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Lyrics:

I met u
In December 
In cold weather
But we kept eachother warm
And I slept thru
Those texts u
Sent me but I swear that there is nothing that I wanted more than you 

Nothing more than you 

Feel snow on my face I'm 
So damn tired of living straight lines
Got my hand on your waistline
Take my heart in the daytime 

Kiss my lips thru the frostbite 
Take my hand and we'll get thru the cold nights 
I'm so sick of the chill in my bones
It's probably warmer back home 

I met u
In December 
In cold weather
But we kept eachother warm
And I slept thru
Those texts u
Sent me but I swear that there is nothing that I wanted more than you 

Nothing more than you

December (Hayku)

prod by @wisssery
written and performed by @rejectcore x @plslovejai

trippnyc ft. love jai (p. wisssery)

prod. @trechorboy & @yuumu2k

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Lyrics:
you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

somehow saying sorry feels too melancholy
i’ll just leave my body cut for you
soak in anguish
probably shouldn’t take this double dose
im spacing out
i feel brand new
cuz im not ready to talk
‘pardonne-moi’
you know that
its no competition
let go of that pedestal shit
but i see you win and choke on my own thoughts
i hate myself more than i ask for help
i tried to crack my shell and all i felt was loss

im stuck so far away from all the action
we was fucking like its passion
and i just self medicate
like an assassin, you shot me down
i don’t know anything when i unfasten
black out almost crash it
lowkey tryna end my life but make it passive
i cant reach out

you called me out and i hate that
last night we fought through the combat
im so fucked and i know that
im a walking dead man in a Hellcat
i cant stop if i tried to
denied all the signs 
you was lied to
im not worthy of forgiveness but

i drink
and drink
and drink
so excessive that i think i broke the link tying you and i
stay away
hurray, purging feelings in the sink
for the fifth time this week
how can i forget?
what you did to me is burned into my head
like a cigarette
smoke
the scent
the dread
nothing can put these pieces back together
(x2)

Vehicular Manslaughter

SPOTIFY

guitar by me

monsters
inside my walls
they like break me
down
until i crawl
save me
i think i lost
the war between
myself and i
leave me here to rot
i’ll take u back any day
with no second thought 
do u ever feel the same
would u kill for just a day
for us
to meet
once again

walls

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

In 2017 I got addicted to painkillers
In the six weeks before we met
And after that I took them only when I needed
Like the night you called me back
And in the mornings we would walk to class and smoke cheap cigarettes
Because menthols taste healthier, right?
Back then I didn’t sleep and I wrote shitty poetry
About Newark when my grandma died

And i hope you don’t remember at all
You just grab the money and i’ll take the fall
I never moved to New York, but I went there on tour; I’ve got your notes in my drawer
I still remember it all

In 2021 I mixed klonopin and whiskey
In the city where angels go to die
And I made a man a flower crown then passed out on his living room floor
And said “don’t touch me, I’m fine”
See, my ambition was a prison, wanted to carve my name into
The bones of everybody I met
Back then I didn’t see beauty in just about anything
So I guess it turned out just how you said
It would

But I hope you don’t remember at all
Been running away, it’s getting harder to walk
I don’t know what it was for, getting ruined for sport; goddamn victorian whore
I still remember it all

Reading my old journals, double-checking it got better
And my hands still turn purple when it’s cold, so I’ll wait seven years
‘Til there’s nothing left of who i was but melody and fever
I hope next time, when she says she’s too high you’ll stop
And you'll believe her

One day I won’t remember at all
The pictures all faded, now we’re outlines in chalk
I never moved to New York, but I’ll go there on tour; I guess that settles the score
I still remember it all

i still remember it all

@xobroken @jolst


and i can tell when you're lying
you can see it in your eyes
you can see it in your smile
fucking hate when you're vile

its like you get a fucking knife
and you stab me in the vital

ur only nice on your birthday
get your cards and open them up
the writing on the inside are lies open it up

and i dont wanna feed your ego
if i could get out of here
id be heathrow

guess i pay the price now
fuck it its a time out
i just turn the light out
tell me whats important
6 in the morning
i left in the morning
i just want a foreign

"take a seat"
i dont wanna sit down
ive been all up on my mind
n idk where im going

dont act like you know
dont act like you know whats going on
cause you fkn dont

It’s a cycle
She hit my vitals
No survival 
Expect apologies when I’m dying, ya so entitled
Feelin like I lost myself since your arrival
Saw this Shit coming but I was in denial

I been deceased 
She not missing me
Turned into fiend
Full of grief
Xanax make me lean
Weak up in the knees
Puffin trees
Just to get some sleep
Unable to dream
White tee
Blood drippin on me

Didn’t see you leaving, what should I expect? Im so dead,  there’s no way to resurrect me
Said you loved me 
Then you left
What’s is that?
Everything’s a mess

smile w/ xobroken (jolst x radkoun)

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in"
you were meant for me, "stay open"
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

respite [prod. idealism]

hiraeth ~ polaroid [frenchcore remix]

hey guys, hope u enjoy this new track i luv it <3
produced by: @prod-oc

LYRICS:
i still can't believe what i saw
or what i heard
on that night
it still rings in my head
in my mind
i'll play it til i'm dead
but i can't rewind what i saw
there was blood on the floor
and they won't believe me, no more
and i'd die by my sword
they all lied, there was gore
thank the lord, that i'm still breathing now

i can only hear one sound
the beat of my heart as it pounds
and i thought i'd see you around
but i guess that it's all said and done
leave a message and then you're gone
and i start to think that i'm the problem
and my family asks, "what are you running from?"
and i look at them and say...

its that night (it's that night)
it still rings in my head (it still rings in my head)
in my mind (in my mind)
i'll play it til i'm dead (i'll play it til i'm dead)
but i can't rewind what i saw
there was blood on the floor
and they won't believe me, no more (no more)
and i'd die by my sword
they all lied, there was gore (there was gore)
thank the lord, that i'm still breathing now

(breathing now)
(that i'm still breathing now)
(breathing now)

have a good day/night 333+

gore (oc)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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