a little bonus track as the credits roll - so Rtd it hurts - lord forgive im ##blastingoffAgain

produced by the fucking goat @sanriorose i can't believe she's on here twice like literally read the previous description u cant tell me nothing and such and such and uh THANK YOU FOR LISTENING
EVEN IF U HATED THE RECORD
I LOVE U ANYWAY
MUAH <333

lyrics//
off a couple hours sleep, i see the world for what it is
the moment i awoke, i ran fresh out of fucks to give
problem solved within an instant, smile on a sunken ship
dead girl walkin, selfish zombie, raw and rotten succubus

wanna make you suffer, bitch
blackout, you know what it is

had to quit the sucker shit
blackout, you know what it is

i quit bein normal, aint important, cause it doesn’t fit

blackout, you know what it is
blackout, you know what it is

tell me what you’re doin in your free time
do you hustle every day or live a leech life?
if there’s cash to be had, i make a beeline
get the racks, bring it back, split it with my felines


i feel like im emorave, kitty cat spazzin
i may never be okay, at least im steady havin
was a savage, was a dog, was a mastiff
might go back to my evil ways, in the back blasted


go back to my evil ways
i could go either way
throwback to my evil days
could go either way

go back to my evil ways
i could go either way
throwback to my evil days
i could go either way

in the back blasted
i could go either way
in the back blasted
i could go either way

in the back blasted
i could go either way
in the back blasted
i could go either way


tell me what you’re doin in your free time
if it’s nothin baby, maybe in the meantime
lets pretend, in the end you would be mine
better bet i’ll catch it if you throw it like a peace sign

if you leave me cold then i wont fall sober
won’t stay sober if its all over
all my feelings getting wrecked, i’m drowning in the ocean
bitches on the internet got way too much e-motion

lie and say i feel no way, 
i can’t be your hero, babe
always end up DOA, one day i’ll be back bitch
got back from the lazarus, this world is what i’m trapped in
if it resonated then i double hashtagged it

i feel like im emorave, kitty cat spazzin
i may never be okay, at least im steady havin’
was a savage, was a dog, was a mastiff
might go back to my evil ways, in the back blasted

in the back blasted
everything that lives- ##trapped

in the back blasted
everything that lives- ##trapped

in the back blasted
everything that lives- ##trapped

in the back blasted
everything that lives 
is designed to end

LeechLife prod. d0llywood1

https://soundcloud.com/ghoul33
https://soundcloud.com/ihatemp5k

TillDeathDoUsPart (ft. ☆TEXA$ $HADOW☆ + hollow) [Prod. Me]

prod mix and feature by saturn's lament my beloved partner in crime!!!1!! 
this man basically did everything on the song so the way justified myself even being on it was by rapping the longest single verse ive ever done.
this song is probably the most i've called myself out lyrically. i did not feel ok after recording this one honestly, and what it released in me was not cathartic like it usually is. how this one sounds is exactly what it felt like to write and record it. hope u enjoy

lyrics//

jozie//
check up on the dial
got me wretchin up the bile
feelin wretched feelin vile
every time i end up stretchin the denial
for just a little longer, let me totter
let me wander, with no water
in the desert for a while
check up on the dial
got me wretchin up the bile
feelin wretched feelin vile
every time i end up stretchin the denial
for just a little longer, let me totter
let me wander, with no water
in the desert for a while

saturn's lament//
scrape my flesh now to let me out
peel my skin down, d'you love me now?

jozie//
propelled forward all by buzz
i lost my own judgement, fallen like love
i say that i'm fine, i'll call my own bluff
i talk to that tall ass wall, it wont budge
i long for what was, i stalk my old crush
i'm lost in my thoughts, i want to grow up
but i'm
paranoid to a fault, i wont trust
wont fall for tricks, mirrors and mist
its no love
every hour slashes minutes
every sour afterimage
in my mouth from halves that didnt work out
the past is written
i'm a coward, thats admitted now
aint proud of that position
how's the bell's toll sounding louder every passing minute?
clouds so black and sickening
hangin over my head
i took some sugar to the tank to cope,
the motor is dead
so i'll walk
so i'll walk
so i'll walk
that's all there is to it, nothin more
walk with guilt, i walk with grief, with all my actions underscored
with the gritting of my teeth, i know i'm rotten to the core
so when i perform
i leave it all on the fuckin floor
love is war, all is fair till i prolly break the code
and let the honor flicker on and off, i gotta take it slow
cause if i dont
then this one won't turn out anomalous
to all my problems previous
and we'll end up anonymous
and go back to the strangers we were born as
what's the makeup of your mask ?
is it satin, is it steel?
is it loose or is it tight?
does it fit you right?
i'll whisper as i whistle through the night
akin to the wind in your hair
blow through and i leave no trace
with a sense of unease that'll settle in your chest
when i pass by, you see no face

all of us strangers (with saturn's lament)

