I cant count how many times i’ve listened to this song........

i love u mr blair - Chris 5'5 ❤️❤️

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All production, mixing, and mastering done by me.
cover art designed from a recent hike I went on :)

lyrics:

Not making sense to you
Baby that’s how you’ll learn the truth
Coulda switched up but I won’t be rude
Lookin for something new
I coulda done better
Swear its a straight shot but it never works
Caught in a big knot with the least concern 
Sorry you’re the one that hurts

And ill be there in the morning
Swear to god I won’t be late
And ill be there without warning
A throwback to yesterday
Ill be there not ignoring all the times you called my name 
Let’s go right back where we started I’d rather rewind the tapes

I won’t lie 
I been wanting to see you one more time
So pretty please look through my eyes
feels like im paralyzed 

Don’t even like you
Why do I sit beside you?
Can’t get you out my head
But im doing all of that

And this time
I won’t follow, you
Not anyone 
Has a heart that will last through it all

chorus

something new

Produced by @delto & Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
You’re the best sculptor I’ve ever known
And sometimes I wish for an alternate ending where we were still close
In this abyss where a million things could’ve happened
I’m not sure why it went how it did and I can’t help but look back
I can’t find a way, I can’t find a way
To stop that

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

And I’ve tried giving it time
It feels like you’ll always be a part of my life
But for some reason we had to say goodbye
Maybe I’ll find you in another lifetime
And I’ve tried to distract myself
Think about something else
But my head keeps on taking me back to you this is hell
I’m tryna figure out how to live my life without you
And I still don’t know how to
Cause nothing stops the hurt

You’re the best sculptor I’ve ever known
And I’ll always wish for an alternate ending where we were still close
In this abyss where a million things could’ve happened
I’m not sure why it went how it did and I can’t help but look back
I can’t find a way, I can’t find a way
To stop that

I got new people in my life and I’m tryna rearrange them
To fill the space you left but I know it isn’t working
I told myself it wasn’t meant to be I’m lying
But I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying yeah
Just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying 
I’m lying but I’ll just keep on trying yeah I’ll just keep on trying cause nothing stops the hurt

Sculptor (coprod. Delto)

covers of @avit69 one of my favorite artists (prod. avit & jacy nyte)

happy new year !

lyrics:

(ghost town re:do)

lately ive been fallin down
but tell me how you doing now?
its been so long since you left town
i miss when i could see you around
u know, i know
what we both had
is never ever
coming back
emotions flooding, feeling drowned
but now I guess
ill see you around

i miss your shine of moonlight
glowing bright on you tonight
i could never be enough for anybody in this life
walked around this empty town just so I can look upon the night
and it hurts me without you here
i just want my friend to stay
why’d u leave me without even a single goodbye?
it was all just so soon…

i know i gave a lot of me
but you know
you stole a part of me
sunrise
shining on your face
me and you
could never separate

lately ive been fallin down
but tell me how you doing now?
its been so long since you left town
i miss when i could see you around
u know, i know
what we both had
is never ever
coming back
emotions flooding, feeling drowned
but now I guess
ill see you around

(same old me)

these last few months in these thin walls
blood spilt w words, i’ve been through it all
n i grow tired day by day
watching all my “friends” leave me
wish they’d just stayed...
don’t know who i am anymore
i just don’t wanna b ignored
sick of it all…
cuz i’ve changed for y’all for far too long
n all ur lies roll off ya tongue
i’m done j being what u want
it’s clear that i do not belong

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

my memory’s faded and i’ve lost who i am
this piece i’ve painted, fragments of what was then
let’s leave it in the past
let it decay to ash
let it just falter… away
feel like my whole life, i’ve been erased
always made me feel like i’m a waste
wishing i could never ever wake
people switching up on me, it’s hard to say
but i don’t really feel a thing but apathy
yeah every part of me is numb to pain
everyday is just a cycle of my misery
and i hate it
cuz it’s always my fault and i’m always the cause of my fall

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

https://soundcloud.com/avit69/ghost-town-redo
https://soundcloud.com/avit69/sameoldme

ghost town re:do/same old me cover

Luh bday song love u all <333 

im so tired

(lyrics)
You see me trying but you say its not enough
Ive been broken my hearts bleedin girl I hate it when we fight

But on my death bed
Ill be staring at the stars 
Ive been tryna make a wish
Cause youre the only girl I want

But it aint right anymore
Cause what we had fell apart
You know im smoking a lot 
Girl you left me in the dark

