DecayingAnyways x Yokai Dreams - Habits

Yokai:

i try to keep it all together
i'm folding under the pressure
try to be professional
but i don't think i ever was
didn't get the memo
i guess it's inconsequential
it's a given that i give in
before the chance to mess it up

it's too bright, lock me in my room i
never could regret it
in some ways i'm still indebted but
i'm too high, got some things on my mind
wish i never said it
i never said it
guess i fell back into patterns
i thought i had once abandoned
just a creature of habit
i guess this was inevitable
i'm always static
no qualities of elastic
fear everlasting
guess that i'm not ready to go

these things never work out like they're supposed to
well god damn, rest in peace to the old you
my bad, my bad shoulda told you
i have grown cold too
bleed me dry til i'm starving
find my heart, i've been struggling to mark it
don't you tell me that i'll make it through regardless
live like this and you'll find yourself heartless

Decay:

I been pacing side to side hoping I won’t die 
but I’m stuck in my mind with all these mistakes 
Got no left to blame, I always do the same thing 
I guess it’s fucking wired right into my mainframe 

Cause now I’m breaking down down 
Catch me all around town, party until sundown I’m just having fun now 

What now 

fell in love with habits won’t treat them like it’s tragic, my brain turning to static it’s worse than you would imagine 

I got these bad habits and these, these white rabbits that’ll lead me into a wonderland I’m dying now 

Dead talents 
Drug habits 
Blood jackets 
Brain mallet 
dark palettes 
High status 
No balance 
And more 

Would it stop? 
I know, that it won’t 
“Oh no”
I’ll fall for awhile longer 
“Dying”
I won’t last for much more 
For much more, than I did
Guess it’s like I’m dying now 
That’s just how I’m feeling now 
It’s got me like a cloud
Know it’s never ending now 
Know it’s never ending now

Habits

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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