oh well, whatever
i hope he's cool 
gives you everything you wanted
like i did for you
and it never even mattered
i guess i was a fool 
lost control of my heart 
tryna give it all to you

and i never meant anything to you, 
i guess
i'm glad found someone that you can love instead
i hope you tell him that 
say it with your chest 
cause it's all i ever wanted to hear
i tried my best
feeling everything,
i wish i was wasn't used to that
losing everything, 
i wish i wasn't good at that 
i can't understand
wish that you would tell me how 
to be okay with this 
i can't even save myself 

(vito)
it cuts deep 
through silk sheets 
where i sleep 
god damn,
you love watching me bleed
that's karma
i've had it coming
enough trauma for you to want me 
you can't even tell when i'm gone 
your life is still moving on 
maybe i'm coming off strong 
but i've been hurt for so long 
and still the worst is yet to come
i should've knew it all along 
i flew too close and in the sun 
lost everyone i ever loved

oh well, whatever (w/ vito) (prod. jolst)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

prod fats'e
w/
@heylog  &
@lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

heylog:
ur across the states, i wish it wasn't the truth
it's either them or me, now ur gone.. you had to choose
so i gave you a piece of art i took time and drew
u can keep it forever, i hope it stays with u
you've got so much ahead of u and goals to accomplish
while i make a song saying "log u need to top this"
but god i'm tired and the struggle is real
i died and came back to life, now i can't feel

fats'e:
life goes on
can't say i didn't try
just not hard enough
found a new timeline
just tossed to the side
died and came back to life

we both come undone
feeling stuck in a loop
that i can't seem to outrun
feeling stuck in a loop can't escape

skele:
n god i’d love to talk 
but look just not right now 
got some shit to say 
i jus don’t know how 
i spent like every night alone jus fucking dreaming of you 
n love i know your hurting 
it kills me too 

n tell me why 
it always gets so hard 
getting out of bed 
feels like i’m heading to war 
n if i saw the reaper know he’d take me for sure
breaking down alone 
i put my head to the door 

i don’t get it 
i thought i was better 
u said it 
so why can’t i remember 
i’m sick of living like this 
i hate the medicine 
im sick of crying like this 
it never fucking ends 

n at this point think i’ve died twice 
really good at fucking up my life 
n i don’t care if you love me
i just need you to lie 
life goes on, i just don’t wanna try 
i got used to all the pain inside

died and came back to life (w/ heylog & skele)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

produced by jolst
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst)

im legitimately terrified (eric Godlow)

sprawled out on this park bench
bloodshed
take a look at what the note read
lighting darts, but the smoke bled
cherry red
lush trees now they all dead

guarantee they don't know me now
ghast rain on this old town
muddy soot in my background
vexation when the suns down

in the coupe now
imma drown it out
with these subtle sounds
theres nobody around

sprawled out on this park bench
bloodshed
take a look at what the note read
lighting darts, but the smoke bled
cherry red
lush trees now they all dead

how could I have knew
understanding you
would never come to view

she hate me under suns
she love me under moons
wish I could smile too
x2
these shadows in my room
the way the flowers bloom
telling me its June

starlight through the roof
my hands ten and two
what do I pursue?

sunsets over anguish (Irby)

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

spotify

i still see blue

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229
prod: saint mike
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

writing out these letters
lately i can't help
but pray that i get better 
i'm stuck in my own hell
talk to me slow,
don't let me go 

we were so happy,
what happened?
stuck on the past tense
sometimes i miss it 
it's hard to forget it 
blue,
(i still see blue)
i still think of you
(i still think of you)

lay by the lake,
i was never the same 

baby ima masochist at best
got a lot of scars on my chest 
i was your porcelain puppet 
cracks line over my stomach
even with my body going numb
i still wished to feel the cuts 
and after everything was done
i still wanna be your one

(residential:)
am i bothering at all?
kinda wish you stayed 
is it someone else's palms
or the portraits that i framed

is it killing you at all?
cause i can't say the same 
the hazel in your eyes
is embalmed into my brain 

i cant sleep at night 
it's better with time
but i'll

pull it together
keep my dignity tethered
guess it's better than never
your words here forever

(skele:)
fucking wasted my time
still on the back of my mind
fucking wasted my life 
oh trust me, i tried
(trust me i, trust me i tried)