Thought im right but im wrong
I keep fuckin it up
I dont know what I should tell you
Ive been feelin pretty numb

Tell me something why the fuck did I keep chasin ???
Ive been feelin pretty tired 40 hours spent awake

I wash the blood away
Thats drippin from my nose
And I could tell you that im fine 
but ive been dying on my own

And I know you wont call
Its killin me inside 
I tried to take some fluoxetine
But it aint set me right 

And I thought that you were the one in my fuckin life
That I could cherish girl you would help me sleep at night

But it aint right anymore
Cause what we had fell apart
You know im smoking a lot 
Girl you left me in the dark

Thought im right but im wrong
I keep fuckin it up
I dont know what I should tell you
Ive been feelin pretty numb

Tell me something why the fuck did I keep chasin ???
Ive been feelin pretty tired 40 hours spent awake

I wash the blood away
Thats drippin from my nose
And I could tell you that im fine 
but ive been dying on my own

SPOTIFY

walking in the fog (methboiswag)

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

spotify

@012207 jitnem <3
@hiiidrax

i lost my vision for the future
all my dreams are shattered
and theyre never coming back no
im done
and i had a really good time
but all good things have to come to an end

this time i promise
ill never let u down anymore
(ill just find a way out)
of this dream that im stuck in
its so silly cuz
everytime i try i just end up tying a noose
friendly drama turn from a grenade into a nuke
i wanna start over i guess ill just start anew
im feeling like a timebomb but dont blow out the fuse

i lost my vision for the future
all my dreams are shattered
and theyre never coming back no
im done
and i had a really good time
but all good things have to come to an end

future visions (baz, hiiidrax)

ommlllllll bru ts did so bad

@0arid
@wasterr
I’ll move on I guess
Smoking pack again 
It takes away the stress 
I’m always fucking up 
I always make a mess 
Sometimes I look back
My minds full with regret 
I always did you wrong 
So I’ll move on I guess 

Idk why ur upset 
Bc u said it was for the best 
Nothing last forever I know that everything ends 
You loved to bring me down 
Always felt like I was less 
And when I am not around 
I hope you turn into a mess
arid
i tried it over and over
these feelings i kept in
they’re growing older and older
this seems like i cant win
i already told u yeah i know the rest
yeah i miss the old u layin on my chest
i dont wanna go on put me down to rest
every second spent i just wanted to forget

moving on

moving on w/ arid (wasterr)

@kurse11
@012207

i try to hide away
everything feels so frightening
always getting worse
i knew it wouldnt work
i try to hide away
everything feels so frightening
always getting worse
i knew it wouldnt work

then i realize why i feel like that
yeah i never get replies when i feel attached
ur the one that i rely on i need it so bad
always keep my head high though i feel so sad
i wont last
yeah i wont last for long
i cant always be wrong
the time keeps moving on
our love is too far gone

getting worse [kurse11 + baz]

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RU4EpTFxZbc&ab_channel=nomu

out now on all plats <3

ty  @scrobaby for the lovely guitar
(@prodnomu)

float like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
Yea im better noow
thats what i tell myself
But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
And id be lying if i said i dont need you now

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

Im getting better w the goodbyes
Cuz nothing ever really hit me like the first time
Im used to watching as the time flies
Im reminiscing - missin when u would drive by

And its crazy to kno that u love me still
And it feels so real somehow
Do u love me still
Do u love me stilll somehow

butterfly

all plats <3

@traxee

*You know i wanna be ur MAIN

Rawr

valentines day W/ TRAXEE !!!!!!!

ty for 10k :) 
 
@yokulol @t1gerstar @zephyrcove 

yoku : 
you're just a wreck when around me
i can see it in your eyes 
and if theres one thing you should know
you make it so obvious !!!

me :
love you now and i loved you then 
idk why i’m playing pretend 
all these thoughts going through my head 
can’t see them when you’re in my bed 
like that when you talk like that 
come back no not like that 
and you wonder why it’s left unsaid 
now i’m going left 

runaway when you see me now 
i don’t wanna leave cus how ? 
and i’ll change how i’m breathing 
don’t wanna lose this feeling 

tiger : 
talked about this talked about that 
you always seem to know the minute i get sad :( 
and at first i always try to lie about it 
but you know when i feel out of it 
so now i got your picture on my desk 
(ngl idk this part) 
i don’t say it enough 

yoku :
you're just a wreck when around me
i can see it in your eyes 
and if theres one thing you should know
you make it so obvious !!!

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