NOT HAVING A GOOD DAY FREESTYLE (@GL1ZZYSPE11)

PROD. ERIC NORTH

Pump it baby
Pull it
Gotta get in tune with these shapes
and how youll shake the world with that face
This world I coded it in all shades, so I know one thing and thats never gonna change
Yeah I feel it now uh, guess I feel it know
Gotta pull my head up up above the ground
Maybe that will reveal the crown I wear
Or at least the one that I think I bare because my grandmother was born with a veil on her head
and then after 76 years she went to bed
But i know death is all inevitable so, but I see it when my eyes are closed
And then it unfolds another layer
I need another prayer
The facets of the evil that I cannot truly bare
and they all just stare me down my face
then they surround me till i cant get away
I shouldve built my world with more security
The older things I used to like are lacking purity
I though I had nothing to say, but thats never the case
The issue is translating what I want to convey and make it very clear
there's always something here
and even after death, there's always something left
and see thats where I stall, thats where I truly fail
Then my brain will spiral to fell

SHAPES

shoutout to sasha's dying aka shinechaser aka lil azathoth aka chicago's finest 4 the beats , thank u to saturn's lament for the mix. this was the final song to be completed for the album n it took me no time, which is awesome cause the song i scrapped in favor of this one took me like 4 attempts at re writing it and it just never hit at all lol. so this was clearly the better option. enjoy :P

lyrics//
can't even comprehend right now, damages critical
no room for pensive penmanship, aint no subliminals
when the grave is sayin your name u cannot resist the call
scraping the sink for powder you already did it all
all
oh no, watch the numbers fall
no heaven's gate, bring seven days of fire, fuck em all 
my heart aint but a ball of flesh, been rendered somethin small
so i've been reaching out to empty space and nothin calls
calls
calls back, dont pick up the phone
disconnected from the rest i guess i'm on my own
rippin vessels from my chest, i cut the fuckin flow
so no blood can ever get where its supposed to go
*insert funkmaster flex otis premiere sample*
TRAPPED
20 years old, i would go with the flow of the blow
nose deep in a bag of pills
i was walkin in a world so cold
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't trapped in still
barefoot, runnin laps for real
but if that blood hadn't spilled
it'd still be underneath my belt
metal on my waist like packin steel
i guess i should be thankful
i guess i should be grateful
i guess i should be so relieved 
no demons took these ankles
underneath the land i stand upon
and we still could be angels
and yet i'm not
my rotten flesh is stitched and filled with staples
i feel like killin label management and spillin blood
necrotic, rotten to the core, yall think i give a fuck??
spotify said fund the war machine, these rich boys run amok
my pip boy on my wrist, apocalypse, blot out the sun

IMPROVED BLOOD TEXTURES (prod. Sasha's Dying)

LOSE YOUR MIND

keep it pushing purely 444 Love - life is short; ball out when u Want..

hazetrip- black cats prod. say2cups

blurred the image bc its two gross open wounds
__________________________________________________
i got these sutures
i wanna lose em
i cant take em out on my own
everythings awful
until your arrival
until you arrive...

i got these sutures
i wanna lose em
now enter my skin, get in (no no)
everythings hopeless
im feelin hopeless
nobody helps me when i fall.

**this is an outtake of another song i'm dropping soon, called "what's up"**

sutures

weekndhi x BLIX$EM - FUNCTION

ThisIsAsFarAsYouGo!

prod. https://soundcloud.com/realbirdo

mixed by: https://soundcloud.com/tokkizbeats

spotify

backseat [prod. birdo]

member of https://soundcloud.com/deadcypherrec + ½ of https://soundcloud.com/hazetrip

producer account: https://soundcloud.com/lordmindtrip

https://youngmindtrip.crd.co/