultra]

Guitar/Prod; https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke <3

Lyrics:

GrxyIce:
Is it too much 
to want this to fade 
can't i, jus relieve the pain 

distanced myself
fucked up my health
nothing really helps
nothing really helps

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin
bones are snapping again 
an is it too much 

93:
nothing i take 
helps the ache 
numbs my pain 
nothing i do 
lifts the hate 
from my face

giving up on sleep 
i don't wanna breathe 
hide that i'm a fiend
just give up on me 
i'm a waste you'll see 
save your energy

GrxyIce & 93:
wear myself thin 
bones are snapping again
and is it too much 
and is it too much

Is It Too Much w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE (Prod. 93)

prod. reaper https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
gucci https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters
iof https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

My Place (feat. guccihighwaters) [prod. reaper]

I DIDNT MAKE THIS SONG ALL RIGHTS TO KILLEDMYSELF AND FAMILYPET <3

Killedmyself - Take Your Time, I Don't Mind (ft. Familypet)

watch it all fall down (prod. yunnygoldz)

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

Follow me <3

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

produced, mixed/master by me
live drums by jordan davis
https://twitter.com/jordancd3_
https://www.instagram.com/jordandavis_98/?hl=en
cover art by ciel
https://cielxxx.com/


its a cold world we live in
had to learn about self forgiveness
im sold out on believin
so ill make what i can with these broken pieces

ive got all the time in the world
to figure it out
the root of my sorrow
the pain and the doubt

you cant live with that
i cant live without
u throwin it back 
while im turnin u out

i got a one track mind
and a wish to die
no tears to cry
when im left behind

dont know about tomorrow but i know bout today
you got me real fucked up but you know what ill say

leaves fall and im fallin apart
had to pick back up
think i gotta restart

yeah
this life is a race and we’re runnin in circles
im takin the leap over hurdles
that ive laid out myself all eternal

i send peace to my life and my loved ones
never got it off a trust fund
been about it since my day 1
imma leave my body when the night comes

leaves fall
and ive fallen apart
have to pick back up
think i gotta restart

if life has no meaning
why the fuck do i care?
yeah these people
these places
thats a reason to live

and these demons im facin
have a place in my life

but the road thats ahead
never comes to end
think that i lost it again

leaves fall and im fallin apart
had to pick back up
think i gotta restart

death calls
but im not by the phone
if you had one chance
would u take it and go?

SPOTIFY

restart

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-when-it-runs-up-lyrics

produced by @guccihighwaters and softheart
guitar by @cisco-kid-music

When It Runs Up (feat. guccihighwaters)

Burn Out

prod/recorded/engineered by me

s/o @daine-lauren for guitar inspo <3

how many days have passed?

so many days that passed
couldnt do a fuckin thing
sit in bed, roll a blunt, think of who i need to be

gotta smoke at least a gram a day to keep my mind straight
guilty pleasures, true love
fightin for my heartache

but ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built

i wish i knew the things i have to say
to even up the score and get u to stay with me for another night

but im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
baby girl i know it aint the same
but ur in my heart forever

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

lost in my head
lost ur love
im movin on with that

just addin weight 
to my shoulders
straighten out my back

it aint enough
and ur hearts been shattered
fucked up
nothing else even matters

how many times i told you
that the doors right over there?
gave u signs that u ignored
now u pullin out ur hair

yeah its my fault
my fault
dont put no blame upon urself
too far gone
a lost cause
ill keep them pictures on my shelf

cuz ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built
i wish i knew the things id have to say
to even up the score and get you to stay with me for another night

im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
ur perfect in every way
i hope that u realize that someday

youre too good for me
and now ur leaving
keep runnin away
til u stop bleedin
ill be here for you
whenever u need it
you can come back to me
if u ever needed

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

leaving

mixed and mastered by @ultrare

lyrics:
i think bout you quite a lot 
ur green eyes got a spark 
we could lay alone in the dark 

we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 

i think bout you quite a lot 
ur green eyes got a spark 
we could lay alone in the dark 
wrap u inside of my arms 

we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 

i miss u quite a lot 
U are all I got 
tell me what you want 
i only want ur  heart
u don’t need that filter on ur face girl
bc your perfect to me-e—e-e
loose shirt w the
curves underneath

i think bout you quite a lot 
ur green eyes got a spark 
we could lay alone in the dark 

we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk 
we aint gotta talk

i think about u quite a lot (prod ocean beats)

Mixed and Mastered by @iofmusic

AFTER SCHOOL
RUNNING AFTER YOU
IM TRYNA CHASE SOMETHING THAT I CANT GET TOO
OH? YOU LIKE THAT BOY 
WELL I LIKE HIM TOO
HES NOT THE ONE FOR YOU
IM THE ONE FOR YOU

UP AND DOWN THE PATH
IM BEATEN DOWN A LONELY PATCH
AND MY BITCH SO BAD 
BUT SHE DONT EVER WANNA HAVE ME BACK
I BEEN ALL ALONE IN MY ROOM WRITIN RAPS
I BEEN IN THE DARK LIKE A TOMB WRITIN RAPS

IMMA GET THA PAPER WIPE MY TEARS WITH THE RACKS

BITCH IM MAKIN PAPER I DONT CARE FOR YA ASS
X2

AFTER SCHOOL
RUNNING AFTER YOU
IM TRYNA CHASE SOMETHING THAT I CANT GET TOO
OH? YOU LIKE THAT BOY 
WELL I LIKE HIM TOO
HES NOT THE ONE FOR YOU
IM THE ONE FOR YOU

After School (+ Essex)

New stuff soon…Bits And Pieces out now :)

restart

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